Challenge: Daily Poetry 2019

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January 2019

1/1/19

containered pain (poem)

For N

my breastbone aches
with containered pain
the new year comes
I cry in vain
all I want
is you again

of happy moments (poem)

happiness is not the sum
of happy moments that have come
nor everything that breaks the numb
shell around my heart, the sum
of smiles, of laughs, of memories made
with family on better days
happiness: a choice I make
regardless of the pain I face

hope splinters (poem)

bones break
porcelain cracks
hope splinters
but grows back

the world is tired (poem)

the world is tired
and aches besides
within me all
the universe hides

so I can shine
like stars of light
or fade away
the longest night

sky boats (poem)

boats to the heavens
skyward fly
I'll see their promise
by and by
the light so brilliant
before my eyes
from the ashes
I might rise

my biggest project (poem)

I'm not the pleasant person
that I used to be
I know my biggest project
is to get to work on me
because my heart is hurting
is the weakest pale excuse
somehow I must conquer
all my follies and misuse

the little stupid things (poem)

I care
about the little stupid things
the things that get under your skin
they seem to carry their wings
take off and fly in my eye
I swat them and keep going by
I care and it hurts and it bleeds
I try to forget all my needs
but sometimes it hurts and it aches
and sometimes it trembles and quakes

a flaw (poem)

I am not a self-promoter
this is stupid of me
it's not a flaw I'm unaware of
I'm not as good at some at writing
or anything really
and I'm not even as good right now as I was

it's not a lack of discipline, a lack of will
the troubles that plagued before do plague me still
I've spent too much of a year fraught and ill
and it seems too much to ask, please love me still

how to bleed (poem)

I have been damaged
I know how to bleed
but not how to staunch up
my wounds or to heed
the firing neurons, the pain in my head
I'm never enough and so trudge on instead

take solace (poem)

take solace in the winter rain
the icy mist, the snowy plain
the chilly air the heart makes warm
christmas lights glow in the storm

kisses goodnight (poem)

loving farewells
kisses goodnight
blessings of peace
turn out the light

starry skies (poem)

starry skies
wink bright above
eternal, less so
than Christ's holy love

1/2/19

Prayer for the New Year 001 (poem)

guard my steps and tongue today in all things
I want to live as Christ would have me do
teach me love and purity that Christ brings
speak to me and help me follow You

little birds (poem)

little birds flit
across the sky
ideas bright
within my mind

battle plans (poem)

battle plans rarely survive
the first hour of the day
I will not plan, yet will thrive
if in all things I pray

something inside (poem)

quiet me down
there's something inside
amenable to being soothed
don't pin me down
there's something I hide
once wakened, it cannot be soothed

a morning poem (poem)

a morning poem
stretches the heart
flexes the mind
off to good start

wisdom is (poem)

wisdom is knowing when to laugh
and when to stop laughing
wisdom is knowing when to jump
and when to stand there looking
wisdom is knowing when to feel
and when to stick to thinking
wisdom is knowing when to seek
and when you've found be thankful

Stress (poem)

Habits
Those little persnickety things I lose so easily
When I least expect it, tell me how
To keep them in my pocket that seems to be holey
As if it's trying to let bad humors out

like constellations (poem)

hope, like constellations in my heart
the starry skies below, once thought so dark
lit up with beams of visions and of dreams
they linger on and catch my eyes with gleams

deep in the eye (poem)

wake me up when it's over
I can sleep through a storm when I may
deep in the eye I lie waiting
and here is where I will stay
don't rouse me to ride like the thunder
or swirl about like the wind
I'll wait out the temper and wonder
just when we will do this again

of joy (poem)

joy is of the saints
'cause joy is with the Lord
those near, close to Him
shall have the fullest joy

1/3/18

Prayers for the New Year 002 (poem)

God on high, I pray Your light
Fill my heart and fill my sight
Overflow me with Your love
Teach me praise to rise above

Prayers for the New Year 003 (poem)

I pray the aid of Heaven
in all that must be done
to glorify the Father
by Him all battles won

dancing in your arms (poem)

broken pieces of my heart
hold you close, the music starts
a symphony begins to play
I cannot hold our love at bay

This Is One of Those Days (poem)

This is one of those days
When winter breaks the boughs from trees
My body's blown by a strong enough breeze
At home, I crash, it is release

1/5/19

the turning gears (poem)

the turning gears
the wise machine
between my ears
is ruled by me
revolving door
the feeling heart
my guiding hand
must stop and start

moments, masks (poem)

moments, masks, filtered through
hides, reveals, my heart shines through
upon my sleeve, so clear to you
hold me now and I'll hold you

1/6/19

this is what it feels like (poem)

this is what it feels like
everything all new
maybe sparkly, shiny
but I just want to see right through
to all the trials, battles
lurking 'round the way ahead
I will push on through them
will not turn around instead

crying (poem)

there's crying downstairs
it hurts my chest like my own tears do
it hurts my heart like my own fears do
I stay upstairs and do not cry

1/7/19

one cup for me (poem)

good morning, tea!
one cup for me
well, make it two
before adieu

we were here (poem)

speak love before you say goodbye
it's not like asking you to cry
just acknowledge reasons why
we were here before love dies

calculations (poem)

what matters the heart to a mind of cold calculations
I open my eyes; I am become mathematician
the heart is on fire: I cool its burning with song
for choices are mine, if so be I am strong

couplet for the river (poem)

the frozen river bubbles away below
waiting for a warmer day, less snow

push, push (poem)

sometimes I'm just so tired
the world once felt so new
now it feels like I'm wired
to just push, push, push through

moving (poem)

moving in the quiet
my nerve endings light up
the darkness is not quiet
not enough

hoping for perfection
screaming 'cause I'm not
the hope can keep me going
I'm in knots

keep me burning (poem)

For F and Y

touch me, catch me, keep me burning
light me up, my heart is yearning
always hold me close to you
every day and all night through

1/9/19

days go by (poem)

days go by
the open road
is traveled by
an open heart
my feet are like
the bounding deer
my heart can fly
for years and years

passion burns (poem)

For F and Y

sweetness yearns
passion burns
cross our swords
and throw our words
razor grins
the turns and spins
that bring me back
to you again

Prayers for the New Year 004 (poem)

keep my eyes on You, O God
keep me walking in Your love
teach my heart to fear Your name
my soul Your praise to e'er proclaim
Your peace depends on holding to
You in my mind and all I do

turn the page (poem)

turn the page
and then one more
the white and blank
is spread before
a willing mind
heart poised to write
so let unfold
dip pen in light

feel the warmth (poem)

a cup of tea
so comforting
I feel the warmth
inside of me
the smoothness on my tongue
when morning still feels young
the needles' edge, the sweet
the hint of tannin bark
I open up my mouth
and take into my heart

overflowed (poem)

my soul alight with hope and promise
joy will come with each new dawning
hope arise though trials yawning
their mouths overflowed by the flood of Your love

(haiku for thaw)

crackles and shivers
ice breaks off the eaves in time
heart and hands do thaw

don't you ever miss (poem)

For F and Y

don't you ever miss the warmth we shared
the way I turned to you when I was scared
it seemed that you were never unprepared
together all the things we hoped and dared
every hurt you felt, you know I cared
we did our best and it seemed we fared
well and happy for a time, I was ensnared
by no suspicion, you left me unaware
and now you're gone. did you ever care
don't you ever miss the warmth we shared

firebird (poem)

waters run down
it's the heat death of the universe
so don't look now
until we're born again

the tiny bird (poem)

hope is the tiny bird, fluttering in my chest
its wings beat against the inside of my heart
I open my mouth to speak, its song flies out

entwined (poem)

sold to the highest bidder
my love
cannot be bought for jewels
or gold
but with your heart, our worlds entwined
with this, I know, I'm yours
you're mine

1/10/19

(haiku for joy)

joy lurks in the depths
bubbling up, a spring of
cold and clear water

hope (poem)

some of us hope
the day's not over
my hope's got wings
and forever sings

full (poem)

fetch down
haul up
live full
full cup

want your love (poem)

For F and Y

Things that I want
And hopes that I keep
It's not a great mystery
It's not very deep
I just want your love
You held once for me
More than for him
It meant everything

moments like fireworks (poem)

For F and Y

moments like fireworks burst
behind my eyelids
I cannot see for light
cast in colors bright
every moment I used to share
with you, I feel right there

1/13/19

still (poem)

I am quiet, still
swirled around like water
keep me quiet, still
serenity is power

1/14/19

however long (poem)

happiness springs
like a well in one's soul
it can't just be given
but must be claimed whole
so hold out your hand
and reach for the light
never stop singing
however long the night

blood is flowing (poem)

I have good days and bad days
happiness on sad days
blood is always
flowing in my veins

1/18/19

(haiku for family night)

love is laughter late
before a bright screen; family
together again

(haiku for patience)

hope burns in my heart
joy rises with dawning sun
I with patience wait

no (poem)

red flags
no means no
if he ignores
it's time to go

the light (poem)

colors bright
I love the light
my gaze is fixed
'til faith is sight

until morning (poem)

quiet me gently
hold me with love
just stay here with me
until morning come

be fine (poem)

For SM

I will be fine
sometime
don't check my breath
or wait for my death
I'm breathing in fire
the flames are alive
I'm blood and I'm bone
can't end me tonight

1/19/19

everything known (poem)

I am quiet
in my heart, in my soul
everything past
is just everything known
go beyond
where no one will go
reach to the stars
and find they're home

earned this moment (poem)

For F and Y

I've been burned before
come find me
in the open door
you earned this
moment on the floor
we're dancing
as if it's what we planned

third time (poem)

For F and Y

third time's the charm
to keep me warm
to open my eyes
to hold through the storm
third time's the charm
at the end of the day
to know we're together
and won't walk away

how it will go (poem)

I wrote a poem today
though I didn't know quite what to say
isn't that how it will go
so often it feels like I know
this is the way we will run
remember me in the bright sun

just my best (poem)

I never promised a good one
just my best
I know I promised the moon
but gave you the rest
I hope in my dreams for it all
but I'm blessed

1/21/19

all my edges (poem)

Burnt at all my edges
I used to be a good girl
I'm praying on the ledges
Save me, pull me back, Lord

1/23/19

buried deep (poem)

The things I mean
and secrets keep
I pray that I
can go to sleep
and find in dreams
I buried deep
the love we lost
at cost too steep
Find me where our hearts still sigh
before we have to say goodbye

1/25/19

Teach Me (poem)

Teach me Your ways, O God of Heaven
Teach me to praise, O King of earth and
All my days, forever always

the tongues of winter (poem)

winter settled in my bones
audible sound of foreign phones
cold that shivers, ice that breaks
the difference just a season makes
speak the tongues of winter now
do not stop to wonder how

1/26/19

clean my soul (poem)

broken pieces of my heart
clean my soul in every part
do not let the dark escape
transmute my pain to something great

love can't stay (poem)

love is a memory, warm and full
within my heart, that memory grows
but love can't stay, just fade away
unless it blooms and I give it away

hope is (poem)

hope is the little bird singing
and the way my heart is beating
and the sunrise that is coming
the canvas of becoming

do you know love (poem)

For F and Y

tell me: do you know love
hold me; the night is long
listen, we two are strong
in unbroken bond belong

(haiku for breezes)

breezes through my hair
blow history and thought to
some faraway place

need for healing (poem)

I've been bruised and broken
but also have awoken
to need for healing touch
and kindness, love so much

I pray now (poem)

I breathe, my heart pounds
don't make a sound
I hope, I pray now
all's well somehow

one of those things (poem)

hope is one of those things
the heart breathes; the soul sings
the mind rides forth on love's wings
and faith will fill; the Son brings

1/27/19

The Way We Laughed (poem)

For F and Y

Have you forgotten the way we laughed
Sometime back in the distant past?
It aches in my heart, it breathes in my lungs
The joy and the love from when we were young

Hungry (poem)

I am hungry deep inside
Like a cavernous ocean trench
A maw that gapes so deep and wide
And swallows all, the teeth'll clench

easy to burn (poem)

so easy to burn
instead of to earn
reach up, try to build
there's hope for you still

1/28/19

Prayers for the New Year 005 (poem)

morning time, before they wake
the dreams of night I try to shake
God, help me fix my eyes on You
and keep them there the whole day through

for tea (poem)

a swirl of tea
a ribbon of heat
I patiently wait
for the morning's treat

Prayers for the New Year 006 (poem)

God, You are more than enough
Even when times get rough
Forgive my wandering heart
Draw me back to the start
Of Your love

three times 'round (poem)

three times 'round the cup
three times 'round for me
it's time to sip that fragrant tea
the life's that's pulsing in my bones
the air that breathes, the soul that knows
I drink it down and so it goes

on average (poem)

a powerful thing: on average
I keep the goal on average
I build it up on average
the discipline I need

the stairway (poem)

the stairway I climb
just step by step
it's painstaking
I cannot skip
but in the end
it's worth the trip

a dream of more (poem)

hope beats like pounding drum
a dream of more outweighs the sum
when every deed supports the thought
the heart concurs, the vision bought

what they say about castles (poem)

you know what they say about castles
don't build them up in the air
but look at the ones now standing
how do you think they got there

a hundred stories (poem)

If I was going to write a hundred stories
Set out with every one fixed in my mind
I think I should go chart a new trajectory
Than the one machete's like to find
The jungle's thick with a hundred new ideas
But take a look, consider what the kind
Should I go pave a road and level mountains
I'd want to leave a legacy behind

1/29/19

this I pray (poem)

For Sarah

heartfelt, sincerely, I wish you all joy
may Christ be your lamp and His hope be your buoy
let faith guide you surely, His love guard your way
His truth be your armor—all this I pray

Prayers for the New Year 007 (poem)

hello, new day
we hope, we pray
a bit of joy
might come our way
in Christ we week
His promised peace
pray through our trials
success increase

the river's dreams (poem)

white upon the river
snow upon the ice
below I hear the rushing
its dreams are passing by

1/30/19

Prayers for the New Year 008 (poem)

wake up my eyes, O God; let me see
the truth of my life and what's growing in me
wake up my heart, O God; help me believe
and live out Your promises now faithfully
wake up my soul, O God; fill me with light
guide me and keep You forever in sight

(haiku for refreshment)

cool, clean water runs
river down my throat—I breathe
spring has come at last

1/31/19

On Looking Back to the Start of the Year (poem)

I close my eyes
One month is gone
Each day that flies
A blur, a swan
Upon the surface
I looked too long

wish for love (poem)

the moon is bright
with stars tonight
I wish for love
to found my sight
I wish for joy
to live in me
and hope in Christ
eternally

February 2019

1/3/19

for rain (poem)

quiet, we hope for rain
the sound of its susurrations
to warm our hearts again
and wash away the pain
the murmur of cleanness coming
the hope of a brand new morning
we wait with our arms wide open
water sluicing our hearts

someone waits (poem)

For F and Y

someone waits on the bench for another
hands folded, anxious, it's been so long
the sun beats down, the shadows pass
the other comes, they sit, belong

nervous (poem)

knocked knees, hands sweat
anticipation now met
breathe deep, open mouth
let the words come flowing out

easy to want (poem)

so many easy things to want
claims upon my heart and my attention
to focus on the one is somehow brave
and let to fall away all bright distraction
I guide my heart and gaze in its affection

sunset brightness (poem)

golden promises
molten light
sunset brightness
'fore the night

2/4/19

in everything (poem)

holiness, to set myself apart
from all I want that is not of You
all the day, in everything I do

butterflies (poem)

fluttering wings
my heart beats
beneath my ribs
I breathe, I need

what I'd give (poem)

mornings come and evenings go
seasons fly and days move slow
what I'd give to finally know
the life I want, the hope I grow

Somebody (poem)

somebody tell me
which way the wind blows
which way the road goes
which way my heart knows
somebody tell me
You'll walk beside me
lead me and guide me
always abide me

2/5/19

the break of day (poem)

the morning's poem, the break of day
a light of lyric to hold its sway
I speak in picture and feel in rhymes
may heaven's mercy be on these times

on happiness (poem)

happiness dons the robe of peace
it walks in love, lets thanks increase
and notes with chiming rings of joy
all good things that trials alloy

lowly scribe (poem)

I am but a lowly scribe
both good and bad I may imbibe
the secret is to choose the good
and share it out to all who would

cast my cares (poem)

so much to do, so much to try
sometimes I'd like to hide and cry
but strength from Christ will carry through
if I will cast my cares on You

no words to say (poem)

the days I have no words to say
even then, take time to pray
and let my mutest sorrows earn
the path from me to You: I learn

like children (poem)

children clamber the saintly knee
or royal lap with impunity
the God of heaven invites us to
become like children and love renew

The Bridegroom (poem)

do not leave the Bridegroom at the altar
stretched out, the Lamb of God, with open arms
waiting for the marriage that He offers
to love forever and to save from harm
consider now the very Prince of Heaven
and pray return His love, accept the crown

count it gain (poem)

days can be cold and love can be pain
when trials come find you, then count it all gain
as you climb up the mountain and fight the good fight
you'll master yourself, don clothing of light

do we answer (poem)

the children cry but do we answer?
hear the questions, hear the pain
remember when you were a child
do not let them cry in vain

one (poem)

there is one God
and there is one road
that leads through this life
and reaches His throne
there is one Maker
and there is one Christ
only one way
out of darkness to light

some days I surprise (poem)

some days I surprise myself
I open pen and heart flows out

wisdom states (poem)

wisdom states, we all must learn
the lessons of self-mastery
and all receive the things we earn
of joy or pain, and things we need
to grow through trials; forests burn
the old and dead and on it feed
so with hope, we meet the turn
of circumstance with eyes that see

what birth (poem)

hey, hope is a thing
it takes root in my heart
like the seed of a flower
grows down in the dark
of the earth where it's warm
'til the water and light
whispers, now grow
draws it out of the night

I hope in my soul
like a butterfly's wings
molded in the cocoon
until the birth brings
all the pain and the trial
to shape them and spread
into glorious flight
and to stand in good stead

there is something to say
for the evening then day
for the push before gain
for what birth without pain

A Prayer for You (poem)

For S

May God hold you in His hand
I know He understands
He feels so far away
Like there's no need to pray
But God who made Himself
The image of your pain
Gave His life away
Just your life to gain
I hope for perfect peace
May in your life increase
I pray for joyful things
To find you and for wings
Of hope to raise you up
And love to fill your cup

they bleed (poem)

we hurt, we ache
our wounds, they bleed
we're made of hopes
we're shaped by need
the God above
who made us all
we hope he hears
us when we call
the earth could shake
the mountains fall
our hearts split open
our minds a squall
this storm shall pass
when in the eye
we reach for Christ
hold fast thereby

must bloom (poem)

within the desert, we must bloom
and be the brightness others see
I long for water, shade, and room
to be whate'er I want to be
but life sweeps all as with a broom
I make my own reality

upon the winds (poem)

eagle cry upon the winds
rise above the coming storm
carried by the tides of clouds
lightning dances far below
so I cry to God and rise
above the troubles plaguing me
by riding on the driving wave
of the strength in Christ I need
just to live another day
to wake, to stand, and then to be

Furtive Wings (poem)

I have written many things
And imagined many dreams
Given ideas furtive wings
Just to see what they might bring

2/6/19

Lord of Love (poem)

Christ alone, the Lord of love
Can overflow my heart enough
To wash away all fear and doubt
And make me joy to live without
These weak, small things that humans love
But all which pale against God's love

Notes to Self (poem)

I write so many notes to self
They mean a lot to me
To point out all I need to do
And be so honestly
Perhaps my prayers seem strong about
My abandoning
All that stands 'tween me and God
But that is no bad thing

Prayers for the New Year 009 (poem)

Once I was a little girl
I longed for certain things
A writer's pen, a perfect love
A heart that always sings
I write the words, I open mouth
Praise pours out in streams
But God above, that perfect love
And thanksgiving I need
So I pray again today
Please do this work in me

love bears (poem)

love bears upon her wings
the light of God that sees
the clearest vision brings
and conquers dark in me

The Path to Joy (poem)

The path to joy
Leads to the throne
The greatest love
The world has known
We enter in
By earnest praise
By seeing good
And giving thanks
What good to me
Is feeling pain
And only looking
When it rains
I also need
The glorious sun
I fix my sight
And so I run

small bird sings (poem)

a small bird sings
and does not ask
if others care
about this task

2/7/19

hence (poem)

consequences—logic
sequences of events
that which flows
from seed it grows
recompenses

we hope (poem)

we hope
though life is hard, we hope
though times are rough, we hope
we live, we learn, we sometimes earn
through steadfast faith
desire that burns
fulfilling of our hope

steady me through (poem)

I drink my tea
it's good for me
and then survey
the world I see
the heat is welcome
full and warm
steady me through
the coming storm

the balm (poem)

God my strength in trial
and God my help in pain
the balm amidst my sorrow
comfort my heart again

the gold (poem)

"buy of Me gold"
we see treasure untold
but tried in the fire
and the trials unfold

for we are the gold
in flames purified
'til we gleam and we shine
a light none can hide

2/9/19

moments of joy (poem)

moments of joy
find homes in my heart
I visit betimes
to breathe, then restart

2/11/19

enter in (poem)

joy in You the whole day through
the keys are praise and gratitude
I kneel, I pray, in heart always
and enter in Your Presence' gates

this cup of tea (poem)

tea will warm me when I'm cold
seems to reach right down to soul
I've heard this feeling in my hands
like touch my body understands
imitates the tenderness
of loving arms and faithfulness
there's no one here but only me
my loving God, and this cup of tea

Prayers for the New Year 010 (poem)

love, take root in my heart
and mercy within me sing
let forgiveness run in my veins
and thanksgiving be my wings

(haiku for tears)

crying under eaves
like in the secret garden
someone's lonely pain

2/12/19

to someone else (poem)

For F and Y

bits and pieces of myself
they don't belong to someone else
I give my broken heart away
in whole not part, that is my way

fill (poem)

For F and Y

build me up on broken pieces
from ruins does the city rise
fill my heart and fill my vision
for you are great within my eyes

sweetness (poem)

sweetness lies
in pleasant things
the grateful heart
what kindness brings
the giving hands
the warm embrace
compassion swift
and not misplaced
a listening ear
a heeding heart
sweetness borne
in every part

reconcile (poem)

For F and Y

a token of my trust
despite the stains of rust
new oxygen will breathe
in you and out of me

2/13/19

tea's promise (poem)

the promise of tea
sometimes carries me
as far as I go
for the foretaste I know

2/14/19

day for love (poem)

a day for love, and love is kind
love gives thanks with all the mind
love sees what is best in you
and thinks on that in rosy hue

catch me (poem)

For F and Y

catch me
I won't hide away
can't find me yet
or not today
tomorrow
I will come to you
catch me, love
I want you to

Foretaste (poem)

a foretaste of His perfect peace
those moments despite everything
when all is well and I feel strong
when God has planned, I go along
the trials come, but I can pass
with song on lips, a painless class
contentment fills me sweet and warm
and I survive the raging storm
with faith that morning light will come
and all is well when said and done
this peace, what must perfection be!
if this is earth and heaven I see?

Prayers for the New Year 011 (poem)

my limbs awake
my eyes go fresh
as tea sinks in
to morning flesh
I raise my cup
and drink to You
please carry me
and guide me through

2/15/19

To Look Beyond (poem)

Hope is the prerogative of all
To look beyond the headwinds of the squall
To see the vision of the storm's last breath
And even see beyond its final death
Hope for joy beyond and glorious light
To fix our gaze on heaven is our right

the light of the Son (poem)

remember the light
and take hold of the Son
a lamp that will keep you
we've barely begun
the road may seem long
but it's nothing when done
the pain and dark vanish
in light of the Son

2/16/19

ten thousand years (poem)

For F and Y

I could wait ten thousand years, and never will I find
another one like you have been to heart and to my mind
no one compares to my first love or all that you have meant
my partner, team mate, family member, and my true best friend
I could wait ten thousand years, and never will it end
that I will wait with hope and need for you to return again

2/19/19

brighter visions (poem)

the morning quiet soothes
my fierce spirit
still reeling from nighttime dreams
the dreams of day are softer
brighter visions glow
I reach for glory now

castles grow (poem)

bold and bright
the day grows light
and castles grow
within my sight
their spires rise
and towers fly
above the earth
and in the sky

love the Lord (poem)

love the Lord with all your heart
through the very deepest parts
with every single breath you take
and every choice you have to make
love Him for He died for you
if you draw near, He'll carry you

2/20/19

how they turn (poem)

look at the clocks, how they turn
their hands run down to the sea
the skies overhead, how they learn
the seasons and annums to please

love like this (poem)

soft, gentle, tender
jewel-like rare
the love like this
in the face of every pain
of every flaw
true love's like this

catch me the sun (poem)

hey, catch me the sun down
blazing bright like wishes
burn inside my visions
we fly into the heavens

2/21/19

oasis (poem)

water for a thirsty soul
the desert sings and flowers bloom
beneath this burning sun so bright
oasis in the midst of night

2/24/19

the bustle (poem)

the hustle, the bustle
the scurry, the hurry
trust in the Lord and
you don't have to worry
commit to His hands
all the chores you must do
and watch as He makes you
a way just for you

2/25/19

the light of day (poem)

the light of day
becomes, renews
it fills my sight
it warms me through
I keep my gaze
fixed on the Son
and in so doing
the day is won

like sunrise (poem)

hope in the morning
like streaks of the sunrise
burning through daylight
across the bright sky
like this, it burns in me
my hope for the journey
across the expanse of
my awakening mind

My Parts (poem)

I am more than the sum of my parts
The fire inside me that burns through the dark
The light in my eyes and the visions I see
The logical thinking, the softness of dreams
The memories of pain, the wounds I bear still
The conflict avoidance and hard iron will
The things that I want and the things that I need
Comingled and scattered throughout all of me
These are my parts that I hold out to You
I'm mirrors and masks that I know You see through
There's more to my questions, the cries of my pain
Than just what I utter or show on my face
There's more to my failings, an ocean of flaws
You will not remove them from my iron jaws
Until I release them all fully to You
And that's what I ask You to help me to do

a letter to my brain (poem)

this is a letter to my brain:
a reminder that I have things to do
and a note that you are my faithful tool
so loyal be and do as I ask
lend yourself to every task
logically turn through analysis
handle my reading and parsing it
open up thoughts I stashed on a shelf
draw right conclusions and follow the path
revealing like yarn that certain way
that troubles rolled through and left their mark
I've things to do, so wake up and get on it

call me crazy (poem)

call me crazy if you want to
if you need to
if it makes you feel all right
if it helps you
know that you are
not crazy at this time
it's okay that we see
differently
it's okay that we are
different, see
it's okay if you need to be right
tonight

2/26/19

goodbye (poem)

For F and Y

save me a bit of love
your heart overflows
remember me forever, friend
and all that we were

serenade (poem)

love me when the birds sing
and I will sing with them
to serenade your heart, love
until our hearts are full

warm (poem)

warm and bright, the morning sun
draws me from my warm, dark bed
a cup of tea warm in my hands
awakens thoughts and gives them wings

like the swallow (poem)

I feel things you don't understand
and sometimes that means moving slowly
like an old woman
sometimes my feet fly
like the swallow skip-hopping over the earth
his joyful feathers rustling blue
just before he flies

where you are (poem)

the light is warm where you are
I want to stand so near
draw me close, remember
I've loved you always, dear

know you (poem)

dear to me, the softest glance
hidden away in your eyes
warmly cherished, the gentle touch
your embrace, or word of the wise
I know your voice on a summer's day
your breath in the winter chill
I feel I shall know you for always
and after forever still

tripping over whispers (poem)

quietly
tripping over whispers
they move within my wake
the light comes through the break
between the slats in the walls
windows to my would
I look at you
you stare at me
there's something beating beneath this skin
I feel you moving deep within
where I've taken and hidden
the best parts of you and memories inside
there's more than whispers
to trip over
more than love to now remember
aching in my chest
where all the things we ever were
are whispering now

in my sense (poem)

For N

night time
I remember feeling you
breathing in the house with me
I didn't need to see you
or sit beside you
I felt you
like a candle light burning
in the senses of my brain
and knew that you were there
it warmed and soothed me
brought me comfort
as I fell asleep again

2/27/19

Prayers for the New Year 012 (poem)

Good morning, God, the day is new
I'd like to live today for You
Please cleanse my heart of all but good
And help me do the things I should
Please lead me through the trials of day
And guide me that I may obey
I pray for strength to walk in light
Please help me keep You in my sight
I thank You, God, that You love me
I pray to serve You faithfully

fell down again (poem)

I fell down again
so often, so much
and yet, You still love me
my heart You still touch

heart is loud (poem)

I feel quiet
my heart is loud
can you hear it beating
or feel it pound?
the moon is bright
and the day so far
I lie down
think of where you are

are we shadows (poem)

are we shadows
cast upon the canvas
where life is pale and white
until the light
of God's imagination
brightens up behind us
and here we are
required to shine

2/28/19

yellow blossoms (poem)

yellow blossoms
bright in bloom
feel the love
within the room
a father's touch
a hard-won smile
their beauty shines
for a long while

(haiku for cold)

morning cup staves off
crackling eaves, frosted panes,
wind's bite and fog's chill

(haiku for tea)

smooth, warm, mellow heat
vanilla melts light honey
into ginger's bite

(haiku for mountains)

mountains and raindrops
I can run between under
trees piney and tall

I was a child (poem)

I was a child once
you were there
you saw me in the woods
beyond the river
nestled near the mountainside
remember the blue sky
the evergreen trees
the roads whipped by
the crying winds and breezes
I remember the night
warm as an embrace
tucked up in my bed
listening to the wind

under my belt (poem)

the end of a long, hard month
work under my belt, a mind like a hammer
clunking away at troublesome nails
I've been fine of mornings
unpleasantly tired, my heavy limbs
under a lively, working brain
in the evenings, I cry for weariness
sleep, then begin again

morning calls (poem)

silent nights
morning calls
the bells that chime
those predawn hours
calling me
to greet the day
and find again
my working way

my weary heart (poem)

remember me this twilight
I'm praying under the eaves
that God may rest my weary heart
and finally grant me peace

nothing hurts (poem)

find me waiting
nothing hurts
I don't remember
why it could
ignore the pain
bright on my face
grant me this
a moment's grace

day's still young (poem)

sweetness on my tongue
the day's still young
I wait as the spinner rounds
it's curling bend
I look from the beginning
and see the end

its spinning (poem)

call me crazy
I want the world to stop its spinning
around me like a turning dial
making me dizzy, never reaching a destination
why does it spin and spin and never go
I think I'm not the one who'll ever know

light of Christ (poem)

"That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world." — John 1:9 NKJV"

golden bright
God's love and light
that lives within
I fix my sight
that inward glow
the truth that frees
when it becomes
all my eye sees

with patience run (poem)

Habakkuk 2:3, Hebrews 12:1, John 8:32

the promises of God are guaranteed
have patience, run the race until you're freed
when what has waited long is due to come
it will not linger then; you will become

child of God (poem)

John 10:34-36

the child does not wish to always linger
near the parent's loving watchful eye
neither do we humans wish to wander
only on the paths the heavens devise
yet can we say the child is more wise

the child does not learn to say, I thank you
because the parent needs to hear it said
nor do humans look to God with gratitude
to serve a dire need inside His head
even God gave thanks when He was fed

the child wants to go on great adventures
to walk, to run, even though they fall
neither from our growth will God restrain us
but guide us through the pains that find us all
what child should be trapped behind a wall

for child must become one day like parent
strong and capable, as full of grace
so man must also grow to be like Father
it is the destination of our race
and could we be like gods, what lower place
would the child choose to always stay

(haiku for the light)

John 1:9

Christ the light inside
burns a sun in every cell
life that sparks and shines

March 2019

3/1/19

another day (poem)

a brand new month, again, I say
it's time to start another day
I did not wake at morning's light
but I'll make ready and leave the night

pour it out (poem)

empty out the bitterness
pour it out like undrunk tea
drain your heart of what's not love
that is what I say to me

a better place (poem)

the world could be a better place
if we all gave each other grace
remembered love when we were hurt
it soothes our heart and might do good
in those we feel have hurt us so
sometimes they don't even know

3/2/19

to run to the light (poem)

give me one reason
to run to the light
to bask in its glow
to slough off the night

let bright morning wake me
and nest in my heart
let joy flutter boldly
sprout wings and embark

love is a (poem)

love is a morning cup of tea
hot and waiting just for me
love is a hug when needed most
right when pain has invaded the coast
my borders quake, my heart's in need
by the arms of love it's freed
love is the laughter sweet and warm
of family together through the storm
love is my treasure, held so close
impossible to overdose
love is the pleasure of company
of one who knows the realest me

everything (poem)

For A. C.

music from the soul
the body sings
with every nerve and cell
and depth of feeling
hear and mark it well
and then give everything

do you understand (poem)

do you understand the endless love
shown to us by God and by His Son
Christ who gave up everything for us
God who watched His only child die
what parent does not know the deepest pain
is one that falls upon their precious child
for us God went through this and in His love
reconciled us to Him again

Christ alone (poem)

Christ alone the power over sin
to conquer all temptation born within
to do the things I know I'd rather not
and feel and be a person that I oughtn't

Christ alone the love that overcomes
all history of sin and every wrong
the weight of things that burdened me so long
if I forgive, it's 'cause He made me strong

and if I love, it's 'cause He loved through me
and if I praise, it is by Christ's strengthening me
and if I'm pure, it's 'cause He made me free
for Christ alone like whom I want to be

tiny little pieces (poem)

I feel like I will fall apart in tiny little pieces
I feel like you should know that I am crying out for real and
wish that you would care if I will break apart and fragile
whisper through my choking tears, I hide my pain inside me

3/3/19

pretend (poem)

we get tea
we pretend to be
okay
I keep on praying
for my life
for dear life
I watch it go
in winds that blow

everything hurts (poem)

everything hurts but all is well
is that the thing they say to me
they don't all say that everything hurts
they don't all say that all is well
but somehow that's what comes to me
out of the words and out of the noise
that falls from the lips of a world in pain
my heart keeps beating, step by step
on through the world as I must do
if this is what it is to be
a member of humanity
then pray, dear God, please set me free!

my bruises (poem)

somebody salve my bruises
somebody soothe my heart
is there balm in Gilead
tell me where you are
I need You, God my Father
to bind up the wounds I bear
wherever Your peace and love lives
my God, please take me there

mercy hidden (poem)

every ache and every bruise
it feels like just another ruse
another dose of painful truths
washed under false beliefs we choose
there's something here deep under skin
to the things we see akin
but different from its core within
I cannot end where I begin
the truth I find beneath the pain
is like the clouds above the rain
and all the way to the seas again
mercy hidden, naught in vain

just one (poem)

For F and Y

one thing, just one
is that enough
to breathe you in
and know there's nothing more
beyond a quickly shutting once bright door
but I would not give up
the joy I had

tears (poem)

grant me tears then let them breathe
don't let them take all over me
I fall beneath the rising waves
but I will swim and rise again

have not done (poem)

all the things I have not done
and all the reasons why
are not enough to make me quit
or e'en to make me cry
this life is hard and tough sometimes
I carry on despite

It Grows (poem)

Hope is the sort of things that grows on you,
not on trees, but in your heart
where all the things you love grow
and all the things you cling to
and all the things you put on yourself
like the fairytales of your youth
and the visions in your head
and the things you do and do and do
no matter what you want instead.

3/4/19

Prayers for the New Year 013 (poem)

Good morning, God
Forgive my heart
I pray You help me
Expel the dark
And purify
My deepest soul
Cleanse my thoughts
Heal me whole

dawn crowned victor (poem)

spring is just around the bend
even stormy winters end
even dark gives way to light
and dawn crowned victor with no fight

3/5/19

is bright (poem)

brightness fills my vision
like hope, the sun is bright
burning doubt away
at last we see the light

infinite scroll (poem)

"The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light." — Matthew 6:22 KJV

blur of things that I must do
scrolling through my mind
down, reload, they flood on in
a truly infinite line
and at the top, stuck on the page
the header of it all
keep my eyes fixed on the Lord
not on the daily squall

pills (poem)

too many pills
not enough joy
thank you, I pray
that I'm still alive

I'm sure that my day
will improve if I praise
it's better than pills
but for those too, give thanks

3/6/19

yesterday (poem)

yesterday is over
though it did not shine so bright
yesterday is over
and gone with it, the night

like a cat (poem)

the morning chill arrives quietly
like a cat into my bed
and sits upon my feet
until I warm it up instead

Prayers for the New Year 014 (poem)

dear God, I pray
please guide my way
in all that I
must do today
show me clearly
what to do
and grant me strength
to make it through
perfect my thoughts
and cleanse my heart
I give today
right from the start

what hope (poem)

what hope have we
if God not be
the loving Father
we've thought to see
great hope invades
my heart with joy
for love is proved
by the cross employed

for what but love
would die for us
in such a manner
and bear our scars
what love but God's
could be enough
to sin encompass
and overcome

3/7/19

missing you (poem)

For N

missing you
I catch my breath
an ache so sharp
I have to rest
in memories
I think of you
wish you were here
I still love you

3/8/19

with hope (poem)

winters more
prolong the days
I wait with hope
for springtime warmth
the light that shines
like candles in me
a memory of sun
I wait, I breathe

in streams (poem)

catch me where the light falls down
in streams upon this quiet room
and feel me where the water breathes
in and out, it flows through me
I open hands, I feel like rain
there is no end to moving on
always forward, however long

unbroken (poem)

For A.S.

I am not broken
though you reckoned me so
you counted on the pieces
left on a pale blue floor
you did not count the way I stood
wavering in my broken strength
and stood before through the blood
I did not fall again

you think you know (poem)

For K and T

we try
you think you know our names
and cry
over our memories
and do not understand the flames
that burned us down to nothing 'til
we built ourselves back up again
I remember something
buried in the heart of me
a core I cannot see but only feel
and that is where the you that was
still lives
and that is where the me that was
has gone
you cannot bring me back again
by letting the name that's on your lips
belong to someone, me
that lost it long ago

3/12/19

bless me (poem)

bless me in the morning
with a share of strength
and Christ the light within me
I pray Your joy bequeath
and may Your wisdom guide me
Lord, grant me ears to hear
a heart that understands You
and power to obey

the dam breaks (poem)

the dam breaks
the flood behind
my mouth and lips and heart
no longer hides
and I might break
beneath the flood
but I will put
my hand in God's

light hearts (poem)

family games
light hearts, light smiles
before the evening comes

3/13/19

lies my heart (poem)

in little pieces
lies my heart
the day grows cold
the storm is dark
above the storm
the eagle rides
and on God's wings
God's hope abides

where my heart lies (poem)

For F and Y

I love you where my heart lies
give rest to my affection
make room for me, I pray you
where your own heart beats

spring is come (poem)

spring is come
the cold, wet winds
blow snow, bring ice
green leaves

when did you stop (poem)

For R and Y

when did you stop with love?
you loved me once
with black eyes full of whispered feelings
like fish fleeting through the water's depths
quick, alive, unceasing
but here you are, your heart grown cold
when did you stop with love?
what have I said or done
to still your heart's blood?

3/14/19

morning prayers (poem)

morning, moments
wash over me
praying, once more

3/16/19

lines drawn bright (poem)

we move in circumscribed circles
lines drawn bright on world sands
moved by the force of imagination
and driven by whips in our own hands

first love (poem)

having the form but not the power
every day, the duty to love
married to God, a once-strong fervor
remember your heart and chase that joy
remember the days you chased another
chase again and bloom once more

fixed (poem)

fix it in my mind, the words we hear
give me ears, my God, that really hear
I open up my eyes to fix on You
guide me, Christ my God, with Christ light true
fix my wand'ring heart, anchored on You

before His wisdom (poem)

what can you say that God does not know
you can't amaze Him no matter how far you go
open up your eyes and a true listening ear
sit before His wisdom and live it out here

perfect scribe (poem)

who can read from an unclear hand
and who can hieroglyphics truly understand
seek, consult the wisdom of a Perfect Scribe
the keeper of all knowledge, seek His Word to imbibe
heed the Wonderful Counselor with all your life

like candlelight (poem)

light in dark
glory shines
fills my heart
like candlelight
a cold wind blows
and storms may come
but I'll go on
as I've begun

these arbitrary lines (poem)

show me a map of the world
these arbitrary lines of loyalty
tell me at which borders
my love for others should cease
and where should the love of God
fail, rather than increase
stretch out Your hands of mercy
O great and sovereign God
remember Your hands have made us
and pour out forgiving love
teach the ignorant children
I pray that it be enough

forever will (poem)

forever will I love You
forever I will praise You
guard my heart from falseness
forever in Your hand

3/18/19

dreams (poem)

cold dreams
broken seams
spilling light
cries tonight
wake me when
sun comes again
and place warm dreams
within my hand

give me hope (poem)

give me hope
I need it now
fill my soul
with sunlit glow

3/19/19

now (poem)

the evening and the morning were the first day
now is the kind of word I like to say
for all that is old is done and has passed away
behold! now the new is come; behold a new day

when I was a child (poem)

when I was a child, each morning
was full of new possibilities
I took it on faith that my hope was secure
and so it became my reality
the light shines before me
the Christ leads the way
that I might enter eternity

blessed (poem)

I am blessed
you know the rest
for peace in God
is my sole rest
He leads me through
the painful test
let trusting Him
be what I do best

what I choose (poem)

color me something that isn't confused
is this the cup I'd like to have refused
is this the cross by which my heart bruised
can carry forth the kingdom? it is what I choose

set my eyes (poem)

Christ in me
the victory
I set my eyes
eternity

By His Strength (poem)

Holy God, the Lord of all
I hear His Word and answer call
Only by His strength and grace
I enter in with joy and praise

of unclean lips (poem)

set thanks down in my heart; let it take root
cleanse me of the fire, ash, and soot
let my lips fall silent, even mute
of anything unworthy, Lord, of You

unstoppered (poem)

I forgot what it was like to write a poem
until I unstoppered my heart
where has it been all this while
let the words fly forth like a dart

but a child (poem)

I am but a child, sovereign Lord
an infant guided forward by Your word
shivering in the silken tight cocoon
obliged to overcome for breathing room

a treat for me (poem)

tea! warm tea!
a treat for me!
it's even a
necessity

spilt (poem)

water spilt
mate splashed
shrug and drink
whatever's last
my struggles on
the Lord are cast

not painless (poem)

I have hope
I know that it hurts
but was the cross painless
do we cry at our birth
these trials shall deliver
a fire-tried reward

gold-sealed (poem)

should my heart ache
let it praise You
should my heart break
let it thank You
pour Your love in
broken cracks
seal them with a
gold that lasts

Prayers for the New Year 015 (poem)

I forgot a heart so full
I turn and offer prayers to You
and ask You empty out all doubt
replace it with a faith devout

embrace me with (poem)

For F and Y

hold me
embrace me with your violence if not your love
you used to look at me
like I was the sun
and not even clouds could block the light
you found a brighter sun to fill your sight
so I will beg your violence and your hate
if you'll just look at me
then I will wait

of firm decision (poem)

hope
the daughter of bright vision
light
the joy of firm decision
to keep my eyes on You
whatever I walk through

am I a little (poem)

am I a little crazy?
maybe
even so
I have to know
and do the best I can

tell me there's hope (poem)

tell me there's hope for the weary
tell me there's rest for my soul
tell me there's peace for the restless
and healing is something I'll know

tell me there's love for my heartache
tell me there's joy for my night
salve me with light in the darkness
and bring me a morning that's bright

it'll all work out (poem)

right off the coast of this will work out
is the island of I think we've blown it
hang on with me and we'll make it work out
e'en if we had overflown it

recklessly you smile (poem)

For K and T

recklessly, you smile at me
it's all I need to see to breathe
I smile back and hold inside
the warmth of such a lovely sight

3/20/19

fire burned us (poem)

For F and Y

a moment, just a moment
let me breathe
did you forget you mean so much
to me
we used to be inseparable
indeed
even fire burned us
consistently
but now you're burning far away
from me

can't help but love (poem)

For F and Y

I love you in my memory
I love you for eternity
No matter all the games we play
The fights, the insults that we say
Still I cannot help love you
Forever always, this is true

repurpose (poem)

repurpose
a grand design
can change
I am proof
it is not strange

move me like (poem)

For F and Y

move me like you moved the world
to make more room for me
enter into my heart, unfurled,
and wrap yourself in me
I love you like the dance that whirled
together you and me

wrapped (poem)

For F and Y

gotta wrap my head around this
gotta wrap my heart around you
its beating is going too fast
in the brightness of you

3/21/19

(haiku for robins)

robins prance across
asphalt—twittering birdsong
rustles the new leaves

white spring (poem)

spring is come, they say
I stare at the white, white world
and the bright yellow sun
that's shining on the ice—
yes, our spring has come

wash me away (poem)

wash me away like I'm crying
look up to the heavens, we're flying
the ngiht closes in, but we're waking
and ne'er we stop to be braking

to make sense (poem)

no one asked me to make sense
it feels too hard to try
but just hold on a little while
and don't ask reasons why

3/23/19

words words words (poem)

words words words—
they get buried in your soul,
and if they cannot make you whole,
does that stop them? do you know?

there are words, words, words.
and I heard it on the ground—
(where the pretty words are found)
—their power isn't stopped
when they do not make a sound.

and the words words words
that are burning in my soul—
(these are dangerous, you know)
—would that ever stop you? go!

the maker (poem)

point one: to the keeper
he knows his business right
he guards the door and holds the fort
until the morning light

point two: to the taker
who soars away in flight
the maker of these iron bars
has finally 'scaped the night

consider (poem)

For K

have you stopped to consider
your part in all this?
the ways that it ended
and the ways it begun
did you stop to consider
the legends we fashioned
the stories we told
and the myths that we spun?
my heart keeps on breaking
a pain that goes on
and just keeps going on
and just keeps going on
and all I can think
is the way it begun
in blood and in fire
we didn't see as wrong

Sonnet for God's Love (poem)

Good morning, God, I love You so
But You love me more than I know
Enough to send Your only Son
Even if I was all He'd won
I cannot understand this love
A mortal mind is not enough
To comprehend the mind of God
Nor comprehend the depths of Love
But should I hold my only child
So perfect in his every part
For these already lost and wild
Could I give away my heart?
The price to lose what I love most
Such love as this, my God can boast

a child's comfort (poem)

what is joy but God
a love to hold me close
I think of days long past
tucked safe in loving arms
my parent strong to hold
and keep me safe from harm
I am not that child
and know now many things
that parents cannot hold
nor e'en in love control
but in the arms of God
I am safe and sound
a child I still can be
and utterly at peace

3/24/19

that moment (poem)

that moment when
you drink too fast
you go too hard
and you make a mess

that moment when
the chips are down
the stakes are high
and you go to town

First Love (poem)

I love You, Lord; You love me more
I ask Your strength, a single heart
Help me keep my eyes on You
And love You first in all I do

3/25/19

to run (poem)

hope is the thing
that wakes me
today
will be different
it will drive me
to run
like the first of runners
to the joy
that is waiting for me

Clock Chimes (poem)

Clock chimes,
tells the time—
time to wake,
O friend of mine!

Yours the Hands (poem)

Thank You, God, O true provider!
You have known all things I need.
I will eat and taste Your goodness,
knowing Yours, the hand that feeds.
I will drink and taste of heaven,
knowing You have filled my cup;
when I fall and when I stumble,
know that You will help me up.
Yours the hands that came for me, Lord—
You the loving Father are.
Yours the heart that ever holds me;
I long to be wherever You are.

the prize (poem)

not my better days I can admit
the days I wept my heart out and a bit
the pain that bit me deep, I seemed to drown
I'll keep my eyes on You; it's worth the crown
to run through every trial and every tear
knowing at the end, the prize is near

ever with us (poem)

dishes, like taxes, ever with us
O when shall my freedom from dishes arrive!
I gird up my sleeves with a sigh and hoe in now
let's not hold our breath, for such a long time

workday morning (poem)

tea to drink and food to pack
dishes in a mighty stack
Lord, I give my day to You
please hold my hand and lead me through

repayment (poem)

come, you are no queen
look in the mirror
this world owes you nothing
but you'll repay
the deeds and thoughts and dreams
you've poured out in it
and reap again
when they come home to stay

Prayers for the New Year 016 (poem)

I may not be a queen, but I am God's
I give myself to Him and to His love
remake me, shape me, Lord, until I'm clean!
and shine like refiner's gold with holy gleam!

Prayers for the New Year 017 (poem)

Clean me up and wash me down
Make my heart Your hallowed ground
Hold me up and make me new
I pray Your grace: make me like You

3/26/19

to say (poem)

it seems to me I have a lot
perhaps too much to say
and get, if you should ask me then
I would be silent, there
is so much fraught and tense if I
must find the words to hold
my heart or mind or questions bright
I'd rather sit and hear

my silence (poem)

who would believe my silence
there are so many words, tripping together
across my wary tongue

make it good (poem)

everybody has their moments
try to make yours good
do not worry about judgment
or being understood
endeavor with your fullest strength
and do all that you would

scalding (poem)

scalding tea
vents of steam
like the feeling
inside me
open spout
and steam pour out
fill the cup
with all I got

like a small sun (poem)

For F and Y

like a small sun
you shine on the earth
where I can see you, feel you
where I can revolve around you
the warm bright planet
basking in your love

wisdom's children (poem)

wisdom loves her children
if you can choose a mother
choose the joys, rewards
that wisdom brings

a little bird sings (poem)

a little bird sings
in my heart
I breathe
there is promise
on my tongue

Note to Self 002 (poem)

rest in the joy of the Lord
open your heart up to sing
praise Him for all that He does
bringing good out of everything

Quiet My Heart (poem)

Quiet my heart back down
Down into peaceful rest
Let trust wash my soul into God
His arms hold me close through each test

3/27/19

Prayers for the New Year 018 (poem)

Christ, meet me in the morning,
awaken in my heart;
I pray You take Your throne,
renew my every part—
the mind, the soul, the person,
the choices I have made...
Help me make bright new ones,
walk always in Your ways!

dawn in my soul (poem)

the light shines
dawn in my soul
when I look to You
and You make me whole

hope light (poem)

hope light my soul
thrown over the walls
I once built to shelter my heart
candlelight glow
the visions and dreams
I cling to—bright shining, my hope

behind walls (poem)

I've been distant
behind walls
untouching, unreaching
trapped behind
my silent mouth

without a word (poem)

I think I like the stories
where people understand without a word
because I don't know how to talk to you
I don't want to play this for laughs
my heart's in my throat
I can't speak, I can't breathe
the question and answer, they pass

Adulting (poem)

I'm not a little girl anymore
best get doing
the clock is ticking
the hours drip down like sand

song in my heart (poem)

song in my heart
like a tiny bright bird
sing in the spring
in the winter, in summer
sing to the King
in all pain
in all joy

can't forget (poem)

For F and Y

my love is not in vain
you love me too
no matter what we feel
I can't forget you

fulfillment (poem)

fill me with hope to the brim
fill me, my cup overflows
one day, Your love that sustains me
shall wholly fulfill and remake me

3/28/19

Okay (poem)

I'm supposed to be okay...
Right?
Does it have to be this way—
All night,
Mem'ry claws through my mind,
And I
Can't seem to wake the light,
But
My God shall never leave me,
No,
My God shall ever keep me.
I
Will walk through night 'til morning,
And this
Will all passs like a dream

in your nearness (poem)

For A and W

my very bones shiver in your nearness
the heat of kisses against my skin
you stared at me in silences
my heart beat under the scrutiny
used to sniper scopes and dangerous intent
I turned your head another way
another angle, where we touch not look
and whisper words like promises
there is no one else like you
no one else I want to see this moment
I feel like something precious weaves
between us in our hands

between my hands (poem)

tea heats between my hands
my palms are warm with something like touch
something that sinks beneath my skin
I wonder what tenderness feels like
but no one takes my hand in theirs
I take no hand in mine
I wrap my palms around this cup of tea
and do not wait for another

the odd one (poem)

maybe I'm the odd one
or the odd one out
but nothing seems to pierce my skin about that
for I've always been "there's always one"
and there's nothing new to hurt

3/30/19

a single sunbeam (poem)

joy in even little things
beauty in such tiny wings
as the hummingbird that flies
or butterflies take to the skies
a single sunbeam's brightest gold
outshines the night, however bold
and lodges in my heart to stay
a small, light joy—mine for always

do answers (poem)

do answers await me
I keep silence
I wonder
but here, I do not speak
I wait and let another

sun in soul (poem)

light, a promise
sun in soul
joy in sorrow
with Christ I'm known
cast me not
from perfect light
grant Your mercy
faith, be sight

follow through (poem)

tell me something new,

something true

tell me what's a girl to do

to get through
I'll follow You.

there's a quiet voice inside—

I will hide

all my need and trust in You

pray anew,

follow through.

had I restrained (poem)

For K and M

did you ever think of me unless I asked?
I know so many times I took to task
but do not think that means I loved you less
no matter how much strength or stubbornness
were yours in all those moments, all those fights
the violent ends you used to put to rights
protect the ones I gave into your charge
sometimes it seemed the number was too large
had I restrained myself from sharing you
and kept your heart for mine and our friend too
would you have stayed for me when he was gone
and I'd not be alone for quite so long?

April 2019

4/1/19

to start the morning (poem)

a morning cup of tea
yes, that's the plan for me
joy in just a sip
pleasure in the deep
I feel it to my toes
doesn't everyone know
to start the morning right
just God and tea in sight

light me up (poem)

light me up: a robe of color
glamoured 'round my tembling limbs
breathe the colors of the sunrise
with heaven's glory, hem and trim
may my visions hold fast to me
that clothed in light, I may begin

4/3/19

Prayers for the New Year 019 (poem)

light and promises
morning visions
pray Your name
they see fruition
through the pain
I ask You keep
my heart from straying
my will from sleep

it's time (poem)

clock chimes
it's time
I rise
feel the light
sun root
its heart in me
raise my song
eternally

God is Good, The Father (poem)

The God of all the universe,
All power and majesty,
Takes the care and time to watch
Over one like me

The mess I've made of everything
Needs mercy constantly,
And all my pain is not yet gain—
Why love a one like me?

But God is good, the Father of
You and you and me:
He loves His children ever so,
Even one like me

4/5/19

enough to count (poem)

enough to count
hello, hello
my heart, it is enough
I do not fight
or e'en display
against some other one
enough to be—
to live, to thrive
hello, hello for me
my soul it is enough
I fly
and soar above myself

overflows for me (poem)

pour out a cup for me, for me
pour out a cup for me
remember me to my friends, and love
flows over the brim for me

from horizon's edge (poem)

golden light that warms the land
rising from horizon's edge
spreads across the deep blue sky
brightens morning star's white eye
look upon a newborn day
within my heart, I praise and pray

4/6/19

The Hole in my Heart (poem)

They say I am not grieving,
But is that so?
I say I am not grieving,
But I know
The hole in my heart still hurts—
I let it go.
And yet it does not leave,
Only outflow.

4/7/19

socks (poem)

mismatched socks
hidden by shoes
I need a spot of bright in my life
pink at the heels
pink at the toes
I wriggle my pink
that nobody knows

4/8/19

breakfast (poem)

water warm to take the scent
wash away, a step forewent
the taste is fine
I'm not that fussed
for a perfect meal, however sussed

mornings not so friendly (poem)

sisters care for sisters
I'm grateful still
despite my tried demeanor
and stubborn will
in mornings not so friendly
not until
I've shaken off the quiet
and had my fill

I am a planet (poem)

For F and Y

we shine
with a brightness that exceeds the heavens
I could drown in your love
like the stars in the sky
so you shine in my eyes
though the galaxies turn
around us in beauty
I stretch out my hands
draw them into your light
still you should know
I am a planet
and you are the sun
I hold in my sight

coming of the blood (poem)

I am many things, right now a mess
tell me we are kings, I don't believe
until my heart is cleansed beneath the flood
I must wait the coming of the blood

4/9/19

Prayers for the New Year 020 (poem)

morning joy
a cheerful song
the voice that moves
my heart along
please wake me out
of fitful sleep
and through this day
my heart-soul keep

things to do (poem)

things to do
I pray to You
the God of all
please break my fall
and guide my mind
and guide my hands
that I may run
and finally stand

means to me (poem)

sister precious
means to me
more than almost
anything
I thank You, Lord
for one like her
I pray love grow
crowd out all hurt

The House of Tap (poem)

The House of Tap
The way they moved
It's wrong they did not win
The silent moment
Just their taps
And every perfect spin

turn circles my heart (poem)

breathe
turn circles
my heart ever inward
composed of spiraling dances
cast off
my cares, my worries
lift my skirts and twirl
in joy
we join the dance

things I didn't know (poem)

wisdom sweet and bitter too
things I didn't know but do
hope to reach that coming day
when everything will be okay

4/10/19

an odd week (poem)

an odd week
the storm comes
the tide rolls
we hope to eat
it's all just
a case of timing—
without trial
what would we be?

4/11/19

this hope (poem)

For GP

we have this hope
that the God of all hope will comfort us
restore us to live and heal us—
for our hearts have been burdened with pain
He will relight them again

toward the throne (poem)

what we leave behind matters
not just in the end, but now
how we treat our friends matters
and how our enemies this hour

who we are inside matters
what we do when all alone
all we choose to be matters
let every deed a step be toward the throne

4/12/19

Meaningful (poem)

What is meaningful?
This feeling inside?
I hope for a promise—
Within me abide
The Word of my Father
The Light of His Christ
And glory eternal
Came into my life

4/13/19

that thing I wrote (poem)

that thing I wrote, why thank you so
I've written better, don't you know?
but truly I give thanks for you
for loving anything I do

4/14/19

springtime in colorado (poem)

the birds are back
the snow is too
I thought this was a spring milieu?
what happened here?
the fields in white
is such an odd, if pretty, sight

when all is quiet (poem)

wake me tomorrow
when all is quiet
when the snow is gentle
on the green grass below
when the stars are whispering
in bright chorus
and the sun has risen
with softest glow

cold days (poem)

cold days
I praise
though I wish
for other ways

should I wish
to overcome
then trials must go
and trials must come

catch me praying (poem)

catch me praying
catch me hoping
through the tears
the pain, the fears
I won't give up
rest a while
bear my strength
then rise to power

4/15/19

sun shine brighter (poem)

golden sunrise
joyous sun
shines in heart
a day begun

sun shine brighter
through each day
the light of that Son
reveals His way

in good company (poem)

joy is something precious
chosen in good company
in eyes set on the good things
showered out on me

as something new (poem)

For F and Y

warm me up
put arms around
my heart, where memory
can be found
the place where you
and I were born
as something new
no longer torn

please don't cry (poem)

little bird fly
but please don't cry
it hurts my heart
to hear you start

like glowing tides (poem)

light sweeps the heavens
like glowing tides wash the sand
until my heart is clean

give them room (poem)

green leaves, yellow blooms
open heart to give them room
show the words I cannot say
the gift to hold my love today

the whole way down (poem)

it scalds the whole way down
this life I live
the words another speaks
instead of gives
the hearts that burn near mine
and I can pray
but nothing quite reacts
to words I say

eyes so clear (poem)

For S and W

you are an open book to me
your eyes as clear as skies we see
the sun that rises when you see me
I barely understand but need
to know you hold me with your gaze
and give myself to you always

if friendship be true (poem)

thinking of you
if friendship be true
then you are the truest friend
with love in my heart
and right from the start
we'll be there beyond the end

you left (poem)

For F and Y

you left me
you left me alone
don't you know me?
you knew me once
you were there
when I felt betrayed
you were there
when I could not save
we promised
we would do all things
together
yet you left me

4/16/19

I had a dream (poem)

For N

I had a dream then I woke up
the day was warm, a warm full cup
my heart was full, my joy was sweet
because your love was still with me

where you find it (poem)

love is precious where you find it
when you find it, hold on tight
when the night comes, cling to love
when the day comes, spread your heart wide
let the love grow full inside

open (poem)

I'm open
my heart is open
the door is open just for you
come in now
enter in now
I've laid a welcome out for you
I love you
I will say it
let all know that I love you
I'm open
my soul is open
please come in and walk on through

I breathe (poem)

softly I breathe
in the morning air
new
it is what I need

everything hurts (poem)

everything hurts
I hope, I need
everything hurts
I ache, I bleed
the hours pass
the days are full
I cry my heart
what should I do

the bridge (poem)

For C and D

water under the bridge
you're water under the bridge
you were the flood I drowned in
before you went over the edge
now I'm walking the river
and going over the bridge
you did not burn it with fire
but you're water under the bridge

page load (poem)

impersonate
another one
and wait until
page load is done
how long, how long!
I seem to wait
yes, just how long
will this thing take?

4/17/19

support (poem)

fight me, she says
just a little thing
cheerful and ready to go
surrounded by warriors and strong men
behind her just daring you to

keep me moving (poem)

slow start today
I stop to pray
please keep me moving
but in Your way

the busy bees (poem)

the busy bees
together—hear!
the mighty roar
of buzzing breeze
conversations rise like haze
of pollen—swells
just like the seas

move my heart (poem)

For F and Y

move my heart
it feels like stone
but even mountains move
I feel you here
I'm not alone
there's nothing left to prove

4/18/19

rejoicing in newness (poem)

For A

bright mornings, new days
new reasons to praise
I'm alive, I'm awake
new choices to make
I'm praying, I'm hoping
and I'm giving thanks
rejoicing in newness
as yet, no mistakes

love your enemies (poem)

have you thought about love?

instead of hate

have you thought about prayer?

and patient, wait

have you considered all?

that you could do

to reconcile others

as you should do

bring me to rest (poem)

evening falls
the close of day
it always seems to be this way

I trust in You
who carried through
and brought me to
my rest—I stay

all the peace (poem)

night closes her curtains around
my sleepy eyes and sleepy mind
within the arms of God my Father
is all the peace that I could hope to find

This is Hope (poem)

hope can be a quiet thing
the simple beating of my wings
trust that I will stay afloat
that I am loved—yes, this is hope

4/20/19

the gentle chimes (poem)

hear the bells
the gentle chimes
ringing out
ungentle times

glory in my eyes (poem)

glory turns like golden skies
when heaven's light stays in my eyes
when heaven's crown, the holy prize
remains my aim and at all times

Prayers for the New Year 021 (poem)

God, I pray You cleanse my heart
change my longest lived desires
that only You might light the fires
that burn where all my visions start

Prayers for the New Year 022 (poem)

hold me in Your love
forgive me for my failings
draw me with Your mercy
and cleanse me by Your healing

4/23/19

so many things (poem)

I feel so many things right now
the pain of knowing that somehow
I must rise, though I might break
this is why I am awake

4/24/19

Kings (poem)

kings in their own country
emperors here in ours
we dance to the beat
of the rhythm—a treat
and the music takes root in our hearts

that morning glow (poem)

golden mornings
vivid skies
orange like fire
blue like night
stars above
that morning glow
my heart so warm
and full below

I take my rest (poem)

evening comes
I take my rest
poured out now
like this is best
the void my heart
be filled with You
'til coming day
like light shines through

a joyful thing (poem)

hope is a joyful thing
that gives me wings
I feel it in my chest
when I take rest
like butterflies that rise
when my heart cries
and I will not let go
'til joy I know

love is the sort (poem)

love is the sort of things that burns inside
no matter how deep the roots will grow and hide
it's more affection waters that they thrive
and selfless works the sun where they abide

because of You (poem)

I am grateful for Wednesdays
so full—I'll make it through
because of You

like candles (poem)

light shines like candles
my heart is bright
with the gleam of a thousand verses
that shining light
the Word made flesh within me
and in my sight
visions of holy splendor
beloved Christ

Pillar (poem)

raise the banner high
I do not want to cry
I want to see Your light
shining through my night

like fire, pray, come down
and cover, hallow ground
that I might follow You
the whole way out and through

I Will Trust (poem)

this is a good thing
remind me:
this is a hope thing
don't fail me
I will trust in everything
that You will come through

where my hope grows (poem)

tell me where the wind blows
I need to feel its breath
tell me where my hope grows
its width, its height, its depth
I feel the Spirit in me
across the inner sea
there I plant my promise
one my God gave to me

4/25/19

Prayers for the New Year 023 (poem)

kiss me with the light of day
right upon my heart, I pray
and cleanse me with Your perfect fire
let it burn—my heart's desire
fill my vision full until
my eyes are set upon Your will

(haiku for joy)

joy is letting go
earth—falling up into sky—
wings spread, heart alight

(haiku for wind)

wind rush by the fields,
the home—rattled glass, my heart
beating with its flow

cleansing my heart (poem)

I breathe in the light of a new day
let it root in my veins and my arteries
beat in my blood with its purity
cleansing my heart in Your mercy

joy come back (poem)

blossoms of hope
bright flowers
I think of you and love
bright bowers
of joy shining above me
once
joy come back to me

collect myself (poem)

collect myself,
my scattered pieces,
off the floor—
I dropped them good.
hold out hands and open breezes
from my heart
will blow right through.

4/26/19

in His hand (poem)

like a sparrow, in God's hand
so for this I try to stand
for all the arrows aimed at me
cannot harm if He is for me

Prayers for the New Year 024 (poem)

morning comes; I wake
I offer up my heart
I fix my gaze on You
Lord, show me what to do

write the book (poem)

write me a story
engraved on my soul
the beginning is history
and history is known
the ending is open
and I want to see
the end of the journey
unfolding for me

I hurt, I cry (poem)

I hurt, I cry—
there are reasons why
don't talk about
and don't find out
the word is gone
out from my soul
I've hurt so long
don't want to know

am I supposed to breathe (poem)

am I supposed to breathe
in all these reasons
and find a way to maintain
through all these seasons
and somehow must sustain
the life I'm living
find some ounce of strength
to keep on giving

creed of the hundredth (poem)

I'm quiet and in need
though I have not forgot my creed
seems to me I went astray
and pray don't lose my way
fall down and then get up
overflows the Christian's cup
but never lie down still
or give up that holy will
until the light shall fill

4/27/19

quake (poem)

For C.

I am burning up inside
shall you quake before my light?
so certain I am strong
but that I don't belong
you plow me with your power
stand up in your ivory tower
confident at peak
that compared to you, I'm weak
but feel the light of fire
as I wreak my bright revenge
and hurt when I shall crush you
for some things never change
I am burning up inside
and you cannot stem the tide
nor open my eyes wide
when you wake me by your pride
I will cast you from your tower
I will shake the earth with rage
I will overcome your power
maul, destroy your gilded cage
there is nothing else in sight
now then quake before my light

wait for love (poem)

For C

love is a word I taught myself
in hopes of something missing now
I guard, protect, care, deflect
surely that's why they give respect
I wait for love but give it out
as though it's all that I'm about
it never comes, this love I need
though I brand it as my creed
until the day they do betray
and at last I walk away

Quarter 001. break me down (poem)

break me down
to my bones
build up
anew

Quarter 002. wrap me up (poem)

wrap me up
pour in love
and fill
me full

Quarter 003. destruction (poem)

destruction
creation
two sides
one coin

4/28/19

I need You (poem)

I am not always wise
so I need You
I am not always bright
so please shine through
sometimes my heart is aching
I beg, renew
the light inside my soul
and make me new

4/30/19

love is the warmth (poem)

love is the warmth of a brand new morning
a note of love from one held dear
the joy in finding and holding and keeping
close in your heart, and also near
hope is the knowing that you'll be together
day after day and year after year

Quarter 004. heart in mouth (poem)

cold as north
warm as south
my heart
in mouth

Quarter 005 (poem)

joy in Christ
life in Light
bright dawn
leaves night

touch gently (poem)

softly
I tread with soft feet
and soft hands
touch gently
quietly I wait
answers bubbling
inside of you
not ready to come out

we move; I speak (poem)

For K and N (C8)

we move; I speak
just take a peek
into my heart
into my world
come within
I can't come out
lean in my friend
close to my mouth
I have to whisper
I cannot shout

a game of love (poem)

challenge me to a game of love
drive me to thanksgiving of
the kindest depth and deepest kind
available to heart or mind

my weary heart, it bleeds (poem)

For N

my weary heart—it aches, it bleeds
there's so much now that my soul needs
I need the love I gave to you
within my heart to warm me through

May 2019

5/1/19

In Christ (poem)

NB, 12 lines

In Christ my joy
In God my peace
In love my hope
May it never cease

In hope my light
In Spirit my hope
In praise my lifeline
Unbreakable rope

In joy I praise
In peace I sing
I hold to Christ
To God I cling

That I May Love (poem)

NB, 4 lines

Christ, my love be in sore need
I pray Your love for humanity
Grow deep and wide and true in me
That I may love with constancy

(haiku for morning)

NB, 3 lines

morning breaks the night
in fractured pieces—mirrored
dreams give way to light

a gentle friend (poem)

NB, 4 lines

night closes in, a gentle friend
soothing all my nerves—alone again
snuggled in the warmth of comfy bed
spending time with You and words instead

5/2/19

don't fly away (poem)

NB, 6 lines

hello, new year!
don't fly away
so quick, so fast
keep new days near
and hold my hand
don't disappear
before my work is done

love is the tie (poem)

NB, 4 lines

love is the tie that binds
the wandering child to its home
and draws me back again no matter
how far the heart may roam

Prayers for the New Year 025 (poem)

Isaiah 55:8-9

God, to You my heart commends the impending day
I bow my head, that wandering heart, and with my spirit pray
keep me from the path of fear and help me not to stray
I want to walk this day in love and in Your higher way

dappled (poem)

For D and C

we move
the light
dances across our skin
like the shadows
dappled
dance behind it
and here
your hands
are tangled in mine
and I whisper
your name
you're mine

5/4/19

pretend that all is well (poem)

put on your face, put on your smile
it needs must last for quite a while
go out there and shine so bright
and this is the important step
whatever else, just don't forget
pretend that all is well
no matter how it hurts, I say
pretend that all is well

the masquerade can only thrive
if we could play with all our lives
commit to it and make it truth
with all the mph of 'passioned youth
whatever else, just make it so
pretend that all is well
and never let another know
pretend that all is well

I cannot recommend this path
but I have walked it 'til I can't
pretend that all is well
until my heart has nothing left
pretend that all is well

too many! (poem)

too many pills—

too many!

maybe I'll cry—

too many!

maybe I'll try—

just maybe—

to do something else.

too many!

(haiku for tea)

joy inside my cup
dark and warm with roasted tea
against cold weather

interests (poem)

I am a girl of simple interests—
stories, dance, cats, and tea,
words unfolding like a yarn
guide to lead me forward

(haiku for hope)

hope comes in pieces
greater in their wholeness—a
vision—than each part

5/5/19

I am golden (poem)

I am golden like the sun
passerby, the game is won
while I look in golden glow
impassive, yes, I told you so

5/6/19

Prayers for the New Year 026 (poem)

All these things to do!
God, please help me through
It all; keep me with You!
My heart love please renew!

spilt spaghetti (poem)

don't cry over spilt spaghetti

(I cried)

hang on to your composure

(I tried)

praise the One Who loves you

(He died—

but did not cease His praising

of God)

by surprise (poem)

joy can take you by surprise
if you choose to live with open eyes
then look for joy in tiny things
and find in all your hidden blessings

good morning, world (poem)

good morning, world
good day to you
I'll see you as I'm passing through
I thank my God
for all of you
and pray one day He'll make you new

5/7/19

A Way Before Me (poem)

Thank You, God, for quiet mornings,
Brand new days in which You live
You have made a way before me
All Your love, You always give
Help me, Lord, to walk within it
To love, give thanks, and to forgive

pictured artwork (poem)

For U.LA.

joy in motion
name of gold
pictured artwork
living bold

like the light (poem)

For E and A

grace and beauty like the light
a waterfall of colors bright
they move like breezes, swaying trees
rustling their newborn leaves
watch them blossom, cherry blooms
warm the hearts within the room

I trust (poem)

I don't know what to do
I trust in You
the God of all that lives
can get me through
You will not leave me helpless
I trust You

my heart must (poem)

moments when my heart must praise You
though the mind may disagree
in this moment, I will thank You
for the answer I don't see

5/8/19

may the love (poem)

morning beckons
bright new day
may the love
of God hold sway
may my heart
walk in Your way
and cleanse my soul
make pure always

before the dawn (poem)

little birds sing
it is still dark
for morning's sun has come
within their hearts

one of those things (poem)

hope is one of those things
where light burns in the dark
where candled hearts keep shining
keeping sending up their sparks
where prayers become the incense
and fervent selfless love
opens doors of heaven
and pours out from above

5/9/19

Prayers for the New Year #026 (poem)

Good morning, God, You're always there
There for me and always care
I'm sure I don't deserve Your grace
Having been of human race
I've fallen down again, again
Forgotten You have saved me, then
Forgotten who I'm s'posed to be
And yet, You've not forgotten me
Could any but eternal love
Divine and holy, tried and true
Ever hold to me enough
Through all my failing to get through
I cry for mercy, praise Your grace
Before Your love, fall on my face

to bow (poem)

rather than back
a fall
of disgrace
to bow
is to fall forward
into grace

murmured rain (poem)

soft sounds
around the house
drop and murmured pattern
the rain's make

take joy (poem)

take joy in the light
feel warmth on your face
fix eyes on God's grace
take strength in doing what's right

like the light (poem)

we burn like the light
it's a beautiful sight
flaming in gold
unburnt, bright, and bold

Note to Self 003 (poem)

courage is rising each morning
determined to try this again
I'll give you the answer you're seeking
walk closely and cling to God's hand

the frosted fields (poem)

the frosted fields
beneath the fog
this is springtime
write in the log

the snow comes down
such gentle cold
this is springtime
or so I'm told

5/10/19

known to fly (poem)

castles, towers— rising high
above the clouds
we're known to fly
and ride the storm
on eager wings
for with the lightning
passion sings

when the winds
blow out the gale
home we fly
to tell the tale

fresh time (poem)

a cup of tea
fresh time for me
the morning glow
of what I know

5/11/19

from endless wells (poem)

hope springs eternal
from endless wells
the vision of my soul
the depths of heart
I cast my eyes on God
and see so far

5/12/19

no hesitation (poem)

quiet focus
concentration
reach with heart
no hesitation

5/13/19

to write the song (poem)

to write the song
we get along
to sing it out
we cannot shout
to lift our praise
our hearts we raise

for all I hope (poem)

so much to do
so much to see
and someone who
I want to be
I give You thanks
for all I hope
and pray, dear God
that I may know

where you are (poem)

just begin
where you are
take a step
you'll go far

I'd rather not (poem)

sometimes I feel things
I'd rather not
sometimes I cry tears
I'd rather not
but better to feel things
than bury inside
and better to cry out
than forever to hide

early morning rising (poem)

morning flits in, like a bird
my heart keeps its time with the clock
I am awake—where's the sun?
sleeping still in the warm earth

5/14/19

joy is of (poem)

see notebook

5/17/19

SEE NOTEBOOK (1)

stars in my heart (poem)

For M and T

I am in motion now
I breathe in the night air
and the twilight
glows ethereal around us
night fog, night blue
stars overhead
and bursting like nova lights
in my heart where you burn

5/19/19

Your Light (poem)

My heart is full of the warmth of Your light
You fill me like candles that banish the night
To edges of shadows, for joy fills our sight
Beloved God, thank You; please always shine bright

so many pieces (poem)

I am what I am
so many pieces of myself
I do not fit
I don't make sense
I should just keep me on the shelf
I have no choice
the world is bright
it demands my fullest self
I lay me down
I pick me up
I keep on going, no one else

deep enough to see (poem)

glory in the joy
of holy presence
glory in the peace
that now increases
reach up open hands
and claim the mercies
favored love and grace
that lovingkindness
deeper than the ages
than our failings
deep enough to see
the tiny child
a flame of light so bright
that we could be

SEE NOTEBOOK

hurt (poem)

I hurt, I hurt sometimes
the wings of my pain surround me
fly away, fly away and return to me
with treasure once buried beneath

SEE NOTEBOOK

June 2019

6/1/19

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Prayers for the New Year # (poem)

I am peace and quiet in the night
—this night
there are days this is not so
days my heart is weary and weeping
days that seem not worth the keeping
may the Comforter draw me close

things to do (poem)

things to do
it seems to me
are ever with us
constantly

truly worth
the heart we give
are those with which
we love and live

so open up
and look around
for not in work
is true worth found

6/2/19

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6/3/19

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white as winter (poem)

I am white as winter, and as cold
my heart once beat within me, bright and bold
but icy winds enshroud me, and I shiver
keep my eyes from gifts and on the giver

winter's child (poem)

I am not a winter's child
summer sun, the coast as mild
as a child could hope to have
yet my heart feels cold at last

where I'm hurting (poem)

warm me where I'm hurting
I pray for peace within
for everything is aching
like blood beneath the skin

6/4/19

I remember the light (poem)

For N

love is the moment
I care about
when darkness falls
and the lights come up
like lightning spread
across a crimson sky
I remember the light
the way you looked at me
the words found in my heart
rooted there to be
to blossom into life
to glow with fervent blooms
with all the things you taught
I live within this room
and hear my heart, its beat
lifted on your wings

tell me where (poem)

For T. S.

tell me where my dreams go
somewhere that you don't know
inside me are the depths
and you do not know what's left
my breath like ice that ever grows
beyond the flames your mind knows
unbroken and unwavering
you'll never know my everything

a case of the mondays (poem)

ten minutes to say hello
to my brain again
where did you go?
I need you out of the bed you're in
because I'm here at work

breathe a moment (poem)

breathe a moment
think a moment
hold your reflex
in your hand
rein your anger
blow out fear
a sigh of hope
and try again

hold fast (poem)

move my heart
my mind is full
hold me fast
'til we get through

6/5/19

did you miss (poem)

For F and Y

did you miss me?
I ache for you
did you think of
all we'd do
when we were together
and had been through
did you miss me?
I still miss you

burden my heart (poem)

For C and D

don't burden my heart with your love
your need and your fire were enough
to haunt all my dreams; I wake up
wrapped up in you, like as not

a candle (poem)

breathe like you mean it
you feel it
it burns in your heart
feel like you need it
you're burning
a candle in the dark

6/6/19

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the winters go (poem)

cold and snow
the winters go
around my skin
but not within
for in my heart
the warming glow
of home and hearth
and love I know

6/7/19

to care (poem)

There are things I care about,
but this really isn't one.
I used to figure out
a way to feel it; now,
I'm feeling burned inside,
and I cannot help nor hide
that I'm feeliing rather done.
I don't care if we have won.

halves (poem)

For T.S.

flames in my fist
ice in my kiss
an eye on the cold
an eye for the light
brighten my heart
as I open my mind
release all I hold
let it fill all my sight

6/13/19

under the glass (poem)

For C

sorrow cages me in under the glass
there is power in this
I bare my hands, my teeth in a smile
I am unconquered territory
though many have walked this land

how far must we fall (poem)

For D and C

how far must we fall into the ocean
the waters are deep of emotion
our words dwell in the shallows

child, my child (poem)

For K and C

child, my child
not of body but blood
I've wept blood for you
you are mine
I am yours

6/14/19

alive (poem)

For G and S

you are quiet
my mouth is on your shoulder
your breath is in my heart
slow and steady
you live despite the fire
that burned your face
the fall of your hair like silk
beneath my touch
the heat of your chest
it moves with breath
your hand is on my back
and I lie quiet beside you
feeling the life within

the rhythm of your heartbeat (poem)

For G and S

I take solace in the rhythm of your heartbeat
under my fingers
the warmth of your body heat and your breath
fills me and lingers
this quietude we share burns within me
steady bright embers
ready to fan into flame
each time we remember

6/17/19

long day (poem)

I return from a long day,
a long day ahead of me
I gather my things to work and
I get a warm cup of tea
the cup of tea in my hand now
feels like a small part of me
a grace that is worthy to help me
as work spends an evening with me

where have we been (poem)

tell me where have we been this day
down the paths of promise and roses
where the briars grow over the stones
I step with my cautious feet now
and look up for ahead are the thrones

things to do (poem)

things to do
and some for you
the way I love
is to follow through
for if I know
the things you need
and can help
then there I'll be

half and half (poem)

bright roses
over the garden path
their heady blooms
and thorns' small wrath
mind with beauty
its other half

6/18/19

find me waiting (poem)

love to find me waiting
see, light within your eyes
your hand is warm in mine
we stay to watch the starlight
and wait for sun to rise

6/21/19

SEE NOTEBOOK

We Do Our Best (poem)

We do our best and pray the rest
Works out as hoped because we know
There's only so much one can do
Before results are up to You

6/23/19

give home (poem)

cold whispers
bright colors
give home
a wide berth
come here, love
fly forward
to my arms
the warm earth

6/26/19

the green fields (poem)

the green fields that roll away
dotted with trees that stand and sway
in every breeze that blows all day
in its fragrant floral way

where worlds lie hidden (poem)

I am lost sometimes
in the woods
beneath the greening trees
where my heart lies open
bark peeled back
they say there are worlds in the acorn
and countries lie hidden in the seed
beneath the bright cocoon there beats
a heart like mine
the blooms unseen imagination promises
I am waiting to become

heart home (poem)

For F and Y

my heart has found its home—in you
I find unknown what I should do
should not this feeling beat in me
instead it beats in you, I see
and what they say, the words seem true
I follow my heart: it leads to you

with each other (poem)

For GP

my heart aches for your heart
please know that I love you
could I find a cupful of joy
I'd spill it within you
I share all the love that I have
I can't be another
but though we feel so alone
we're alone with each other

supposed to breathe (poem)

For N

Am I supposed to breathe? I'm told it's true:
This feeling in my chest when I think of you
Is supposed to go away eventually,
But how can it when you are not here with me?

6/27/19

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quiet (poem)

I am quiet
I start so many poems with these words
but I am quiet
my heart up on the shelf
I don't take it down
but in the quiet moments when my heart screams
when the world no longer needs the space
then I am not quiet nor am stillness
then I let my heart out, feel again

July 2019

7/1/19

twittering (poem)

twittering birds—
that cheerful sound
up above and all around
I hear their song:
it warms my heart
here is where the summer starts

the end of hope (poem)

hope is a small seed
but at the end of hope, the tree

Prayers for the New Year # (poem)

good morning, God! I pray to You
fill me with Your love all through
my every thought, my every act
so 'I'm Your child' is clearly fact

black and white (poem)

For S

I've heard stories: black and white
in my future; in the fight
I'm only painted silver, red
because I'm living now instead

color my heart (poem)

For T.S.

color my heart like yours
color my face, my eye, the light
I wash away the side of me
that isn't colored like you

to be good (poem)

I want to be a good girl
you know what I could be
if only I was healed
and if only I could see
if only I weren't crying
in a room without a view
instead if I were clinging
with my heart and soul to You
breathe in me Your mercy
I pray to be set free
from every cage I've built up
in bars surrounding me

7/2/19

my God, my friend (poem)

joy is in the little things
the little moments of our lives
the hopes and dreams and reasons why
we keep on going—in the end
joy is in my God as friend

the weight of my waiting (poem)

NB, 6 lines

bones settle into silence
with the weight of my waiting
there are answers drifting in stillness
if only I catch them
here on my outstretched fingers
the hope of my praying

winds blow (poem)

cold winds
blow sometimes
my hat right off my head
my heart beats in my chest
I blow with windy tread

like a flame (poem)

hope is a funny thing
not subject to logic
a feeling within me
it burns and it grows like a flame
I have seen there in the sky
in the dark early morning
a star shining on me
bright vision within my eye
I tell myself nothing's impossible
all's possible to me
if only I carry right onward
into the light

I buried my heart (poem)

For F and Y

bury my heart
in you, in you
like a seed I left it
buried in you
now here I wait
with heart in my hands
broken and hurting
'til you come again

7/3/19

that's a thing I do (poem)

I hope
that's a thing I do
I should
and I'll pull through

Note to Self #. The Cost of Doing Business (poem)

The cost of doing business:
put a smile on your face;
don't forget to act in grace,
with your word both kind and guileless
and your tactfulness in place;
and if you must, you brace
yourself to be accountable
to love, e'en in the face
of those who are not loving.
Peace passes understanding
when the source is Christ's own grace:
before you start—reach out, embrace
the Father's love within yourself
to give away to someone else.

beyond the stormclouds (poem)

we wait in peace
we hope for light
and keep the heavens
in our sight
beyond the stormclouds
radiance
streams down like glory
the consequence
of shining bright
in circumstance

red and blooming (poem)

For C and D

blossoms in the snow
where love lies red and blooming
on a bed of cold
I try to forget on the other end
of this feeling lies someone like you

7/8/19

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on wind (poem)

borne up on wind
the wind so cold
it makes my heart
both bright and bold
to ride the skies
on eagles' wings
as in my soul
a new song sings

a day brings (poem)

the birds cry
the heart sings
pain and joy
a day brings
my shoulders bear
the endless weight
wings bear up
and fly straight

just got to make it (poem)

I just got to make it up
inertia handles the rest
I just got to make it out
by giving forth my best

the golden hour (poem)

the golden hour
falls around
my quiet soul
don't make a sound

relieve the burdens
of the day
and on the wind
let drift away


7/10/19

what lies before (poem)

what lies before
in days ahead
the coming storm
its certain tread
o'er horizon
feel winds blow
hold onto me
and don't let go

winter quiet (poem)

winter quiet, like spring snow
tends to settle in my soul
so still, so pure, a certain peace
when all the noise around can cease
and I can look upon the white
soothing blanket, mirrored light

through the trees (poem)

needles of green, so bright and clean
their piny scent rides on the breeze
and hear the wind, its howling path
around the house and through the trees

7/16/19

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all of them hurt (poem)

I am a lot of things
and all of them hurt
but I'll see what tomorrow brings
look forward with hope