Series Bible - User contributions [en]

Tracker: Notebook 2024

2025-10-28T11:40:51Z

Lianamir: /* Game Design */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== Poetry, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== find your wings (poem) ====

One of those things: 
look around 
maybe breathe

Don't forget to find your wings: 
spread them hard 
fly, believe

==== Talent (poem) ====

The things that work 
Can often be so easily forgot 
The things that work 
So easily are things that can't be taught 
Talents granted 
From the King 
By heaven, they were bought 
Then graciously
Were given to me
Without my having sought

==== Road (poem) ====

Been a while 
I know 
Been a terrible road 
The things that you don't know 
Before you're called to go

==== hard (poem) ====

Is it that hard 
to speak in a rhythm 
in a rhyme 
with a boom 
with a bang

Is it that hard 
to feel in a prism 
with a sigh 
with a laugh 
with a pang

Is it that hard 
to fall in a chasm 
in the air 
do not care 
'til I'm there

Is it that hard 
to turn like a schism 
hand on stone 
from the bone 
don't let go

==== planting (poem) ====

wisdom is the color of my heart 
as I want it to be 
so I'll plant my sight on wisdom 
until I am a tree

==== The Presence (poem) ====

Joy is in the presence of the Lord 
Where is it I'm living, by that word? 
Where am I, adrift on endless clouds 
When this painful living gets too loud? 
Ah, find me, Spirit! Find me, Prince of Peace 
Make this inner chaos finally cease 
I praise You: may I enter at the gates 
And finally find the joy in Your embrace?

==== Eye Be Single (poem) ====

Find a song in my heart 
And a light on my steps 
My eyes towards the heavens 
To see what is next

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Brightness Arrayed (poem) ====

Ah, another grand day! 
My eyes see the light, I pray 
That my heart is also swayed 
By the brightness now arrayed 
Before my waking face 
When I look toward Your grace

==== me (poem) ====

awkward, sometimes 
it would be nice to be 
another person 
yet still me

==== may happiness (poem) ====

may happiness precede and follow you 
and always walk with you 
may the rains shower on you 
and bring new life to you 
may the sun shine brightly 
and the moon glow nightly 
lighting your way 
for you I will pray

=== 5/30/24 ===

==== abloom (poem) ====

happiness 
I close my eyes 
brace my soul 
I feel the light 
I open hands 
my heart abloom 
cleanse my spirit 
and make room

==== ever calling (poem) ====

sometimes we forget the important things 
perhaps drift from our roots or lose our wings 
and yet a Voice e'er calling before us sings 
look to me! it cries, from darkness brings

== Poetry, June 2024 ==

=== 6/9/24 ===

==== before my eyes (poem) ====

endless ages pass 
the flicker of eternal streams 
that which waking lies 
before my eyes and in dreams 
all the visions cast 
upon my canvas mind 
held until they last 
shining in my sight

==== Your Path (poem) ====

God of my fathers, my mothers, my friends 
Who held me and kept me, beginning to end 
Be with me now as I go 'round this bend 
Your path before me, I trust You will mend

== Poetry, July 2024 ==

=== 7/18/24 ===

==== Where Sunlight (poem) ====

Good morning where the sunlight grows 
From solemn dark to bright shining day 
And over the hours, my awareness flows 
Of glorious Love: I start to pray 
To Him who made my every step 
And all this earthly loveliness!

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Wouldn't It Be (poem) ====

Wouldn't it be nice? 
Don't want to think twice 
Want to be all right 
Can we turn on the light?

== Prose, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== Focus on God Who Bears our Burdens ====

From the Old Testament to the New, God promises to bear our burdens, if we will just come to Him.

"Blessed be the Lord God, who daily bears our burdens, God who is our salvation." – Psalm 68:19 NJV (verify)

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." – Matthew 11:28 NKJV

"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." – I Peter 5:6-7 NKJV

Every day, when the sorrows of this world press down upon me, when I'm missing the loved ones I have lost, when my failures and mistakes weigh on me, I have such a tendency to berate myself or struggle under the weary heaviness of it all, forgetting that these are burdens! All I need do is come to Him. I can cast away my burdens and give them into His hands, and He will care for me and give me rest.

It is so often my heart that is my greatest burden, every time my humanity or this world in all its imperfections seems to much to bear. But God promises His strength in our weakness and His peace in our hearts.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." – Philippians 4:2 NKJV

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Notes on Worldbuilding: World-Growing ====

Worldbuilding appears to be much like conlanging. Before one goes making up a wild new detail, perhaps one ought to revisit the material already present and "grow" a new detail. In the case of developing modern banking, for example, one should look at the original methods of long-distance trade and commerce one has already developed and determine how this people would solve that problem, rather than turning solely to how Earth peoples have.

== Prose, June 2024 ==

=== 6/2/24 ===

They crossed Wa Shioke on the Lihuela-tsau Road, then turned seaward at the Iiyetretha Passage. Irya was a little surprised that they chose to walk the entire way, a twelve-day journey on foot, but said nothing about it, taking his turns to gather wood for evening fires and putting on food at the regular encampments. Truthfully, he hadn't taken this way before, and he wondered a little at taking it now.

Leshet lived up to her name, quiet and explaining little. Her husband Kosye told barracks stories, interesting tidbits of deployments aimed at enlivening dinner rather than revealing information. Irya too told stories and picked out images from the stars and didn't talk about the coastline ahead, altogether too verdant for winter.

Leshet caught him looking at it once. "When he does act," she said quietly, "he never does it by halves."

Irya considered that point for a long moment. "He who holds power over life and death?"

"Yes."

It was enough to realize that Leshet had encountered the high one before the events of the black rain. He considered asking her about it, but let the moment linger perhaps too long. She was nodding a goodnight and ducking into her tent.

They reached the Alhaies plain on the thirteenth day toward the end of the sun watch of the morning, approaching noon. The grassy fields were distinct from the farmland beyond them, a soil more crumbly and dry and less suited to growing crops. Instead, comfortably-sized homes were scattered across the plain, each perhaps twenty claws or so apart, and a winding dirt road darted and wove between them.

Leshet's was somewhere toward the middle of the plain. They passed under a copse of evergreen trees, their needles still hugging shivers of frost, though the dragon's breath winds had melted the rest off the ground. A garden sat in the front of the house, seeming properly winterized. He wondered if she paid a helper to maintain it when she was deployed. They passed between the northern and southern sections of the garden up the little cobbled walk to her front door, and she let them in to a surprisingly and pleasantly warm front entry.

"Shoes off," Kosye commented as he put his own boots against the wall.

Leshet glanced around and murmured, "It's good to be home."

== Prose, July 2024 ==

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Can You Bridge the Sea? ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni had been coming to every annual clans gathering since before he could remember. After all, his parents weren't the kind of people to turn down an opportunity to meet new people, form new social connections, nor when he was still a small child, from suggesting he do the same.

"Put down the book, dear child," his mother tucked her fingers into Ahima's hair and kissed the top of his head. "Go find someone to play with."

He was still small and young, but his mother's touch wasn't such a casual thing, for all he could sense the affection in it. He knew she was looping some thread of sensation she could detect and he could not that would alert her should he be in any kind of trouble at all.

There was no point in arguing. He set the book aside and wrapped it safely under his blanket, then went out into the encampment of his mother's clan, Doscht.

It was a sea of people, full of currents and tides that left him feeling dizzy as he turned this way and that, seeking some quiet eddy to settle in. There were none readily at hand. Certainly, there were groups of children playing in the open spaces where fires and tables were located between tents and pavilions, but they seemed no less hectic. He wondered which of the trees in sight might be safe to climb.

That was when a little boy appeared directly in front of him, dirty-faced and grinning and shorter than Ahima was, dark eyes seeming bright with friendliness. "Want to play?"

Ahima went still, his heartbeat thudding a little too intensely in his chest.

The little boy tapped his chest. "I'm Irya."

"Oh." Ahima forced his body to relax. "Ahima. What do you want to play?"

The grin came back and Irya pointed a good ways away from the crowd. "There's a good spot up there on the bridge."

The bridge had traffic, but it wasn't crowded the way the encampment was. Barely had he thought it, then Irya took him by the hand and Ahima found himself tugged insistently in that direction. It was an odd feeling, not as unpleasant as when his father held his shoulder and told him to say hello to his uncles and aunts and cousins, nor was it quite as inconsiderate of his own desires as his mother's admonitions to play, to talk to his classmates, and to participate in the neighborhood performance events.

Irya took him to the top of the bridge down the pedestrian walkway, a broad strip of paved stone with a tall fence between it and the vehicular lanes and a strip of grass, shrubs, and the occasional tree between it and the railing that looked down over the Stone's Heart River.

"I fished up here once with my dad," Irya told him, promptly climbing a tree, but keeping his knees below the railing, giving it a good side-eye for a moment.

Ahima chuckled to himself, certain Irya's mother had made the rule. "Do you have a pole?"

"Nope." Irya picked a fistful of late nuts off the tree, then shimmied back down, and looked pointedly at Ahima's hands. "Next time," Irya said.

Ahima held up his hands. Irya counted out half the nuts.

They didn't do anything rambunctious that boys their age were expected to. They sat down at the foot of the tree, pounded open nuts with a rock, much to Irya's dismay whenever Ahima actually smashed one to dust, then tossed rocks in the river and took turns climbing up other trees and shooting shells at each other.

A bright horn sounded over the splashing river below as the light began to turn a dusky blue. Irya grimaced. "We should head back."

Ahima nodded but stayed up in the branches a moment longer, straining to see the small boat come into view from which the horn was sounding. "It sounds like my grandfather bellowing in the evening."

Irya giggled. "Don't worry. I won't tell him."

Ahima would have been lost getting back, but Irya grabbed his hand once they were both on the ground and dove through the crowds wending their way back to campsites, ducking and dragging Ahima with him below the arms of adults, and squeezing between people that probably really hadn't left enough room. It was fun, in a way. Like Ahima and Irya were in their own world. Then Irya deposited him right where he'd found him and waved cheerily before he darted away into the stream of people, like a bright little sunfish in the water.

"Who was that?" Ahima's mother asked before he'd even ducked under the tent flap.

"A friend," Ahima answered without thinking, before he suddenly thought better of it.

But his father patted his head and his mother smiled, and he packed away the unpleasant feeling it gave him before they sat down to eat.

<hr>

Irya found him the next morning. Ahima certainly wouldn't have been able to return the favor.

But he couldn't help but laugh. "Are you ever clean?" Ahima asked.

Irya scoffed. "I'm playing. What's the point of coming to gathering early if you don't look around a bit?"

It was true that the swearing ceremonies weren't until tomorrow, but Ahima hadn't ever thought about it. What was there to look at? He glanced around at the rousing families, so many of them with tasks and errands and plans, like a rising tide of the sea. Ahima didn't hate the sea, but he didn't understand it. It overwhelmed him.

"I suppose so," he said.

Irya cocked his head, looking puzzled, but sat down and helped himself to a bite of fruit off Ahima's plate.

"Rude," Ahima commented without heat.

"I fed you first." Irya grinned and handed Ahima a roll, still warm and soft.

"Ah, so is this your friend?" Ahima's mother's voice had always been lovely, soft and warm and friendly. Ahima stiffened at the sound of it.

Irya waved, cheery tilt to his mouth. "I'm Tsadirya-kolos," he announced and dipped his head respectfully.

"It's very nice to meet you," she replied, still warmly. "Are you neighbors with us?" A slight gesture toward the campsites nearby.

He shook his head. "I'm from Ginieng. May I please have some of that?" he asked, giving an appraising look at the non-empty fruit platter they were serving breakfast from.

"Of course." Ahima's mother smiled, but he knew she was a little startled by Irya's statement. Taannongar wasn't exactly adjacent to Doscht's clan land allotment. "Your parents let you wander a great deal, do they?"

Irya swallowed down far too big a bite to clear his mouth to answer. "Yes, ma'am. May I please take Ahima to go play?"

Ahima was surprised at how sparse the answer was, but true to form, she gave her permission, and Irya dragged Ahima off, this time past the bounds of their encampment area and into a small park where Ahima knew they'd broadcast the ceremonies tomorrow but didn't allow camping. It was relatively quiet today, the roaring sea of humanity across a rather broad thoroughfare.

Ahima wasn't entirely certain why Irya had brought him, but he appreciated the quiet as they played tag and chase and how far can you throw it without anybody else bothering them. Visitors would wander through but in small quantities and easily avoidable. Irya finagled a band name out of Ahima, "So I can send you a letter?" "A public letter?" Ahima asked, horrified, and gave him his exact address. "Those are more expensive," Irya complained but Ahima just dug around in his pockets for extra solgu to give him. His mother always made sure he had at least some money on him.

Irya laughed and waved him off. "No, I can't take your money. But you better write back. Especially if I'm paying for private."

"Sure," Ahima promised without knowing why entirely. Irya was fun, but they hardly knew each other. "Why did you come over to Doschtongar?" he asked after a long moment.

Irya blinked, screwing up his mouth thoughtfully, then, "I'd like to see the territories someday. All of them. I figure until I can, I want to meet people from them."

It wasn't what Ahima had expected, he realized suddenly. He'd had some sort of expectation. He sat down next to Irya. "They're all people, just like each other." He'd seen a lot of the territories so far.

But Irya shrugged. "But all people are different."

And Ahima really wasn't sure what to make of that.

<hr>

He found his book safely under the blanket and read until his father snuffed out the light on them. It was a story about a little boy who always seemed to know just what to say, just what to do–with the grumpy turtle who could help him cross the stream, and the conniving fox who could guide him through the dark forest, and the powerful tiger who could lead him home over the mountain. And in the end, he went home.

"I'm glad you found a friend," his mother said before Ahima fell asleep.

<hr>

Ahima was ten the first time his parents were going to visit one of his friends. He tucked himself against the window of the rotorcraft and looked out at the green and golden fields below, the patches of dark where water flowed. He liked the roar of the blades drowning out their conversation. He liked the feeling of all that expanse to get lost in, where nothing else seemed to matter until it was time to set down on the earth again.

Irya's family lived far up the mountains in Ginieng. Ahima had looked it up when he'd gotten home in the great big encyclopedia his parents kept on the lower bookshelves, and traced fingers over the map. He'd been surprised they had their own platforms, but they could fly right there without having to stop in the northern valley and drive up.

Irya's father met them to walk them back to the house. He was tall and imposing, with not even the hint of a smile about his soldier-like demeanor, not at all what Ahima would've expected Irya's dad to be like, but he bowed politely and clearly gave his greetings before following close between his parents to do the same for Irya's mother. She had more expression to her face, laughter and frown lines both, but she smiled for them and hoped their trip had been pleasant and invited them into the calendar room for tea.

Irya popped up as if by magic behind his father. "Can I take Ahima now?"

His father picked him up by his waist and swung him over one shoulder. "Excuse our uncivilized offspring."

"Not at all." But Ahima's mother was clearly taken aback by the rough handling.

"Sorry, sorry," Irya said, voice muffled by his father's shirt.

He got set down and turned around, then bowed low to Ahima's parents. "Apologies. Greetings and I hope you had safe travels. May I please take Ahima now?"

Ahima's father laughed outright. "Yes, of course. Ah..." to Irya's parents: "I see you have a handful."

Ahima didn't mind being whisked away to Irya's small bedroom off the family room. It was crammed full of odds and ends on built-in shelves, and most of the room had been paneled in a medium-dark wood, with some decorative tapestries hanging in a few corners next to taped up posters. Irya flopped back on his bed and sighed, then popped up on one arm. "My parents think you're really polite."

Ahima raised his eyebrows. He was really polite, having been trained that way for as long as he could remember. "I brought you something." He held out the can his uncle had helped him with.

Irya held it up to eye it speculatively. "Noodle soup?"

"It's a Doscht dish." Slightly modified.

Irya worked over the lid for a moment, then tried a sip, nearly spitting it right back out. "Carbonated?!" He gave can and Ahima a double take, then laughed. "Why? Just why?"

Ahima leaned back against Irya's wall. "My uncle gave me some. It's not that bad."

"Does your uncle like you?" Irya asked mystified, then tried another sip before setting the can aside. "You are dangerous."

Ahima smiled back at him.

<hr>

Ahima stayed in Irya's room. Irya's sister was much quieter than Irya, curled up in a corner with a book herself most of the time, but after introducing them the first day, Irya didn't really give him an opportunity to go ask what she was reading. They spent most of the days outside, climbing trees, and playing by the river, and teaching Ahima to river fish, which was sufficiently different than sea-fishing to be interesting. Irya talked his dad into teaching Ahima how to whittle then whiled away several afternoons carving up likely looking wood branches and sticks.

Sometimes at night, when Irya had tumbled off into dreams beside him, Ahima would slip out of bed to go listen quietly to their parents' conversations. It wasn't entirely surprising Ahima's mother had approved of their friendship so easily; not only had Ahima been much slower to make friends than they wished, but Irya's parents were depressingly important in their band. His mother was head of the Giyande Guard. Ahima's mother would never turn down a valuable social connection like that.

"He's such a good and pleasant child. I hope he'll swear after me."

"Children never quite turn out the way we expect," Irya's mother replied. "I thought for sure my oldest son would take after me, but it's my second daughter who did. Ahima is a sweet kid though."

"So Irya won't be swearing after you?" Ahima's father asked.

"It doesn't seem likely," Irya's father answered. "He has... other talents."

Ahima got up then and went back to bed, tossing an arm over Irya's waist and burying his face in his back. Irya's breathing didn't change, and Ahima didn't think he even realized how nice his parents were, even when they weren't polite.

<hr>

Ahima had known for as long as he could remember the kinds of hopes his parents cherished for him. Stop reading, Ahima. Go make friends. Say hello to your aunts and uncles and cousins. If you must read, read this book of etiquette. You'll find it useful where we're going. Try to make some friends.

His mother was the bridge-maker of their band, and Ahima was her only son.

He was whittling away at a piece of wood, turning it into a frowning face with little wrinkles at the corners of its eyes, when his own eyes fell to the mark on his right arm that marked the potential contract with one of his mother's high ones. He had several marks, everyone did, but he was fairly certain this one was the one that let her talk effortlessly with anyone, say the right thing, do the right thing, make everyone happy. Inherited contracts had to be confirmed, everyone knew that, and everyone knew that contracts were usually confirmed when someone was in great danger.

Ahima didn't really think it through; he wasn't sure he'd been thinking at all. He'd been whittling, then he put the knife to his mark, as if he could cut it right off his arm, and he wanted it gone–or he wanted it real and active, and he didn't really know what he wanted; he only knew it hurt, terribly, and he dropped the knife and caught great gasping breaths against the bleeding pain, and suddenly, the entire forest changed.

The air went thick and heavy, a pressure too great to stand up under and Ahima felt the low growl of a creature too enormous and powerful to be an ordinary creature, threaded through with biting pinprick of a sharp blade cutting through him, and a heavy white mist wreathing the ground.

Irya was there, suddenly, yelling at him, wrapping his arms around him, and shoving his body right through him, so Ahima's arm was entirely overlapped by Irya's torso. It should have felt strange but Ahima just felt immobile and numb, the faintest flutter, then Irya pulled back and Ahima's arm was no longer afire with pain. He was covered in blood but the skin, and the mark on it, were both completely restored.

He stared at it for the longest time, even as the intense pressure of the high ones' presence faded and Irya's yelling began to penetrate his brain again. Ahima looked up at Irya. "Why did you do that?"

Irya shut up so abruptly, it might have made Ahima laugh under any other circumstance. Irya blinked furiously, as if in disbelieving confusion. "Why?"

There was a long moment when they both stared at each other, shocked into silence, then Irya shook himself forcefully, grabbed Ahima's shoulder, and propelled him back in the direction of the house. "We're going inside, and you're drinking tea."

Ahima let himself be yanked along, let himself be bundled into blanket and comfy chair and tea. Irya clearly needed to do something with him, so Ahima let him do it with a sense of wonder he didn't bother to self-assess. Someone's high ones had come. They just hadn't been Ahima's.

<hr>

A woodcarving accident. Ahima was banned from doing any more whittling unsupervised, and he didn't question it, didn't explain, didn't correct. He still didn't really know what in the world he'd been thinking when he'd done it, and he didn't want his parents to realize that it hadn't been an accident at all.

Irya fussed over him, tucking him in at night, and then letting Ahima lean his head on his shoulder as they went to sleep. Irya didn't ask any more questions, though Ahima was sure he had them. He didn't ask Irya why he refrained either.

So many things said, unsaid. Perhaps it was easier for everyone to just let it go.

<hr>

"How many siblings do you actually have?"

Irya was busy cooking Ginieng-style noodle soup in a pot. "There's five of us. My eldest sister and brother are married, and second sister's training in the guard."

"That sounds nice." Ahima wondered what it would be like to have siblings, to never have to be the one that took after a parent. He glanced over at the fireplace where Irya's sister Uniemi was close to finishing another book.

"Hand me that stuff." Irya waved commandingly.

Ahima handed over the carbonated water and watched Irya dump it in the pot.

"Don't worry," Irya said, grinning broadly. "I'll be your brother."

They watched the soup bubble a bit. Brother. Ahima felt that word sink inside him and bubble a bit before he could relax into the idea of it.

"You're going to be in so much trouble," Ahima told him.

Irya giggled and poured the soup into bowls.

==== The Last Boy ====

Ten-year-old Cody had headphones on. There was nothing playing, not that his father noticed. He listened to his parents discuss quietly in the kitchen getting him out of the way for their vacation, then their business. Wouldn’t a proper boarding school be good? No bother at Christmas.

He listened to the background music of their indifference, hunched shoulders on the couch, undone homework in his lap, and pretended he didn’t know they didn’t love him.

<hr>

Cody came out of the taxi looking worse for wear, scruffy black hair hanging in the way of wary eyes, backpack worn like armor, and an apathetic flat frown in place when he stood before the cottage his parents had just sent him to stay in.

He was a second cousin, nothing special and never particularly loved. Except… that wasn’t entirely true. His papa had loved him once, before he became “Father,” retreating ever more distant and cold into his work.

“You must be Cody. Come on in.”

He took in Cassie’s warm, bright smile as she stood on the front porch to welcome him, but he didn’t believe it.

Cassie was fifteen years old when Cody came to live with them. Cody was ten. He was the last boy, all the rest having come or even left before his arrival. When she went in to tell Mama Ruth that he had safely arrived and was settling into his room, she was not wearing a smile.

“Do all of our family members marry deadbeats?” she asked, sneering bitterness on her tongue. It came out with more heat and venom than she usually allowed herself to express.

Mama Ruth shut up dinner in the oven again, turned off the heat, and came to wrap Cassie in one of those enveloping hugs that made her feel like it shut out all the world. She held on, trying not to cry.

Mama Ruth patted her on the back. “It’s going to be okay. He’s here now, and we’re going to be here for him.”

“Yeah.” Cassie nodded as she pulled away.

It sounded so easy. She knew already from long experience with all the rest of their strays, it really wasn’t easy at all.

Skip slid in socked feet across the wooden entryway with a whoop and shoved a camera in the vague direction of the stairwell. Before it even got into position, a hand shoved it down rather forcefully. Skip blinked in surprise.

Cody scowled at him. “Don’t,” he said, narrowed eyes, cutting tone.

Skip cocked his head at him, read him for the briefest of glances with a serious expression, then smiled so brightly it could make one wonder if the moment had happened. He spread his arms wide. “Welcome!”

Cody didn’t say so, but he didn’t like it.

<hr>

Light cut through the morning. Cassie had been waiting for that. She threw open her cousin’s door and got back a baleful glare under his crazy bedhead.

She grinned cheerfully. Up, up, up!

<hr>

“Cody’s not feeling well.”

“I’m fine.” Cody scowled from where he was curled up on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, and watching a movie he couldn’t quite seem to focus on.

Song glanced over, eyebrows up in surprise. She gave Mama Ruth a tiny flash of a smile then came over to the couch and sat down next to Cody.

He stiffened in surprise of his own.

Arm around his shoulders, leaned on her while they watched the movie

<hr>

food
playing (violin)
brought him tea
dragged CJ in to clear room

Cody: Thanks
CJ: So you’re the new stray
Song: closes door on him
CJ: See where I rank
Song smiles, amused

<hr>

In trouble for fighting because insulting Song

<hr>

Song brought him back from school

Mama Ruth can’t do those things

Of course

Song: You can’t do those things.

Why?

I love you because God taught me how.

Reads Bible when she’s gone

<hr>

The folder was labeled simply:

Violin.

He took Song’s music, put it in the queue, sat on the couch, and hit play.

=== 7/21/24 ===

==== 3 Times It Was Way Too Quiet and 1 Time It Was Way Too Loud ====

"It's too quiet." Noah sat up in the bed and looked around at the still, dark bedroom, listening for any sounds of tiny feet beyond the door.

His wife Grace groaned and buried her face in the pillow. "It's 5 a.m. It's supposed to be quiet."

"I don't trust it."

Grace squinted up at him a moment. "Well, it's your turn." Then she rolled over and went back to sleep.

Noah sighed and got himself up to go check the kids' bedrooms. Empty rumpled covers. His instincts hadn't been wrong, but he still wasn't sure which way they'd gone. He headed for the living room where it looked like three little someones had set up a bookshelf—did they even have spare bookshelves?— on a stack of books as a makeshift seesaw. He barely had time to note the three cherubic faces of his kids and open his mouth to ask what they were up to before the shelf sawed and his face met a yowling, claws-out cat.

The collective gasp of the children did not make him feel any better.

It took a few minutes to order them to stay put, calm the cat, and wipe off the bloody scratches in the kitchen sink, before coming back around to stare meaningfully down at them. "Do you want to explain yourselves?"

"Uh..."

Luke, the six-year-old eldest, his sister Emmie, the four-year-old, and open-mouthed Matthew, their two-year-old brother, clearly did not want to explain themselves.

The cat had meanwhile thoroughly attached itself to Noah’s shoulders and hissed at them.

"Well, we heard cats always land on their feet," Luke began.

Noah’s eyebrows shot up. "So you decided to test the theory?"

Matthew nodded, Emmie tucked her head behind Luke, and Luke grimaced, clearly knowing that was the wrong answer.

“And if I dropped you from five feet in the air and you landed on your feet, wouldn’t it still hurt?”

“Uh…” Very thoughtful little furrowed brows followed.

“The Bible tells us that godly people take care of their animals.” Noah pulled the cat gently down into his arms. She continued to eye the kids balefully. “You need to be considerate of living beings,” Noah emphasized.

Luke frowned. “Even spiders?”

Noah was no fan of spiders. He conceded, “Living beings bigger than bugs.”

Emmie looked dubious, but Luke nodded readily at this much happier state of affairs. He was even less a fan of spiders than his dad.

Noah supervised their cleaning up and laid down some new rules as regards getting permission before running experiments.

<hr>

"Can we get a refund?" he asked, much later, much exhausted.

"No! I love my babies!" Grace eyed him dubiously.

"I love our babies too,” he protested. “But…”

“You wouldn't trade them for anything,” she reminded him.

He sighed. “No, I wouldn't, but you didn't eat a cat's claws for breakfast."

Grace did an admirable job of trying not to laugh. “Well, still no.”

<hr>

A few days later, Grace checked that the kids were all safely occupied with their books and blocks before whisking off the next batch of clean laundry from laundry room to bedroom. She could hear the lull of their conversation and it was only a moment.

Then it got quiet. Too quiet.

Grace groaned and hurried back to where she’d left them not two minutes prior. One and all had relocated from their corner of the living room.

She looked in the kitchen. They were not in the kitchen. She looked down the hallway, and they were not in the hallway. She poked her head back in the laundry room and immediately declared, “Luke! Emmie!”

She bent down and pulled Matthew back out of the dryer and realized abruptly he was soaking wet.

“Children. What did you do?”

“Uh…” Luke always seemed to know when the true answer was not going to fly as the right answer.

Emmie cheerfully announced, “Matthew got wet, so we were going to dry him.”

Grace kept a very straight face, cuddled her youngest child protectively, then carefully explained to them that it was not safe to “dry” a child the way one would laundry. “Next time, just come get me.”

“Yes, Mommy,” Emmie answered promptly.

Luke poked his head in the dryer. “It always looks so fun though.”

“No,” Grace said firmly. “You will never run yourself or any other living creature through the washer or dryer.”

Luke sighed. “Yes, Mom.”

<hr>

“Where do children come up with these ideas?” she asked Noah much later, much exhausted. She’d had to extend the proscription to all household appliances after they’d tried to vacuum up some dirt off of Emmie’s shirt with rather undesirable results.

Noah did a much less admirable job of not laughing. “I think they get it from you. I’m sure I never did that growing up.”

She threw a pillow at his head. “Don’t make me call your mother and ask her.”

He conceded the battle promptly, holding up his hands for peace. “I’m sure you were the soul of discretion as a child. Clearly, they’re innovators.”

<hr>

The next night, it was not too quiet. It was not quiet at all. A great series of thumps and bangs brought both parents out of their bed to the living room where the cherub-faced little innovators had managed to bring down the entire bookcase full of books and were industriously building a fort.

Grace looked at Noah. “Your turn.” She headed back for bed.

Noah braced himself and sat down next to the kids, who all paused and looked at him with curious expressions. Except Matthew. He was chewing on a book cover.

Noah rescued the book and put Matthew in his lap.

“You know,” he started, “your mom’s carrying your little sister, and she’s really tired and needs her sleep.”

“Were we too loud?” Emmie asked.

“Yes. It’s late at night. You’re supposed to be in bed, *asleep*, not bringing down the house, so your mom and I will worry, and then have to clean it up in the morning.”

Luke fidgeted uncomfortably. Emmie’s face fell. “I’m sorry, Daddy.” Luke nodded along with that.

“It’s okay. Let’s get the three of you to bed.” He decided to worry later about how much of that went into Matthew’s head and focused on tucking the three back in under their covers, ordering them gently to *stay there* until morning.

Mercifully and perhaps providentially, they did.

<hr>

But when morning did come, he sat up in bed and said, “It’s too quiet.”

It was Grace’s “turn”, but he didn’t wake her up. He got out of bed and went to check on the kids—who were once again, not in their beds.

He checked in the bathroom. No kids. Down the hallway. No kids. In the kitchen. No kids and no stepladder. The living room.

Three cute little kids sneaking around the living room quietly, exaggeratedly hushing each other at intervals, as they put all the books back on the shelves. Matthew sat next to a stack and handed one over as the older kids grabbed them one at a time, climbed up the stepladder, set the book in place, then came down for another.

Noah watched for a moment, then went back in the kitchen and made a tray of milk and cookies. When the kids noticed him coming in with it, their eyes lit up and they quickly abandoned their work for a cookie break. Matthew climbed up into his lap.

“Thanks, Daddy!”

He wiped the crumbs off Emmie’s face and rubbed Luke’s head. “You know I wouldn’t trade you kids for anything.”

=== 7/29/24 ===

==== Where Memory Walks ====

Memory walks beside her, though she doesn't court it. Leshet wakes to the electric tang familiar to her as breathing.

Tayas, she greets through her device.

She feels then his sleepy, just awakened attention. Leshet. A pause, then the sharp prickling of his interest. Has something happened? He's intelligence now. He no longer turns to electricity on the battlefield.

It is memory beside her, not her friend.

No, she sends back. Just good morning.

He's always been sharp, even before he became intelligence. She knows he does not believe her.

But he answers anyway, Well, good morning to you, too.

<hr>

A light rain sprang up as they began to break camp; white mists curled off the ground. Leshet paused to stare up at the cloudy skies.

It tasted wrong. Nitrates that weren't Tayas, rain that wasn't Mokhein.

Vetta came to stand beside her. He said nothing to break the moment, just waited with her. He'd always been a good kid. Mokheyenn's descendent. He'd always been more like his grandfather than his grandmother, a storm without her thunder.

Leshet looked at him then, the white hair he'd inherited from both sides, the frost on his breath from Mokhein. "Curun," she called him by his band name.

But he wasn't here as her squad leader. "Sometimes I think about her too."

He'd always been a good kid. Leshet patted his shoulder and went to help break camp.

<hr>

Leshet had been elite since before Ameri raised this stretch of mountains. She helped to lay this path they're patrolling through them, on their way to the next watchpoint. She'd been bred for it, raised to it, married in it. She sometimes wondered if she knew how to be anything else.

A walk through the rain and mists of another white spring. Her unit stayed watchful and alert, eyes open for enemies that would likely not appear.

There were still enemies sometimes on the northern border circuit, raiders from beyond Northland and the Hilakhot clans, but in the mountains of the southern border, there was only tension, not real skirmishes or war. There was enough space in the familiar winds for memory to settle into the spaces where her former companions and their former war used to fit. The air seemed to vibrate with the singing tension of Saiyar's power. Tayas, the storm. Mokhein, the rain. Saiyar, the rumbling in the earth and a symphony of winds. There were others, flickering like shadows through her heart.

She looked ahead to those who stood beside her now, bumped her shoulder lightly against her husband's arm. He didn't make a big thing out of it. He just lightly bumped her back.

<hr>

They made camp at another waypoint, set a fire, divided their watches. Leshet and her husband, Vetta and his combat partner Anae went up first, finding the usual spots to face outward, guardians against whatever enemies might choose to come.

Are you tired?

Usually Tayas didn't call her at random moments, let alone opening with random questions. Especially, when he should know she was standing watch.

Did you need something? She managed not to infuse the send with too much amusement.

He likely heard it anyway, the analyst in him difficult to evade. I promise, it's relevant.

It gave her pause. What trouble was Tayas going to drop on her now?

But did it truly matter? She looked out from their mountains toward the distant plains, and she answered, No.

=== 9/1/24 ===

==== Find Me in the Snow ====

Under every story lies the sea.

<hr>

Uniemi's brother Irya always ran around like a wild child, in her eyes. Grinning so brightly his eyes disappeared into half-moon shapes, he threw himself into every unnecessary task he ever set for himself.

She'd seen him scramble up the huge trunks of ancient trees to fetch down his mother's favorite flowers, nearly giving their mother conniptions, though it wasn't their mother's face that gave it away, but rather the pained lining to her grateful smiles and the later rules on what constituted safe climbing. She'd seen him skip across the river, raging with fresh snowmelt, from boulder to boulder before their father found out and banned river-crossing until it went back down in summer. She'd seen Irya run around every gathering, crossing miles in a day, weary and dirty but triumphant with another new friend from some distant clan before their father hosed him off in cold water before bed.

In short, Uniemi had figured out a long time ago that her little brother was the least likely of all five children of the family to ever reach adulthood.

<hr>

Their parents' voices were very quiet as they shooed the children into their sister's house and over to the fireplace, but Uniemi and Irya were never particularly likely to sit out of hearing range when bad things seemed afoot. It was unusual enough to trek over to their sister's house in the middle of the night, let alone when snow had begun to fall on the mountain. Traveling could become treacherous rather quickly.

Irya snuck over to the bedroom and put his ear to the door. Uniemi honestly didn't wait very far behind him.

"She got so sick so fast," their older sister Yuni said, a faint thread of fear underlying her voice. "We're out of snowflowers and haven't found any yet this year."

Uniemi and Irya exchanged glances. The winter fever had always been treated with snowflower tea. If you caught it quickly enough, it wasn't fatal, but that window was terribly short.

"We can try to take her to the hospital," their father said.

"It's not safe to travel," their mother answered shortly.

The distance between the two houses was relatively short, a trek across the town of Ginieng. The hospital was a whole town over, dangerous in a snowstorm.

The two children went back over to the fire before their parents could come out and find them eavesdropping.

Uniemi shivered, the book she'd brought with her no longer comforting. Their niece was just a few months old. Taking her out in this weather would be as risky as trying to ride out the fever.

Irya grimaced. "I found snowflowers the other day."

Uniemi lifted her head, alarmed. "Where?" Snowflowers grew up tall trees he had no business climbing under their mother's new rules.

"I didn't climb up and grab them," Irya told her. "I just saw them."

"Oh. You have to tell father then. He can go look for them."

<hr>

Irya was too young to be dragged into this, his father's face said when he told him. Too young to brave the growing blizzard outside. He frowned at the window. "Dress warm," he said.

Irya put on all the layers his mother fished out of the closet for him. His marriage brother's coat was bigger than Irya's but "better awkward than frozen," his mother said.

His father took him by the hand, big glove swallowing Irya's smaller one, and startling him. His father hadn't held his hand since he was only four gatherings old, half the age he was now.

"Don't let go," his father told him.

He nodded. "Yes, father."

The wind nearly blew him over when they first walked out the door. He clung to his father's hand as they began the slow, difficult trek into the woods, Irya trying his hardest to serve as a faithful guide.

He couldn't see, he could barely feel his fingers. Being named for the snow certainly seemed to give him no advantage in it. But he thought of his sister and her tiny child, gripped his father's hand, and kept pushing onward.

His father pulled him to one side to avoid a rock he couldn't see, carefully kept him close, and Irya was glad he wasn't out here alone. He'd never felt his mountain so cold and alien and unfriendly to him before this night. But that feeling also seemed to make it harder to remember the way. He had to pause frequently and try to figure out the way he went. He'd mutter into his device his father had put in his ear a year ago and his father would answer back, but they couldn't hear each other's voices over the gale, only through the device, and the effect was equally disorienting.

Slowly, they reached the deeper woods, trees taller, branches thick with drifts of snow upon them. Irya got buried under one sliding off and his father had to drag him sputtering out from under it.

They walked more carefully, even boots providing only so much grip where ice had slicked on rocky surfaces and Irya felt tendrils of fear at not knowing how close the river was.

His teeth were starting to chatter. He held onto his father's hand like a lifeline, tried to crane his head to see, but all he could see was darkness and swirls of white in the freezing winds. "I don't know," he said suddenly into his device. "I don't know where we are."

His father picked him up suddenly, holding him close for a long moment. Irya felt like a tiny lost child and it was embarrassing, but he pressed his cold face against his father's warm neck and held on for as long as the moment lasted.

"Talk to me," his father said.

He meant more than that, Irya was sure, so Irya told him again about where he'd gone when he'd found the flowers, about how they'd been up in the nook of two great branches hanging over the river, so he hadn't climbed up to fetch them down. It was against the rules.

The whisper of a grimace through the device, a sensation that was always odd when it wasn't words, but right now, it was comforting to know his father was listening.

He set Irya down and carefully pointed him a little further to the leftward path. "Let's keep going."

<hr>

Uniemi tried not to fret. She read her book to drown out the world while her mother and Yuni carefully didn't talk about the baby fussing, just talked about Yuni's husband's deployment and when he'd be back, about their plans for the spring, about anything except father and Irya out in the snow.

The world was still inside Uniemi's heart. She couldn't drown it out.

<hr>

Irya looking back could never figure out how he got separated from his father. One moment, he had his hand tightly engulfed in his father's. The next, he'd stumbled and come loose. He scrambled right back up but couldn't find his father, couldn't hear him over the yelling winter winds, couldn't see him in the dark. He called over his device and heard, "Where are you?" but even answering, couldn't find him.

For too many frozen moments, he stood still so his father could find him. "I'm here, I'm here." But then he looked up at the great tree trunk beside him and went quiet. He recognized its shape, the twist of the great branch stretching out toward the river, the even larger one stretched out beside it.

He got up. He reached for the branch. "I found it."

"Irya, I'm coming."

And he should have waited perhaps to climb the branches, but the flowers were right there, and he climbed up before he could think to not, gingerly inched his way along their length, and felt for the lowest part of the stems. Snowflowers only bloomed in winter. They were the strangest of flowers, but their cold, lovely blues and whites would also heal.

He gathered them up, then shimmied carefully down the tree, dizzy with grateful relief, right before he slammed into something sharp and hard and painful and fell.

<hr>

Irya lay on the cold, snow-packed ground, shadows of dark trees overhead, breathing the knife-sharp cold of the air, pinpricks of snow hitting his face before they went numb. Night on the mountain, a blizzard swirling over his eyes, what should have been a roaring pain in his middle where he'd rammed himself sticky and bloody into a tree branch he couldn't see just moments ago.

Time slowed down, the treasure clutched in his fist somehow meaning both more and less than it once had, right when he'd chosen to go out into the storm. He needed the snowflowers for his tiny niece. He didn't know how he could possibly get up and trek back to his sister's house to give them to her.

His heart felt unbearably loud in his body. Each breath was a struggle. He closed his eyes, trying to find more strength somewhere in his body, and that's when he noticed the thread.

You're hurt, something like a voice echoed through him, more sensation than word, greater than the wind and fiercer, a low humming growl burning in his bones.

He opened his eyes then, but he didn't see anything different from the swirls of white and shadows above.

Do you want our power? another voice-like sensation drifted through him, expanded like mists, cool through his limbs.

He's so young to ask that, a third spoke, softer and more delicate than either of the other two, barely a distant chiming note. But I cannot heal him without it.

Sorrow in the low humming growl of who he suddenly realized was the tiger, that great hunter patron of his people. You can never turn aside.

Irya clutched at that voice, his empty hand reaching out as if he could catch her by the paw. "Please," he said, breaking the word into more syllables than it needed, trying to get it out over the pain and the panting breaths he could manage. Please. My sister's little girl. Please.

Is that what you want? asked the gentle chime, its bright note swelling and swelling, brighter, higher. You must always honor the faithful, that note sang.

You must make right whatever you can make right, added the overwhelming expansive mist.

You must never turn aside, growled the tiger.

Irya stared up through the impossible numb weightlessness of the too cold night. He couldn't speak it, only think it, so he thought it with all the strength he had left. Yes.

The wind grew quiet. The snow became calm upon the drifts, no longer swirling over his head. The pain in his body faded, and the numbness went sharp and stinging.

You may call us, if you ever need us, the expanse within him said.

Another ringing chime. But I don't think you often will.

The feeling of them receded, a heavy weight lifted. Irya forced himself to stand. He clutched the snowflowers to his chest and looked for some sign of which direction to go.

<hr>

His father found him first. An arm grabbed him up before he knew what hit him and he gasped, but then the piney scent of his father's great coat hit him, and Irya grabbed hold. "I got the snowflowers," he told his father.

His father didn't answer, just tightened his grip and trekked back through the tall drifts of crystalline white. His mouth was tight, almost a frown.

Irya didn't press. His father had heard him. He put his head on his father's shoulder and fell asleep.

<hr>

Uniemi stared as their father carried Irya into the house and gently peeled a wilted bunch of flowers out of Irya's hand and passed it to their mother.

Their mother's face was very grim, but she took them and went to the kitchen. The clang of the teapot soon followed.

Their father set Irya down by the fire and carefully undid the torn and bloody coat while Uniemi gripped her book tight enough to hurt. "Is he–"

"Alive," their father said, curt. He rubbed one hand over Irya's unbroken skin beneath the equally bloody hole in his shirt. "A blanket."

Uniemi fetched a blanket and covered Irya with it.

In the background, a baby wailed, then calmed, and perhaps she should just be grateful that everyone was alive.

Morning brought more questions and finally some answers. Irya popped up like an unlikely snowflower himself, eating his breakfast with his usual irrepressible cheer, feet knocking against the table leg, and Uniemi had never resented having to worry about him so hard as she did in that moment.

"What were you thinking?" she demanded.

"Something I'd also like to know," their mother said quiet but stern.

Yuni said nothing but rocked her happy, sleeping baby as if the terrifying illness of last night was just a dream.

Irya glanced over at Yuni and then back to his porridge, suddenly quiet himself. He shrugged. "I asked the tiger for help."

Silence covered the table a moment. "I see," their father said at last. "That explains a few things."

A few. Not the choice in the first place, though Uniemi could understand it. Why couldn't he have waited just a little longer? Would it even have made a difference? a smaller, more worried part of her wondered more.

She muttered viciously into her porridge, "It didn't have to be you."

Irya just looked at her a moment, then stuffed another spoonful in his mouth. The odd-patterned tap of his kicking resumed.

Easy for him to be happy. Easy for him to go risking his life for somethings and nothings and Uniemi got herself up and washed her bowl and walked outside onto the snowy front porch step, almost surprised her parents didn't stop her. But they understood both their children and always had. They understood the need to sacrifice and protect, and Uniemi surprised herself by beginning to cry.

I want to protect, she said, hand sliding down her own stomach to lie over the mark that rested there. I want to be able to find him if he ever does something stupid again, she added. I want to be able to stop someone from dying.

A soft wind, a faint ringing sound, a low roar as of a sea.

She listened inside herself for the terms, the strictures of what would be her life forevermore. Yes, she answered, hearing them, then gave her name. I will be faithful.

== December 2024 ==

=== Poetry ===

==== #1 ====

a morning spot of tea 
a sunlit patch of happy 
to start my cheerful day 
in the rightmost way

==== #2 ====

You are the God who saves 
You are the God who holds 
You are the God who made 
You are the God who knows

You are the God who protects 
You are the God who shields 
You are the God who perfects 
You are the God who reveals

==== #3 ====

am I defined by the shape of my wounds? 
can I ever be healed and made new again? 
light the lights that signal [fine home? fire how?] 
lost in the dark, but my God Christ 
You always find lost souls 
come and find me 
come find me here and now 
I'm looking for the lights and rowing home

I hung my heart on... 
help me hang my heart on You
empty me out 
fill me with You

all who call on You are saved 
all who seek You find

I'm lost God 
come find me 
come fill me

==== #4 ====

ah, how the flood breaks! 
my heart! 
let it tremble and shake! 
let the seas roar 
and the winds sigh 
and the mountains shiver 
and the doves cry

find where the soul is buried 
where my heart mourns 
where all my grief is given 
and hope waits to be born

=== Game Design ===

==== Tableau? ====

Discard - Round - Card - Card - Card
Discard - First - 1 - 2 - 3
Discard - Second - 1 - 2 - 3
Discard - Third - 1 - 2 - 3

==== Set Collection ====

when you collect a set, you place the card on its board location then place your meeple on top if no meeple

you may take your meeple back but the cards stay

if you collect a set for a meepled location, you place the card but do not change the meeple

there are a limited number of card choices per turn

VP is the points on cards under your meeples at game end

how paid for? reserve? if 2/? cost gathered, you can use a turn to reserve a card; only 1 card can be reserved by each player at any time

=== Art Stuff for BP ===

Daniel Smith gouache 
warm RBY 
cool RBY 
lightfast

cool cyan / cerulean 
warm ultramarine

yellow ochre 
burnt / raw umber 
white

cadmium red 
magenta LF 
cadmium yellow 
lemon yellow

Tracker: Notebook 2024

2025-10-28T11:38:53Z

Lianamir: /* 9/1/24 */

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:35:44Z

Lianamir: /* August 2023 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== January 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 6:51 AM ====
the only one that matters won't recognize my face. you should go though

me?

they don't like dealing through representatives lower than your rank

are you sure you shouldn't come along then? seeing as you know the culture

I'm not abandoning you, affectionately

Joem wanted to protest the sudden role reversal, being treated like a child in need of encouragement or comfort. He refrained when he realized he was somewhat acting like one

...

I don't understand your relationship with my father

You will one day without my needing to explain it

That answer won't get you out of every question I ask.

I'll keep that in mind

Beram studied him for a long moment, taking in this side of him. Usually Sata answered all of his questions that weren't about who Beram really was, and he generally didn't show Beram his cold face. (After all, Beram's dark face would only rarely make an appearance and hadn't yet in this life.)

So he smiled, warmly, became the person he was for his lover, not his child. "It really is too complicated." There were too many things tied up in the concept of his almost children, especially when he didn't share them with Beram.

His difficult, precious, demanding children. He would never have children of his essence. It made the children of his power all the more necessary to cherish and protect.

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 7:00 AM ====
when I met him, I felt like I'd been waiting for him my whole life. even when he's infuriating... Beram trailed off into a sheepish smile. I like him a lot, Dad.

==== scribblemyname — 01/13/2023 3:50 PM ====
https://www.calendardate.com/year2023.php

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 4:39 AM ====
I sleep well and wake refreshed

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 8:44 PM ====
Good evening, God, my sovereign Lord 
I reach for You, cling to Your Word 
Nothing less can I afford 
If I'm to be reassured 
For comfort comes from trusting You 
And peace by walking in Your way 
Through the hours, I've cone through 
And by Your strength passed through this day 
My hope is found within my sight 
Visions and histories glowing bright 
When You, O Lord, reached out to save 
Me from every yawning grave 
And all my sins and my mistakes 
With Your mercy You forgave 
In awe, I cry, what love like this! 
Ignorance is pain, Your truth my bliss

==== scribblemyname — 01/21/2023 8:43 PM ====
avg 3 kids

gen 1 2 
gen 2 2 + 2 
gen 3 9 + 9 
gen 4 27 + 27 = 54 
gen 5 81 + 81 = 162 
gen 6 243 + 243 = 486 
Curun

==== scribblemyname — 01/25/2023 4:29 PM ====
legacy of Yonyunn, sometimes he wanted to pat them on their invisible helpful heads (far north, etc. interpretations), a rather convenient exception as high ranking member of the Elite, can't have a war king/queen without the Elite, no one minded when Ahayin sat by him, This was a war council after all.

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:28 AM ====
good morning, God, I pray again 
I'm thankful for Your perfect plan 
the hope You hold within Your hand 
to pour on me, such blessings when 
I don't deserve Your matchless grace 
but neither does the human race 
Your favor granted in Your love 
is not because of us or of 
a human nature, prone to wander 
no, You're our eternal Father 
hold me, Lord, I pray today 
and keep me in Your perfect way

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 3:33 PM ====
egum - bird 
egumyesh - seabird, dialectical variant: egumesh 
egumiryo - snowbird 
egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
egumyon - sunbird, dialectical variant: egumon

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:37 PM ====
yefa - fish 
yefasejek - spearfish

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 10:38 PM ====
tsuve - dragon

from tsawi 
tsuveyesh - sea dragon 
tsuveyon - sun dragon 
tsuvechot - night dragon

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 3:45 AM ====
Leshet had been born in Kinaang, high up the northern face of the then southern border, that is the Dragon Cliffs. She understood that Kinaang or Ginieng, dialect dependent, had grown up from village to town, and its proximity to the capital meant there were people not of her band living there. They could marry without waiting for a marriage festival after the Clans Gathering. Their guardian council was said to have a touchstone. She'd never asked or verified if it was the same one from before the war. It wasn't the god-marked only who had been targeted, and why would they have it if Leshet's three contracts were none traditional to her band.

From the time they sent her off to learn war, as an unrecognized child, she had never been back since.

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 8:19 PM ====
hwun aiyung soeg tsuve

=== February 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 02/01/2023 11:34 AM ====
Postposition Class non-person noun person noun ascended person noun 
I – masc. a ani aniwa 
II – fem. ha hani haniwa 
III – divine / natural wa wani waniwa 
IV – neut. ba bani baniwa

==== scribblemyname — 02/02/2023 5:06 PM ====
Happy to! A brief background: the war clans are not a united polity. For the purposes of war and foreign policy, they are essentially four groups of clans, but for domestic purposes, each clan is sovereign itself. That said, the northernmost clan of Vannu uses the Hilakhot sequence in general parlance but the Paschtha sequence for anything under the war government.

1. aiyung - phoenix 
2. tiger 
3. seon - guardwolf 
4. spearfish 
5. greydeer 
6. egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
7. sunfish 
8. snowtiger 
9. rumhyitann - quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
10. tsuve - dragon

The first three and the last one are native to their originating homeworld. The remaining species are native to the world they're on now.

These are the names of the days within their ten-day periods (one might say "they rest on the halves, greydeer and dragon", meaning the fifth and tenth days of the aghourre); the ten-day periods within a season (a season typically runs through snowtiger or quickdeer, which aghourre is swallowed by the equinox or solstice, days named for different dragons); and the elite military "hundreds", which consist of 100 units (the first hundred is the phoenix hundred, which contains units 1-100; thus, the 312th unit would be in spearfish).
Anything placed in a sequence may use ordinal numbers or use the sequence names. Military units containing three squads may call them first, second, and third squad or phoenix, tiger, and guardwolf squad. Measuring cups and spoons that are whole increments rather than fractions may be labeled with an animal icon rather than number glyphs, though fractions will usually use numbers.

In dates and military units, the choice of sequence name or number name is usually going to alternate for ease of understanding. A huntingbird ten is 60, rather than saying "six ten[s]" or "a huntingbird dragon". If you say Spring's snowtiger to refer to a ten-day period, you'll call the day within it by its number, e.g. fifth day of the Spring's snowtiger. But if you want to name the day, you'd say the greydeer of Spring's eighth.

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 2:41 PM ====
levels not floors

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 6:32 PM ====
good evening God, the end of day 
nears again and so I pray 
I'm grateful for the Sabbath rest 
Though I feel I gave my best 
Lord, I ask my best improve 
As through the days and weeks I move 
And teach me Lord to rest in You 
And in Your peace my lifetime through

==== scribblemyname — 02/04/2023 7:30 PM ====
months

the new month 
the rising dragon month 
the falling dragon month 
the mountain lights month

the singing glories month 
the dancing storms month 
the breath of winds month 
the woven strands month

the hungering void month 
the void satisfied month 
the burning lights month 
the unfolding blooms month

the solemn eyes month 
the eternal mists month 
the spreading heavens month 
the plummeting depths month

the world weights month 
the heavenly anchors month 
the turning wheels month 
the biting hunters month

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 7:59 AM ====
yitzonn running, as happens, naturally 
haenn by hand - actively, intentionally, by deliberate effort

moet-miets yathsaa yitzonn? is that my yellow girl happening by?

huanra snack 
huadr vigilant 
hyet bread 
duen steed, a horselike creature 
mowani ruler, king, queen 
mowani ko war queen, war king 
duenmowann kingsteed

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 8:49 AM ====
aved, aveth: marked, as in Tayas Kms aveth Curunde, where Tayas Kms are considered 1st and 2nd personal names, but band, clan, and duty-lineage are all what one is marked rather than named. Etym. derived originally from "clawed" in the sense of having been marked by claws.

For K2-Nar, we have -hen as the original ergative case ending, derived from heme, "hand." Methinks this one erodes to -en fairly quickly.

And ongit: tea.
Huasi vunnosen ongit nohenye iejes shengoshukiaa.

That is

to drink.SG PAST tea.SG.ABS 1P.ERG.PL VOL moonlight.LOC
K2-Nar

empreta: to hunt together (as a social or companionable activity) 
imea: eye 
nij: blood 
nijeres: divine power (godsblood) 
yaiye: water 
dini: (any member of any species of) small, migrating songbird 
mouwe: divine yellow 
njeho: light breeze; someone who passes through quickly or only stays for brief visits (shorter than is polite) 
nwehi: path 
nyemouwe: divine white 
payat: bread 
pwuteks: bed; bed of a body of water, seafloor 
tsabi: body 
vurte: burn wound 
busihts: fetus; pregnant 
ikiets: to stab 
njikh: tooth 
suarot: tree 
teɡh: knife 
ts'awi mountain; (poetic) dragons 
tsadi river 
shivimee: imperative, pass (inanimate object) to me, e.g. shivimee ohuali, "pass the (bread)sticks" 
shinimee: imperative, come here

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 3:08 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord of hosts 
Of my own strength I cannot boast 
If I say go, they do not go 
It is a skill only You know 
But grant me peace in all of this 
For trusting You alone is bliss 
To know that even through these tests 
You will bring me to some rest

==== scribblemyname — 02/07/2023 7:31 AM ====
I go to sail the dragon sea 
my love, my love 2x 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
my love, my love 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
Because, because

sung by coastal clans at funerals

==== scribblemyname — 02/08/2023 7:53 AM ====
sasu - child, offspring 
miis - infant

kolos

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:37 AM ====
gi, oge numbers 
kanwun year 
wunn annual

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:45 AM ====
sul, osol fractional partitive 
yishor can't marry

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:53 AM ====
isut memory, record, log

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:43 AM ====
southern gisun, oksun

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:14 PM ====
pmto trade goods 
kients trade instructions or information

=== March 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:46 AM ====
yaiue season

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:58 AM ====
prtzon marriage

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 8:43 AM ====
pntzon trade

==== scribblemyname — 03/05/2023 11:48 AM ====
inut resource(s) 
inughra wealth, surplus resources 
davke foreign trader

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 5:56 AM ====
Tren walking over to Chaz's wearing swearter, bite of chill to the autumn wind, sees Chaz and complaints disappear without dripping off his tongue

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 2:53 PM ====
niewutsuve - dragon winds, that is warm winds coming off the Dragon Sea and blowing westward

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:14 PM ====
yaiye > iiye, n. water; adj. -e, -et, -es, -er. 1. wet; 2. watery, dilute liquid, e.g. watery tea; 3. young, relatively untrained or naive person

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:22 PM ====
{travel} inlitzon, to ride 
{travel} paritzon, to be carried 
{travel} ??-tzon, to cross over

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:29 PM ====
okay, some notes go here:
Brín go in the desert between the True North and the Great City just to the west of the mountains bordering the War Clans, mostly along the lake mid-desert between those mountains and Lehwa's eastern border. Lehwa considers some of the desert their territory, but the Brín consider the desert theirs entire. The lake is fed by waters from the True North, and the original settlers mostly swept down from there, though they've always picked up some from east and south as well.

Gian becomes the Little Dragon of the Copper Court, ruling over the Great City (Elohwangian, Lo his child name, Gian his political name, Littleling his ward name, and the Little Dragon his name). His half brother Shian is a trader among the Brín. Shian's children are Antha and Haitha. Haitha expands dragon trade between the Great City, Brín, and the True North and marries a girl from the True North. Due to their actions and dragon migrations, the Garden Court is established as a port for shipping, mail, and dragon travel, as well as housing a massive enclosed plaza of carefully developed water system, garden, and animal raising to provide food to allow dragons to live there.

This precipitates the Joint Council of the Thaifka who determine whether the intent to lay stone and projected consumption can be supported by the lake. They were able to make agreements with the Great Court in the True North where She Who Awakens presides to establish the Icewater Court and send an established amount of water down the river.
Young dragons who wish to join the Brín establish the Court of the Wall, defining the border with Lehwa, and registering with all the established Thaifka and requesting elders for their court, which ends up prompting the Joint Office of Customs. Dragons also establish the Court of the Waters just south of the mountains of the north and appoint themselves responsible for measuring and protecting the waters. They consider themselves Brín and choose to register with the Thaifka, lay open plazas always "open under the sky", pass the bracelet at the arrival of visitors, sending word when it's one of their own or arranging and smoothing potential trade with someone new, adopt no local currency, and guard anything sent downriver.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:39 PM ====
Haitha's son (oldest child, 3 younger sisters) notices that Shian is unhappy and feels his world has grown smaller and that the Thaifka are acting more as a governing body than a purely presiding body, but he doesn't want to start over or settle elsewhere from his chosen community. Haitha turns to Flame Blooms in Winter, who grants him her power, which enables him to create "freedom stones" to set in the open plaza, that it be always under the open sky. No one in the plaza can be compelled.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:49 PM ====
On the topic, the Copper Court includes Flame Blooms in Winter presiding and He Around Whom the Worlds Turn ruling. Her daughter Cold Under Fire was warded by Gian after he was warded by Flame Blooms in Winter from 11 years old. Cold Under Fire warded his two children by the half-dragon daughter of one of the youngest who flew over. Gian ruled beside Void Under Sunlight but Void Under Sunlight was injured during the Black Rain (TIAT), fighting alongside the Iron Dragon, and retired (to run off and go find the dragons of the True North). So Gian talks the Iron Dragon at the Court of Iron and Blood in the Undercity to give him Moonlight Under Water to rule beside him instead. He's stuck with him right up to ruling the Overcity though, and Void Under Sunlight becomes ambassador to the Council of Nations.
Once Gian's Garden faction wins over the Songbirds and Citadel faction, Shian brings his wife and children to meet the Copper Court. Flame Blooms in Winter's daughter Flowers Under Sunlight had very eagerly showed up in Brín when she learned how to transform. She introduces the two to her three hatchlings, and Haitha ends up working with Snow Under the Sky and Light Under {Night}.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:57 PM ====
lauv is Brín for stone, to lay stone is to build or help build a residence one intends to live in and one must register intent to lay stone with the Thaifka, who determine if there is prior claim on the property

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 8:08 AM ====
brin terms

saihadin birdtower 
breddun horse tie 
dun steed 
duin spirit or ghost 
boshing flowering gourd, a divine fruit 
geshing peach, a divine fruit 
isha strength 
patrin maternal aunt or uncle 
patrinsa maternal cousin 
kamin, kaminsa paternal 
din bird, runner scout watchman 
burin desert

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 10:00 AM ====
shinin bracelet 
shinindin bracelet bird: runner scout watchman

==== scribblemyname — 03/20/2023 9:11 PM ====
Leshet felt the shifting seasons lightly, the cooler winds and white mists of spring drifting through her, unable to chill her breath or dampen her skin. The sight of Tide and Moonlight at the stone table they'd chosen hit her harder, more familiar and less fleeting, for all spring was a mere four dragons previous, compared to the years since they'd paused their disparate circuits to cross threads again.

Moonlight stood tense and tall by the table, arms crossed, dark hair practically a cloak of its own in length. Tide at his shoulder was deceptively more relaxed, the godmark of his silver white hair barely brushing his neck.

The Dragon Hundred was as strong as the Phoenix Hundred.

Leshet's lifted her gaze to the scar on his face, an extra quirk to his wry expression. She raised her hand, but Tide halted her by the wrist. "Don't."

"Of course."

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 1:26 AM ====
washed up at Connors with a tide of fellow students from the middle school, at least an hour before high school extracurriculars would let older teens flood the place

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:32 AM ====
the sword hung above the mantel

come in, Captain

may I ask—?

the original, passed down through the generations from our ancestor, the very legend you seek. studied Joem for a long moment. There are three branches of my family and three heirs who hold rights to these artifacts.

I'm afraid I'll need to take them all.

I see.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:41 AM ====
Leshet reactivated with the Elite after her first husband died, like soil awakening in spring, full of the seeds of winter. She'd belonged to the First Unit when she'd gone fallow; she belonged to it when she returned.

"I've redistributed the Undying," Yonyunn told her. She'd put the Curunde trio in the Nine Hundred Sixty-Third Unit.

Leshet understood. Hiding that some did not die of natural causes was a reasonable enough decision.

"I'm First," Leshet said. "I chose duty once."

Yonyunn hesitated, no doubt remembering the conversation that led to Leshet's assigned marriage. She relented.

Leshet remained.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 6:00 AM ====
tell me, sat beside him, did you know that first time?

no. if I'd known you were related to saiyar, I would never have touched you.

ah. so yonyunn told you

if she hadn't, I never would have agreed

==== scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM ====
he had no one to complain to that wouldn't rat him out immediately. communication sacred mission, feature not a bug, put his fond amusement into the ecosystem so they could sense it 
where's Beram, split by temperament, are you afraid? are you? story, gives him a touchstone

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 9:00 AM ====
susun / susunaghs - "hours", that is a tenth of a watch or 1/40th of a day, also susun osol nakhaurre

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 11:49 AM ====
nakhnu guardian, from nakhanau 
nakhaurre watch, a period of 1/4 day 
nakhaurresh - sea watch 
nakhauryon - sun watch 
nakhaurchot - night watch 
need to figure out grey here

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:17 AM ====
haimourre hand-units, 1/4 susun or 1/40th of a nakhaurre 
vaghar claws, 1/10 haimourre or 1/40th of a susun

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:28 AM ====
baagyon solar time 
baagutsar "regular" civil time 
udus regular, normal, ordinary

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:42 AM ====
baaghar "other" civil time 
ishegi, isheginu protectee 
ishesul partner, ally, or member of one's workforce or personal networks

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 1:17 PM ====
great city:

nutsáb - I 
utsáb - you 
hatsáb - he, she, they 
batsáb - it

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 8:06 PM ====
I was like a system dialog box. I only had one button: Okay.

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 7:10 AM ====
great city ˈʃu.ʃn shúshin

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 8:01 AM ====
chuuchun ki.ta.ma shi-ja-kor.i

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 6:00 AM ====
She received the summons when she woke towards the end of the sea watch. Their unit leader gave her a physical tab silently. Leshet read off the odd script, half statements she was obliged to know the rest of to interpret correctly. When the Knowing could interpret any fully communicated thought to any recipient, passing military communications became an exercise in communicating such that only the right recipient would understand.

First. First place. {time}

Srshe looked at her. Orders.

A mtg. With the First.

Adan?

Yes.

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 7:30 AM ====
they weren't the first anymore, they were first and 963rd and the husband of the war queen, and yet, they were the first members of the first unit from the time it had been established, and that was never going to go away
Leshet smiles once in the whole book. How do you choose to demonstrate catharsis?

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 8:54 AM ====
brin

unshókhe a new genre of nontraditional song and dance sprung up among the youth of the lower city's plaza

ishing(al) child(ren)

=== April 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 04/02/2023 9:11 AM ====
possible kofnea

mounu ichiche 
mounu ishishe 
ani yitzonn itsivayo

==== scribblemyname — 04/03/2023 7:45 AM ====
chirnea member of one's anchiri, a friend who knowingly helps to anonymize you 
anchiru, -ut, -unn, -u anonymizing, of or related to anchiru

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 9:52 AM ====
Sontu Aghmtanti, born in Taegung as Paschtha Ishiem just south of the mountains of the border with the Danni, family grows and trades food and spices that need wetlands or boxes, incl. tsuntsi. Has 2 younger siblings. Marries Minunn 
ichin - verbal gesture of respect toward older male 
achi - verbal gesture of respect toward older female

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 11:21 AM ====
Yunn had fling with Gin of first kolos, was chirnea to Moet, I am good chirnea. Yes, you are. Praise me more.

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 8:35 AM ====
duzho geef

not in front of children

explanation demanded from children

why would you want to curse anyone?

izhit

apologizes

these are ishiem words - duuso vs. duusho > duuzho 
ichin > izhit (feminized insult)

Minunn livid until he promises to make the effort around her and the children 
yoich - verbal gesture demanding respect, yoichi in Ishiem

maybe all my glory is my claws in place 
maybe all my glory is a pretty face 
maybe all my glory is a voice arrayed 
but it's mine, but it's mine 
and I'm never going to change

you laid these bones 
you made them strong 
you laid these bones 
but they're mine, but they're mine 
and that's never going to change

yoich

You cannot take your grown children by the hand.

...

I am not your heir. I will not return to Taegung, not for my wedding, not as your heir. That place is for Anyiet.

Sontu!

Yoichi. 
Yesh Runn stormy sea, Gin's brother

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 9:10 AM ====
pers. I 
nokh / noikh / ukh 
nokhs / noekhs / uikh

class III 
hinokhs / ukhs 
I appear to be developing something of a tree of linguistic change in this language family, oops, and just trying to sort out how one thing leads to another all at the same time. 
So possessive suffixes in Kofnea-Adan (as I'm calling it now):

m. ukh, f. uikh, n. ukh, o. urëkh (2nd p): your

Where ë is now how I'm indicating the schwa, which is phonemic in Kofnea at least.

vs. in Kofnea-Kolos (modern), where -miets used to indicate the immediacy of a kinship relationship is starting to see use as an inalienable possessive, aka, my love, my husband, my {name}, mine, while still only usable with immediate relatives. This also combines with regular possession when used as a possessive pronoun rather than adjective:

m. miatsukh, f. miatsuikh, n. miatsukh, o. miatsurëkh (2nd p): yours 
No! Sorry for being unclear! So it'd be like Shion-miets is how a character calls her husband, My wolf, as an endearment. Literally, it's wolf-immediate relation marker. Miatsukh would be a way of saying "yours" meaning "your immediately related {person in this context}."

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 3:15 PM ====
like the river blue mist, gonna burn itself away 
young love, young love 
gonna disappear one day

like the passing days 
got to live them while we can 
young love, young love 
we learn with our own hands

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 7:47 AM ====
jishim ishiam verbal gesture of surrender or resignation, esp. to something deemed the natural order of things

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 8:07 AM ====
jikhoue - accompanied by chin jut on kho, irritated pain

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 1:31 PM ====
Sontu: na ushunn (I'm hungry) 
ushun - n. hunger

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 2:15 PM ====
geyef / ge'ef 
zhoyon / zho'on

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:12 PM ====
nehin fling 
wa nehin a fling 
nehin (h)ani a person one has a fling with

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:50 PM ====
hasath premarital romantic partner

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 7:49 AM ====
shuka yone - sunlight 
goes by yunn - morning 
sachin respect to male peer with higher standing 
sachi respect to female peer with higher standing

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 2:55 PM ====
yatech heart as emotional center (miets), one's emotional energies, the most intense of one's emotional attachments (nokh / noikh) 
hoagh heart organ 
jita / shita alive 
hoagh jita / shita heartbeat, pulse 
achid the ceremony of marriage where the couple imbue each other with the power of their own contracts, usually performed during a wedding but can be considered a wedding act which merely needs verification afterward

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 5:29 PM ====
pirtot keep far, to distance oneself 
pirtha keep close, to stay near to

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 1:44 AM ====
don't want to be awake 
don't know how to sleep 
not tonight 
all the fight 
in me turned inward

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:00 AM ====
yague romantic committed love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:22 AM ====
yague romantic committed love 
ungtha nearby, phys. or ment. 
mho voice

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 7:57 AM ====
adj. names shung + pakhe

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:12 AM ====
pirsatha husband 
pirsathi wife 
yaguegi object of one's love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:56 AM ====
poghro aumyo pasta w/a traditional soupy sauce 
baahas tiger

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 9:12 AM ====
pretar achid tie, contract(s), those one has a future with, e.g. family, close friends, spouse, etc., fate

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 3:04 PM ====
sadi river 
satsa stream

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 4:19 PM ====
economic, cultural, political, technology, religion, geography

==== scribblemyname — 04/11/2023 11:59 AM ====
nukhshi play, dialect variants nughshi, nuushi, nukchi

okhshi work

suim shiuntsi a style of presentation, incl. dress, scents, makeup, jewelry, and colors considered appropriate for casual or formal social occasions. It's marked by what are considered green scents, soft clothing lines and cuts which do not expose clan marks, understated jewelry and hairstyle, and natural makeup if any.

pns nagm a style of personal presentation considered appropriate for casual wear or work around the home but not in public. It's marked by functional clothing which may be worn or damaged from previous work done in it, e.g. paint spattered jeans, and a lack of makeup or jewelry.

okhsh danmi a style of personal presentation seen as permissive working uniform, which allows some stylistic or personal choice variations from a set uniform. It is one of few presentation styles viewed as almost always appropriate, excepting the rare occasions when strict uniform is required. Danmi in practice varies by uniform and profession. Professions with no set uniform cannot utilize danmi.

pns - comfortableness

pns idrntso - comfortable loose or long fitting presentation suitable for everyday wear

pns udus - everyday nonwork personal presentation style

okhsh udus - everyday work presentation, no uniform,

pns yenes - presentation with softcloth and cuts that reveal clan marks

ildns - friendship of companionship, generally viewed as continuing by choice and preference

ildnsn(a)(i) - friend of companionship

minunn - having a soft, gentle quality, esp. of voice, demeanor, or appearance

shung - 1. flowing, as of water, 2. giving and generous of one's time and effort on behalf of others

suim ghra - formal social dress and presentation with floral scents, decorative hairstyles, etc.

yapft - friend who is acting as chaperone during courtship

yivsl - a flower brought with them from Kareios having a pleasing scent

suim pns - light clothing with patterns and floral colors, floral or fruit scents

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:31 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents.

absolutive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -hn.

1st - na, ni, no, uren 
2nd - ou, ouet, uus, urou 
3rd - a(ni), ha(ni), wa(ni), ba(ni)

possessive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -n.

1st - nokh, noikh, nokhs, norekh 
2nd - ukh, uikh, ukhs, urekh 
3rd - a(ni)kh, ha(ni)kh, wa(ni)kh, ba(ni)kh

Ishiam adds two sets, ba- for speaking to or of someone with indeterminate or unknown difference in age, generation, or standing and sa- for speaking to or of someone of lower age, generation, or standing. Yeah, rather honorific like I'm noticing.

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:59 AM ====
ymke - comfort food 
iyudu - n. 1. scent, 2. perfume 
hiyaube, -et, -o (-es), -r - adj. painful 
hiyaubo - n. pain 
sennar - n. earrings 
yagueourre - n. courtship period before marriage 
huesourre - n. menstrual period 
duushung - v. to let one's thoughts or feelings slip such that the Knowing translates to them to others, generally this is looked down on or considered embarrassing for anyone over a certain age 
uchietson - n. being respectful 
uchietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. respectful 
uchietsetre, -ret, -los, -re - adj. disrespectful, rude 
oueho - fun 
yagueit - ptcp. adj. 1. engaged, 2. committed romantically 
yaguekue, -et, -es, -er - adj. suitable for marriage in standing, compatibility, etc. 
prtsonkue - adj. 1. marriagable, that is legally eligible for marriage, 2. eligible for marriage by having no egregious disqualifying personal traits 
eseche - n. a formal social event incl. a meal, usually dinner 
sokhoto - n. a social meal engaged in to discuss potential business arrangements 
gev - neut. n. zero 
eas - n. spirit, referring to the life and consciousness of a person or god 
ishrtse - studious

daashi - personal presentation style sometimes considered synonymous with suim pns, but which varies in...

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 11:05 AM ====
ksh'danmi daashi is what Saiyunn wears 
ksh'danmi yenes is what Tayas wears

==== scribblemyname — 04/13/2023 8:26 PM ====
sontu and minunn's first child is aiyungi jitai, "yatech"

==== scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM ====
kofnea-utsa 
kofnea-ishiama 
kofnea-tsuala 
kofnea-tsuala paschtha 
kofnea-tsuala tsuvea (kofnea-curun) 
kofnea-tsuala lakha 
kofnea-yeshietsa 
kofnea-daana 
tsabua - ud. soul, spiritual "body", tl. highest self, cl. etiquette, best behavior 
tsabung - n. the land within war clans territory, usu. indicative of that of a clans group but sometimes indicative of parts or all 
yeshietsa, -tsi, -ts, -tsr - coastal 
prtseche - n. wedding meal, wedding celebration

==== scribblemyname — 04/15/2023 3:37 PM ====
aemiets, taemiets - significant other

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 5:58 AM ====
sant - the dry ingredients of a dish, when initially prepped separately 
hastha, -i - male or female premarital romantic partner, see hasath

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 6:53 AM ====
It wasn't that Sata didn't see him coming. Sata's temper wasn't one which cooled easily, and even when it did, it generally hardened into unwavering resolve. His temper kept him flinging spear and fire, spear and ice, even when Jioror the Lahan, Chief of Information entered the training room and stopped to stare.

Sata was glowing. He was still condensed power, rippling waves of heat and shatters of ice rolling off him. He turned, pulling his spears upright in his hands, and looked down toward the Lahan.

His face was full of surprise, something familiar and cold clenched in his right glove.

Sata's temper fled him, and he considered just who had wielded that last. He diffused his power, reabsorbed his spears, let the glow fade from behind his eyes, as he leaned forward.

"Sata?" The Lahan sounded uncertain. "Shouldn't you be in bed?"

He wasn't addressing the obvious. Sata wasn't human.

But Sata did, an edge of humor on his tongue. He didn't bother to pretend youthfulness. "When he wakes, he'll want to hunt." Sata was decidedly out of practice. "My almost child." He waved toward the spear.

Jioror stiffened.

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 7:28 AM ====
uzh - ishiam. work 
uzhanme - ishiam. ksh'danmi 
uzhun - worker 
uzhungam - troublemaker, a very rambunctious child or person under one's care or responsibility, nuisance

vs.

okhshne - worker 
okhshngam - employer

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 1:33 PM ====
shcha verbal gesture meaning here or for you

nea, kofnea recognized person (adult, registered age of forfeiture) 
hinea, hsnea unrecognized person (young adult, unregistered age of forfeiture) 
msnea child young enough to not keep anchiri yet 
bsnea nonclans person

ouekhe - verbal gesture of directed displeasure, equivalent to shaking a fist or finger at someone

uusoue - to admire with awe, as a role model or beautiful wife 
ososou - to admire with fondness, as a cute child or pet

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 8:56 PM ====
I write a note to self 
my heart up on a shelf 
oh, I could take it down 
would it make me someone else

do you see the broken glass 
image between the cracks 
my mirror to hide behind 
where even I can't find

there's silence blooming where I used to tread 
quiet rooming with loudness in my head 
a diet of hope and pain on which I've fed 
feels like centuries lying in this bed

it's hard sometimes to make the words come out 
harder still to stop the broken spout 
swallow down the person I can't be 
hating, dreading that I think they're me 
letting go so hard so I can breathe

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:04 PM ====
I didn't mean to write that 
but when did I ever mean 
any sort of thing 
I wear another hat 
do you know this brand new version 
smile at the subversion 
before we start reversion 
another tit for tat 
words on my tongue 
when the night is young 
ignore, ignore the heedless stream 
the fanciful dream 
I never meant to write that 
to break the ice, the glass 
to teach another class 
on why to leave me be 
forget, just please forget me 
I loathe to feel your eyes 
and yet I need 
I cannot bear the pain 
and yet I bleed 
kiss me 
is this a metaphor 
I dream of lost things 
lost and faded wings 
I used to soar 
and even more 
laughter like sunshine 
bubbled in my chest 
before I learned the world's not kind 
and no one will help 
my world drifts in and out 
of yours, the loneliness 
finds me on edge 
intersections like promises 
never empty yet unfulfilled 
I feel unskilled 
my hands unable to grasp 
quicksilver fish, like dreams 
your life now gone 
from the lines and threads we wove 
a treasure trove 
of memories and sobs 
I leave the chest closed

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:13 PM ====
how long have I held you heavy in unspoken places? 
I brace myself for another wave 
this is not bravery, braving the locks 
realizing I locked away my grief 
like a bird in a cage, 
always singing and endlessly bringing 
an undertone of my drifting self 
an ocean without an anchor, my harbor lost 
horizon beckons unreachable 
for I have a tempest to bring 
my thoughts and my dreams 
remind me that you believed 
the gift I received 
from you I cannot toss aside 
so I go with the tide 
been waiting to heal 
for a long, long time 
there is no great reveal 
just an endless climb

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:51 PM ====
good evening, God, you know my heart 
you've plumbed the depths of every part 
you've shown a light inside my dark 
I pray tonight an end then start 
anew; the morning light will come 
your mercies greater than the sum 
of all my weakness, failings, loss 
you are stronger than my cross 
which you allowed my heart to bear 
gently saying don't be scared 
for not by will must I stand strong 
but by you, keep holding on

==== scribblemyname — 04/19/2023 4:54 AM ====
auto bio graph 
do you even understand 
what is hidden in these lines 
yes, I know it every time

expiate, got to expiate 
a history or two 
I appreciate 
I am at the gate 
and now I'm going through 
aya, aya, aya...

educate, got to educate 
this heart and soul of mine 
I appreciate 
cannot leave to fate 
I got to underline 
aya, aya, aya... 
this is no way to live 
but I promise to forgive 
if you'll let it all go

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 7:43 AM ====
don't want to drift out on the water 
don't want to burn up in the fire 
don't want to sink under the heaven 
don't want to lose my way again

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 9:41 AM ====
I'd been living for a hundred years 
underneath a mountain of fears 
crying out: every time You hear 
You forgave me and You saved me and You held me dear

I don't why 
I don't get by 
I need You right 
now and forever 
You're my only light

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 10:17 AM ====
shi no okhsm 
??

oznocha, uznocha - ishiam. move away

==== scribblemyname — 04/22/2023 5:15 PM ====
duushon - idea 
yadahim - music 
amhobaamgi yadahim - musician

tiger rhyme is a double rhyme 
singing is mouth music, look up old word for mouth

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:27 AM ====
ozhaizhenna kus(h)aiyenn 
budtho 
dikangu

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:48 AM ====
sitouangm - cook 
sitouangamo - grower 
sitou - food 
sitoue, -et, -es, -er - culinary, dietary, relating to food 
sitouatson - argriculture 
sitouetre - non-nutritive, inedible

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 6:23 AM ====
teas - to run after, to pursue 
tasatson - western. pursuit, haste; eastern. tiasatson 
tasatse - western. hasty, risky, not well thought through; eastern. tiasatse - ambitious 
duuse - preoccupied, overwhelmed by thoughts or memories 
duushe - ishiam. thoughtful, with forethought 
duuzhedre - ishiam. poorly thought through, reckless 
duushert - ishiam. well-considered, properly prepared, ready 
sahum - sleep 
sahumtha - sleepy 
sahumkue - comfortable or restful, such that one can take down one's guard or reserve 
sahumotson - insomnia 
sahumotse - wakeful, unable to sleep 
sahumthtre - awake, active (as of a device or object), still having enough power or connection to a power source for the current plan or activity 
sosouege - a cute person or thing 
uusege - an admirable person or thing 
uusouekue - admirable, awe-inspiring 
uusouert - admired, looked up to, dialect: uusoerit 
paam - to touch intimately, to have sex 
meetha - to touch physically

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 8:10 AM ====
ichagefrt - ishiam. exhausted, drained of energy after great exertion or extended wakefulness 
shukn - paved or designated street, usually in a city and permitting foot traffic 
inliung - street designated for vehicular traffic. ishiam. any street (originating dialect of the term) 
khothe - adj. evening 
khotha - n. evening. ishiam. chotha 
osaghrae - up, greater 
osaute - up, higher 
os - to move. ishiam. oz, uz

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:08 AM ====
pretangamo - contract maker, that is lawyer. Notes: These are never private, but represent band or clan interests and serve members of the same. Payment for some functions, e.g. marriage contracts, is provided by the band or clan (with gifts from those served frequently offered if services go over the expected costs). Others must be paid for directly by those served. 
ududu - filler word meaning the person is thinking 
duu - to think, to reminisce

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:58 AM ====
oue - interrogative. what 
unnse - skin

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 9:31 AM ====
yaptha - bruise 
ipekho - adj. kind, helpful out of compassion or warm feeling 
ipekh - n. 1. warmth (temperature), 2. having a sincerely kind, generous personality

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 2:02 PM ====
uzoso - ishiam. wait 
ososo - paschtha. thinking 
yasncher - hello, goodbye, from "(your) soul be blessed" 
pnnsncher - get well, feel better

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 7:01 AM ====
common colors

bemrun, bemwun - n. grey 
bemruune, bemuune - adj. grey 
bemtsad - n. blue 
bemtsade - adj. blue 
bmsnesh - n. orange, ishiam. bnznesh 
bmsnesha - adj. orange

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 8:58 AM ====
bmrit, bmrt - having the color or appearance of 
oso oso - to work

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 9:21 AM ====
senmiunung - garden 
unung - property, land one resides on 
yeyung - wetland 
tsadung - alluvial floodplain 
bemsmi - n. green 
bemsme - adj. green 
ezar(i)t - ishiam. enlivened, refreshed, restored to full health 
esrt, esrit - ptcp. born 
sitouung - farmland 
sitouunung - fruit and vegetable garden 
unungkue - arable 
unungkuetre - not arable 
ununktre - dependent, having no property or significant personal possessions and resources, often referring to the unrecognized who live in clan dormitories until they acquire resources of their own separate from that of their parents

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 10:55 AM ====
aii - interrogative. where 
nn - n. stuff

nn - teasing, you see?

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 11:32 AM ====
update isha- words to ikha-

=== May 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 5:32 AM ====
ishyamnea, uts. 
ishiamga, -i, -es, -er, ish. n. 
kofiaga, -i, -es, -er - ish. n. 
kofiage, -et, -es, -er - ish. adj.

ehom - rhyme 
baase, -et, -u, -r - 2nd, tiger 
baasa, -si, -s, -ar - other, unknown 
aiyunga, -ai, -as, -ar - n. 
aiyunge, -et, -es, -er - adj.

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 8:01 AM ====
hwun ishiam soeg kanoichr 
hwun sitouangm soeg mhoa

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 10:29 AM ====
sasu buru - small child

do you want help?

nngev - no

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:24 PM ====
kudup - big, physically large, very loud

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:54 PM ====
Going through old words turned up that I have recoined more than planned and accidentally redid an etymology, though I like the new one better and am now retconning the two to work together. But WHY do I have two old words for ear in there and I'm not even going there on some of the terms that overlap with really different phonemes. Do I kill the old word for bread? Or just figure out some real-world etymological path of how we've changed how/what we call bread / loaf / pastry / other baked goods such that I can make it make sense. We don't know yet.

Especially since today was supposed to be let's work on sentence grammar!

old words ->

bitse head 
daghos to give 
huasi to drink 
ies to push (adan) 
'iko to pour 
oesen shoulder 
qimtra' - well provided for, no immediate needs 
ijion - to kitchen 
suarot tree 
nijikh tooth 
tegh knife 
ikiets to stab 
busihts pregnant, fetus 
payat bread 
pwuteks bed 
imea eye 
nij blood 
nijeres divine power 
kib, voas ear 
tivuip' health 
maietta night 
mietsche' arm -> mee miets (beside) -> iets beside 
mitna, mitsmit friend 
mitscheum - skills, tools one is skilled with 
taghe stone 
yeun thought 
bayin sister 
dzakhi brother 
tsakho darkness -> cho(t) night

.
ela person who is alive

==== scribblemyname — 05/04/2023 7:00 AM ====
buusiets - expectancy, waiting period, expectant mother, expected child. curun: vhuusiets 
pait - meal, loaf, a ration meant to constitute a meal 
mitsm - person, usu. a friend, chosen to collect a newlywed the next morning and prepare them for the sendoff 
buusietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. open, pending, released before recognition of the creator and left anonymous

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 1:18 PM ====
paidalourre osaghrae wages are up 
paitourre provisions for one 
paidalourre provisions, wages, salary

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 7:18 PM ====
bemali - dyes, paints, colors

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 10:10 PM ====
baamba - n. contact card, a version which is able to serve as an identification card, esp. for unrecognized who are living independently 
gin (ish.), gen (daan.), amikhki - n. room of a house or building

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 6:48 AM ====
baamtsnea - garment maker, stylist 
baamtse - adj. presenting oneself as, currently expressing (a thought, feeling, idea, etc.) 
baamtson - n. the action of presenting oneself as, expression, as of creative expression or expressing oneself or communicating an idea, feeling, thought, etc. 
baamtsrt, baamtsarit - adj. taken in by deception or manipulation, well-dressed 
baamstarikue - adj. gullible; easily dressed up, looks good in anything; glib, good at putting on any appearance or giving off any presentation, i.e. socially adaptable; good at lying 
baamtsgi - attire, incl. jewelry, clothes, makeup, perfumes or personal care items chosen for lingering scent or immediate effect on appearance

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 8:56 AM ====
soengam - clothing maker 
benmgam - maker of colors, whether dyes, inks, paints, etc.

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 11:07 AM ====
michm - n. 1. tool, 2. device, e.g. a communication or computer device, 3. a friend voluntarily designated as legally having familial rights and responsibilities, due to the closeness of the relationship. Which legal matters can be delegated to them varies from but overlaps with those of birth, marriage, duty, or adopted family

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 12:51 PM ====
vudeksnea - bedmate, sibling close enough in age to have shared the parents' sideroom for some time as a small child, friend close enough in age to not be any wiser or more mature for the difference 
vsne, bsne - foreign 
hsne - young, unfettered, carefree, without duty, foreign

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 1:28 PM ====
yadahimoge - adj. musical, e.g. yadohimoge michm, "musical instrument"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 3:02 AM ====
mitnea - n. friend (of choice) 
mitna - n. friendship (of choice) 
mishe (uts.), miche (ish.) - n. 1. arm, 2. will, 3. one's strength and resources, e.g. a mishe oge Vannu-wani osol a mishe oge Paschtha-wani "the arm of the Vannu is with the arm of the Paschtha", ish. a miche oksun Vannu-wani osun a miche oksun Paschtha-wani 4. one's skillset, e.g. he should strengthen his arm means he should improve his skills

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 5:24 AM ====
prtso - to marry, to form a contract with

prtsorit, prtsort - adj. married (incl. widows and widowers, unless otherwise specified) 
prtsortre - adj. unmarried, without contracts; without confirmed contracts, very young and naive; eschewing responsibility (viewed negatively)

amikhngamo - (uts) n. builder, construction worker

gengamo - (ish., daan.) n. builder, construction worker, specifically a worker who will add or remove rooms in existing buildings or do repairs, repairman. gengamo buru. handyman

isunkuetre - inappropriate for polite company, crude, unspeakable, unrecordable, originating from a category of activities the Knowing will not make a record or file of, e.g. sex, relieving oneself, etc.

yadahimkue - adj. playable on a musical instrument

yadahimkuetre - adj. unplayable on a musical instrument

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 12:36 PM ====
ginsituunnge - ish. of or related to the kitchen, e.g. michm ginsituunnges "cooking utensils," lit. "kitchen tools"

ginsituung - ish. working kitchen where one cooks

sitouangmaa - kitchen, that is "where the cook is"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 10:05 PM ====
sitouangntson - n. the activity of cooking or preparing food 
sitouangntse - adj. of or related to cooking and food prep

==== scribblemyname — 05/10/2023 5:42 AM ====
saghia prtsonge, saghia prtsonea - marriage brother, that is brother in law

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 7:57 AM ====
wachung - political power or influence 
wachungachu - the right to be heard by one's governing leadership 
naachu - to speak or complain to authority, usu. through formal channels; to whine or complain 
gachuku - to exercise one's political rights or powers; to act confidently or authoritatively

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 12:20 PM ====
apapai - to snack 
eshishi - to share 
kesourraba, -i, -e, -r - individually, or, oneby one 
vasourre - couple, pair 
vasourraba, -i, -e, -r - in pairs, two by two, or (between pairs) 
nn - taken together, and

nnsol (uts.), nnsn (ish.) - some part of 
nnsabi - something 
nnoue - somebody 
gevn - nobody 
gefsabi - nothing, syn. nngev 
gefsol (uts.), gefsn (ish.) - no part of

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 6:03 PM ====
to people like the people do

inonoue - ish. v. to crowd together, to be sociable. van. v. to be civilized, to be a respectable member of society

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 7:30 PM ====
kientsar - media content, literature, and art, etc.

kientsar sul yadahim - music, as refers to tradable, copyable content but not performance

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 6:54 AM ====
-chm - postpositional clitic, by (the use of), by (as in grasping by a particular part of)

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 7:02 AM ====
unless prev. diff.

yitatse - naturally fast 
yitatsekue - deliberately fast, abnormally fast 
yitatsekuetre - slow, esp. unusually 
yitatseku - to run quickly

yitso, yitatso - to happen, to be natural or authentic 
eyitat - to try, to put forth a little effort

sule, sune - partial, incomplete

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 8:38 AM ====
dahimokhnea, dahimzhgu - music worker

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 11:21 AM ====
uburubu - to put or pack away, to hide oneself, to pack or compress a measured ingredient in cooking

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 2:49 PM ====
burun, burol - little one, small young person or creature 
metmo - to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
mchmali - personal communication device(s); one's "address" with the Knowing 
dahimadi - n. very short song, whether sung or instrumental

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:16 PM ====
yupta - n. plan, intent 
bache - to dance 
bachebache - to dance in place; to wait noisily or impatiently

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:27 PM ====
mimikhli - dorms

fek, fekh, feagh - clan

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:05 AM ====
abamabam - to encounter someone, to talk or visit quite briefly with someone

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:14 AM ====
sahumwa shcha - sleep well

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:31 AM ====
wa, wai, wae, waar - adj. good, as of superior quality 
wacha, -i, -e, -r - adj. good, as of superior social standing, achievement, or merit 
waghra, -ri, -re, -r - adj. famous, prominent, popular, with strong support from important people, influential

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:38 AM ====
abaamkhrachiaro - to put best foot forward in one's presentation of oneself, whether appearance or efforts; to be successful; to succeed generally or in a particular effort 
abamabamchourre - to put in a little talk (to influential people) or to show a little effort towards one's own success

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:58 AM ====
haenn abamabamchouurevi ouhn 
yitzonn abaamkhrachiarovi nahn

baam buruburuhn 
ukh aghrachiaroni haenn

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 9:29 AM ====
ongit shungamn, gitshungamn - teapot

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 12:45 PM ====
u(p)taenn, u(p)tsonn future tense

unk(h)aenn, unkhitsonn - here and now

th'haenn, thaietsonn - around now, soonish, just now, in the very immediate past or future

ot'haenn, otyitsonn - far past

==== scribblemyname — 05/22/2023 7:23 AM ====
vastson - dating, that is spending time with one's significant other in structured social events for the purpose of strengthening or continuing the relationship

==== scribblemyname — 05/23/2023 1:40 PM ====
aiyung – phoenix 
baahas - tiger 
seonh – guardwolf 
yefasejek - spearfish 
rumhiruune - greydeer 
egumruhitzon – huntingbird 
yefayon - sunfish 
baahasiryo - snowtiger 
rumhyitann – quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rumhidaghe - rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
tsuve – dragon

==== scribblemyname — 05/24/2023 10:34 AM ====
avosovos - to chat a little, to listen for a little while

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 5:03 PM ====
anouankhe (uts.), anaianche (ish.)

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:24 PM ====
buchura, buchuri, buchure, buchur - adj. 
bucherit, buchert - ptcp.

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:37 PM ====
butu - why, from purpose or reason????

==== scribblemyname — 05/26/2023 9:09 PM ====
(ou) yaguonichayitsonn nihn - I love you romantically, female to male
scribblemyname
pinned
a message
to this channel. See all
pinned messages
. — 05/26/2023 9:10 PM

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 8:38 PM ====
ishitaku, ijitaku - to survive, e.g. ishitaku-uptaenn uren "I will survive" 
ishitakun, ijitakun - survivor 
ishitakul, jitakunr - leftovers (of a meal), remaining things 
shungam - pourer, e.g faucets, pitchers, etc.

daous - to give. Note: syn. eshishi is used to offer or to hand or give directly to someone in the momeng. daous is used for more formal or abstract forms of giving, or to refer to gifts during a celebration, etc.

ayud -

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 9:04 PM ====
Usually entering the atmosphere was the worst of it. Not this time. Instead of the ride smoothing out, sudden turbulence forcibly caught their little ship and propelled them northwest and down at a frightening rate.

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 10:15 AM ====
wangam - ascension trial 
yonngam - interior lighting (system) 
shukingam - lamp, light fixture

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 2:31 PM ====
aiyungayo - to ascend (to a sworn duty) after a trial, to rise in standing or ability after facing difficulties, to persevere

=== June 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

=== July 2023 ===
==== scribblemyname — 7/1/23, 8:59 PM ====
osonietstha - coworker 
osonea ietsot - colleague 
==== scribblemyname — 7/2/23, 6:29 AM ====
gsk - heat 
yochm - cold 
ikhgun - power in the sense of having the ability 
bekheun - one's mind when one's thoughts and feelings are in alignment, e.g. his mind and heart was made up 
baikhoku - to impress upon another's thoughts and feelings, to move them 
==== scribblemyname — 7/2/23, 6:37 AM ====
likhli - teeth 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 9:19 AM ====
repository of useless knowledge! 
Sontu immediately pulled back the plate he'd been about to set in front of Shiontas. I see you don't want me to cook for you then. 
Ah. Shiontas folded his hands and bowed over them. Forgive me. I will never say something so horrible again. 
Sontu set the plate down, mollified. What did you want to know? 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 12:53 PM ====
pouese (uts.), bouze (ish.) 
-biits, biitse - on 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 4:47 PM ====
daasheghra - fat 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 12:31 PM ====
yadahimgi - adj. musical, n. song, composition 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 4:56 PM ====
eyague, ayagueshi - to love romantically 
saghi, saghnar - family 
sagha, -i, -e, -r - of or relating to family, familial 
saghinea - family member 
saghthanea - immediate family member 
saghonea - extended family member, relative 
abadabad - to shut up or stop talking 
abada - to seal over, to close (as of a door) 
badabada - n. secret 
bada - n. door, seal - a door is perceived as the end of a room rather than its beginning 
eyom - to let go, to concede 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 5:10 PM ====
should it be usuetse? 
okay, so negative -less is abessive or privative case 
-tre, -tri, -(t)los, -tre 
with -los as suppletive, but why not kotlos? 
and it's dative or allative agreement on the verb, so I think allative nouns use dative case 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 6:14 PM ====
marriage negotiations 
contract - band registrars if marrying in the clan, clan registrars if not, if forfeiture, can utilize that of parents or residence but have to pay 
concession of bushot - conceding must provide wardrobe and gifts, bushot pays for and provides the prtseche, family lives local to higher bushot 
families pre-wedding dinner and exchange of family concessions, registrars sign off (some may be shopped for after) 
husband move-in / furnishing 
wife move-in / decorating 
aporoval of home signed off by registrars and both spouses 
prtseche 
wedding night 
send off of families and guests 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 9:30 AM ====
abuatson - motherhood, daily life routinely spent parenting, the activity of parenting 
tatsatson - fatherhood, daily life routinely spent parenting, the activity of parenting 
okshtson - worklife, daily life routinely spent at a job, the activity of working for a living 
saghitson - family life, living at home with the family, spending family time together, childhood pre-education when one's daily occupation is with family 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 11:31 AM ====
prtse - marital 
abuatse - parental, esp. motherly 
paame, -met, -m, -mer - intimate, sexual 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 4:41 PM ====
yunchot (uts.), (yu)nchthake (ish.) - day 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 4:55 PM ====
cardinal numbers 
ke – n. one; adj. ke, ket, kes, ker 
vas – n. two; adj. vase, vaset, vas, vaser 
givord (givrd, givur) – n. three; adj. givorda, givordi, givorde, givordr 
irum – n. four; adj. iruma, irumi, irume, irumr 
mrt – n. five; adj. mrte, mrtet, mrtes, mrter // mrta, mrti, mrte, mrtr 
nekke – n. six; adj. nekke, nekket, nekkes, nekker 
tsud – n. seven; adj. tsude, tsudet, tsudes, tsuder // tsuda, tsudi, tsude, tsudr 
vnk – n. eight; adj. vnke, vnket, vnkes, vnker // vnka, vnki, vnke, vnkr 
dmge – n. nine; adj. dmge, dmget, dmges, dmger 
agh – n. ten; adj. aghe, aghet, aghes, agher // agha, aghi, aghe, aghr 
uts. fem. 
yunchot ket - one day 
yunchot kesaa - first day 
yunchot vaset - two days 
yunchot vasaa - second day 
yunchot givordi - three days 
yunchot givordaa - third day 
yunchot irumi - four days 
yunchot irumaa - fourth day 
yunchot mrtet - five days 
yunchot mrtaa - fifth day 
yunchot nekket - six days 
yunchot nekkiaa - sixth day 
yunchot tsudet - seven days 
yunchot tsudaa - seventh day 
yunchot vnket - eight days 
yunchot vnkaa - eighth day 
yunchot dmget - nine days 
yunchot dmgiaa - ninth day 
yunchot aghet (aghourre) - ten days 
yunchot aghaa - tenth day 
ish. div. 
nchthake (kes) - one day 
nchthake vas - two days 
nchthake givorde - three days 
nchthake irume - four days 
nchthake mrte - five days 
nchthake nekkes - six days 
nchthake tsude - seven days 
nchthake vnke - eight days 
nchthake dmges - nine days 
nchthake aghe (aghourre) - ten days 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 3:22 AM ====
sʲ →ʃ in uts. and ish. 
ʃ → ʒ, dʒ (before i) in ish. 
x →ç → tʃ in ish. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 4:49 PM ====
Beram had taken an interest in the descendants, so Sata found himself frequently... 
Translator did not distinguish alien from human, something a true member of the Nar might find unthinkable. 
no hope except the children, who clearly had no idea how to confirm a contract. 
the mind boggles 
but not yours 
let me pretend to be human. Sata hadn't communicated the thought. 
How does someone confirm a contract? 
Trshunn 
a bit much to use divine power against but he'd always been exceedingly lenient toward his children 
ask for power, accept the terms 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 8:01 PM ====
shmee "give here", shcha "here, take", shtsau "put there" 
thing near / person near: 
nnmee, baunmee, saunmee 
nncha, bauncha, sauncha 
nntsav, bauntsau, sauntsau 
nnbiitmee, nnbiitcha, nnbiitsav - thing above / over 
biitmee, biitcha, biitsav - above / over 
ibinchi (dan.), ibinji? (ish.) - to put on, that is as of clothes or applying topically 
==== scribblemyname — 7/12/23, 6:00 AM ====
paityesh (breakfast), paitruun (midafternoon), paityonn (midmorning), paitchot (dinner) - meal of the watch 
==== scribblemyname — 7/14/23, 7:56 AM ====
ogi → gi / oge, -ge, gin "part of", "type of" 
ogi + su → sul / osol, sun / oksun, os "to move" 
ogi + shi → okhsh "to work" 
-bmaa - in front of, before 
-bmung - before (temporally) 
-biitsaa - on (top of) (while touching) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/15/23, 10:09 AM ====
bosounea, bozou(e)ge - person who provides service 
bosou, bozou(e) - service 
bosol, bozouen - a service provided to others (whether compensated or not), an act of service 
avuameetson - babysitting, caretaking 
tsameetson - mentoring, training for ascension 
==== scribblemyname — 7/15/23, 12:30 PM ====
shikun - true immortal, someone both undying and unkillable 
shiku - to keep living, to keep moving (past many things), to endure 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 6:55 AM ====
buy amsterdam sepia 
lightfast 3+ opaque 
airtight glass bottles 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 3:20 PM ====
sitougeve, -et, -es, -er - ravenously hungy, emptied out of food. syn. ushunn - hungry 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 10:08 PM ====
paam from pakhaam 
pakh - a demonstration of trust through action or commitment 
pakhot - generosity, largesse 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 3:58 PM ====
abuai - ish. mother 
abuaini - ish. aunt, female relative of previous generation 
abouhrai - ish. grandmother 
abua (uts.), avhua (cur.), avua (dan.), avwu (gin.) - mother 
buani - uts. aunt or other older female relative, older female who has demonstrated responsibility toward one or earned the right of expectations from one 
abuaghra (uts.), avhuara (cur.) - grandmother 
tsaghra (uts.) - grandfather 
tatse, tata (uts.) - dad, daddy 
itatsua (uts.) - father 
uncle 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 4:30 PM ====
-miits (ish.), -miets (uts.) 
-biits (ish.), -biets (uts.), -viets (dan.) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 8:35 PM ====
unche - hot, active, on standby 
iiko - to pour 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 4:10 AM ====
yadahimgi (song) sahum - lullaby 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 2:56 PM ====
na kunyuudaenn - I'll try. (ish.) 
ni boshni - I accept (uts.) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 7:50 PM ====
bachebacheniyitsonna 
biunje (ish.) - hotheaded, i.e. overthinking, thinking furiously, feverish 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 8:48 PM ====
ushu - to want, to hunger 
uchietsl - a bow or other gesture of respect 
baso - sweet food or filling 
poko - savory food or filling 
basobaso - sweetener (food) 
abasabas - to sweeten (cooking) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/23/23, 9:05 AM ====
ish. 
baeni - sister 
sabaeni - younger sister 
wabaeni - older sister 
Aniet-hani ha sabaeni-nokh. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/23/23, 12:42 PM ====
-gosh, -gush - to not (do) 
-gf, -gv - to stop (doing) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/25/23, 8:43 AM ====
satha wa chouwa 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 9:45 AM ====
biits - head, awareness, sensory perception, biats-ukh 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 10:14 AM ====
biitsnea - scout, intelligence gatherer 
biitsne - strategic, intelligent 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 12:33 PM ====
yi - who 
==== scribblemyname — 7/27/23, 8:23 PM ====
buanok' - (gin.) my aunt 
ha buane, buanu-wane ??? 
ni buani / dzagra -anu, -hanou, -wanu, -baano 
ahi-, hayi-, wahi-, baahi- 
ave-, have-, wave-, baave- tsadi 
speaker: tsadya irya 
NOTE 
personal -anu, etc. 
other people ahi-, etc. 
things ave-, etc. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 8:46 AM ====
pakhshi - to extend trust, to befriend 
apapakhshi - to extend an olive branch, to reach out to someone, to let someone in a little 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 8:57 AM ====
gin. tsuwe - dragon 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 2:50 PM ====
syllabics: 
short (16): a, ə, ɛ, i, ɪ, ɔ, u, m, n, ɹ, v, f, s, ʃ, x, ɣ 
long (6): aː, eː, iː, ɔː, uː, nː 
multi (11): ai, au, ia, ua, iə, uə, uai, io, iɛ, uɛ, ɔuɛ 
==== scribblemyname — 7/29/23, 6:01 PM ====
aema suimghra-ani 
aemargi / ogeemar 
taemargi / ogetaemar 
==== scribblemyname — 7/30/23, 9:22 AM ====
ni paamrt daghehn - kin. may he be f'ed by a rock 
tayas: quiet not nice 
irya: quietnot nice, right 
leshet: stop making me look bad in front of my nephew 
t: yes auntie 
l: I'm not your auntie 
t: of course my arm 
i: ihithera... you must really hate him. he was in first? 
l: he was never a shining pinnacle of good personality, but we were arms once 
==== scribblemyname — 7/30/23, 9:40 AM ====
-sasuot descendant 
-sundok ancestor 

=== August 2023 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/5/23, 12:31 PM ====
Ginieng 
-nou - vocative 
nnmeetse - yes, that's so 
nmetsuuta - yes, will do 
baasnou - sir, ma'am
==== scribblemyname — 8/7/23, 2:41 PM ====
pirsathota, -ti, -tu, -t - former spouse, whether divorced or late 
pirietse - continuing, continuous 
pirietso - to continue, to court and consider marriage with a fling
==== scribblemyname — 8/7/23, 2:51 PM ====
-piriets - suffix indicating a relationship that has changed state but not ceased, e.g. pirsath(ot)i-piriets refers to a late or widowed wife where the living spouse is uninterested in seeking a new partner and sasu-piriets is an explicitly adult child no longer under parental authority
==== scribblemyname — 8/8/23, 8:05 AM ====
tayas-bani? 
na. tayas-ani 
sano, sano. na anveretsgushviyitsonn. 
va okhshlos
==== scribblemyname — 8/8/23, 8:24 AM ====
bn'etse - facing toward, pointing toward
==== scribblemyname — 8/9/23, 6:57 PM ====
anyiet-hani, shinimee! 
anyiet-hani! 
ni ozhnihaenn 
wano mhotvihaenn: shinimee ouet 
yutaenn, ou-wani
==== scribblemyname — 8/9/23, 7:25 PM ====
yunot, yunotke, yunotha - yesterday 
yunotaliaa - once upon a time, lit. long days ago or in long ago days 
yunotar - history, the / one's past
==== scribblemyname — 8/11/23, 9:30 PM ====
(ouet) yathsku paamnichahaenn nahn? 
future. paamnichautaenn
==== scribblemyname — 8/13/23, 11:21 AM ====
yig, yiktsau - back (of body)
==== scribblemyname — 8/14/23, 8:48 PM ====
ichichir - to make private, to hush up a matter, to anonymize, to protect identity or information from being found out
==== scribblemyname — 8/16/23, 7:55 PM ====
shisa, n. 
shisa, shiset, shisu, shisr - adj. (dinah) 
susunagh(ə)shm, nagh(ə)shm - n. clock, watch, timekeeping device
==== scribblemyname — 8/17/23, 6:30 AM ====
miam - to want or desire (sexually) 
chotourre shietavietsonn oueho-aa: time flies when you're having fun 
ouet paamnihaenn nahn vs. paamnichahaenn 
ou miamnietsonn (nihn) vs. (ni) miamnichaitsonn
==== scribblemyname — 8/17/23, 7:59 AM ====
-yathskvrit - TAM. is needed? 
-yathskrt - TAM. is possible? 
-yathsonnert - TAM. is happening? 
-yathsennert - TAM. is being done? 
-yathsutaenn - TAM. will be done?
==== scribblemyname — 8/18/23, 1:41 PM ====
urou vaser - you two
==== scribblemyname — 8/18/23, 3:16 PM ====
yogm - to chew, to eat, to consume information or media, to listen intently 
nije, -et, -es, -er OR 
huesa, -i, -ø, -r 
blood-covered, bloody
==== scribblemyname — 8/18/23, 3:36 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord, I pray 
help me finish out this day 
and do all things You want me to 
please grant me strength to make it through
==== scribblemyname — 8/18/23, 4:49 PM ====
yabizha - applause 
bizhabizha - yay, verbal gesture of clapping or cheering, to clap or cheer 
bizha - thunder, roaring as of a crowd
==== scribblemyname — 8/19/23, 9:07 AM ====
yathtsonichahaenn nahn meetseaa - what I will do to you when I get over there 
bickering 
miis-miits! 
miis???? 
sasuvas-miets 
yogmnihaenni / yogmnihaenna - I listen (Sontu and Aniet in unison) 
stop bickering 
ichin
==== scribblemyname — 8/25/23, 2:25 AM ====
taemiani (woman) 
taeminok' 
yagueshinichahaenn(i/a)
==== scribblemyname — 8/25/23, 4:07 PM ====
all these light and momentary troubles 
I will keep on praising You 
You who saved me out of darkness 
You who always guides me through 
light so bright and shining for me 
I will fix my eyes on You 
there is nothing else but following 
after You for me to do
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/23, 12:39 AM ====
ah, elusive sleep 
stop leaving 
when the night is deep 
just breathing 
while the starlight keeps 
on twinkling 
through the window seeps 
unthinking
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/23, 6:26 AM ====
rally my heart 
rally my soul 
rally all the pieces of everything I know 
rally all my energy 
rally my sweat 
rally all the work I've done and isn't done yet 
rally my hopes 
rally my love 
rally my eyes to point them up above 
rally all my visions 
rally all my dreams 
rally all the faith I've ever put into these things 
rally all my memories 
of everything You've done 
why I am alive today, Lord You're the only one 
rally all my wisdom 
rally my strength 
rally everything in me: height and depth and length 
ooh, ooh 
ooh, ooh 
(height and depth and length) 
2x - start bgv on 4th ooh
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/23, 6:59 AM ====
God, I need to trust You and I do 
God, I need to trust; it's me not You 
I don't trust this heart 
I don't this mind 
And I put all of me 
Down on the line 
And I bet me all on You 
I bet me all on You 
Faith 
is believing 
without seeing 
I believe in You 
Faith 
is believing 
not deceiving 
my own self too 
oo-ooh, na-na-na-na-na 
oo-ooh, na-na-na-na-na 
oo-ooh, I bet me all on You 
2x 
audio on you / + bridgey stuff
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/23, 2:12 AM ====
Read Today: 
Prov. 1:1-7 For all these reasons (to understand, grow wise, gain prudence, knowledge, discretion, etc.): 
hear and increase learning 
attain wise counsel 
fear the LORD 
. 
What did I learn yesterday: 
People come first - my sister mattered more than my distress 
I don't have to understand Him nor what's happening in my life to love and trust the Lord 
Brilliance begins from nothing - just started playing with GarageBand, then learned MIDI, then did 1 song/week 
My audience is other me - the bar is low, there is no pressure to please, only to express
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/23, 5:46 AM ====
getting angry at yourself for having a sleepy, tired, slow, or exhausted morning is counterproductive. lean into trust that God will help. Slow and steady wins the race.
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/23, 7:40 AM ====
Wolf had 2 names, like anybody else, but he'd been called the Wolf of the Paschtha since his Recognition. 
A... small wind blew through Wolf's rooms. Tayas paused to feel it, his sense of what lay under all telling him it was a living wind. 
Not gentle, just small. One could not make a fierce wind into a breath after all. 
Tayas went out, reassured that Wolf was well watched over.
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/23, 7:52 AM ====
The Elite units of the Paschtha and Vannu were divided into Hundreds. Leshet was in the 1st unit, so the Phoenix Hundred. Tayas was reserve for the 963rd unit, so the final or Dragon Hundred. The Hilakhot kept their own separate Elite Hundreds. The Danni had Ihithera's Elements instead.
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/23, 7:59 AM ====
and dragged them down from the sky. 
Void came down, screaming, their very existence vibrating intolerably against the world. The creatures were one and all larger than the one Leshet had fought before. 
the layer of Knowing, which translated noise and word and communicated thought into something the Elite could understand, had gone silent. Hands flipped in gesture. Comms crackled with simplified speech mutual to most dialects. It got harder to breathe.

=== September 2023 ===

=== October 2023 ===

=== November 2023 ===

=== December 2023 ===

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:29:36Z

Lianamir: /* July 2023 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== January 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 6:51 AM ====
the only one that matters won't recognize my face. you should go though

me?

they don't like dealing through representatives lower than your rank

are you sure you shouldn't come along then? seeing as you know the culture

I'm not abandoning you, affectionately

Joem wanted to protest the sudden role reversal, being treated like a child in need of encouragement or comfort. He refrained when he realized he was somewhat acting like one

...

I don't understand your relationship with my father

You will one day without my needing to explain it

That answer won't get you out of every question I ask.

I'll keep that in mind

Beram studied him for a long moment, taking in this side of him. Usually Sata answered all of his questions that weren't about who Beram really was, and he generally didn't show Beram his cold face. (After all, Beram's dark face would only rarely make an appearance and hadn't yet in this life.)

So he smiled, warmly, became the person he was for his lover, not his child. "It really is too complicated." There were too many things tied up in the concept of his almost children, especially when he didn't share them with Beram.

His difficult, precious, demanding children. He would never have children of his essence. It made the children of his power all the more necessary to cherish and protect.

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 7:00 AM ====
when I met him, I felt like I'd been waiting for him my whole life. even when he's infuriating... Beram trailed off into a sheepish smile. I like him a lot, Dad.

==== scribblemyname — 01/13/2023 3:50 PM ====
https://www.calendardate.com/year2023.php

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 4:39 AM ====
I sleep well and wake refreshed

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 8:44 PM ====
Good evening, God, my sovereign Lord 
I reach for You, cling to Your Word 
Nothing less can I afford 
If I'm to be reassured 
For comfort comes from trusting You 
And peace by walking in Your way 
Through the hours, I've cone through 
And by Your strength passed through this day 
My hope is found within my sight 
Visions and histories glowing bright 
When You, O Lord, reached out to save 
Me from every yawning grave 
And all my sins and my mistakes 
With Your mercy You forgave 
In awe, I cry, what love like this! 
Ignorance is pain, Your truth my bliss

==== scribblemyname — 01/21/2023 8:43 PM ====
avg 3 kids

gen 1 2 
gen 2 2 + 2 
gen 3 9 + 9 
gen 4 27 + 27 = 54 
gen 5 81 + 81 = 162 
gen 6 243 + 243 = 486 
Curun

==== scribblemyname — 01/25/2023 4:29 PM ====
legacy of Yonyunn, sometimes he wanted to pat them on their invisible helpful heads (far north, etc. interpretations), a rather convenient exception as high ranking member of the Elite, can't have a war king/queen without the Elite, no one minded when Ahayin sat by him, This was a war council after all.

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:28 AM ====
good morning, God, I pray again 
I'm thankful for Your perfect plan 
the hope You hold within Your hand 
to pour on me, such blessings when 
I don't deserve Your matchless grace 
but neither does the human race 
Your favor granted in Your love 
is not because of us or of 
a human nature, prone to wander 
no, You're our eternal Father 
hold me, Lord, I pray today 
and keep me in Your perfect way

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 3:33 PM ====
egum - bird 
egumyesh - seabird, dialectical variant: egumesh 
egumiryo - snowbird 
egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
egumyon - sunbird, dialectical variant: egumon

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:37 PM ====
yefa - fish 
yefasejek - spearfish

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 10:38 PM ====
tsuve - dragon

from tsawi 
tsuveyesh - sea dragon 
tsuveyon - sun dragon 
tsuvechot - night dragon

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 3:45 AM ====
Leshet had been born in Kinaang, high up the northern face of the then southern border, that is the Dragon Cliffs. She understood that Kinaang or Ginieng, dialect dependent, had grown up from village to town, and its proximity to the capital meant there were people not of her band living there. They could marry without waiting for a marriage festival after the Clans Gathering. Their guardian council was said to have a touchstone. She'd never asked or verified if it was the same one from before the war. It wasn't the god-marked only who had been targeted, and why would they have it if Leshet's three contracts were none traditional to her band.

From the time they sent her off to learn war, as an unrecognized child, she had never been back since.

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 8:19 PM ====
hwun aiyung soeg tsuve

=== February 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 02/01/2023 11:34 AM ====
Postposition Class non-person noun person noun ascended person noun 
I – masc. a ani aniwa 
II – fem. ha hani haniwa 
III – divine / natural wa wani waniwa 
IV – neut. ba bani baniwa

==== scribblemyname — 02/02/2023 5:06 PM ====
Happy to! A brief background: the war clans are not a united polity. For the purposes of war and foreign policy, they are essentially four groups of clans, but for domestic purposes, each clan is sovereign itself. That said, the northernmost clan of Vannu uses the Hilakhot sequence in general parlance but the Paschtha sequence for anything under the war government.

1. aiyung - phoenix 
2. tiger 
3. seon - guardwolf 
4. spearfish 
5. greydeer 
6. egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
7. sunfish 
8. snowtiger 
9. rumhyitann - quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
10. tsuve - dragon

The first three and the last one are native to their originating homeworld. The remaining species are native to the world they're on now.

These are the names of the days within their ten-day periods (one might say "they rest on the halves, greydeer and dragon", meaning the fifth and tenth days of the aghourre); the ten-day periods within a season (a season typically runs through snowtiger or quickdeer, which aghourre is swallowed by the equinox or solstice, days named for different dragons); and the elite military "hundreds", which consist of 100 units (the first hundred is the phoenix hundred, which contains units 1-100; thus, the 312th unit would be in spearfish).
Anything placed in a sequence may use ordinal numbers or use the sequence names. Military units containing three squads may call them first, second, and third squad or phoenix, tiger, and guardwolf squad. Measuring cups and spoons that are whole increments rather than fractions may be labeled with an animal icon rather than number glyphs, though fractions will usually use numbers.

In dates and military units, the choice of sequence name or number name is usually going to alternate for ease of understanding. A huntingbird ten is 60, rather than saying "six ten[s]" or "a huntingbird dragon". If you say Spring's snowtiger to refer to a ten-day period, you'll call the day within it by its number, e.g. fifth day of the Spring's snowtiger. But if you want to name the day, you'd say the greydeer of Spring's eighth.

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 2:41 PM ====
levels not floors

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 6:32 PM ====
good evening God, the end of day 
nears again and so I pray 
I'm grateful for the Sabbath rest 
Though I feel I gave my best 
Lord, I ask my best improve 
As through the days and weeks I move 
And teach me Lord to rest in You 
And in Your peace my lifetime through

==== scribblemyname — 02/04/2023 7:30 PM ====
months

the new month 
the rising dragon month 
the falling dragon month 
the mountain lights month

the singing glories month 
the dancing storms month 
the breath of winds month 
the woven strands month

the hungering void month 
the void satisfied month 
the burning lights month 
the unfolding blooms month

the solemn eyes month 
the eternal mists month 
the spreading heavens month 
the plummeting depths month

the world weights month 
the heavenly anchors month 
the turning wheels month 
the biting hunters month

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 7:59 AM ====
yitzonn running, as happens, naturally 
haenn by hand - actively, intentionally, by deliberate effort

moet-miets yathsaa yitzonn? is that my yellow girl happening by?

huanra snack 
huadr vigilant 
hyet bread 
duen steed, a horselike creature 
mowani ruler, king, queen 
mowani ko war queen, war king 
duenmowann kingsteed

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 8:49 AM ====
aved, aveth: marked, as in Tayas Kms aveth Curunde, where Tayas Kms are considered 1st and 2nd personal names, but band, clan, and duty-lineage are all what one is marked rather than named. Etym. derived originally from "clawed" in the sense of having been marked by claws.

For K2-Nar, we have -hen as the original ergative case ending, derived from heme, "hand." Methinks this one erodes to -en fairly quickly.

And ongit: tea.
Huasi vunnosen ongit nohenye iejes shengoshukiaa.

That is

to drink.SG PAST tea.SG.ABS 1P.ERG.PL VOL moonlight.LOC
K2-Nar

empreta: to hunt together (as a social or companionable activity) 
imea: eye 
nij: blood 
nijeres: divine power (godsblood) 
yaiye: water 
dini: (any member of any species of) small, migrating songbird 
mouwe: divine yellow 
njeho: light breeze; someone who passes through quickly or only stays for brief visits (shorter than is polite) 
nwehi: path 
nyemouwe: divine white 
payat: bread 
pwuteks: bed; bed of a body of water, seafloor 
tsabi: body 
vurte: burn wound 
busihts: fetus; pregnant 
ikiets: to stab 
njikh: tooth 
suarot: tree 
teɡh: knife 
ts'awi mountain; (poetic) dragons 
tsadi river 
shivimee: imperative, pass (inanimate object) to me, e.g. shivimee ohuali, "pass the (bread)sticks" 
shinimee: imperative, come here

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 3:08 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord of hosts 
Of my own strength I cannot boast 
If I say go, they do not go 
It is a skill only You know 
But grant me peace in all of this 
For trusting You alone is bliss 
To know that even through these tests 
You will bring me to some rest

==== scribblemyname — 02/07/2023 7:31 AM ====
I go to sail the dragon sea 
my love, my love 2x 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
my love, my love 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
Because, because

sung by coastal clans at funerals

==== scribblemyname — 02/08/2023 7:53 AM ====
sasu - child, offspring 
miis - infant

kolos

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:37 AM ====
gi, oge numbers 
kanwun year 
wunn annual

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:45 AM ====
sul, osol fractional partitive 
yishor can't marry

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:53 AM ====
isut memory, record, log

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:43 AM ====
southern gisun, oksun

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:14 PM ====
pmto trade goods 
kients trade instructions or information

=== March 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:46 AM ====
yaiue season

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:58 AM ====
prtzon marriage

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 8:43 AM ====
pntzon trade

==== scribblemyname — 03/05/2023 11:48 AM ====
inut resource(s) 
inughra wealth, surplus resources 
davke foreign trader

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 5:56 AM ====
Tren walking over to Chaz's wearing swearter, bite of chill to the autumn wind, sees Chaz and complaints disappear without dripping off his tongue

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 2:53 PM ====
niewutsuve - dragon winds, that is warm winds coming off the Dragon Sea and blowing westward

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:14 PM ====
yaiye > iiye, n. water; adj. -e, -et, -es, -er. 1. wet; 2. watery, dilute liquid, e.g. watery tea; 3. young, relatively untrained or naive person

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:22 PM ====
{travel} inlitzon, to ride 
{travel} paritzon, to be carried 
{travel} ??-tzon, to cross over

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:29 PM ====
okay, some notes go here:
Brín go in the desert between the True North and the Great City just to the west of the mountains bordering the War Clans, mostly along the lake mid-desert between those mountains and Lehwa's eastern border. Lehwa considers some of the desert their territory, but the Brín consider the desert theirs entire. The lake is fed by waters from the True North, and the original settlers mostly swept down from there, though they've always picked up some from east and south as well.

Gian becomes the Little Dragon of the Copper Court, ruling over the Great City (Elohwangian, Lo his child name, Gian his political name, Littleling his ward name, and the Little Dragon his name). His half brother Shian is a trader among the Brín. Shian's children are Antha and Haitha. Haitha expands dragon trade between the Great City, Brín, and the True North and marries a girl from the True North. Due to their actions and dragon migrations, the Garden Court is established as a port for shipping, mail, and dragon travel, as well as housing a massive enclosed plaza of carefully developed water system, garden, and animal raising to provide food to allow dragons to live there.

This precipitates the Joint Council of the Thaifka who determine whether the intent to lay stone and projected consumption can be supported by the lake. They were able to make agreements with the Great Court in the True North where She Who Awakens presides to establish the Icewater Court and send an established amount of water down the river.
Young dragons who wish to join the Brín establish the Court of the Wall, defining the border with Lehwa, and registering with all the established Thaifka and requesting elders for their court, which ends up prompting the Joint Office of Customs. Dragons also establish the Court of the Waters just south of the mountains of the north and appoint themselves responsible for measuring and protecting the waters. They consider themselves Brín and choose to register with the Thaifka, lay open plazas always "open under the sky", pass the bracelet at the arrival of visitors, sending word when it's one of their own or arranging and smoothing potential trade with someone new, adopt no local currency, and guard anything sent downriver.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:39 PM ====
Haitha's son (oldest child, 3 younger sisters) notices that Shian is unhappy and feels his world has grown smaller and that the Thaifka are acting more as a governing body than a purely presiding body, but he doesn't want to start over or settle elsewhere from his chosen community. Haitha turns to Flame Blooms in Winter, who grants him her power, which enables him to create "freedom stones" to set in the open plaza, that it be always under the open sky. No one in the plaza can be compelled.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:49 PM ====
On the topic, the Copper Court includes Flame Blooms in Winter presiding and He Around Whom the Worlds Turn ruling. Her daughter Cold Under Fire was warded by Gian after he was warded by Flame Blooms in Winter from 11 years old. Cold Under Fire warded his two children by the half-dragon daughter of one of the youngest who flew over. Gian ruled beside Void Under Sunlight but Void Under Sunlight was injured during the Black Rain (TIAT), fighting alongside the Iron Dragon, and retired (to run off and go find the dragons of the True North). So Gian talks the Iron Dragon at the Court of Iron and Blood in the Undercity to give him Moonlight Under Water to rule beside him instead. He's stuck with him right up to ruling the Overcity though, and Void Under Sunlight becomes ambassador to the Council of Nations.
Once Gian's Garden faction wins over the Songbirds and Citadel faction, Shian brings his wife and children to meet the Copper Court. Flame Blooms in Winter's daughter Flowers Under Sunlight had very eagerly showed up in Brín when she learned how to transform. She introduces the two to her three hatchlings, and Haitha ends up working with Snow Under the Sky and Light Under {Night}.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:57 PM ====
lauv is Brín for stone, to lay stone is to build or help build a residence one intends to live in and one must register intent to lay stone with the Thaifka, who determine if there is prior claim on the property

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 8:08 AM ====
brin terms

saihadin birdtower 
breddun horse tie 
dun steed 
duin spirit or ghost 
boshing flowering gourd, a divine fruit 
geshing peach, a divine fruit 
isha strength 
patrin maternal aunt or uncle 
patrinsa maternal cousin 
kamin, kaminsa paternal 
din bird, runner scout watchman 
burin desert

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 10:00 AM ====
shinin bracelet 
shinindin bracelet bird: runner scout watchman

==== scribblemyname — 03/20/2023 9:11 PM ====
Leshet felt the shifting seasons lightly, the cooler winds and white mists of spring drifting through her, unable to chill her breath or dampen her skin. The sight of Tide and Moonlight at the stone table they'd chosen hit her harder, more familiar and less fleeting, for all spring was a mere four dragons previous, compared to the years since they'd paused their disparate circuits to cross threads again.

Moonlight stood tense and tall by the table, arms crossed, dark hair practically a cloak of its own in length. Tide at his shoulder was deceptively more relaxed, the godmark of his silver white hair barely brushing his neck.

The Dragon Hundred was as strong as the Phoenix Hundred.

Leshet's lifted her gaze to the scar on his face, an extra quirk to his wry expression. She raised her hand, but Tide halted her by the wrist. "Don't."

"Of course."

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 1:26 AM ====
washed up at Connors with a tide of fellow students from the middle school, at least an hour before high school extracurriculars would let older teens flood the place

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:32 AM ====
the sword hung above the mantel

come in, Captain

may I ask—?

the original, passed down through the generations from our ancestor, the very legend you seek. studied Joem for a long moment. There are three branches of my family and three heirs who hold rights to these artifacts.

I'm afraid I'll need to take them all.

I see.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:41 AM ====
Leshet reactivated with the Elite after her first husband died, like soil awakening in spring, full of the seeds of winter. She'd belonged to the First Unit when she'd gone fallow; she belonged to it when she returned.

"I've redistributed the Undying," Yonyunn told her. She'd put the Curunde trio in the Nine Hundred Sixty-Third Unit.

Leshet understood. Hiding that some did not die of natural causes was a reasonable enough decision.

"I'm First," Leshet said. "I chose duty once."

Yonyunn hesitated, no doubt remembering the conversation that led to Leshet's assigned marriage. She relented.

Leshet remained.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 6:00 AM ====
tell me, sat beside him, did you know that first time?

no. if I'd known you were related to saiyar, I would never have touched you.

ah. so yonyunn told you

if she hadn't, I never would have agreed

==== scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM ====
he had no one to complain to that wouldn't rat him out immediately. communication sacred mission, feature not a bug, put his fond amusement into the ecosystem so they could sense it 
where's Beram, split by temperament, are you afraid? are you? story, gives him a touchstone

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 9:00 AM ====
susun / susunaghs - "hours", that is a tenth of a watch or 1/40th of a day, also susun osol nakhaurre

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 11:49 AM ====
nakhnu guardian, from nakhanau 
nakhaurre watch, a period of 1/4 day 
nakhaurresh - sea watch 
nakhauryon - sun watch 
nakhaurchot - night watch 
need to figure out grey here

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:17 AM ====
haimourre hand-units, 1/4 susun or 1/40th of a nakhaurre 
vaghar claws, 1/10 haimourre or 1/40th of a susun

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:28 AM ====
baagyon solar time 
baagutsar "regular" civil time 
udus regular, normal, ordinary

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:42 AM ====
baaghar "other" civil time 
ishegi, isheginu protectee 
ishesul partner, ally, or member of one's workforce or personal networks

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 1:17 PM ====
great city:

nutsáb - I 
utsáb - you 
hatsáb - he, she, they 
batsáb - it

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 8:06 PM ====
I was like a system dialog box. I only had one button: Okay.

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 7:10 AM ====
great city ˈʃu.ʃn shúshin

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 8:01 AM ====
chuuchun ki.ta.ma shi-ja-kor.i

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 6:00 AM ====
She received the summons when she woke towards the end of the sea watch. Their unit leader gave her a physical tab silently. Leshet read off the odd script, half statements she was obliged to know the rest of to interpret correctly. When the Knowing could interpret any fully communicated thought to any recipient, passing military communications became an exercise in communicating such that only the right recipient would understand.

First. First place. {time}

Srshe looked at her. Orders.

A mtg. With the First.

Adan?

Yes.

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 7:30 AM ====
they weren't the first anymore, they were first and 963rd and the husband of the war queen, and yet, they were the first members of the first unit from the time it had been established, and that was never going to go away
Leshet smiles once in the whole book. How do you choose to demonstrate catharsis?

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 8:54 AM ====
brin

unshókhe a new genre of nontraditional song and dance sprung up among the youth of the lower city's plaza

ishing(al) child(ren)

=== April 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 04/02/2023 9:11 AM ====
possible kofnea

mounu ichiche 
mounu ishishe 
ani yitzonn itsivayo

==== scribblemyname — 04/03/2023 7:45 AM ====
chirnea member of one's anchiri, a friend who knowingly helps to anonymize you 
anchiru, -ut, -unn, -u anonymizing, of or related to anchiru

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 9:52 AM ====
Sontu Aghmtanti, born in Taegung as Paschtha Ishiem just south of the mountains of the border with the Danni, family grows and trades food and spices that need wetlands or boxes, incl. tsuntsi. Has 2 younger siblings. Marries Minunn 
ichin - verbal gesture of respect toward older male 
achi - verbal gesture of respect toward older female

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 11:21 AM ====
Yunn had fling with Gin of first kolos, was chirnea to Moet, I am good chirnea. Yes, you are. Praise me more.

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 8:35 AM ====
duzho geef

not in front of children

explanation demanded from children

why would you want to curse anyone?

izhit

apologizes

these are ishiem words - duuso vs. duusho > duuzho 
ichin > izhit (feminized insult)

Minunn livid until he promises to make the effort around her and the children 
yoich - verbal gesture demanding respect, yoichi in Ishiem

maybe all my glory is my claws in place 
maybe all my glory is a pretty face 
maybe all my glory is a voice arrayed 
but it's mine, but it's mine 
and I'm never going to change

you laid these bones 
you made them strong 
you laid these bones 
but they're mine, but they're mine 
and that's never going to change

yoich

You cannot take your grown children by the hand.

...

I am not your heir. I will not return to Taegung, not for my wedding, not as your heir. That place is for Anyiet.

Sontu!

Yoichi. 
Yesh Runn stormy sea, Gin's brother

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 9:10 AM ====
pers. I 
nokh / noikh / ukh 
nokhs / noekhs / uikh

class III 
hinokhs / ukhs 
I appear to be developing something of a tree of linguistic change in this language family, oops, and just trying to sort out how one thing leads to another all at the same time. 
So possessive suffixes in Kofnea-Adan (as I'm calling it now):

m. ukh, f. uikh, n. ukh, o. urëkh (2nd p): your

Where ë is now how I'm indicating the schwa, which is phonemic in Kofnea at least.

vs. in Kofnea-Kolos (modern), where -miets used to indicate the immediacy of a kinship relationship is starting to see use as an inalienable possessive, aka, my love, my husband, my {name}, mine, while still only usable with immediate relatives. This also combines with regular possession when used as a possessive pronoun rather than adjective:

m. miatsukh, f. miatsuikh, n. miatsukh, o. miatsurëkh (2nd p): yours 
No! Sorry for being unclear! So it'd be like Shion-miets is how a character calls her husband, My wolf, as an endearment. Literally, it's wolf-immediate relation marker. Miatsukh would be a way of saying "yours" meaning "your immediately related {person in this context}."

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 3:15 PM ====
like the river blue mist, gonna burn itself away 
young love, young love 
gonna disappear one day

like the passing days 
got to live them while we can 
young love, young love 
we learn with our own hands

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 7:47 AM ====
jishim ishiam verbal gesture of surrender or resignation, esp. to something deemed the natural order of things

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 8:07 AM ====
jikhoue - accompanied by chin jut on kho, irritated pain

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 1:31 PM ====
Sontu: na ushunn (I'm hungry) 
ushun - n. hunger

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 2:15 PM ====
geyef / ge'ef 
zhoyon / zho'on

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:12 PM ====
nehin fling 
wa nehin a fling 
nehin (h)ani a person one has a fling with

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:50 PM ====
hasath premarital romantic partner

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 7:49 AM ====
shuka yone - sunlight 
goes by yunn - morning 
sachin respect to male peer with higher standing 
sachi respect to female peer with higher standing

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 2:55 PM ====
yatech heart as emotional center (miets), one's emotional energies, the most intense of one's emotional attachments (nokh / noikh) 
hoagh heart organ 
jita / shita alive 
hoagh jita / shita heartbeat, pulse 
achid the ceremony of marriage where the couple imbue each other with the power of their own contracts, usually performed during a wedding but can be considered a wedding act which merely needs verification afterward

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 5:29 PM ====
pirtot keep far, to distance oneself 
pirtha keep close, to stay near to

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 1:44 AM ====
don't want to be awake 
don't know how to sleep 
not tonight 
all the fight 
in me turned inward

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:00 AM ====
yague romantic committed love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:22 AM ====
yague romantic committed love 
ungtha nearby, phys. or ment. 
mho voice

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 7:57 AM ====
adj. names shung + pakhe

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:12 AM ====
pirsatha husband 
pirsathi wife 
yaguegi object of one's love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:56 AM ====
poghro aumyo pasta w/a traditional soupy sauce 
baahas tiger

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 9:12 AM ====
pretar achid tie, contract(s), those one has a future with, e.g. family, close friends, spouse, etc., fate

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 3:04 PM ====
sadi river 
satsa stream

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 4:19 PM ====
economic, cultural, political, technology, religion, geography

==== scribblemyname — 04/11/2023 11:59 AM ====
nukhshi play, dialect variants nughshi, nuushi, nukchi

okhshi work

suim shiuntsi a style of presentation, incl. dress, scents, makeup, jewelry, and colors considered appropriate for casual or formal social occasions. It's marked by what are considered green scents, soft clothing lines and cuts which do not expose clan marks, understated jewelry and hairstyle, and natural makeup if any.

pns nagm a style of personal presentation considered appropriate for casual wear or work around the home but not in public. It's marked by functional clothing which may be worn or damaged from previous work done in it, e.g. paint spattered jeans, and a lack of makeup or jewelry.

okhsh danmi a style of personal presentation seen as permissive working uniform, which allows some stylistic or personal choice variations from a set uniform. It is one of few presentation styles viewed as almost always appropriate, excepting the rare occasions when strict uniform is required. Danmi in practice varies by uniform and profession. Professions with no set uniform cannot utilize danmi.

pns - comfortableness

pns idrntso - comfortable loose or long fitting presentation suitable for everyday wear

pns udus - everyday nonwork personal presentation style

okhsh udus - everyday work presentation, no uniform,

pns yenes - presentation with softcloth and cuts that reveal clan marks

ildns - friendship of companionship, generally viewed as continuing by choice and preference

ildnsn(a)(i) - friend of companionship

minunn - having a soft, gentle quality, esp. of voice, demeanor, or appearance

shung - 1. flowing, as of water, 2. giving and generous of one's time and effort on behalf of others

suim ghra - formal social dress and presentation with floral scents, decorative hairstyles, etc.

yapft - friend who is acting as chaperone during courtship

yivsl - a flower brought with them from Kareios having a pleasing scent

suim pns - light clothing with patterns and floral colors, floral or fruit scents

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:31 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents.

absolutive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -hn.

1st - na, ni, no, uren 
2nd - ou, ouet, uus, urou 
3rd - a(ni), ha(ni), wa(ni), ba(ni)

possessive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -n.

1st - nokh, noikh, nokhs, norekh 
2nd - ukh, uikh, ukhs, urekh 
3rd - a(ni)kh, ha(ni)kh, wa(ni)kh, ba(ni)kh

Ishiam adds two sets, ba- for speaking to or of someone with indeterminate or unknown difference in age, generation, or standing and sa- for speaking to or of someone of lower age, generation, or standing. Yeah, rather honorific like I'm noticing.

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:59 AM ====
ymke - comfort food 
iyudu - n. 1. scent, 2. perfume 
hiyaube, -et, -o (-es), -r - adj. painful 
hiyaubo - n. pain 
sennar - n. earrings 
yagueourre - n. courtship period before marriage 
huesourre - n. menstrual period 
duushung - v. to let one's thoughts or feelings slip such that the Knowing translates to them to others, generally this is looked down on or considered embarrassing for anyone over a certain age 
uchietson - n. being respectful 
uchietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. respectful 
uchietsetre, -ret, -los, -re - adj. disrespectful, rude 
oueho - fun 
yagueit - ptcp. adj. 1. engaged, 2. committed romantically 
yaguekue, -et, -es, -er - adj. suitable for marriage in standing, compatibility, etc. 
prtsonkue - adj. 1. marriagable, that is legally eligible for marriage, 2. eligible for marriage by having no egregious disqualifying personal traits 
eseche - n. a formal social event incl. a meal, usually dinner 
sokhoto - n. a social meal engaged in to discuss potential business arrangements 
gev - neut. n. zero 
eas - n. spirit, referring to the life and consciousness of a person or god 
ishrtse - studious

daashi - personal presentation style sometimes considered synonymous with suim pns, but which varies in...

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 11:05 AM ====
ksh'danmi daashi is what Saiyunn wears 
ksh'danmi yenes is what Tayas wears

==== scribblemyname — 04/13/2023 8:26 PM ====
sontu and minunn's first child is aiyungi jitai, "yatech"

==== scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM ====
kofnea-utsa 
kofnea-ishiama 
kofnea-tsuala 
kofnea-tsuala paschtha 
kofnea-tsuala tsuvea (kofnea-curun) 
kofnea-tsuala lakha 
kofnea-yeshietsa 
kofnea-daana 
tsabua - ud. soul, spiritual "body", tl. highest self, cl. etiquette, best behavior 
tsabung - n. the land within war clans territory, usu. indicative of that of a clans group but sometimes indicative of parts or all 
yeshietsa, -tsi, -ts, -tsr - coastal 
prtseche - n. wedding meal, wedding celebration

==== scribblemyname — 04/15/2023 3:37 PM ====
aemiets, taemiets - significant other

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 5:58 AM ====
sant - the dry ingredients of a dish, when initially prepped separately 
hastha, -i - male or female premarital romantic partner, see hasath

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 6:53 AM ====
It wasn't that Sata didn't see him coming. Sata's temper wasn't one which cooled easily, and even when it did, it generally hardened into unwavering resolve. His temper kept him flinging spear and fire, spear and ice, even when Jioror the Lahan, Chief of Information entered the training room and stopped to stare.

Sata was glowing. He was still condensed power, rippling waves of heat and shatters of ice rolling off him. He turned, pulling his spears upright in his hands, and looked down toward the Lahan.

His face was full of surprise, something familiar and cold clenched in his right glove.

Sata's temper fled him, and he considered just who had wielded that last. He diffused his power, reabsorbed his spears, let the glow fade from behind his eyes, as he leaned forward.

"Sata?" The Lahan sounded uncertain. "Shouldn't you be in bed?"

He wasn't addressing the obvious. Sata wasn't human.

But Sata did, an edge of humor on his tongue. He didn't bother to pretend youthfulness. "When he wakes, he'll want to hunt." Sata was decidedly out of practice. "My almost child." He waved toward the spear.

Jioror stiffened.

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 7:28 AM ====
uzh - ishiam. work 
uzhanme - ishiam. ksh'danmi 
uzhun - worker 
uzhungam - troublemaker, a very rambunctious child or person under one's care or responsibility, nuisance

vs.

okhshne - worker 
okhshngam - employer

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 1:33 PM ====
shcha verbal gesture meaning here or for you

nea, kofnea recognized person (adult, registered age of forfeiture) 
hinea, hsnea unrecognized person (young adult, unregistered age of forfeiture) 
msnea child young enough to not keep anchiri yet 
bsnea nonclans person

ouekhe - verbal gesture of directed displeasure, equivalent to shaking a fist or finger at someone

uusoue - to admire with awe, as a role model or beautiful wife 
ososou - to admire with fondness, as a cute child or pet

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 8:56 PM ====
I write a note to self 
my heart up on a shelf 
oh, I could take it down 
would it make me someone else

do you see the broken glass 
image between the cracks 
my mirror to hide behind 
where even I can't find

there's silence blooming where I used to tread 
quiet rooming with loudness in my head 
a diet of hope and pain on which I've fed 
feels like centuries lying in this bed

it's hard sometimes to make the words come out 
harder still to stop the broken spout 
swallow down the person I can't be 
hating, dreading that I think they're me 
letting go so hard so I can breathe

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:04 PM ====
I didn't mean to write that 
but when did I ever mean 
any sort of thing 
I wear another hat 
do you know this brand new version 
smile at the subversion 
before we start reversion 
another tit for tat 
words on my tongue 
when the night is young 
ignore, ignore the heedless stream 
the fanciful dream 
I never meant to write that 
to break the ice, the glass 
to teach another class 
on why to leave me be 
forget, just please forget me 
I loathe to feel your eyes 
and yet I need 
I cannot bear the pain 
and yet I bleed 
kiss me 
is this a metaphor 
I dream of lost things 
lost and faded wings 
I used to soar 
and even more 
laughter like sunshine 
bubbled in my chest 
before I learned the world's not kind 
and no one will help 
my world drifts in and out 
of yours, the loneliness 
finds me on edge 
intersections like promises 
never empty yet unfulfilled 
I feel unskilled 
my hands unable to grasp 
quicksilver fish, like dreams 
your life now gone 
from the lines and threads we wove 
a treasure trove 
of memories and sobs 
I leave the chest closed

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:13 PM ====
how long have I held you heavy in unspoken places? 
I brace myself for another wave 
this is not bravery, braving the locks 
realizing I locked away my grief 
like a bird in a cage, 
always singing and endlessly bringing 
an undertone of my drifting self 
an ocean without an anchor, my harbor lost 
horizon beckons unreachable 
for I have a tempest to bring 
my thoughts and my dreams 
remind me that you believed 
the gift I received 
from you I cannot toss aside 
so I go with the tide 
been waiting to heal 
for a long, long time 
there is no great reveal 
just an endless climb

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:51 PM ====
good evening, God, you know my heart 
you've plumbed the depths of every part 
you've shown a light inside my dark 
I pray tonight an end then start 
anew; the morning light will come 
your mercies greater than the sum 
of all my weakness, failings, loss 
you are stronger than my cross 
which you allowed my heart to bear 
gently saying don't be scared 
for not by will must I stand strong 
but by you, keep holding on

==== scribblemyname — 04/19/2023 4:54 AM ====
auto bio graph 
do you even understand 
what is hidden in these lines 
yes, I know it every time

expiate, got to expiate 
a history or two 
I appreciate 
I am at the gate 
and now I'm going through 
aya, aya, aya...

educate, got to educate 
this heart and soul of mine 
I appreciate 
cannot leave to fate 
I got to underline 
aya, aya, aya... 
this is no way to live 
but I promise to forgive 
if you'll let it all go

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 7:43 AM ====
don't want to drift out on the water 
don't want to burn up in the fire 
don't want to sink under the heaven 
don't want to lose my way again

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 9:41 AM ====
I'd been living for a hundred years 
underneath a mountain of fears 
crying out: every time You hear 
You forgave me and You saved me and You held me dear

I don't why 
I don't get by 
I need You right 
now and forever 
You're my only light

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 10:17 AM ====
shi no okhsm 
??

oznocha, uznocha - ishiam. move away

==== scribblemyname — 04/22/2023 5:15 PM ====
duushon - idea 
yadahim - music 
amhobaamgi yadahim - musician

tiger rhyme is a double rhyme 
singing is mouth music, look up old word for mouth

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:27 AM ====
ozhaizhenna kus(h)aiyenn 
budtho 
dikangu

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:48 AM ====
sitouangm - cook 
sitouangamo - grower 
sitou - food 
sitoue, -et, -es, -er - culinary, dietary, relating to food 
sitouatson - argriculture 
sitouetre - non-nutritive, inedible

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 6:23 AM ====
teas - to run after, to pursue 
tasatson - western. pursuit, haste; eastern. tiasatson 
tasatse - western. hasty, risky, not well thought through; eastern. tiasatse - ambitious 
duuse - preoccupied, overwhelmed by thoughts or memories 
duushe - ishiam. thoughtful, with forethought 
duuzhedre - ishiam. poorly thought through, reckless 
duushert - ishiam. well-considered, properly prepared, ready 
sahum - sleep 
sahumtha - sleepy 
sahumkue - comfortable or restful, such that one can take down one's guard or reserve 
sahumotson - insomnia 
sahumotse - wakeful, unable to sleep 
sahumthtre - awake, active (as of a device or object), still having enough power or connection to a power source for the current plan or activity 
sosouege - a cute person or thing 
uusege - an admirable person or thing 
uusouekue - admirable, awe-inspiring 
uusouert - admired, looked up to, dialect: uusoerit 
paam - to touch intimately, to have sex 
meetha - to touch physically

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 8:10 AM ====
ichagefrt - ishiam. exhausted, drained of energy after great exertion or extended wakefulness 
shukn - paved or designated street, usually in a city and permitting foot traffic 
inliung - street designated for vehicular traffic. ishiam. any street (originating dialect of the term) 
khothe - adj. evening 
khotha - n. evening. ishiam. chotha 
osaghrae - up, greater 
osaute - up, higher 
os - to move. ishiam. oz, uz

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:08 AM ====
pretangamo - contract maker, that is lawyer. Notes: These are never private, but represent band or clan interests and serve members of the same. Payment for some functions, e.g. marriage contracts, is provided by the band or clan (with gifts from those served frequently offered if services go over the expected costs). Others must be paid for directly by those served. 
ududu - filler word meaning the person is thinking 
duu - to think, to reminisce

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:58 AM ====
oue - interrogative. what 
unnse - skin

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 9:31 AM ====
yaptha - bruise 
ipekho - adj. kind, helpful out of compassion or warm feeling 
ipekh - n. 1. warmth (temperature), 2. having a sincerely kind, generous personality

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 2:02 PM ====
uzoso - ishiam. wait 
ososo - paschtha. thinking 
yasncher - hello, goodbye, from "(your) soul be blessed" 
pnnsncher - get well, feel better

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 7:01 AM ====
common colors

bemrun, bemwun - n. grey 
bemruune, bemuune - adj. grey 
bemtsad - n. blue 
bemtsade - adj. blue 
bmsnesh - n. orange, ishiam. bnznesh 
bmsnesha - adj. orange

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 8:58 AM ====
bmrit, bmrt - having the color or appearance of 
oso oso - to work

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 9:21 AM ====
senmiunung - garden 
unung - property, land one resides on 
yeyung - wetland 
tsadung - alluvial floodplain 
bemsmi - n. green 
bemsme - adj. green 
ezar(i)t - ishiam. enlivened, refreshed, restored to full health 
esrt, esrit - ptcp. born 
sitouung - farmland 
sitouunung - fruit and vegetable garden 
unungkue - arable 
unungkuetre - not arable 
ununktre - dependent, having no property or significant personal possessions and resources, often referring to the unrecognized who live in clan dormitories until they acquire resources of their own separate from that of their parents

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 10:55 AM ====
aii - interrogative. where 
nn - n. stuff

nn - teasing, you see?

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 11:32 AM ====
update isha- words to ikha-

=== May 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 5:32 AM ====
ishyamnea, uts. 
ishiamga, -i, -es, -er, ish. n. 
kofiaga, -i, -es, -er - ish. n. 
kofiage, -et, -es, -er - ish. adj.

ehom - rhyme 
baase, -et, -u, -r - 2nd, tiger 
baasa, -si, -s, -ar - other, unknown 
aiyunga, -ai, -as, -ar - n. 
aiyunge, -et, -es, -er - adj.

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 8:01 AM ====
hwun ishiam soeg kanoichr 
hwun sitouangm soeg mhoa

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 10:29 AM ====
sasu buru - small child

do you want help?

nngev - no

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:24 PM ====
kudup - big, physically large, very loud

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:54 PM ====
Going through old words turned up that I have recoined more than planned and accidentally redid an etymology, though I like the new one better and am now retconning the two to work together. But WHY do I have two old words for ear in there and I'm not even going there on some of the terms that overlap with really different phonemes. Do I kill the old word for bread? Or just figure out some real-world etymological path of how we've changed how/what we call bread / loaf / pastry / other baked goods such that I can make it make sense. We don't know yet.

Especially since today was supposed to be let's work on sentence grammar!

old words ->

bitse head 
daghos to give 
huasi to drink 
ies to push (adan) 
'iko to pour 
oesen shoulder 
qimtra' - well provided for, no immediate needs 
ijion - to kitchen 
suarot tree 
nijikh tooth 
tegh knife 
ikiets to stab 
busihts pregnant, fetus 
payat bread 
pwuteks bed 
imea eye 
nij blood 
nijeres divine power 
kib, voas ear 
tivuip' health 
maietta night 
mietsche' arm -> mee miets (beside) -> iets beside 
mitna, mitsmit friend 
mitscheum - skills, tools one is skilled with 
taghe stone 
yeun thought 
bayin sister 
dzakhi brother 
tsakho darkness -> cho(t) night

.
ela person who is alive

==== scribblemyname — 05/04/2023 7:00 AM ====
buusiets - expectancy, waiting period, expectant mother, expected child. curun: vhuusiets 
pait - meal, loaf, a ration meant to constitute a meal 
mitsm - person, usu. a friend, chosen to collect a newlywed the next morning and prepare them for the sendoff 
buusietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. open, pending, released before recognition of the creator and left anonymous

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 1:18 PM ====
paidalourre osaghrae wages are up 
paitourre provisions for one 
paidalourre provisions, wages, salary

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 7:18 PM ====
bemali - dyes, paints, colors

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 10:10 PM ====
baamba - n. contact card, a version which is able to serve as an identification card, esp. for unrecognized who are living independently 
gin (ish.), gen (daan.), amikhki - n. room of a house or building

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 6:48 AM ====
baamtsnea - garment maker, stylist 
baamtse - adj. presenting oneself as, currently expressing (a thought, feeling, idea, etc.) 
baamtson - n. the action of presenting oneself as, expression, as of creative expression or expressing oneself or communicating an idea, feeling, thought, etc. 
baamtsrt, baamtsarit - adj. taken in by deception or manipulation, well-dressed 
baamstarikue - adj. gullible; easily dressed up, looks good in anything; glib, good at putting on any appearance or giving off any presentation, i.e. socially adaptable; good at lying 
baamtsgi - attire, incl. jewelry, clothes, makeup, perfumes or personal care items chosen for lingering scent or immediate effect on appearance

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 8:56 AM ====
soengam - clothing maker 
benmgam - maker of colors, whether dyes, inks, paints, etc.

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 11:07 AM ====
michm - n. 1. tool, 2. device, e.g. a communication or computer device, 3. a friend voluntarily designated as legally having familial rights and responsibilities, due to the closeness of the relationship. Which legal matters can be delegated to them varies from but overlaps with those of birth, marriage, duty, or adopted family

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 12:51 PM ====
vudeksnea - bedmate, sibling close enough in age to have shared the parents' sideroom for some time as a small child, friend close enough in age to not be any wiser or more mature for the difference 
vsne, bsne - foreign 
hsne - young, unfettered, carefree, without duty, foreign

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 1:28 PM ====
yadahimoge - adj. musical, e.g. yadohimoge michm, "musical instrument"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 3:02 AM ====
mitnea - n. friend (of choice) 
mitna - n. friendship (of choice) 
mishe (uts.), miche (ish.) - n. 1. arm, 2. will, 3. one's strength and resources, e.g. a mishe oge Vannu-wani osol a mishe oge Paschtha-wani "the arm of the Vannu is with the arm of the Paschtha", ish. a miche oksun Vannu-wani osun a miche oksun Paschtha-wani 4. one's skillset, e.g. he should strengthen his arm means he should improve his skills

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 5:24 AM ====
prtso - to marry, to form a contract with

prtsorit, prtsort - adj. married (incl. widows and widowers, unless otherwise specified) 
prtsortre - adj. unmarried, without contracts; without confirmed contracts, very young and naive; eschewing responsibility (viewed negatively)

amikhngamo - (uts) n. builder, construction worker

gengamo - (ish., daan.) n. builder, construction worker, specifically a worker who will add or remove rooms in existing buildings or do repairs, repairman. gengamo buru. handyman

isunkuetre - inappropriate for polite company, crude, unspeakable, unrecordable, originating from a category of activities the Knowing will not make a record or file of, e.g. sex, relieving oneself, etc.

yadahimkue - adj. playable on a musical instrument

yadahimkuetre - adj. unplayable on a musical instrument

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 12:36 PM ====
ginsituunnge - ish. of or related to the kitchen, e.g. michm ginsituunnges "cooking utensils," lit. "kitchen tools"

ginsituung - ish. working kitchen where one cooks

sitouangmaa - kitchen, that is "where the cook is"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 10:05 PM ====
sitouangntson - n. the activity of cooking or preparing food 
sitouangntse - adj. of or related to cooking and food prep

==== scribblemyname — 05/10/2023 5:42 AM ====
saghia prtsonge, saghia prtsonea - marriage brother, that is brother in law

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 7:57 AM ====
wachung - political power or influence 
wachungachu - the right to be heard by one's governing leadership 
naachu - to speak or complain to authority, usu. through formal channels; to whine or complain 
gachuku - to exercise one's political rights or powers; to act confidently or authoritatively

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 12:20 PM ====
apapai - to snack 
eshishi - to share 
kesourraba, -i, -e, -r - individually, or, oneby one 
vasourre - couple, pair 
vasourraba, -i, -e, -r - in pairs, two by two, or (between pairs) 
nn - taken together, and

nnsol (uts.), nnsn (ish.) - some part of 
nnsabi - something 
nnoue - somebody 
gevn - nobody 
gefsabi - nothing, syn. nngev 
gefsol (uts.), gefsn (ish.) - no part of

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 6:03 PM ====
to people like the people do

inonoue - ish. v. to crowd together, to be sociable. van. v. to be civilized, to be a respectable member of society

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 7:30 PM ====
kientsar - media content, literature, and art, etc.

kientsar sul yadahim - music, as refers to tradable, copyable content but not performance

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 6:54 AM ====
-chm - postpositional clitic, by (the use of), by (as in grasping by a particular part of)

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 7:02 AM ====
unless prev. diff.

yitatse - naturally fast 
yitatsekue - deliberately fast, abnormally fast 
yitatsekuetre - slow, esp. unusually 
yitatseku - to run quickly

yitso, yitatso - to happen, to be natural or authentic 
eyitat - to try, to put forth a little effort

sule, sune - partial, incomplete

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 8:38 AM ====
dahimokhnea, dahimzhgu - music worker

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 11:21 AM ====
uburubu - to put or pack away, to hide oneself, to pack or compress a measured ingredient in cooking

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 2:49 PM ====
burun, burol - little one, small young person or creature 
metmo - to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
mchmali - personal communication device(s); one's "address" with the Knowing 
dahimadi - n. very short song, whether sung or instrumental

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:16 PM ====
yupta - n. plan, intent 
bache - to dance 
bachebache - to dance in place; to wait noisily or impatiently

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:27 PM ====
mimikhli - dorms

fek, fekh, feagh - clan

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:05 AM ====
abamabam - to encounter someone, to talk or visit quite briefly with someone

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:14 AM ====
sahumwa shcha - sleep well

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:31 AM ====
wa, wai, wae, waar - adj. good, as of superior quality 
wacha, -i, -e, -r - adj. good, as of superior social standing, achievement, or merit 
waghra, -ri, -re, -r - adj. famous, prominent, popular, with strong support from important people, influential

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:38 AM ====
abaamkhrachiaro - to put best foot forward in one's presentation of oneself, whether appearance or efforts; to be successful; to succeed generally or in a particular effort 
abamabamchourre - to put in a little talk (to influential people) or to show a little effort towards one's own success

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:58 AM ====
haenn abamabamchouurevi ouhn 
yitzonn abaamkhrachiarovi nahn

baam buruburuhn 
ukh aghrachiaroni haenn

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 9:29 AM ====
ongit shungamn, gitshungamn - teapot

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 12:45 PM ====
u(p)taenn, u(p)tsonn future tense

unk(h)aenn, unkhitsonn - here and now

th'haenn, thaietsonn - around now, soonish, just now, in the very immediate past or future

ot'haenn, otyitsonn - far past

==== scribblemyname — 05/22/2023 7:23 AM ====
vastson - dating, that is spending time with one's significant other in structured social events for the purpose of strengthening or continuing the relationship

==== scribblemyname — 05/23/2023 1:40 PM ====
aiyung – phoenix 
baahas - tiger 
seonh – guardwolf 
yefasejek - spearfish 
rumhiruune - greydeer 
egumruhitzon – huntingbird 
yefayon - sunfish 
baahasiryo - snowtiger 
rumhyitann – quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rumhidaghe - rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
tsuve – dragon

==== scribblemyname — 05/24/2023 10:34 AM ====
avosovos - to chat a little, to listen for a little while

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 5:03 PM ====
anouankhe (uts.), anaianche (ish.)

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:24 PM ====
buchura, buchuri, buchure, buchur - adj. 
bucherit, buchert - ptcp.

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:37 PM ====
butu - why, from purpose or reason????

==== scribblemyname — 05/26/2023 9:09 PM ====
(ou) yaguonichayitsonn nihn - I love you romantically, female to male
scribblemyname
pinned
a message
to this channel. See all
pinned messages
. — 05/26/2023 9:10 PM

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 8:38 PM ====
ishitaku, ijitaku - to survive, e.g. ishitaku-uptaenn uren "I will survive" 
ishitakun, ijitakun - survivor 
ishitakul, jitakunr - leftovers (of a meal), remaining things 
shungam - pourer, e.g faucets, pitchers, etc.

daous - to give. Note: syn. eshishi is used to offer or to hand or give directly to someone in the momeng. daous is used for more formal or abstract forms of giving, or to refer to gifts during a celebration, etc.

ayud -

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 9:04 PM ====
Usually entering the atmosphere was the worst of it. Not this time. Instead of the ride smoothing out, sudden turbulence forcibly caught their little ship and propelled them northwest and down at a frightening rate.

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 10:15 AM ====
wangam - ascension trial 
yonngam - interior lighting (system) 
shukingam - lamp, light fixture

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 2:31 PM ====
aiyungayo - to ascend (to a sworn duty) after a trial, to rise in standing or ability after facing difficulties, to persevere

=== June 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

=== July 2023 ===
==== scribblemyname — 7/1/23, 8:59 PM ====
osonietstha - coworker 
osonea ietsot - colleague 
==== scribblemyname — 7/2/23, 6:29 AM ====
gsk - heat 
yochm - cold 
ikhgun - power in the sense of having the ability 
bekheun - one's mind when one's thoughts and feelings are in alignment, e.g. his mind and heart was made up 
baikhoku - to impress upon another's thoughts and feelings, to move them 
==== scribblemyname — 7/2/23, 6:37 AM ====
likhli - teeth 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 9:19 AM ====
repository of useless knowledge! 
Sontu immediately pulled back the plate he'd been about to set in front of Shiontas. I see you don't want me to cook for you then. 
Ah. Shiontas folded his hands and bowed over them. Forgive me. I will never say something so horrible again. 
Sontu set the plate down, mollified. What did you want to know? 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 12:53 PM ====
pouese (uts.), bouze (ish.) 
-biits, biitse - on 
==== scribblemyname — 7/5/23, 4:47 PM ====
daasheghra - fat 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 12:31 PM ====
yadahimgi - adj. musical, n. song, composition 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 4:56 PM ====
eyague, ayagueshi - to love romantically 
saghi, saghnar - family 
sagha, -i, -e, -r - of or relating to family, familial 
saghinea - family member 
saghthanea - immediate family member 
saghonea - extended family member, relative 
abadabad - to shut up or stop talking 
abada - to seal over, to close (as of a door) 
badabada - n. secret 
bada - n. door, seal - a door is perceived as the end of a room rather than its beginning 
eyom - to let go, to concede 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 5:10 PM ====
should it be usuetse? 
okay, so negative -less is abessive or privative case 
-tre, -tri, -(t)los, -tre 
with -los as suppletive, but why not kotlos? 
and it's dative or allative agreement on the verb, so I think allative nouns use dative case 
==== scribblemyname — 7/8/23, 6:14 PM ====
marriage negotiations 
contract - band registrars if marrying in the clan, clan registrars if not, if forfeiture, can utilize that of parents or residence but have to pay 
concession of bushot - conceding must provide wardrobe and gifts, bushot pays for and provides the prtseche, family lives local to higher bushot 
families pre-wedding dinner and exchange of family concessions, registrars sign off (some may be shopped for after) 
husband move-in / furnishing 
wife move-in / decorating 
aporoval of home signed off by registrars and both spouses 
prtseche 
wedding night 
send off of families and guests 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 9:30 AM ====
abuatson - motherhood, daily life routinely spent parenting, the activity of parenting 
tatsatson - fatherhood, daily life routinely spent parenting, the activity of parenting 
okshtson - worklife, daily life routinely spent at a job, the activity of working for a living 
saghitson - family life, living at home with the family, spending family time together, childhood pre-education when one's daily occupation is with family 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 11:31 AM ====
prtse - marital 
abuatse - parental, esp. motherly 
paame, -met, -m, -mer - intimate, sexual 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 4:41 PM ====
yunchot (uts.), (yu)nchthake (ish.) - day 
==== scribblemyname — 7/10/23, 4:55 PM ====
cardinal numbers 
ke – n. one; adj. ke, ket, kes, ker 
vas – n. two; adj. vase, vaset, vas, vaser 
givord (givrd, givur) – n. three; adj. givorda, givordi, givorde, givordr 
irum – n. four; adj. iruma, irumi, irume, irumr 
mrt – n. five; adj. mrte, mrtet, mrtes, mrter // mrta, mrti, mrte, mrtr 
nekke – n. six; adj. nekke, nekket, nekkes, nekker 
tsud – n. seven; adj. tsude, tsudet, tsudes, tsuder // tsuda, tsudi, tsude, tsudr 
vnk – n. eight; adj. vnke, vnket, vnkes, vnker // vnka, vnki, vnke, vnkr 
dmge – n. nine; adj. dmge, dmget, dmges, dmger 
agh – n. ten; adj. aghe, aghet, aghes, agher // agha, aghi, aghe, aghr 
uts. fem. 
yunchot ket - one day 
yunchot kesaa - first day 
yunchot vaset - two days 
yunchot vasaa - second day 
yunchot givordi - three days 
yunchot givordaa - third day 
yunchot irumi - four days 
yunchot irumaa - fourth day 
yunchot mrtet - five days 
yunchot mrtaa - fifth day 
yunchot nekket - six days 
yunchot nekkiaa - sixth day 
yunchot tsudet - seven days 
yunchot tsudaa - seventh day 
yunchot vnket - eight days 
yunchot vnkaa - eighth day 
yunchot dmget - nine days 
yunchot dmgiaa - ninth day 
yunchot aghet (aghourre) - ten days 
yunchot aghaa - tenth day 
ish. div. 
nchthake (kes) - one day 
nchthake vas - two days 
nchthake givorde - three days 
nchthake irume - four days 
nchthake mrte - five days 
nchthake nekkes - six days 
nchthake tsude - seven days 
nchthake vnke - eight days 
nchthake dmges - nine days 
nchthake aghe (aghourre) - ten days 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 3:22 AM ====
sʲ →ʃ in uts. and ish. 
ʃ → ʒ, dʒ (before i) in ish. 
x →ç → tʃ in ish. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 4:49 PM ====
Beram had taken an interest in the descendants, so Sata found himself frequently... 
Translator did not distinguish alien from human, something a true member of the Nar might find unthinkable. 
no hope except the children, who clearly had no idea how to confirm a contract. 
the mind boggles 
but not yours 
let me pretend to be human. Sata hadn't communicated the thought. 
How does someone confirm a contract? 
Trshunn 
a bit much to use divine power against but he'd always been exceedingly lenient toward his children 
ask for power, accept the terms 
==== scribblemyname — 7/11/23, 8:01 PM ====
shmee "give here", shcha "here, take", shtsau "put there" 
thing near / person near: 
nnmee, baunmee, saunmee 
nncha, bauncha, sauncha 
nntsav, bauntsau, sauntsau 
nnbiitmee, nnbiitcha, nnbiitsav - thing above / over 
biitmee, biitcha, biitsav - above / over 
ibinchi (dan.), ibinji? (ish.) - to put on, that is as of clothes or applying topically 
==== scribblemyname — 7/12/23, 6:00 AM ====
paityesh (breakfast), paitruun (midafternoon), paityonn (midmorning), paitchot (dinner) - meal of the watch 
==== scribblemyname — 7/14/23, 7:56 AM ====
ogi → gi / oge, -ge, gin "part of", "type of" 
ogi + su → sul / osol, sun / oksun, os "to move" 
ogi + shi → okhsh "to work" 
-bmaa - in front of, before 
-bmung - before (temporally) 
-biitsaa - on (top of) (while touching) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/15/23, 10:09 AM ====
bosounea, bozou(e)ge - person who provides service 
bosou, bozou(e) - service 
bosol, bozouen - a service provided to others (whether compensated or not), an act of service 
avuameetson - babysitting, caretaking 
tsameetson - mentoring, training for ascension 
==== scribblemyname — 7/15/23, 12:30 PM ====
shikun - true immortal, someone both undying and unkillable 
shiku - to keep living, to keep moving (past many things), to endure 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 6:55 AM ====
buy amsterdam sepia 
lightfast 3+ opaque 
airtight glass bottles 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 3:20 PM ====
sitougeve, -et, -es, -er - ravenously hungy, emptied out of food. syn. ushunn - hungry 
==== scribblemyname — 7/20/23, 10:08 PM ====
paam from pakhaam 
pakh - a demonstration of trust through action or commitment 
pakhot - generosity, largesse 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 3:58 PM ====
abuai - ish. mother 
abuaini - ish. aunt, female relative of previous generation 
abouhrai - ish. grandmother 
abua (uts.), avhua (cur.), avua (dan.), avwu (gin.) - mother 
buani - uts. aunt or other older female relative, older female who has demonstrated responsibility toward one or earned the right of expectations from one 
abuaghra (uts.), avhuara (cur.) - grandmother 
tsaghra (uts.) - grandfather 
tatse, tata (uts.) - dad, daddy 
itatsua (uts.) - father 
uncle 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 4:30 PM ====
-miits (ish.), -miets (uts.) 
-biits (ish.), -biets (uts.), -viets (dan.) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/21/23, 8:35 PM ====
unche - hot, active, on standby 
iiko - to pour 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 4:10 AM ====
yadahimgi (song) sahum - lullaby 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 2:56 PM ====
na kunyuudaenn - I'll try. (ish.) 
ni boshni - I accept (uts.) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 7:50 PM ====
bachebacheniyitsonna 
biunje (ish.) - hotheaded, i.e. overthinking, thinking furiously, feverish 
==== scribblemyname — 7/22/23, 8:48 PM ====
ushu - to want, to hunger 
uchietsl - a bow or other gesture of respect 
baso - sweet food or filling 
poko - savory food or filling 
basobaso - sweetener (food) 
abasabas - to sweeten (cooking) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/23/23, 9:05 AM ====
ish. 
baeni - sister 
sabaeni - younger sister 
wabaeni - older sister 
Aniet-hani ha sabaeni-nokh. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/23/23, 12:42 PM ====
-gosh, -gush - to not (do) 
-gf, -gv - to stop (doing) 
==== scribblemyname — 7/25/23, 8:43 AM ====
satha wa chouwa 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 9:45 AM ====
biits - head, awareness, sensory perception, biats-ukh 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 10:14 AM ====
biitsnea - scout, intelligence gatherer 
biitsne - strategic, intelligent 
==== scribblemyname — 7/26/23, 12:33 PM ====
yi - who 
==== scribblemyname — 7/27/23, 8:23 PM ====
buanok' - (gin.) my aunt 
ha buane, buanu-wane ??? 
ni buani / dzagra -anu, -hanou, -wanu, -baano 
ahi-, hayi-, wahi-, baahi- 
ave-, have-, wave-, baave- tsadi 
speaker: tsadya irya 
NOTE 
personal -anu, etc. 
other people ahi-, etc. 
things ave-, etc. 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 8:46 AM ====
pakhshi - to extend trust, to befriend 
apapakhshi - to extend an olive branch, to reach out to someone, to let someone in a little 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 8:57 AM ====
gin. tsuwe - dragon 
==== scribblemyname — 7/28/23, 2:50 PM ====
syllabics: 
short (16): a, ə, ɛ, i, ɪ, ɔ, u, m, n, ɹ, v, f, s, ʃ, x, ɣ 
long (6): aː, eː, iː, ɔː, uː, nː 
multi (11): ai, au, ia, ua, iə, uə, uai, io, iɛ, uɛ, ɔuɛ 
==== scribblemyname — 7/29/23, 6:01 PM ====
aema suimghra-ani 
aemargi / ogeemar 
taemargi / ogetaemar 
==== scribblemyname — 7/30/23, 9:22 AM ====
ni paamrt daghehn - kin. may he be f'ed by a rock 
tayas: quiet not nice 
irya: quietnot nice, right 
leshet: stop making me look bad in front of my nephew 
t: yes auntie 
l: I'm not your auntie 
t: of course my arm 
i: ihithera... you must really hate him. he was in first? 
l: he was never a shining pinnacle of good personality, but we were arms once 
==== scribblemyname — 7/30/23, 9:40 AM ====
-sasuot descendant 
-sundok ancestor 

=== August 2023 ===

=== September 2023 ===

=== October 2023 ===

=== November 2023 ===

=== December 2023 ===

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:25:54Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== January 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 6:51 AM ====
the only one that matters won't recognize my face. you should go though

me?

they don't like dealing through representatives lower than your rank

are you sure you shouldn't come along then? seeing as you know the culture

I'm not abandoning you, affectionately

Joem wanted to protest the sudden role reversal, being treated like a child in need of encouragement or comfort. He refrained when he realized he was somewhat acting like one

...

I don't understand your relationship with my father

You will one day without my needing to explain it

That answer won't get you out of every question I ask.

I'll keep that in mind

Beram studied him for a long moment, taking in this side of him. Usually Sata answered all of his questions that weren't about who Beram really was, and he generally didn't show Beram his cold face. (After all, Beram's dark face would only rarely make an appearance and hadn't yet in this life.)

So he smiled, warmly, became the person he was for his lover, not his child. "It really is too complicated." There were too many things tied up in the concept of his almost children, especially when he didn't share them with Beram.

His difficult, precious, demanding children. He would never have children of his essence. It made the children of his power all the more necessary to cherish and protect.

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 7:00 AM ====
when I met him, I felt like I'd been waiting for him my whole life. even when he's infuriating... Beram trailed off into a sheepish smile. I like him a lot, Dad.

==== scribblemyname — 01/13/2023 3:50 PM ====
https://www.calendardate.com/year2023.php

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 4:39 AM ====
I sleep well and wake refreshed

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 8:44 PM ====
Good evening, God, my sovereign Lord 
I reach for You, cling to Your Word 
Nothing less can I afford 
If I'm to be reassured 
For comfort comes from trusting You 
And peace by walking in Your way 
Through the hours, I've cone through 
And by Your strength passed through this day 
My hope is found within my sight 
Visions and histories glowing bright 
When You, O Lord, reached out to save 
Me from every yawning grave 
And all my sins and my mistakes 
With Your mercy You forgave 
In awe, I cry, what love like this! 
Ignorance is pain, Your truth my bliss

==== scribblemyname — 01/21/2023 8:43 PM ====
avg 3 kids

gen 1 2 
gen 2 2 + 2 
gen 3 9 + 9 
gen 4 27 + 27 = 54 
gen 5 81 + 81 = 162 
gen 6 243 + 243 = 486 
Curun

==== scribblemyname — 01/25/2023 4:29 PM ====
legacy of Yonyunn, sometimes he wanted to pat them on their invisible helpful heads (far north, etc. interpretations), a rather convenient exception as high ranking member of the Elite, can't have a war king/queen without the Elite, no one minded when Ahayin sat by him, This was a war council after all.

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:28 AM ====
good morning, God, I pray again 
I'm thankful for Your perfect plan 
the hope You hold within Your hand 
to pour on me, such blessings when 
I don't deserve Your matchless grace 
but neither does the human race 
Your favor granted in Your love 
is not because of us or of 
a human nature, prone to wander 
no, You're our eternal Father 
hold me, Lord, I pray today 
and keep me in Your perfect way

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 3:33 PM ====
egum - bird 
egumyesh - seabird, dialectical variant: egumesh 
egumiryo - snowbird 
egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
egumyon - sunbird, dialectical variant: egumon

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:37 PM ====
yefa - fish 
yefasejek - spearfish

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 10:38 PM ====
tsuve - dragon

from tsawi 
tsuveyesh - sea dragon 
tsuveyon - sun dragon 
tsuvechot - night dragon

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 3:45 AM ====
Leshet had been born in Kinaang, high up the northern face of the then southern border, that is the Dragon Cliffs. She understood that Kinaang or Ginieng, dialect dependent, had grown up from village to town, and its proximity to the capital meant there were people not of her band living there. They could marry without waiting for a marriage festival after the Clans Gathering. Their guardian council was said to have a touchstone. She'd never asked or verified if it was the same one from before the war. It wasn't the god-marked only who had been targeted, and why would they have it if Leshet's three contracts were none traditional to her band.

From the time they sent her off to learn war, as an unrecognized child, she had never been back since.

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 8:19 PM ====
hwun aiyung soeg tsuve

=== February 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 02/01/2023 11:34 AM ====
Postposition Class non-person noun person noun ascended person noun 
I – masc. a ani aniwa 
II – fem. ha hani haniwa 
III – divine / natural wa wani waniwa 
IV – neut. ba bani baniwa

==== scribblemyname — 02/02/2023 5:06 PM ====
Happy to! A brief background: the war clans are not a united polity. For the purposes of war and foreign policy, they are essentially four groups of clans, but for domestic purposes, each clan is sovereign itself. That said, the northernmost clan of Vannu uses the Hilakhot sequence in general parlance but the Paschtha sequence for anything under the war government.

1. aiyung - phoenix 
2. tiger 
3. seon - guardwolf 
4. spearfish 
5. greydeer 
6. egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
7. sunfish 
8. snowtiger 
9. rumhyitann - quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
10. tsuve - dragon

The first three and the last one are native to their originating homeworld. The remaining species are native to the world they're on now.

These are the names of the days within their ten-day periods (one might say "they rest on the halves, greydeer and dragon", meaning the fifth and tenth days of the aghourre); the ten-day periods within a season (a season typically runs through snowtiger or quickdeer, which aghourre is swallowed by the equinox or solstice, days named for different dragons); and the elite military "hundreds", which consist of 100 units (the first hundred is the phoenix hundred, which contains units 1-100; thus, the 312th unit would be in spearfish).
Anything placed in a sequence may use ordinal numbers or use the sequence names. Military units containing three squads may call them first, second, and third squad or phoenix, tiger, and guardwolf squad. Measuring cups and spoons that are whole increments rather than fractions may be labeled with an animal icon rather than number glyphs, though fractions will usually use numbers.

In dates and military units, the choice of sequence name or number name is usually going to alternate for ease of understanding. A huntingbird ten is 60, rather than saying "six ten[s]" or "a huntingbird dragon". If you say Spring's snowtiger to refer to a ten-day period, you'll call the day within it by its number, e.g. fifth day of the Spring's snowtiger. But if you want to name the day, you'd say the greydeer of Spring's eighth.

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 2:41 PM ====
levels not floors

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 6:32 PM ====
good evening God, the end of day 
nears again and so I pray 
I'm grateful for the Sabbath rest 
Though I feel I gave my best 
Lord, I ask my best improve 
As through the days and weeks I move 
And teach me Lord to rest in You 
And in Your peace my lifetime through

==== scribblemyname — 02/04/2023 7:30 PM ====
months

the new month 
the rising dragon month 
the falling dragon month 
the mountain lights month

the singing glories month 
the dancing storms month 
the breath of winds month 
the woven strands month

the hungering void month 
the void satisfied month 
the burning lights month 
the unfolding blooms month

the solemn eyes month 
the eternal mists month 
the spreading heavens month 
the plummeting depths month

the world weights month 
the heavenly anchors month 
the turning wheels month 
the biting hunters month

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 7:59 AM ====
yitzonn running, as happens, naturally 
haenn by hand - actively, intentionally, by deliberate effort

moet-miets yathsaa yitzonn? is that my yellow girl happening by?

huanra snack 
huadr vigilant 
hyet bread 
duen steed, a horselike creature 
mowani ruler, king, queen 
mowani ko war queen, war king 
duenmowann kingsteed

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 8:49 AM ====
aved, aveth: marked, as in Tayas Kms aveth Curunde, where Tayas Kms are considered 1st and 2nd personal names, but band, clan, and duty-lineage are all what one is marked rather than named. Etym. derived originally from "clawed" in the sense of having been marked by claws.

For K2-Nar, we have -hen as the original ergative case ending, derived from heme, "hand." Methinks this one erodes to -en fairly quickly.

And ongit: tea.
Huasi vunnosen ongit nohenye iejes shengoshukiaa.

That is

to drink.SG PAST tea.SG.ABS 1P.ERG.PL VOL moonlight.LOC
K2-Nar

empreta: to hunt together (as a social or companionable activity) 
imea: eye 
nij: blood 
nijeres: divine power (godsblood) 
yaiye: water 
dini: (any member of any species of) small, migrating songbird 
mouwe: divine yellow 
njeho: light breeze; someone who passes through quickly or only stays for brief visits (shorter than is polite) 
nwehi: path 
nyemouwe: divine white 
payat: bread 
pwuteks: bed; bed of a body of water, seafloor 
tsabi: body 
vurte: burn wound 
busihts: fetus; pregnant 
ikiets: to stab 
njikh: tooth 
suarot: tree 
teɡh: knife 
ts'awi mountain; (poetic) dragons 
tsadi river 
shivimee: imperative, pass (inanimate object) to me, e.g. shivimee ohuali, "pass the (bread)sticks" 
shinimee: imperative, come here

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 3:08 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord of hosts 
Of my own strength I cannot boast 
If I say go, they do not go 
It is a skill only You know 
But grant me peace in all of this 
For trusting You alone is bliss 
To know that even through these tests 
You will bring me to some rest

==== scribblemyname — 02/07/2023 7:31 AM ====
I go to sail the dragon sea 
my love, my love 2x 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
my love, my love 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
Because, because

sung by coastal clans at funerals

==== scribblemyname — 02/08/2023 7:53 AM ====
sasu - child, offspring 
miis - infant

kolos

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:37 AM ====
gi, oge numbers 
kanwun year 
wunn annual

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:45 AM ====
sul, osol fractional partitive 
yishor can't marry

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:53 AM ====
isut memory, record, log

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:43 AM ====
southern gisun, oksun

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:14 PM ====
pmto trade goods 
kients trade instructions or information

=== March 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:46 AM ====
yaiue season

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:58 AM ====
prtzon marriage

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 8:43 AM ====
pntzon trade

==== scribblemyname — 03/05/2023 11:48 AM ====
inut resource(s) 
inughra wealth, surplus resources 
davke foreign trader

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 5:56 AM ====
Tren walking over to Chaz's wearing swearter, bite of chill to the autumn wind, sees Chaz and complaints disappear without dripping off his tongue

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 2:53 PM ====
niewutsuve - dragon winds, that is warm winds coming off the Dragon Sea and blowing westward

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:14 PM ====
yaiye > iiye, n. water; adj. -e, -et, -es, -er. 1. wet; 2. watery, dilute liquid, e.g. watery tea; 3. young, relatively untrained or naive person

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:22 PM ====
{travel} inlitzon, to ride 
{travel} paritzon, to be carried 
{travel} ??-tzon, to cross over

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:29 PM ====
okay, some notes go here:
Brín go in the desert between the True North and the Great City just to the west of the mountains bordering the War Clans, mostly along the lake mid-desert between those mountains and Lehwa's eastern border. Lehwa considers some of the desert their territory, but the Brín consider the desert theirs entire. The lake is fed by waters from the True North, and the original settlers mostly swept down from there, though they've always picked up some from east and south as well.

Gian becomes the Little Dragon of the Copper Court, ruling over the Great City (Elohwangian, Lo his child name, Gian his political name, Littleling his ward name, and the Little Dragon his name). His half brother Shian is a trader among the Brín. Shian's children are Antha and Haitha. Haitha expands dragon trade between the Great City, Brín, and the True North and marries a girl from the True North. Due to their actions and dragon migrations, the Garden Court is established as a port for shipping, mail, and dragon travel, as well as housing a massive enclosed plaza of carefully developed water system, garden, and animal raising to provide food to allow dragons to live there.

This precipitates the Joint Council of the Thaifka who determine whether the intent to lay stone and projected consumption can be supported by the lake. They were able to make agreements with the Great Court in the True North where She Who Awakens presides to establish the Icewater Court and send an established amount of water down the river.
Young dragons who wish to join the Brín establish the Court of the Wall, defining the border with Lehwa, and registering with all the established Thaifka and requesting elders for their court, which ends up prompting the Joint Office of Customs. Dragons also establish the Court of the Waters just south of the mountains of the north and appoint themselves responsible for measuring and protecting the waters. They consider themselves Brín and choose to register with the Thaifka, lay open plazas always "open under the sky", pass the bracelet at the arrival of visitors, sending word when it's one of their own or arranging and smoothing potential trade with someone new, adopt no local currency, and guard anything sent downriver.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:39 PM ====
Haitha's son (oldest child, 3 younger sisters) notices that Shian is unhappy and feels his world has grown smaller and that the Thaifka are acting more as a governing body than a purely presiding body, but he doesn't want to start over or settle elsewhere from his chosen community. Haitha turns to Flame Blooms in Winter, who grants him her power, which enables him to create "freedom stones" to set in the open plaza, that it be always under the open sky. No one in the plaza can be compelled.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:49 PM ====
On the topic, the Copper Court includes Flame Blooms in Winter presiding and He Around Whom the Worlds Turn ruling. Her daughter Cold Under Fire was warded by Gian after he was warded by Flame Blooms in Winter from 11 years old. Cold Under Fire warded his two children by the half-dragon daughter of one of the youngest who flew over. Gian ruled beside Void Under Sunlight but Void Under Sunlight was injured during the Black Rain (TIAT), fighting alongside the Iron Dragon, and retired (to run off and go find the dragons of the True North). So Gian talks the Iron Dragon at the Court of Iron and Blood in the Undercity to give him Moonlight Under Water to rule beside him instead. He's stuck with him right up to ruling the Overcity though, and Void Under Sunlight becomes ambassador to the Council of Nations.
Once Gian's Garden faction wins over the Songbirds and Citadel faction, Shian brings his wife and children to meet the Copper Court. Flame Blooms in Winter's daughter Flowers Under Sunlight had very eagerly showed up in Brín when she learned how to transform. She introduces the two to her three hatchlings, and Haitha ends up working with Snow Under the Sky and Light Under {Night}.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:57 PM ====
lauv is Brín for stone, to lay stone is to build or help build a residence one intends to live in and one must register intent to lay stone with the Thaifka, who determine if there is prior claim on the property

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 8:08 AM ====
brin terms

saihadin birdtower 
breddun horse tie 
dun steed 
duin spirit or ghost 
boshing flowering gourd, a divine fruit 
geshing peach, a divine fruit 
isha strength 
patrin maternal aunt or uncle 
patrinsa maternal cousin 
kamin, kaminsa paternal 
din bird, runner scout watchman 
burin desert

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 10:00 AM ====
shinin bracelet 
shinindin bracelet bird: runner scout watchman

==== scribblemyname — 03/20/2023 9:11 PM ====
Leshet felt the shifting seasons lightly, the cooler winds and white mists of spring drifting through her, unable to chill her breath or dampen her skin. The sight of Tide and Moonlight at the stone table they'd chosen hit her harder, more familiar and less fleeting, for all spring was a mere four dragons previous, compared to the years since they'd paused their disparate circuits to cross threads again.

Moonlight stood tense and tall by the table, arms crossed, dark hair practically a cloak of its own in length. Tide at his shoulder was deceptively more relaxed, the godmark of his silver white hair barely brushing his neck.

The Dragon Hundred was as strong as the Phoenix Hundred.

Leshet's lifted her gaze to the scar on his face, an extra quirk to his wry expression. She raised her hand, but Tide halted her by the wrist. "Don't."

"Of course."

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 1:26 AM ====
washed up at Connors with a tide of fellow students from the middle school, at least an hour before high school extracurriculars would let older teens flood the place

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:32 AM ====
the sword hung above the mantel

come in, Captain

may I ask—?

the original, passed down through the generations from our ancestor, the very legend you seek. studied Joem for a long moment. There are three branches of my family and three heirs who hold rights to these artifacts.

I'm afraid I'll need to take them all.

I see.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:41 AM ====
Leshet reactivated with the Elite after her first husband died, like soil awakening in spring, full of the seeds of winter. She'd belonged to the First Unit when she'd gone fallow; she belonged to it when she returned.

"I've redistributed the Undying," Yonyunn told her. She'd put the Curunde trio in the Nine Hundred Sixty-Third Unit.

Leshet understood. Hiding that some did not die of natural causes was a reasonable enough decision.

"I'm First," Leshet said. "I chose duty once."

Yonyunn hesitated, no doubt remembering the conversation that led to Leshet's assigned marriage. She relented.

Leshet remained.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 6:00 AM ====
tell me, sat beside him, did you know that first time?

no. if I'd known you were related to saiyar, I would never have touched you.

ah. so yonyunn told you

if she hadn't, I never would have agreed

==== scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM ====
he had no one to complain to that wouldn't rat him out immediately. communication sacred mission, feature not a bug, put his fond amusement into the ecosystem so they could sense it 
where's Beram, split by temperament, are you afraid? are you? story, gives him a touchstone

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 9:00 AM ====
susun / susunaghs - "hours", that is a tenth of a watch or 1/40th of a day, also susun osol nakhaurre

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 11:49 AM ====
nakhnu guardian, from nakhanau 
nakhaurre watch, a period of 1/4 day 
nakhaurresh - sea watch 
nakhauryon - sun watch 
nakhaurchot - night watch 
need to figure out grey here

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:17 AM ====
haimourre hand-units, 1/4 susun or 1/40th of a nakhaurre 
vaghar claws, 1/10 haimourre or 1/40th of a susun

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:28 AM ====
baagyon solar time 
baagutsar "regular" civil time 
udus regular, normal, ordinary

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:42 AM ====
baaghar "other" civil time 
ishegi, isheginu protectee 
ishesul partner, ally, or member of one's workforce or personal networks

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 1:17 PM ====
great city:

nutsáb - I 
utsáb - you 
hatsáb - he, she, they 
batsáb - it

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 8:06 PM ====
I was like a system dialog box. I only had one button: Okay.

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 7:10 AM ====
great city ˈʃu.ʃn shúshin

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 8:01 AM ====
chuuchun ki.ta.ma shi-ja-kor.i

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 6:00 AM ====
She received the summons when she woke towards the end of the sea watch. Their unit leader gave her a physical tab silently. Leshet read off the odd script, half statements she was obliged to know the rest of to interpret correctly. When the Knowing could interpret any fully communicated thought to any recipient, passing military communications became an exercise in communicating such that only the right recipient would understand.

First. First place. {time}

Srshe looked at her. Orders.

A mtg. With the First.

Adan?

Yes.

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 7:30 AM ====
they weren't the first anymore, they were first and 963rd and the husband of the war queen, and yet, they were the first members of the first unit from the time it had been established, and that was never going to go away
Leshet smiles once in the whole book. How do you choose to demonstrate catharsis?

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 8:54 AM ====
brin

unshókhe a new genre of nontraditional song and dance sprung up among the youth of the lower city's plaza

ishing(al) child(ren)

=== April 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 04/02/2023 9:11 AM ====
possible kofnea

mounu ichiche 
mounu ishishe 
ani yitzonn itsivayo

==== scribblemyname — 04/03/2023 7:45 AM ====
chirnea member of one's anchiri, a friend who knowingly helps to anonymize you 
anchiru, -ut, -unn, -u anonymizing, of or related to anchiru

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 9:52 AM ====
Sontu Aghmtanti, born in Taegung as Paschtha Ishiem just south of the mountains of the border with the Danni, family grows and trades food and spices that need wetlands or boxes, incl. tsuntsi. Has 2 younger siblings. Marries Minunn 
ichin - verbal gesture of respect toward older male 
achi - verbal gesture of respect toward older female

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 11:21 AM ====
Yunn had fling with Gin of first kolos, was chirnea to Moet, I am good chirnea. Yes, you are. Praise me more.

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 8:35 AM ====
duzho geef

not in front of children

explanation demanded from children

why would you want to curse anyone?

izhit

apologizes

these are ishiem words - duuso vs. duusho > duuzho 
ichin > izhit (feminized insult)

Minunn livid until he promises to make the effort around her and the children 
yoich - verbal gesture demanding respect, yoichi in Ishiem

maybe all my glory is my claws in place 
maybe all my glory is a pretty face 
maybe all my glory is a voice arrayed 
but it's mine, but it's mine 
and I'm never going to change

you laid these bones 
you made them strong 
you laid these bones 
but they're mine, but they're mine 
and that's never going to change

yoich

You cannot take your grown children by the hand.

...

I am not your heir. I will not return to Taegung, not for my wedding, not as your heir. That place is for Anyiet.

Sontu!

Yoichi. 
Yesh Runn stormy sea, Gin's brother

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 9:10 AM ====
pers. I 
nokh / noikh / ukh 
nokhs / noekhs / uikh

class III 
hinokhs / ukhs 
I appear to be developing something of a tree of linguistic change in this language family, oops, and just trying to sort out how one thing leads to another all at the same time. 
So possessive suffixes in Kofnea-Adan (as I'm calling it now):

m. ukh, f. uikh, n. ukh, o. urëkh (2nd p): your

Where ë is now how I'm indicating the schwa, which is phonemic in Kofnea at least.

vs. in Kofnea-Kolos (modern), where -miets used to indicate the immediacy of a kinship relationship is starting to see use as an inalienable possessive, aka, my love, my husband, my {name}, mine, while still only usable with immediate relatives. This also combines with regular possession when used as a possessive pronoun rather than adjective:

m. miatsukh, f. miatsuikh, n. miatsukh, o. miatsurëkh (2nd p): yours 
No! Sorry for being unclear! So it'd be like Shion-miets is how a character calls her husband, My wolf, as an endearment. Literally, it's wolf-immediate relation marker. Miatsukh would be a way of saying "yours" meaning "your immediately related {person in this context}."

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 3:15 PM ====
like the river blue mist, gonna burn itself away 
young love, young love 
gonna disappear one day

like the passing days 
got to live them while we can 
young love, young love 
we learn with our own hands

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 7:47 AM ====
jishim ishiam verbal gesture of surrender or resignation, esp. to something deemed the natural order of things

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 8:07 AM ====
jikhoue - accompanied by chin jut on kho, irritated pain

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 1:31 PM ====
Sontu: na ushunn (I'm hungry) 
ushun - n. hunger

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 2:15 PM ====
geyef / ge'ef 
zhoyon / zho'on

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:12 PM ====
nehin fling 
wa nehin a fling 
nehin (h)ani a person one has a fling with

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:50 PM ====
hasath premarital romantic partner

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 7:49 AM ====
shuka yone - sunlight 
goes by yunn - morning 
sachin respect to male peer with higher standing 
sachi respect to female peer with higher standing

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 2:55 PM ====
yatech heart as emotional center (miets), one's emotional energies, the most intense of one's emotional attachments (nokh / noikh) 
hoagh heart organ 
jita / shita alive 
hoagh jita / shita heartbeat, pulse 
achid the ceremony of marriage where the couple imbue each other with the power of their own contracts, usually performed during a wedding but can be considered a wedding act which merely needs verification afterward

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 5:29 PM ====
pirtot keep far, to distance oneself 
pirtha keep close, to stay near to

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 1:44 AM ====
don't want to be awake 
don't know how to sleep 
not tonight 
all the fight 
in me turned inward

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:00 AM ====
yague romantic committed love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:22 AM ====
yague romantic committed love 
ungtha nearby, phys. or ment. 
mho voice

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 7:57 AM ====
adj. names shung + pakhe

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:12 AM ====
pirsatha husband 
pirsathi wife 
yaguegi object of one's love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:56 AM ====
poghro aumyo pasta w/a traditional soupy sauce 
baahas tiger

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 9:12 AM ====
pretar achid tie, contract(s), those one has a future with, e.g. family, close friends, spouse, etc., fate

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 3:04 PM ====
sadi river 
satsa stream

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 4:19 PM ====
economic, cultural, political, technology, religion, geography

==== scribblemyname — 04/11/2023 11:59 AM ====
nukhshi play, dialect variants nughshi, nuushi, nukchi

okhshi work

suim shiuntsi a style of presentation, incl. dress, scents, makeup, jewelry, and colors considered appropriate for casual or formal social occasions. It's marked by what are considered green scents, soft clothing lines and cuts which do not expose clan marks, understated jewelry and hairstyle, and natural makeup if any.

pns nagm a style of personal presentation considered appropriate for casual wear or work around the home but not in public. It's marked by functional clothing which may be worn or damaged from previous work done in it, e.g. paint spattered jeans, and a lack of makeup or jewelry.

okhsh danmi a style of personal presentation seen as permissive working uniform, which allows some stylistic or personal choice variations from a set uniform. It is one of few presentation styles viewed as almost always appropriate, excepting the rare occasions when strict uniform is required. Danmi in practice varies by uniform and profession. Professions with no set uniform cannot utilize danmi.

pns - comfortableness

pns idrntso - comfortable loose or long fitting presentation suitable for everyday wear

pns udus - everyday nonwork personal presentation style

okhsh udus - everyday work presentation, no uniform,

pns yenes - presentation with softcloth and cuts that reveal clan marks

ildns - friendship of companionship, generally viewed as continuing by choice and preference

ildnsn(a)(i) - friend of companionship

minunn - having a soft, gentle quality, esp. of voice, demeanor, or appearance

shung - 1. flowing, as of water, 2. giving and generous of one's time and effort on behalf of others

suim ghra - formal social dress and presentation with floral scents, decorative hairstyles, etc.

yapft - friend who is acting as chaperone during courtship

yivsl - a flower brought with them from Kareios having a pleasing scent

suim pns - light clothing with patterns and floral colors, floral or fruit scents

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:31 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents.

absolutive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -hn.

1st - na, ni, no, uren 
2nd - ou, ouet, uus, urou 
3rd - a(ni), ha(ni), wa(ni), ba(ni)

possessive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -n.

1st - nokh, noikh, nokhs, norekh 
2nd - ukh, uikh, ukhs, urekh 
3rd - a(ni)kh, ha(ni)kh, wa(ni)kh, ba(ni)kh

Ishiam adds two sets, ba- for speaking to or of someone with indeterminate or unknown difference in age, generation, or standing and sa- for speaking to or of someone of lower age, generation, or standing. Yeah, rather honorific like I'm noticing.

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:59 AM ====
ymke - comfort food 
iyudu - n. 1. scent, 2. perfume 
hiyaube, -et, -o (-es), -r - adj. painful 
hiyaubo - n. pain 
sennar - n. earrings 
yagueourre - n. courtship period before marriage 
huesourre - n. menstrual period 
duushung - v. to let one's thoughts or feelings slip such that the Knowing translates to them to others, generally this is looked down on or considered embarrassing for anyone over a certain age 
uchietson - n. being respectful 
uchietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. respectful 
uchietsetre, -ret, -los, -re - adj. disrespectful, rude 
oueho - fun 
yagueit - ptcp. adj. 1. engaged, 2. committed romantically 
yaguekue, -et, -es, -er - adj. suitable for marriage in standing, compatibility, etc. 
prtsonkue - adj. 1. marriagable, that is legally eligible for marriage, 2. eligible for marriage by having no egregious disqualifying personal traits 
eseche - n. a formal social event incl. a meal, usually dinner 
sokhoto - n. a social meal engaged in to discuss potential business arrangements 
gev - neut. n. zero 
eas - n. spirit, referring to the life and consciousness of a person or god 
ishrtse - studious

daashi - personal presentation style sometimes considered synonymous with suim pns, but which varies in...

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 11:05 AM ====
ksh'danmi daashi is what Saiyunn wears 
ksh'danmi yenes is what Tayas wears

==== scribblemyname — 04/13/2023 8:26 PM ====
sontu and minunn's first child is aiyungi jitai, "yatech"

==== scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM ====
kofnea-utsa 
kofnea-ishiama 
kofnea-tsuala 
kofnea-tsuala paschtha 
kofnea-tsuala tsuvea (kofnea-curun) 
kofnea-tsuala lakha 
kofnea-yeshietsa 
kofnea-daana 
tsabua - ud. soul, spiritual "body", tl. highest self, cl. etiquette, best behavior 
tsabung - n. the land within war clans territory, usu. indicative of that of a clans group but sometimes indicative of parts or all 
yeshietsa, -tsi, -ts, -tsr - coastal 
prtseche - n. wedding meal, wedding celebration

==== scribblemyname — 04/15/2023 3:37 PM ====
aemiets, taemiets - significant other

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 5:58 AM ====
sant - the dry ingredients of a dish, when initially prepped separately 
hastha, -i - male or female premarital romantic partner, see hasath

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 6:53 AM ====
It wasn't that Sata didn't see him coming. Sata's temper wasn't one which cooled easily, and even when it did, it generally hardened into unwavering resolve. His temper kept him flinging spear and fire, spear and ice, even when Jioror the Lahan, Chief of Information entered the training room and stopped to stare.

Sata was glowing. He was still condensed power, rippling waves of heat and shatters of ice rolling off him. He turned, pulling his spears upright in his hands, and looked down toward the Lahan.

His face was full of surprise, something familiar and cold clenched in his right glove.

Sata's temper fled him, and he considered just who had wielded that last. He diffused his power, reabsorbed his spears, let the glow fade from behind his eyes, as he leaned forward.

"Sata?" The Lahan sounded uncertain. "Shouldn't you be in bed?"

He wasn't addressing the obvious. Sata wasn't human.

But Sata did, an edge of humor on his tongue. He didn't bother to pretend youthfulness. "When he wakes, he'll want to hunt." Sata was decidedly out of practice. "My almost child." He waved toward the spear.

Jioror stiffened.

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 7:28 AM ====
uzh - ishiam. work 
uzhanme - ishiam. ksh'danmi 
uzhun - worker 
uzhungam - troublemaker, a very rambunctious child or person under one's care or responsibility, nuisance

vs.

okhshne - worker 
okhshngam - employer

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 1:33 PM ====
shcha verbal gesture meaning here or for you

nea, kofnea recognized person (adult, registered age of forfeiture) 
hinea, hsnea unrecognized person (young adult, unregistered age of forfeiture) 
msnea child young enough to not keep anchiri yet 
bsnea nonclans person

ouekhe - verbal gesture of directed displeasure, equivalent to shaking a fist or finger at someone

uusoue - to admire with awe, as a role model or beautiful wife 
ososou - to admire with fondness, as a cute child or pet

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 8:56 PM ====
I write a note to self 
my heart up on a shelf 
oh, I could take it down 
would it make me someone else

do you see the broken glass 
image between the cracks 
my mirror to hide behind 
where even I can't find

there's silence blooming where I used to tread 
quiet rooming with loudness in my head 
a diet of hope and pain on which I've fed 
feels like centuries lying in this bed

it's hard sometimes to make the words come out 
harder still to stop the broken spout 
swallow down the person I can't be 
hating, dreading that I think they're me 
letting go so hard so I can breathe

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:04 PM ====
I didn't mean to write that 
but when did I ever mean 
any sort of thing 
I wear another hat 
do you know this brand new version 
smile at the subversion 
before we start reversion 
another tit for tat 
words on my tongue 
when the night is young 
ignore, ignore the heedless stream 
the fanciful dream 
I never meant to write that 
to break the ice, the glass 
to teach another class 
on why to leave me be 
forget, just please forget me 
I loathe to feel your eyes 
and yet I need 
I cannot bear the pain 
and yet I bleed 
kiss me 
is this a metaphor 
I dream of lost things 
lost and faded wings 
I used to soar 
and even more 
laughter like sunshine 
bubbled in my chest 
before I learned the world's not kind 
and no one will help 
my world drifts in and out 
of yours, the loneliness 
finds me on edge 
intersections like promises 
never empty yet unfulfilled 
I feel unskilled 
my hands unable to grasp 
quicksilver fish, like dreams 
your life now gone 
from the lines and threads we wove 
a treasure trove 
of memories and sobs 
I leave the chest closed

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:13 PM ====
how long have I held you heavy in unspoken places? 
I brace myself for another wave 
this is not bravery, braving the locks 
realizing I locked away my grief 
like a bird in a cage, 
always singing and endlessly bringing 
an undertone of my drifting self 
an ocean without an anchor, my harbor lost 
horizon beckons unreachable 
for I have a tempest to bring 
my thoughts and my dreams 
remind me that you believed 
the gift I received 
from you I cannot toss aside 
so I go with the tide 
been waiting to heal 
for a long, long time 
there is no great reveal 
just an endless climb

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:51 PM ====
good evening, God, you know my heart 
you've plumbed the depths of every part 
you've shown a light inside my dark 
I pray tonight an end then start 
anew; the morning light will come 
your mercies greater than the sum 
of all my weakness, failings, loss 
you are stronger than my cross 
which you allowed my heart to bear 
gently saying don't be scared 
for not by will must I stand strong 
but by you, keep holding on

==== scribblemyname — 04/19/2023 4:54 AM ====
auto bio graph 
do you even understand 
what is hidden in these lines 
yes, I know it every time

expiate, got to expiate 
a history or two 
I appreciate 
I am at the gate 
and now I'm going through 
aya, aya, aya...

educate, got to educate 
this heart and soul of mine 
I appreciate 
cannot leave to fate 
I got to underline 
aya, aya, aya... 
this is no way to live 
but I promise to forgive 
if you'll let it all go

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 7:43 AM ====
don't want to drift out on the water 
don't want to burn up in the fire 
don't want to sink under the heaven 
don't want to lose my way again

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 9:41 AM ====
I'd been living for a hundred years 
underneath a mountain of fears 
crying out: every time You hear 
You forgave me and You saved me and You held me dear

I don't why 
I don't get by 
I need You right 
now and forever 
You're my only light

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 10:17 AM ====
shi no okhsm 
??

oznocha, uznocha - ishiam. move away

==== scribblemyname — 04/22/2023 5:15 PM ====
duushon - idea 
yadahim - music 
amhobaamgi yadahim - musician

tiger rhyme is a double rhyme 
singing is mouth music, look up old word for mouth

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:27 AM ====
ozhaizhenna kus(h)aiyenn 
budtho 
dikangu

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:48 AM ====
sitouangm - cook 
sitouangamo - grower 
sitou - food 
sitoue, -et, -es, -er - culinary, dietary, relating to food 
sitouatson - argriculture 
sitouetre - non-nutritive, inedible

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 6:23 AM ====
teas - to run after, to pursue 
tasatson - western. pursuit, haste; eastern. tiasatson 
tasatse - western. hasty, risky, not well thought through; eastern. tiasatse - ambitious 
duuse - preoccupied, overwhelmed by thoughts or memories 
duushe - ishiam. thoughtful, with forethought 
duuzhedre - ishiam. poorly thought through, reckless 
duushert - ishiam. well-considered, properly prepared, ready 
sahum - sleep 
sahumtha - sleepy 
sahumkue - comfortable or restful, such that one can take down one's guard or reserve 
sahumotson - insomnia 
sahumotse - wakeful, unable to sleep 
sahumthtre - awake, active (as of a device or object), still having enough power or connection to a power source for the current plan or activity 
sosouege - a cute person or thing 
uusege - an admirable person or thing 
uusouekue - admirable, awe-inspiring 
uusouert - admired, looked up to, dialect: uusoerit 
paam - to touch intimately, to have sex 
meetha - to touch physically

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 8:10 AM ====
ichagefrt - ishiam. exhausted, drained of energy after great exertion or extended wakefulness 
shukn - paved or designated street, usually in a city and permitting foot traffic 
inliung - street designated for vehicular traffic. ishiam. any street (originating dialect of the term) 
khothe - adj. evening 
khotha - n. evening. ishiam. chotha 
osaghrae - up, greater 
osaute - up, higher 
os - to move. ishiam. oz, uz

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:08 AM ====
pretangamo - contract maker, that is lawyer. Notes: These are never private, but represent band or clan interests and serve members of the same. Payment for some functions, e.g. marriage contracts, is provided by the band or clan (with gifts from those served frequently offered if services go over the expected costs). Others must be paid for directly by those served. 
ududu - filler word meaning the person is thinking 
duu - to think, to reminisce

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:58 AM ====
oue - interrogative. what 
unnse - skin

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 9:31 AM ====
yaptha - bruise 
ipekho - adj. kind, helpful out of compassion or warm feeling 
ipekh - n. 1. warmth (temperature), 2. having a sincerely kind, generous personality

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 2:02 PM ====
uzoso - ishiam. wait 
ososo - paschtha. thinking 
yasncher - hello, goodbye, from "(your) soul be blessed" 
pnnsncher - get well, feel better

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 7:01 AM ====
common colors

bemrun, bemwun - n. grey 
bemruune, bemuune - adj. grey 
bemtsad - n. blue 
bemtsade - adj. blue 
bmsnesh - n. orange, ishiam. bnznesh 
bmsnesha - adj. orange

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 8:58 AM ====
bmrit, bmrt - having the color or appearance of 
oso oso - to work

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 9:21 AM ====
senmiunung - garden 
unung - property, land one resides on 
yeyung - wetland 
tsadung - alluvial floodplain 
bemsmi - n. green 
bemsme - adj. green 
ezar(i)t - ishiam. enlivened, refreshed, restored to full health 
esrt, esrit - ptcp. born 
sitouung - farmland 
sitouunung - fruit and vegetable garden 
unungkue - arable 
unungkuetre - not arable 
ununktre - dependent, having no property or significant personal possessions and resources, often referring to the unrecognized who live in clan dormitories until they acquire resources of their own separate from that of their parents

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 10:55 AM ====
aii - interrogative. where 
nn - n. stuff

nn - teasing, you see?

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 11:32 AM ====
update isha- words to ikha-

=== May 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 5:32 AM ====
ishyamnea, uts. 
ishiamga, -i, -es, -er, ish. n. 
kofiaga, -i, -es, -er - ish. n. 
kofiage, -et, -es, -er - ish. adj.

ehom - rhyme 
baase, -et, -u, -r - 2nd, tiger 
baasa, -si, -s, -ar - other, unknown 
aiyunga, -ai, -as, -ar - n. 
aiyunge, -et, -es, -er - adj.

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 8:01 AM ====
hwun ishiam soeg kanoichr 
hwun sitouangm soeg mhoa

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 10:29 AM ====
sasu buru - small child

do you want help?

nngev - no

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:24 PM ====
kudup - big, physically large, very loud

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:54 PM ====
Going through old words turned up that I have recoined more than planned and accidentally redid an etymology, though I like the new one better and am now retconning the two to work together. But WHY do I have two old words for ear in there and I'm not even going there on some of the terms that overlap with really different phonemes. Do I kill the old word for bread? Or just figure out some real-world etymological path of how we've changed how/what we call bread / loaf / pastry / other baked goods such that I can make it make sense. We don't know yet.

Especially since today was supposed to be let's work on sentence grammar!

old words ->

bitse head 
daghos to give 
huasi to drink 
ies to push (adan) 
'iko to pour 
oesen shoulder 
qimtra' - well provided for, no immediate needs 
ijion - to kitchen 
suarot tree 
nijikh tooth 
tegh knife 
ikiets to stab 
busihts pregnant, fetus 
payat bread 
pwuteks bed 
imea eye 
nij blood 
nijeres divine power 
kib, voas ear 
tivuip' health 
maietta night 
mietsche' arm -> mee miets (beside) -> iets beside 
mitna, mitsmit friend 
mitscheum - skills, tools one is skilled with 
taghe stone 
yeun thought 
bayin sister 
dzakhi brother 
tsakho darkness -> cho(t) night

.
ela person who is alive

==== scribblemyname — 05/04/2023 7:00 AM ====
buusiets - expectancy, waiting period, expectant mother, expected child. curun: vhuusiets 
pait - meal, loaf, a ration meant to constitute a meal 
mitsm - person, usu. a friend, chosen to collect a newlywed the next morning and prepare them for the sendoff 
buusietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. open, pending, released before recognition of the creator and left anonymous

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 1:18 PM ====
paidalourre osaghrae wages are up 
paitourre provisions for one 
paidalourre provisions, wages, salary

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 7:18 PM ====
bemali - dyes, paints, colors

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 10:10 PM ====
baamba - n. contact card, a version which is able to serve as an identification card, esp. for unrecognized who are living independently 
gin (ish.), gen (daan.), amikhki - n. room of a house or building

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 6:48 AM ====
baamtsnea - garment maker, stylist 
baamtse - adj. presenting oneself as, currently expressing (a thought, feeling, idea, etc.) 
baamtson - n. the action of presenting oneself as, expression, as of creative expression or expressing oneself or communicating an idea, feeling, thought, etc. 
baamtsrt, baamtsarit - adj. taken in by deception or manipulation, well-dressed 
baamstarikue - adj. gullible; easily dressed up, looks good in anything; glib, good at putting on any appearance or giving off any presentation, i.e. socially adaptable; good at lying 
baamtsgi - attire, incl. jewelry, clothes, makeup, perfumes or personal care items chosen for lingering scent or immediate effect on appearance

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 8:56 AM ====
soengam - clothing maker 
benmgam - maker of colors, whether dyes, inks, paints, etc.

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 11:07 AM ====
michm - n. 1. tool, 2. device, e.g. a communication or computer device, 3. a friend voluntarily designated as legally having familial rights and responsibilities, due to the closeness of the relationship. Which legal matters can be delegated to them varies from but overlaps with those of birth, marriage, duty, or adopted family

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 12:51 PM ====
vudeksnea - bedmate, sibling close enough in age to have shared the parents' sideroom for some time as a small child, friend close enough in age to not be any wiser or more mature for the difference 
vsne, bsne - foreign 
hsne - young, unfettered, carefree, without duty, foreign

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 1:28 PM ====
yadahimoge - adj. musical, e.g. yadohimoge michm, "musical instrument"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 3:02 AM ====
mitnea - n. friend (of choice) 
mitna - n. friendship (of choice) 
mishe (uts.), miche (ish.) - n. 1. arm, 2. will, 3. one's strength and resources, e.g. a mishe oge Vannu-wani osol a mishe oge Paschtha-wani "the arm of the Vannu is with the arm of the Paschtha", ish. a miche oksun Vannu-wani osun a miche oksun Paschtha-wani 4. one's skillset, e.g. he should strengthen his arm means he should improve his skills

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 5:24 AM ====
prtso - to marry, to form a contract with

prtsorit, prtsort - adj. married (incl. widows and widowers, unless otherwise specified) 
prtsortre - adj. unmarried, without contracts; without confirmed contracts, very young and naive; eschewing responsibility (viewed negatively)

amikhngamo - (uts) n. builder, construction worker

gengamo - (ish., daan.) n. builder, construction worker, specifically a worker who will add or remove rooms in existing buildings or do repairs, repairman. gengamo buru. handyman

isunkuetre - inappropriate for polite company, crude, unspeakable, unrecordable, originating from a category of activities the Knowing will not make a record or file of, e.g. sex, relieving oneself, etc.

yadahimkue - adj. playable on a musical instrument

yadahimkuetre - adj. unplayable on a musical instrument

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 12:36 PM ====
ginsituunnge - ish. of or related to the kitchen, e.g. michm ginsituunnges "cooking utensils," lit. "kitchen tools"

ginsituung - ish. working kitchen where one cooks

sitouangmaa - kitchen, that is "where the cook is"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 10:05 PM ====
sitouangntson - n. the activity of cooking or preparing food 
sitouangntse - adj. of or related to cooking and food prep

==== scribblemyname — 05/10/2023 5:42 AM ====
saghia prtsonge, saghia prtsonea - marriage brother, that is brother in law

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 7:57 AM ====
wachung - political power or influence 
wachungachu - the right to be heard by one's governing leadership 
naachu - to speak or complain to authority, usu. through formal channels; to whine or complain 
gachuku - to exercise one's political rights or powers; to act confidently or authoritatively

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 12:20 PM ====
apapai - to snack 
eshishi - to share 
kesourraba, -i, -e, -r - individually, or, oneby one 
vasourre - couple, pair 
vasourraba, -i, -e, -r - in pairs, two by two, or (between pairs) 
nn - taken together, and

nnsol (uts.), nnsn (ish.) - some part of 
nnsabi - something 
nnoue - somebody 
gevn - nobody 
gefsabi - nothing, syn. nngev 
gefsol (uts.), gefsn (ish.) - no part of

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 6:03 PM ====
to people like the people do

inonoue - ish. v. to crowd together, to be sociable. van. v. to be civilized, to be a respectable member of society

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 7:30 PM ====
kientsar - media content, literature, and art, etc.

kientsar sul yadahim - music, as refers to tradable, copyable content but not performance

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 6:54 AM ====
-chm - postpositional clitic, by (the use of), by (as in grasping by a particular part of)

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 7:02 AM ====
unless prev. diff.

yitatse - naturally fast 
yitatsekue - deliberately fast, abnormally fast 
yitatsekuetre - slow, esp. unusually 
yitatseku - to run quickly

yitso, yitatso - to happen, to be natural or authentic 
eyitat - to try, to put forth a little effort

sule, sune - partial, incomplete

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 8:38 AM ====
dahimokhnea, dahimzhgu - music worker

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 11:21 AM ====
uburubu - to put or pack away, to hide oneself, to pack or compress a measured ingredient in cooking

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 2:49 PM ====
burun, burol - little one, small young person or creature 
metmo - to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
mchmali - personal communication device(s); one's "address" with the Knowing 
dahimadi - n. very short song, whether sung or instrumental

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:16 PM ====
yupta - n. plan, intent 
bache - to dance 
bachebache - to dance in place; to wait noisily or impatiently

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:27 PM ====
mimikhli - dorms

fek, fekh, feagh - clan

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:05 AM ====
abamabam - to encounter someone, to talk or visit quite briefly with someone

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:14 AM ====
sahumwa shcha - sleep well

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:31 AM ====
wa, wai, wae, waar - adj. good, as of superior quality 
wacha, -i, -e, -r - adj. good, as of superior social standing, achievement, or merit 
waghra, -ri, -re, -r - adj. famous, prominent, popular, with strong support from important people, influential

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:38 AM ====
abaamkhrachiaro - to put best foot forward in one's presentation of oneself, whether appearance or efforts; to be successful; to succeed generally or in a particular effort 
abamabamchourre - to put in a little talk (to influential people) or to show a little effort towards one's own success

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:58 AM ====
haenn abamabamchouurevi ouhn 
yitzonn abaamkhrachiarovi nahn

baam buruburuhn 
ukh aghrachiaroni haenn

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 9:29 AM ====
ongit shungamn, gitshungamn - teapot

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 12:45 PM ====
u(p)taenn, u(p)tsonn future tense

unk(h)aenn, unkhitsonn - here and now

th'haenn, thaietsonn - around now, soonish, just now, in the very immediate past or future

ot'haenn, otyitsonn - far past

==== scribblemyname — 05/22/2023 7:23 AM ====
vastson - dating, that is spending time with one's significant other in structured social events for the purpose of strengthening or continuing the relationship

==== scribblemyname — 05/23/2023 1:40 PM ====
aiyung – phoenix 
baahas - tiger 
seonh – guardwolf 
yefasejek - spearfish 
rumhiruune - greydeer 
egumruhitzon – huntingbird 
yefayon - sunfish 
baahasiryo - snowtiger 
rumhyitann – quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rumhidaghe - rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
tsuve – dragon

==== scribblemyname — 05/24/2023 10:34 AM ====
avosovos - to chat a little, to listen for a little while

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 5:03 PM ====
anouankhe (uts.), anaianche (ish.)

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:24 PM ====
buchura, buchuri, buchure, buchur - adj. 
bucherit, buchert - ptcp.

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:37 PM ====
butu - why, from purpose or reason????

==== scribblemyname — 05/26/2023 9:09 PM ====
(ou) yaguonichayitsonn nihn - I love you romantically, female to male
scribblemyname
pinned
a message
to this channel. See all
pinned messages
. — 05/26/2023 9:10 PM

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 8:38 PM ====
ishitaku, ijitaku - to survive, e.g. ishitaku-uptaenn uren "I will survive" 
ishitakun, ijitakun - survivor 
ishitakul, jitakunr - leftovers (of a meal), remaining things 
shungam - pourer, e.g faucets, pitchers, etc.

daous - to give. Note: syn. eshishi is used to offer or to hand or give directly to someone in the momeng. daous is used for more formal or abstract forms of giving, or to refer to gifts during a celebration, etc.

ayud -

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 9:04 PM ====
Usually entering the atmosphere was the worst of it. Not this time. Instead of the ride smoothing out, sudden turbulence forcibly caught their little ship and propelled them northwest and down at a frightening rate.

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 10:15 AM ====
wangam - ascension trial 
yonngam - interior lighting (system) 
shukingam - lamp, light fixture

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 2:31 PM ====
aiyungayo - to ascend (to a sworn duty) after a trial, to rise in standing or ability after facing difficulties, to persevere

=== June 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

=== July 2023 ===

=== August 2023 ===

=== September 2023 ===

=== October 2023 ===

=== November 2023 ===

=== December 2023 ===

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:25:27Z

Lianamir: /* June 2023 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== January 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 6:51 AM ====
the only one that matters won't recognize my face. you should go though

me?

they don't like dealing through representatives lower than your rank

are you sure you shouldn't come along then? seeing as you know the culture

I'm not abandoning you, affectionately

Joem wanted to protest the sudden role reversal, being treated like a child in need of encouragement or comfort. He refrained when he realized he was somewhat acting like one

...

I don't understand your relationship with my father

You will one day without my needing to explain it

That answer won't get you out of every question I ask.

I'll keep that in mind

Beram studied him for a long moment, taking in this side of him. Usually Sata answered all of his questions that weren't about who Beram really was, and he generally didn't show Beram his cold face. (After all, Beram's dark face would only rarely make an appearance and hadn't yet in this life.)

So he smiled, warmly, became the person he was for his lover, not his child. "It really is too complicated." There were too many things tied up in the concept of his almost children, especially when he didn't share them with Beram.

His difficult, precious, demanding children. He would never have children of his essence. It made the children of his power all the more necessary to cherish and protect.

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 7:00 AM ====
when I met him, I felt like I'd been waiting for him my whole life. even when he's infuriating... Beram trailed off into a sheepish smile. I like him a lot, Dad.

==== scribblemyname — 01/13/2023 3:50 PM ====
https://www.calendardate.com/year2023.php

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 4:39 AM ====
I sleep well and wake refreshed

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 8:44 PM ====
Good evening, God, my sovereign Lord 
I reach for You, cling to Your Word 
Nothing less can I afford 
If I'm to be reassured 
For comfort comes from trusting You 
And peace by walking in Your way 
Through the hours, I've cone through 
And by Your strength passed through this day 
My hope is found within my sight 
Visions and histories glowing bright 
When You, O Lord, reached out to save 
Me from every yawning grave 
And all my sins and my mistakes 
With Your mercy You forgave 
In awe, I cry, what love like this! 
Ignorance is pain, Your truth my bliss

==== scribblemyname — 01/21/2023 8:43 PM ====
avg 3 kids

gen 1 2 
gen 2 2 + 2 
gen 3 9 + 9 
gen 4 27 + 27 = 54 
gen 5 81 + 81 = 162 
gen 6 243 + 243 = 486 
Curun

==== scribblemyname — 01/25/2023 4:29 PM ====
legacy of Yonyunn, sometimes he wanted to pat them on their invisible helpful heads (far north, etc. interpretations), a rather convenient exception as high ranking member of the Elite, can't have a war king/queen without the Elite, no one minded when Ahayin sat by him, This was a war council after all.

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:28 AM ====
good morning, God, I pray again 
I'm thankful for Your perfect plan 
the hope You hold within Your hand 
to pour on me, such blessings when 
I don't deserve Your matchless grace 
but neither does the human race 
Your favor granted in Your love 
is not because of us or of 
a human nature, prone to wander 
no, You're our eternal Father 
hold me, Lord, I pray today 
and keep me in Your perfect way

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 3:33 PM ====
egum - bird 
egumyesh - seabird, dialectical variant: egumesh 
egumiryo - snowbird 
egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
egumyon - sunbird, dialectical variant: egumon

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:37 PM ====
yefa - fish 
yefasejek - spearfish

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 10:38 PM ====
tsuve - dragon

from tsawi 
tsuveyesh - sea dragon 
tsuveyon - sun dragon 
tsuvechot - night dragon

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 3:45 AM ====
Leshet had been born in Kinaang, high up the northern face of the then southern border, that is the Dragon Cliffs. She understood that Kinaang or Ginieng, dialect dependent, had grown up from village to town, and its proximity to the capital meant there were people not of her band living there. They could marry without waiting for a marriage festival after the Clans Gathering. Their guardian council was said to have a touchstone. She'd never asked or verified if it was the same one from before the war. It wasn't the god-marked only who had been targeted, and why would they have it if Leshet's three contracts were none traditional to her band.

From the time they sent her off to learn war, as an unrecognized child, she had never been back since.

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 8:19 PM ====
hwun aiyung soeg tsuve

=== February 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 02/01/2023 11:34 AM ====
Postposition Class non-person noun person noun ascended person noun 
I – masc. a ani aniwa 
II – fem. ha hani haniwa 
III – divine / natural wa wani waniwa 
IV – neut. ba bani baniwa

==== scribblemyname — 02/02/2023 5:06 PM ====
Happy to! A brief background: the war clans are not a united polity. For the purposes of war and foreign policy, they are essentially four groups of clans, but for domestic purposes, each clan is sovereign itself. That said, the northernmost clan of Vannu uses the Hilakhot sequence in general parlance but the Paschtha sequence for anything under the war government.

1. aiyung - phoenix 
2. tiger 
3. seon - guardwolf 
4. spearfish 
5. greydeer 
6. egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
7. sunfish 
8. snowtiger 
9. rumhyitann - quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
10. tsuve - dragon

The first three and the last one are native to their originating homeworld. The remaining species are native to the world they're on now.

These are the names of the days within their ten-day periods (one might say "they rest on the halves, greydeer and dragon", meaning the fifth and tenth days of the aghourre); the ten-day periods within a season (a season typically runs through snowtiger or quickdeer, which aghourre is swallowed by the equinox or solstice, days named for different dragons); and the elite military "hundreds", which consist of 100 units (the first hundred is the phoenix hundred, which contains units 1-100; thus, the 312th unit would be in spearfish).
Anything placed in a sequence may use ordinal numbers or use the sequence names. Military units containing three squads may call them first, second, and third squad or phoenix, tiger, and guardwolf squad. Measuring cups and spoons that are whole increments rather than fractions may be labeled with an animal icon rather than number glyphs, though fractions will usually use numbers.

In dates and military units, the choice of sequence name or number name is usually going to alternate for ease of understanding. A huntingbird ten is 60, rather than saying "six ten[s]" or "a huntingbird dragon". If you say Spring's snowtiger to refer to a ten-day period, you'll call the day within it by its number, e.g. fifth day of the Spring's snowtiger. But if you want to name the day, you'd say the greydeer of Spring's eighth.

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 2:41 PM ====
levels not floors

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 6:32 PM ====
good evening God, the end of day 
nears again and so I pray 
I'm grateful for the Sabbath rest 
Though I feel I gave my best 
Lord, I ask my best improve 
As through the days and weeks I move 
And teach me Lord to rest in You 
And in Your peace my lifetime through

==== scribblemyname — 02/04/2023 7:30 PM ====
months

the new month 
the rising dragon month 
the falling dragon month 
the mountain lights month

the singing glories month 
the dancing storms month 
the breath of winds month 
the woven strands month

the hungering void month 
the void satisfied month 
the burning lights month 
the unfolding blooms month

the solemn eyes month 
the eternal mists month 
the spreading heavens month 
the plummeting depths month

the world weights month 
the heavenly anchors month 
the turning wheels month 
the biting hunters month

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 7:59 AM ====
yitzonn running, as happens, naturally 
haenn by hand - actively, intentionally, by deliberate effort

moet-miets yathsaa yitzonn? is that my yellow girl happening by?

huanra snack 
huadr vigilant 
hyet bread 
duen steed, a horselike creature 
mowani ruler, king, queen 
mowani ko war queen, war king 
duenmowann kingsteed

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 8:49 AM ====
aved, aveth: marked, as in Tayas Kms aveth Curunde, where Tayas Kms are considered 1st and 2nd personal names, but band, clan, and duty-lineage are all what one is marked rather than named. Etym. derived originally from "clawed" in the sense of having been marked by claws.

For K2-Nar, we have -hen as the original ergative case ending, derived from heme, "hand." Methinks this one erodes to -en fairly quickly.

And ongit: tea.
Huasi vunnosen ongit nohenye iejes shengoshukiaa.

That is

to drink.SG PAST tea.SG.ABS 1P.ERG.PL VOL moonlight.LOC
K2-Nar

empreta: to hunt together (as a social or companionable activity) 
imea: eye 
nij: blood 
nijeres: divine power (godsblood) 
yaiye: water 
dini: (any member of any species of) small, migrating songbird 
mouwe: divine yellow 
njeho: light breeze; someone who passes through quickly or only stays for brief visits (shorter than is polite) 
nwehi: path 
nyemouwe: divine white 
payat: bread 
pwuteks: bed; bed of a body of water, seafloor 
tsabi: body 
vurte: burn wound 
busihts: fetus; pregnant 
ikiets: to stab 
njikh: tooth 
suarot: tree 
teɡh: knife 
ts'awi mountain; (poetic) dragons 
tsadi river 
shivimee: imperative, pass (inanimate object) to me, e.g. shivimee ohuali, "pass the (bread)sticks" 
shinimee: imperative, come here

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 3:08 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord of hosts 
Of my own strength I cannot boast 
If I say go, they do not go 
It is a skill only You know 
But grant me peace in all of this 
For trusting You alone is bliss 
To know that even through these tests 
You will bring me to some rest

==== scribblemyname — 02/07/2023 7:31 AM ====
I go to sail the dragon sea 
my love, my love 2x 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
my love, my love 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
Because, because

sung by coastal clans at funerals

==== scribblemyname — 02/08/2023 7:53 AM ====
sasu - child, offspring 
miis - infant

kolos

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:37 AM ====
gi, oge numbers 
kanwun year 
wunn annual

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:45 AM ====
sul, osol fractional partitive 
yishor can't marry

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:53 AM ====
isut memory, record, log

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:43 AM ====
southern gisun, oksun

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:14 PM ====
pmto trade goods 
kients trade instructions or information

=== March 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:46 AM ====
yaiue season

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:58 AM ====
prtzon marriage

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 8:43 AM ====
pntzon trade

==== scribblemyname — 03/05/2023 11:48 AM ====
inut resource(s) 
inughra wealth, surplus resources 
davke foreign trader

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 5:56 AM ====
Tren walking over to Chaz's wearing swearter, bite of chill to the autumn wind, sees Chaz and complaints disappear without dripping off his tongue

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 2:53 PM ====
niewutsuve - dragon winds, that is warm winds coming off the Dragon Sea and blowing westward

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:14 PM ====
yaiye > iiye, n. water; adj. -e, -et, -es, -er. 1. wet; 2. watery, dilute liquid, e.g. watery tea; 3. young, relatively untrained or naive person

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:22 PM ====
{travel} inlitzon, to ride 
{travel} paritzon, to be carried 
{travel} ??-tzon, to cross over

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:29 PM ====
okay, some notes go here:
Brín go in the desert between the True North and the Great City just to the west of the mountains bordering the War Clans, mostly along the lake mid-desert between those mountains and Lehwa's eastern border. Lehwa considers some of the desert their territory, but the Brín consider the desert theirs entire. The lake is fed by waters from the True North, and the original settlers mostly swept down from there, though they've always picked up some from east and south as well.

Gian becomes the Little Dragon of the Copper Court, ruling over the Great City (Elohwangian, Lo his child name, Gian his political name, Littleling his ward name, and the Little Dragon his name). His half brother Shian is a trader among the Brín. Shian's children are Antha and Haitha. Haitha expands dragon trade between the Great City, Brín, and the True North and marries a girl from the True North. Due to their actions and dragon migrations, the Garden Court is established as a port for shipping, mail, and dragon travel, as well as housing a massive enclosed plaza of carefully developed water system, garden, and animal raising to provide food to allow dragons to live there.

This precipitates the Joint Council of the Thaifka who determine whether the intent to lay stone and projected consumption can be supported by the lake. They were able to make agreements with the Great Court in the True North where She Who Awakens presides to establish the Icewater Court and send an established amount of water down the river.
Young dragons who wish to join the Brín establish the Court of the Wall, defining the border with Lehwa, and registering with all the established Thaifka and requesting elders for their court, which ends up prompting the Joint Office of Customs. Dragons also establish the Court of the Waters just south of the mountains of the north and appoint themselves responsible for measuring and protecting the waters. They consider themselves Brín and choose to register with the Thaifka, lay open plazas always "open under the sky", pass the bracelet at the arrival of visitors, sending word when it's one of their own or arranging and smoothing potential trade with someone new, adopt no local currency, and guard anything sent downriver.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:39 PM ====
Haitha's son (oldest child, 3 younger sisters) notices that Shian is unhappy and feels his world has grown smaller and that the Thaifka are acting more as a governing body than a purely presiding body, but he doesn't want to start over or settle elsewhere from his chosen community. Haitha turns to Flame Blooms in Winter, who grants him her power, which enables him to create "freedom stones" to set in the open plaza, that it be always under the open sky. No one in the plaza can be compelled.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:49 PM ====
On the topic, the Copper Court includes Flame Blooms in Winter presiding and He Around Whom the Worlds Turn ruling. Her daughter Cold Under Fire was warded by Gian after he was warded by Flame Blooms in Winter from 11 years old. Cold Under Fire warded his two children by the half-dragon daughter of one of the youngest who flew over. Gian ruled beside Void Under Sunlight but Void Under Sunlight was injured during the Black Rain (TIAT), fighting alongside the Iron Dragon, and retired (to run off and go find the dragons of the True North). So Gian talks the Iron Dragon at the Court of Iron and Blood in the Undercity to give him Moonlight Under Water to rule beside him instead. He's stuck with him right up to ruling the Overcity though, and Void Under Sunlight becomes ambassador to the Council of Nations.
Once Gian's Garden faction wins over the Songbirds and Citadel faction, Shian brings his wife and children to meet the Copper Court. Flame Blooms in Winter's daughter Flowers Under Sunlight had very eagerly showed up in Brín when she learned how to transform. She introduces the two to her three hatchlings, and Haitha ends up working with Snow Under the Sky and Light Under {Night}.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:57 PM ====
lauv is Brín for stone, to lay stone is to build or help build a residence one intends to live in and one must register intent to lay stone with the Thaifka, who determine if there is prior claim on the property

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 8:08 AM ====
brin terms

saihadin birdtower 
breddun horse tie 
dun steed 
duin spirit or ghost 
boshing flowering gourd, a divine fruit 
geshing peach, a divine fruit 
isha strength 
patrin maternal aunt or uncle 
patrinsa maternal cousin 
kamin, kaminsa paternal 
din bird, runner scout watchman 
burin desert

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 10:00 AM ====
shinin bracelet 
shinindin bracelet bird: runner scout watchman

==== scribblemyname — 03/20/2023 9:11 PM ====
Leshet felt the shifting seasons lightly, the cooler winds and white mists of spring drifting through her, unable to chill her breath or dampen her skin. The sight of Tide and Moonlight at the stone table they'd chosen hit her harder, more familiar and less fleeting, for all spring was a mere four dragons previous, compared to the years since they'd paused their disparate circuits to cross threads again.

Moonlight stood tense and tall by the table, arms crossed, dark hair practically a cloak of its own in length. Tide at his shoulder was deceptively more relaxed, the godmark of his silver white hair barely brushing his neck.

The Dragon Hundred was as strong as the Phoenix Hundred.

Leshet's lifted her gaze to the scar on his face, an extra quirk to his wry expression. She raised her hand, but Tide halted her by the wrist. "Don't."

"Of course."

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 1:26 AM ====
washed up at Connors with a tide of fellow students from the middle school, at least an hour before high school extracurriculars would let older teens flood the place

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:32 AM ====
the sword hung above the mantel

come in, Captain

may I ask—?

the original, passed down through the generations from our ancestor, the very legend you seek. studied Joem for a long moment. There are three branches of my family and three heirs who hold rights to these artifacts.

I'm afraid I'll need to take them all.

I see.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:41 AM ====
Leshet reactivated with the Elite after her first husband died, like soil awakening in spring, full of the seeds of winter. She'd belonged to the First Unit when she'd gone fallow; she belonged to it when she returned.

"I've redistributed the Undying," Yonyunn told her. She'd put the Curunde trio in the Nine Hundred Sixty-Third Unit.

Leshet understood. Hiding that some did not die of natural causes was a reasonable enough decision.

"I'm First," Leshet said. "I chose duty once."

Yonyunn hesitated, no doubt remembering the conversation that led to Leshet's assigned marriage. She relented.

Leshet remained.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 6:00 AM ====
tell me, sat beside him, did you know that first time?

no. if I'd known you were related to saiyar, I would never have touched you.

ah. so yonyunn told you

if she hadn't, I never would have agreed

==== scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM ====
he had no one to complain to that wouldn't rat him out immediately. communication sacred mission, feature not a bug, put his fond amusement into the ecosystem so they could sense it 
where's Beram, split by temperament, are you afraid? are you? story, gives him a touchstone

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 9:00 AM ====
susun / susunaghs - "hours", that is a tenth of a watch or 1/40th of a day, also susun osol nakhaurre

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 11:49 AM ====
nakhnu guardian, from nakhanau 
nakhaurre watch, a period of 1/4 day 
nakhaurresh - sea watch 
nakhauryon - sun watch 
nakhaurchot - night watch 
need to figure out grey here

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:17 AM ====
haimourre hand-units, 1/4 susun or 1/40th of a nakhaurre 
vaghar claws, 1/10 haimourre or 1/40th of a susun

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:28 AM ====
baagyon solar time 
baagutsar "regular" civil time 
udus regular, normal, ordinary

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:42 AM ====
baaghar "other" civil time 
ishegi, isheginu protectee 
ishesul partner, ally, or member of one's workforce or personal networks

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 1:17 PM ====
great city:

nutsáb - I 
utsáb - you 
hatsáb - he, she, they 
batsáb - it

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 8:06 PM ====
I was like a system dialog box. I only had one button: Okay.

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 7:10 AM ====
great city ˈʃu.ʃn shúshin

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 8:01 AM ====
chuuchun ki.ta.ma shi-ja-kor.i

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 6:00 AM ====
She received the summons when she woke towards the end of the sea watch. Their unit leader gave her a physical tab silently. Leshet read off the odd script, half statements she was obliged to know the rest of to interpret correctly. When the Knowing could interpret any fully communicated thought to any recipient, passing military communications became an exercise in communicating such that only the right recipient would understand.

First. First place. {time}

Srshe looked at her. Orders.

A mtg. With the First.

Adan?

Yes.

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 7:30 AM ====
they weren't the first anymore, they were first and 963rd and the husband of the war queen, and yet, they were the first members of the first unit from the time it had been established, and that was never going to go away
Leshet smiles once in the whole book. How do you choose to demonstrate catharsis?

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 8:54 AM ====
brin

unshókhe a new genre of nontraditional song and dance sprung up among the youth of the lower city's plaza

ishing(al) child(ren)

=== April 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 04/02/2023 9:11 AM ====
possible kofnea

mounu ichiche 
mounu ishishe 
ani yitzonn itsivayo

==== scribblemyname — 04/03/2023 7:45 AM ====
chirnea member of one's anchiri, a friend who knowingly helps to anonymize you 
anchiru, -ut, -unn, -u anonymizing, of or related to anchiru

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 9:52 AM ====
Sontu Aghmtanti, born in Taegung as Paschtha Ishiem just south of the mountains of the border with the Danni, family grows and trades food and spices that need wetlands or boxes, incl. tsuntsi. Has 2 younger siblings. Marries Minunn 
ichin - verbal gesture of respect toward older male 
achi - verbal gesture of respect toward older female

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 11:21 AM ====
Yunn had fling with Gin of first kolos, was chirnea to Moet, I am good chirnea. Yes, you are. Praise me more.

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 8:35 AM ====
duzho geef

not in front of children

explanation demanded from children

why would you want to curse anyone?

izhit

apologizes

these are ishiem words - duuso vs. duusho > duuzho 
ichin > izhit (feminized insult)

Minunn livid until he promises to make the effort around her and the children 
yoich - verbal gesture demanding respect, yoichi in Ishiem

maybe all my glory is my claws in place 
maybe all my glory is a pretty face 
maybe all my glory is a voice arrayed 
but it's mine, but it's mine 
and I'm never going to change

you laid these bones 
you made them strong 
you laid these bones 
but they're mine, but they're mine 
and that's never going to change

yoich

You cannot take your grown children by the hand.

...

I am not your heir. I will not return to Taegung, not for my wedding, not as your heir. That place is for Anyiet.

Sontu!

Yoichi. 
Yesh Runn stormy sea, Gin's brother

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 9:10 AM ====
pers. I 
nokh / noikh / ukh 
nokhs / noekhs / uikh

class III 
hinokhs / ukhs 
I appear to be developing something of a tree of linguistic change in this language family, oops, and just trying to sort out how one thing leads to another all at the same time. 
So possessive suffixes in Kofnea-Adan (as I'm calling it now):

m. ukh, f. uikh, n. ukh, o. urëkh (2nd p): your

Where ë is now how I'm indicating the schwa, which is phonemic in Kofnea at least.

vs. in Kofnea-Kolos (modern), where -miets used to indicate the immediacy of a kinship relationship is starting to see use as an inalienable possessive, aka, my love, my husband, my {name}, mine, while still only usable with immediate relatives. This also combines with regular possession when used as a possessive pronoun rather than adjective:

m. miatsukh, f. miatsuikh, n. miatsukh, o. miatsurëkh (2nd p): yours 
No! Sorry for being unclear! So it'd be like Shion-miets is how a character calls her husband, My wolf, as an endearment. Literally, it's wolf-immediate relation marker. Miatsukh would be a way of saying "yours" meaning "your immediately related {person in this context}."

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 3:15 PM ====
like the river blue mist, gonna burn itself away 
young love, young love 
gonna disappear one day

like the passing days 
got to live them while we can 
young love, young love 
we learn with our own hands

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 7:47 AM ====
jishim ishiam verbal gesture of surrender or resignation, esp. to something deemed the natural order of things

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 8:07 AM ====
jikhoue - accompanied by chin jut on kho, irritated pain

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 1:31 PM ====
Sontu: na ushunn (I'm hungry) 
ushun - n. hunger

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 2:15 PM ====
geyef / ge'ef 
zhoyon / zho'on

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:12 PM ====
nehin fling 
wa nehin a fling 
nehin (h)ani a person one has a fling with

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:50 PM ====
hasath premarital romantic partner

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 7:49 AM ====
shuka yone - sunlight 
goes by yunn - morning 
sachin respect to male peer with higher standing 
sachi respect to female peer with higher standing

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 2:55 PM ====
yatech heart as emotional center (miets), one's emotional energies, the most intense of one's emotional attachments (nokh / noikh) 
hoagh heart organ 
jita / shita alive 
hoagh jita / shita heartbeat, pulse 
achid the ceremony of marriage where the couple imbue each other with the power of their own contracts, usually performed during a wedding but can be considered a wedding act which merely needs verification afterward

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 5:29 PM ====
pirtot keep far, to distance oneself 
pirtha keep close, to stay near to

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 1:44 AM ====
don't want to be awake 
don't know how to sleep 
not tonight 
all the fight 
in me turned inward

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:00 AM ====
yague romantic committed love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:22 AM ====
yague romantic committed love 
ungtha nearby, phys. or ment. 
mho voice

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 7:57 AM ====
adj. names shung + pakhe

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:12 AM ====
pirsatha husband 
pirsathi wife 
yaguegi object of one's love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:56 AM ====
poghro aumyo pasta w/a traditional soupy sauce 
baahas tiger

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 9:12 AM ====
pretar achid tie, contract(s), those one has a future with, e.g. family, close friends, spouse, etc., fate

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 3:04 PM ====
sadi river 
satsa stream

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 4:19 PM ====
economic, cultural, political, technology, religion, geography

==== scribblemyname — 04/11/2023 11:59 AM ====
nukhshi play, dialect variants nughshi, nuushi, nukchi

okhshi work

suim shiuntsi a style of presentation, incl. dress, scents, makeup, jewelry, and colors considered appropriate for casual or formal social occasions. It's marked by what are considered green scents, soft clothing lines and cuts which do not expose clan marks, understated jewelry and hairstyle, and natural makeup if any.

pns nagm a style of personal presentation considered appropriate for casual wear or work around the home but not in public. It's marked by functional clothing which may be worn or damaged from previous work done in it, e.g. paint spattered jeans, and a lack of makeup or jewelry.

okhsh danmi a style of personal presentation seen as permissive working uniform, which allows some stylistic or personal choice variations from a set uniform. It is one of few presentation styles viewed as almost always appropriate, excepting the rare occasions when strict uniform is required. Danmi in practice varies by uniform and profession. Professions with no set uniform cannot utilize danmi.

pns - comfortableness

pns idrntso - comfortable loose or long fitting presentation suitable for everyday wear

pns udus - everyday nonwork personal presentation style

okhsh udus - everyday work presentation, no uniform,

pns yenes - presentation with softcloth and cuts that reveal clan marks

ildns - friendship of companionship, generally viewed as continuing by choice and preference

ildnsn(a)(i) - friend of companionship

minunn - having a soft, gentle quality, esp. of voice, demeanor, or appearance

shung - 1. flowing, as of water, 2. giving and generous of one's time and effort on behalf of others

suim ghra - formal social dress and presentation with floral scents, decorative hairstyles, etc.

yapft - friend who is acting as chaperone during courtship

yivsl - a flower brought with them from Kareios having a pleasing scent

suim pns - light clothing with patterns and floral colors, floral or fruit scents

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:31 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents.

absolutive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -hn.

1st - na, ni, no, uren 
2nd - ou, ouet, uus, urou 
3rd - a(ni), ha(ni), wa(ni), ba(ni)

possessive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -n.

1st - nokh, noikh, nokhs, norekh 
2nd - ukh, uikh, ukhs, urekh 
3rd - a(ni)kh, ha(ni)kh, wa(ni)kh, ba(ni)kh

Ishiam adds two sets, ba- for speaking to or of someone with indeterminate or unknown difference in age, generation, or standing and sa- for speaking to or of someone of lower age, generation, or standing. Yeah, rather honorific like I'm noticing.

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:59 AM ====
ymke - comfort food 
iyudu - n. 1. scent, 2. perfume 
hiyaube, -et, -o (-es), -r - adj. painful 
hiyaubo - n. pain 
sennar - n. earrings 
yagueourre - n. courtship period before marriage 
huesourre - n. menstrual period 
duushung - v. to let one's thoughts or feelings slip such that the Knowing translates to them to others, generally this is looked down on or considered embarrassing for anyone over a certain age 
uchietson - n. being respectful 
uchietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. respectful 
uchietsetre, -ret, -los, -re - adj. disrespectful, rude 
oueho - fun 
yagueit - ptcp. adj. 1. engaged, 2. committed romantically 
yaguekue, -et, -es, -er - adj. suitable for marriage in standing, compatibility, etc. 
prtsonkue - adj. 1. marriagable, that is legally eligible for marriage, 2. eligible for marriage by having no egregious disqualifying personal traits 
eseche - n. a formal social event incl. a meal, usually dinner 
sokhoto - n. a social meal engaged in to discuss potential business arrangements 
gev - neut. n. zero 
eas - n. spirit, referring to the life and consciousness of a person or god 
ishrtse - studious

daashi - personal presentation style sometimes considered synonymous with suim pns, but which varies in...

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 11:05 AM ====
ksh'danmi daashi is what Saiyunn wears 
ksh'danmi yenes is what Tayas wears

==== scribblemyname — 04/13/2023 8:26 PM ====
sontu and minunn's first child is aiyungi jitai, "yatech"

==== scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM ====
kofnea-utsa 
kofnea-ishiama 
kofnea-tsuala 
kofnea-tsuala paschtha 
kofnea-tsuala tsuvea (kofnea-curun) 
kofnea-tsuala lakha 
kofnea-yeshietsa 
kofnea-daana 
tsabua - ud. soul, spiritual "body", tl. highest self, cl. etiquette, best behavior 
tsabung - n. the land within war clans territory, usu. indicative of that of a clans group but sometimes indicative of parts or all 
yeshietsa, -tsi, -ts, -tsr - coastal 
prtseche - n. wedding meal, wedding celebration

==== scribblemyname — 04/15/2023 3:37 PM ====
aemiets, taemiets - significant other

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 5:58 AM ====
sant - the dry ingredients of a dish, when initially prepped separately 
hastha, -i - male or female premarital romantic partner, see hasath

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 6:53 AM ====
It wasn't that Sata didn't see him coming. Sata's temper wasn't one which cooled easily, and even when it did, it generally hardened into unwavering resolve. His temper kept him flinging spear and fire, spear and ice, even when Jioror the Lahan, Chief of Information entered the training room and stopped to stare.

Sata was glowing. He was still condensed power, rippling waves of heat and shatters of ice rolling off him. He turned, pulling his spears upright in his hands, and looked down toward the Lahan.

His face was full of surprise, something familiar and cold clenched in his right glove.

Sata's temper fled him, and he considered just who had wielded that last. He diffused his power, reabsorbed his spears, let the glow fade from behind his eyes, as he leaned forward.

"Sata?" The Lahan sounded uncertain. "Shouldn't you be in bed?"

He wasn't addressing the obvious. Sata wasn't human.

But Sata did, an edge of humor on his tongue. He didn't bother to pretend youthfulness. "When he wakes, he'll want to hunt." Sata was decidedly out of practice. "My almost child." He waved toward the spear.

Jioror stiffened.

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 7:28 AM ====
uzh - ishiam. work 
uzhanme - ishiam. ksh'danmi 
uzhun - worker 
uzhungam - troublemaker, a very rambunctious child or person under one's care or responsibility, nuisance

vs.

okhshne - worker 
okhshngam - employer

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 1:33 PM ====
shcha verbal gesture meaning here or for you

nea, kofnea recognized person (adult, registered age of forfeiture) 
hinea, hsnea unrecognized person (young adult, unregistered age of forfeiture) 
msnea child young enough to not keep anchiri yet 
bsnea nonclans person

ouekhe - verbal gesture of directed displeasure, equivalent to shaking a fist or finger at someone

uusoue - to admire with awe, as a role model or beautiful wife 
ososou - to admire with fondness, as a cute child or pet

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 8:56 PM ====
I write a note to self 
my heart up on a shelf 
oh, I could take it down 
would it make me someone else

do you see the broken glass 
image between the cracks 
my mirror to hide behind 
where even I can't find

there's silence blooming where I used to tread 
quiet rooming with loudness in my head 
a diet of hope and pain on which I've fed 
feels like centuries lying in this bed

it's hard sometimes to make the words come out 
harder still to stop the broken spout 
swallow down the person I can't be 
hating, dreading that I think they're me 
letting go so hard so I can breathe

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:04 PM ====
I didn't mean to write that 
but when did I ever mean 
any sort of thing 
I wear another hat 
do you know this brand new version 
smile at the subversion 
before we start reversion 
another tit for tat 
words on my tongue 
when the night is young 
ignore, ignore the heedless stream 
the fanciful dream 
I never meant to write that 
to break the ice, the glass 
to teach another class 
on why to leave me be 
forget, just please forget me 
I loathe to feel your eyes 
and yet I need 
I cannot bear the pain 
and yet I bleed 
kiss me 
is this a metaphor 
I dream of lost things 
lost and faded wings 
I used to soar 
and even more 
laughter like sunshine 
bubbled in my chest 
before I learned the world's not kind 
and no one will help 
my world drifts in and out 
of yours, the loneliness 
finds me on edge 
intersections like promises 
never empty yet unfulfilled 
I feel unskilled 
my hands unable to grasp 
quicksilver fish, like dreams 
your life now gone 
from the lines and threads we wove 
a treasure trove 
of memories and sobs 
I leave the chest closed

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:13 PM ====
how long have I held you heavy in unspoken places? 
I brace myself for another wave 
this is not bravery, braving the locks 
realizing I locked away my grief 
like a bird in a cage, 
always singing and endlessly bringing 
an undertone of my drifting self 
an ocean without an anchor, my harbor lost 
horizon beckons unreachable 
for I have a tempest to bring 
my thoughts and my dreams 
remind me that you believed 
the gift I received 
from you I cannot toss aside 
so I go with the tide 
been waiting to heal 
for a long, long time 
there is no great reveal 
just an endless climb

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:51 PM ====
good evening, God, you know my heart 
you've plumbed the depths of every part 
you've shown a light inside my dark 
I pray tonight an end then start 
anew; the morning light will come 
your mercies greater than the sum 
of all my weakness, failings, loss 
you are stronger than my cross 
which you allowed my heart to bear 
gently saying don't be scared 
for not by will must I stand strong 
but by you, keep holding on

==== scribblemyname — 04/19/2023 4:54 AM ====
auto bio graph 
do you even understand 
what is hidden in these lines 
yes, I know it every time

expiate, got to expiate 
a history or two 
I appreciate 
I am at the gate 
and now I'm going through 
aya, aya, aya...

educate, got to educate 
this heart and soul of mine 
I appreciate 
cannot leave to fate 
I got to underline 
aya, aya, aya... 
this is no way to live 
but I promise to forgive 
if you'll let it all go

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 7:43 AM ====
don't want to drift out on the water 
don't want to burn up in the fire 
don't want to sink under the heaven 
don't want to lose my way again

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 9:41 AM ====
I'd been living for a hundred years 
underneath a mountain of fears 
crying out: every time You hear 
You forgave me and You saved me and You held me dear

I don't why 
I don't get by 
I need You right 
now and forever 
You're my only light

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 10:17 AM ====
shi no okhsm 
??

oznocha, uznocha - ishiam. move away

==== scribblemyname — 04/22/2023 5:15 PM ====
duushon - idea 
yadahim - music 
amhobaamgi yadahim - musician

tiger rhyme is a double rhyme 
singing is mouth music, look up old word for mouth

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:27 AM ====
ozhaizhenna kus(h)aiyenn 
budtho 
dikangu

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:48 AM ====
sitouangm - cook 
sitouangamo - grower 
sitou - food 
sitoue, -et, -es, -er - culinary, dietary, relating to food 
sitouatson - argriculture 
sitouetre - non-nutritive, inedible

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 6:23 AM ====
teas - to run after, to pursue 
tasatson - western. pursuit, haste; eastern. tiasatson 
tasatse - western. hasty, risky, not well thought through; eastern. tiasatse - ambitious 
duuse - preoccupied, overwhelmed by thoughts or memories 
duushe - ishiam. thoughtful, with forethought 
duuzhedre - ishiam. poorly thought through, reckless 
duushert - ishiam. well-considered, properly prepared, ready 
sahum - sleep 
sahumtha - sleepy 
sahumkue - comfortable or restful, such that one can take down one's guard or reserve 
sahumotson - insomnia 
sahumotse - wakeful, unable to sleep 
sahumthtre - awake, active (as of a device or object), still having enough power or connection to a power source for the current plan or activity 
sosouege - a cute person or thing 
uusege - an admirable person or thing 
uusouekue - admirable, awe-inspiring 
uusouert - admired, looked up to, dialect: uusoerit 
paam - to touch intimately, to have sex 
meetha - to touch physically

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 8:10 AM ====
ichagefrt - ishiam. exhausted, drained of energy after great exertion or extended wakefulness 
shukn - paved or designated street, usually in a city and permitting foot traffic 
inliung - street designated for vehicular traffic. ishiam. any street (originating dialect of the term) 
khothe - adj. evening 
khotha - n. evening. ishiam. chotha 
osaghrae - up, greater 
osaute - up, higher 
os - to move. ishiam. oz, uz

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:08 AM ====
pretangamo - contract maker, that is lawyer. Notes: These are never private, but represent band or clan interests and serve members of the same. Payment for some functions, e.g. marriage contracts, is provided by the band or clan (with gifts from those served frequently offered if services go over the expected costs). Others must be paid for directly by those served. 
ududu - filler word meaning the person is thinking 
duu - to think, to reminisce

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:58 AM ====
oue - interrogative. what 
unnse - skin

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 9:31 AM ====
yaptha - bruise 
ipekho - adj. kind, helpful out of compassion or warm feeling 
ipekh - n. 1. warmth (temperature), 2. having a sincerely kind, generous personality

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 2:02 PM ====
uzoso - ishiam. wait 
ososo - paschtha. thinking 
yasncher - hello, goodbye, from "(your) soul be blessed" 
pnnsncher - get well, feel better

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 7:01 AM ====
common colors

bemrun, bemwun - n. grey 
bemruune, bemuune - adj. grey 
bemtsad - n. blue 
bemtsade - adj. blue 
bmsnesh - n. orange, ishiam. bnznesh 
bmsnesha - adj. orange

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 8:58 AM ====
bmrit, bmrt - having the color or appearance of 
oso oso - to work

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 9:21 AM ====
senmiunung - garden 
unung - property, land one resides on 
yeyung - wetland 
tsadung - alluvial floodplain 
bemsmi - n. green 
bemsme - adj. green 
ezar(i)t - ishiam. enlivened, refreshed, restored to full health 
esrt, esrit - ptcp. born 
sitouung - farmland 
sitouunung - fruit and vegetable garden 
unungkue - arable 
unungkuetre - not arable 
ununktre - dependent, having no property or significant personal possessions and resources, often referring to the unrecognized who live in clan dormitories until they acquire resources of their own separate from that of their parents

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 10:55 AM ====
aii - interrogative. where 
nn - n. stuff

nn - teasing, you see?

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 11:32 AM ====
update isha- words to ikha-

=== May 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 5:32 AM ====
ishyamnea, uts. 
ishiamga, -i, -es, -er, ish. n. 
kofiaga, -i, -es, -er - ish. n. 
kofiage, -et, -es, -er - ish. adj.

ehom - rhyme 
baase, -et, -u, -r - 2nd, tiger 
baasa, -si, -s, -ar - other, unknown 
aiyunga, -ai, -as, -ar - n. 
aiyunge, -et, -es, -er - adj.

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 8:01 AM ====
hwun ishiam soeg kanoichr 
hwun sitouangm soeg mhoa

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 10:29 AM ====
sasu buru - small child

do you want help?

nngev - no

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:24 PM ====
kudup - big, physically large, very loud

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:54 PM ====
Going through old words turned up that I have recoined more than planned and accidentally redid an etymology, though I like the new one better and am now retconning the two to work together. But WHY do I have two old words for ear in there and I'm not even going there on some of the terms that overlap with really different phonemes. Do I kill the old word for bread? Or just figure out some real-world etymological path of how we've changed how/what we call bread / loaf / pastry / other baked goods such that I can make it make sense. We don't know yet.

Especially since today was supposed to be let's work on sentence grammar!

old words ->

bitse head 
daghos to give 
huasi to drink 
ies to push (adan) 
'iko to pour 
oesen shoulder 
qimtra' - well provided for, no immediate needs 
ijion - to kitchen 
suarot tree 
nijikh tooth 
tegh knife 
ikiets to stab 
busihts pregnant, fetus 
payat bread 
pwuteks bed 
imea eye 
nij blood 
nijeres divine power 
kib, voas ear 
tivuip' health 
maietta night 
mietsche' arm -> mee miets (beside) -> iets beside 
mitna, mitsmit friend 
mitscheum - skills, tools one is skilled with 
taghe stone 
yeun thought 
bayin sister 
dzakhi brother 
tsakho darkness -> cho(t) night

.
ela person who is alive

==== scribblemyname — 05/04/2023 7:00 AM ====
buusiets - expectancy, waiting period, expectant mother, expected child. curun: vhuusiets 
pait - meal, loaf, a ration meant to constitute a meal 
mitsm - person, usu. a friend, chosen to collect a newlywed the next morning and prepare them for the sendoff 
buusietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. open, pending, released before recognition of the creator and left anonymous

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 1:18 PM ====
paidalourre osaghrae wages are up 
paitourre provisions for one 
paidalourre provisions, wages, salary

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 7:18 PM ====
bemali - dyes, paints, colors

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 10:10 PM ====
baamba - n. contact card, a version which is able to serve as an identification card, esp. for unrecognized who are living independently 
gin (ish.), gen (daan.), amikhki - n. room of a house or building

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 6:48 AM ====
baamtsnea - garment maker, stylist 
baamtse - adj. presenting oneself as, currently expressing (a thought, feeling, idea, etc.) 
baamtson - n. the action of presenting oneself as, expression, as of creative expression or expressing oneself or communicating an idea, feeling, thought, etc. 
baamtsrt, baamtsarit - adj. taken in by deception or manipulation, well-dressed 
baamstarikue - adj. gullible; easily dressed up, looks good in anything; glib, good at putting on any appearance or giving off any presentation, i.e. socially adaptable; good at lying 
baamtsgi - attire, incl. jewelry, clothes, makeup, perfumes or personal care items chosen for lingering scent or immediate effect on appearance

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 8:56 AM ====
soengam - clothing maker 
benmgam - maker of colors, whether dyes, inks, paints, etc.

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 11:07 AM ====
michm - n. 1. tool, 2. device, e.g. a communication or computer device, 3. a friend voluntarily designated as legally having familial rights and responsibilities, due to the closeness of the relationship. Which legal matters can be delegated to them varies from but overlaps with those of birth, marriage, duty, or adopted family

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 12:51 PM ====
vudeksnea - bedmate, sibling close enough in age to have shared the parents' sideroom for some time as a small child, friend close enough in age to not be any wiser or more mature for the difference 
vsne, bsne - foreign 
hsne - young, unfettered, carefree, without duty, foreign

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 1:28 PM ====
yadahimoge - adj. musical, e.g. yadohimoge michm, "musical instrument"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 3:02 AM ====
mitnea - n. friend (of choice) 
mitna - n. friendship (of choice) 
mishe (uts.), miche (ish.) - n. 1. arm, 2. will, 3. one's strength and resources, e.g. a mishe oge Vannu-wani osol a mishe oge Paschtha-wani "the arm of the Vannu is with the arm of the Paschtha", ish. a miche oksun Vannu-wani osun a miche oksun Paschtha-wani 4. one's skillset, e.g. he should strengthen his arm means he should improve his skills

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 5:24 AM ====
prtso - to marry, to form a contract with

prtsorit, prtsort - adj. married (incl. widows and widowers, unless otherwise specified) 
prtsortre - adj. unmarried, without contracts; without confirmed contracts, very young and naive; eschewing responsibility (viewed negatively)

amikhngamo - (uts) n. builder, construction worker

gengamo - (ish., daan.) n. builder, construction worker, specifically a worker who will add or remove rooms in existing buildings or do repairs, repairman. gengamo buru. handyman

isunkuetre - inappropriate for polite company, crude, unspeakable, unrecordable, originating from a category of activities the Knowing will not make a record or file of, e.g. sex, relieving oneself, etc.

yadahimkue - adj. playable on a musical instrument

yadahimkuetre - adj. unplayable on a musical instrument

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 12:36 PM ====
ginsituunnge - ish. of or related to the kitchen, e.g. michm ginsituunnges "cooking utensils," lit. "kitchen tools"

ginsituung - ish. working kitchen where one cooks

sitouangmaa - kitchen, that is "where the cook is"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 10:05 PM ====
sitouangntson - n. the activity of cooking or preparing food 
sitouangntse - adj. of or related to cooking and food prep

==== scribblemyname — 05/10/2023 5:42 AM ====
saghia prtsonge, saghia prtsonea - marriage brother, that is brother in law

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 7:57 AM ====
wachung - political power or influence 
wachungachu - the right to be heard by one's governing leadership 
naachu - to speak or complain to authority, usu. through formal channels; to whine or complain 
gachuku - to exercise one's political rights or powers; to act confidently or authoritatively

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 12:20 PM ====
apapai - to snack 
eshishi - to share 
kesourraba, -i, -e, -r - individually, or, oneby one 
vasourre - couple, pair 
vasourraba, -i, -e, -r - in pairs, two by two, or (between pairs) 
nn - taken together, and

nnsol (uts.), nnsn (ish.) - some part of 
nnsabi - something 
nnoue - somebody 
gevn - nobody 
gefsabi - nothing, syn. nngev 
gefsol (uts.), gefsn (ish.) - no part of

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 6:03 PM ====
to people like the people do

inonoue - ish. v. to crowd together, to be sociable. van. v. to be civilized, to be a respectable member of society

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 7:30 PM ====
kientsar - media content, literature, and art, etc.

kientsar sul yadahim - music, as refers to tradable, copyable content but not performance

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 6:54 AM ====
-chm - postpositional clitic, by (the use of), by (as in grasping by a particular part of)

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 7:02 AM ====
unless prev. diff.

yitatse - naturally fast 
yitatsekue - deliberately fast, abnormally fast 
yitatsekuetre - slow, esp. unusually 
yitatseku - to run quickly

yitso, yitatso - to happen, to be natural or authentic 
eyitat - to try, to put forth a little effort

sule, sune - partial, incomplete

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 8:38 AM ====
dahimokhnea, dahimzhgu - music worker

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 11:21 AM ====
uburubu - to put or pack away, to hide oneself, to pack or compress a measured ingredient in cooking

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 2:49 PM ====
burun, burol - little one, small young person or creature 
metmo - to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
mchmali - personal communication device(s); one's "address" with the Knowing 
dahimadi - n. very short song, whether sung or instrumental

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:16 PM ====
yupta - n. plan, intent 
bache - to dance 
bachebache - to dance in place; to wait noisily or impatiently

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:27 PM ====
mimikhli - dorms

fek, fekh, feagh - clan

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:05 AM ====
abamabam - to encounter someone, to talk or visit quite briefly with someone

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:14 AM ====
sahumwa shcha - sleep well

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:31 AM ====
wa, wai, wae, waar - adj. good, as of superior quality 
wacha, -i, -e, -r - adj. good, as of superior social standing, achievement, or merit 
waghra, -ri, -re, -r - adj. famous, prominent, popular, with strong support from important people, influential

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:38 AM ====
abaamkhrachiaro - to put best foot forward in one's presentation of oneself, whether appearance or efforts; to be successful; to succeed generally or in a particular effort 
abamabamchourre - to put in a little talk (to influential people) or to show a little effort towards one's own success

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:58 AM ====
haenn abamabamchouurevi ouhn 
yitzonn abaamkhrachiarovi nahn

baam buruburuhn 
ukh aghrachiaroni haenn

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 9:29 AM ====
ongit shungamn, gitshungamn - teapot

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 12:45 PM ====
u(p)taenn, u(p)tsonn future tense

unk(h)aenn, unkhitsonn - here and now

th'haenn, thaietsonn - around now, soonish, just now, in the very immediate past or future

ot'haenn, otyitsonn - far past

==== scribblemyname — 05/22/2023 7:23 AM ====
vastson - dating, that is spending time with one's significant other in structured social events for the purpose of strengthening or continuing the relationship

==== scribblemyname — 05/23/2023 1:40 PM ====
aiyung – phoenix 
baahas - tiger 
seonh – guardwolf 
yefasejek - spearfish 
rumhiruune - greydeer 
egumruhitzon – huntingbird 
yefayon - sunfish 
baahasiryo - snowtiger 
rumhyitann – quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rumhidaghe - rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
tsuve – dragon

==== scribblemyname — 05/24/2023 10:34 AM ====
avosovos - to chat a little, to listen for a little while

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 5:03 PM ====
anouankhe (uts.), anaianche (ish.)

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:24 PM ====
buchura, buchuri, buchure, buchur - adj. 
bucherit, buchert - ptcp.

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:37 PM ====
butu - why, from purpose or reason????

==== scribblemyname — 05/26/2023 9:09 PM ====
(ou) yaguonichayitsonn nihn - I love you romantically, female to male
scribblemyname
pinned
a message
to this channel. See all
pinned messages
. — 05/26/2023 9:10 PM

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 8:38 PM ====
ishitaku, ijitaku - to survive, e.g. ishitaku-uptaenn uren "I will survive" 
ishitakun, ijitakun - survivor 
ishitakul, jitakunr - leftovers (of a meal), remaining things 
shungam - pourer, e.g faucets, pitchers, etc.

daous - to give. Note: syn. eshishi is used to offer or to hand or give directly to someone in the momeng. daous is used for more formal or abstract forms of giving, or to refer to gifts during a celebration, etc.

ayud -

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 9:04 PM ====
Usually entering the atmosphere was the worst of it. Not this time. Instead of the ride smoothing out, sudden turbulence forcibly caught their little ship and propelled them northwest and down at a frightening rate.

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 10:15 AM ====
wangam - ascension trial 
yonngam - interior lighting (system) 
shukingam - lamp, light fixture

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 2:31 PM ====
aiyungayo - to ascend (to a sworn duty) after a trial, to rise in standing or ability after facing difficulties, to persevere

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

=== July 2023 ===

=== August 2023 ===

=== September 2023 ===

=== October 2023 ===

=== November 2023 ===

=== December 2023 ===

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:25:05Z

Lianamir: /* June 2023 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== January 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 6:51 AM ====
the only one that matters won't recognize my face. you should go though

me?

they don't like dealing through representatives lower than your rank

are you sure you shouldn't come along then? seeing as you know the culture

I'm not abandoning you, affectionately

Joem wanted to protest the sudden role reversal, being treated like a child in need of encouragement or comfort. He refrained when he realized he was somewhat acting like one

...

I don't understand your relationship with my father

You will one day without my needing to explain it

That answer won't get you out of every question I ask.

I'll keep that in mind

Beram studied him for a long moment, taking in this side of him. Usually Sata answered all of his questions that weren't about who Beram really was, and he generally didn't show Beram his cold face. (After all, Beram's dark face would only rarely make an appearance and hadn't yet in this life.)

So he smiled, warmly, became the person he was for his lover, not his child. "It really is too complicated." There were too many things tied up in the concept of his almost children, especially when he didn't share them with Beram.

His difficult, precious, demanding children. He would never have children of his essence. It made the children of his power all the more necessary to cherish and protect.

==== scribblemyname — 01/12/2023 7:00 AM ====
when I met him, I felt like I'd been waiting for him my whole life. even when he's infuriating... Beram trailed off into a sheepish smile. I like him a lot, Dad.

==== scribblemyname — 01/13/2023 3:50 PM ====
https://www.calendardate.com/year2023.php

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 4:39 AM ====
I sleep well and wake refreshed

==== scribblemyname — 01/15/2023 8:44 PM ====
Good evening, God, my sovereign Lord 
I reach for You, cling to Your Word 
Nothing less can I afford 
If I'm to be reassured 
For comfort comes from trusting You 
And peace by walking in Your way 
Through the hours, I've cone through 
And by Your strength passed through this day 
My hope is found within my sight 
Visions and histories glowing bright 
When You, O Lord, reached out to save 
Me from every yawning grave 
And all my sins and my mistakes 
With Your mercy You forgave 
In awe, I cry, what love like this! 
Ignorance is pain, Your truth my bliss

==== scribblemyname — 01/21/2023 8:43 PM ====
avg 3 kids

gen 1 2 
gen 2 2 + 2 
gen 3 9 + 9 
gen 4 27 + 27 = 54 
gen 5 81 + 81 = 162 
gen 6 243 + 243 = 486 
Curun

==== scribblemyname — 01/25/2023 4:29 PM ====
legacy of Yonyunn, sometimes he wanted to pat them on their invisible helpful heads (far north, etc. interpretations), a rather convenient exception as high ranking member of the Elite, can't have a war king/queen without the Elite, no one minded when Ahayin sat by him, This was a war council after all.

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:28 AM ====
good morning, God, I pray again 
I'm thankful for Your perfect plan 
the hope You hold within Your hand 
to pour on me, such blessings when 
I don't deserve Your matchless grace 
but neither does the human race 
Your favor granted in Your love 
is not because of us or of 
a human nature, prone to wander 
no, You're our eternal Father 
hold me, Lord, I pray today 
and keep me in Your perfect way

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 3:33 PM ====
egum - bird 
egumyesh - seabird, dialectical variant: egumesh 
egumiryo - snowbird 
egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
egumyon - sunbird, dialectical variant: egumon

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 9:37 PM ====
yefa - fish 
yefasejek - spearfish

==== scribblemyname — 01/30/2023 10:38 PM ====
tsuve - dragon

from tsawi 
tsuveyesh - sea dragon 
tsuveyon - sun dragon 
tsuvechot - night dragon

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 3:45 AM ====
Leshet had been born in Kinaang, high up the northern face of the then southern border, that is the Dragon Cliffs. She understood that Kinaang or Ginieng, dialect dependent, had grown up from village to town, and its proximity to the capital meant there were people not of her band living there. They could marry without waiting for a marriage festival after the Clans Gathering. Their guardian council was said to have a touchstone. She'd never asked or verified if it was the same one from before the war. It wasn't the god-marked only who had been targeted, and why would they have it if Leshet's three contracts were none traditional to her band.

From the time they sent her off to learn war, as an unrecognized child, she had never been back since.

==== scribblemyname — 01/31/2023 8:19 PM ====
hwun aiyung soeg tsuve

=== February 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 02/01/2023 11:34 AM ====
Postposition Class non-person noun person noun ascended person noun 
I – masc. a ani aniwa 
II – fem. ha hani haniwa 
III – divine / natural wa wani waniwa 
IV – neut. ba bani baniwa

==== scribblemyname — 02/02/2023 5:06 PM ====
Happy to! A brief background: the war clans are not a united polity. For the purposes of war and foreign policy, they are essentially four groups of clans, but for domestic purposes, each clan is sovereign itself. That said, the northernmost clan of Vannu uses the Hilakhot sequence in general parlance but the Paschtha sequence for anything under the war government.

1. aiyung - phoenix 
2. tiger 
3. seon - guardwolf 
4. spearfish 
5. greydeer 
6. egumruhitzon - huntingbird 
7. sunfish 
8. snowtiger 
9. rumhyitann - quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
10. tsuve - dragon

The first three and the last one are native to their originating homeworld. The remaining species are native to the world they're on now.

These are the names of the days within their ten-day periods (one might say "they rest on the halves, greydeer and dragon", meaning the fifth and tenth days of the aghourre); the ten-day periods within a season (a season typically runs through snowtiger or quickdeer, which aghourre is swallowed by the equinox or solstice, days named for different dragons); and the elite military "hundreds", which consist of 100 units (the first hundred is the phoenix hundred, which contains units 1-100; thus, the 312th unit would be in spearfish).
Anything placed in a sequence may use ordinal numbers or use the sequence names. Military units containing three squads may call them first, second, and third squad or phoenix, tiger, and guardwolf squad. Measuring cups and spoons that are whole increments rather than fractions may be labeled with an animal icon rather than number glyphs, though fractions will usually use numbers.

In dates and military units, the choice of sequence name or number name is usually going to alternate for ease of understanding. A huntingbird ten is 60, rather than saying "six ten[s]" or "a huntingbird dragon". If you say Spring's snowtiger to refer to a ten-day period, you'll call the day within it by its number, e.g. fifth day of the Spring's snowtiger. But if you want to name the day, you'd say the greydeer of Spring's eighth.

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 2:41 PM ====
levels not floors

==== scribblemyname — 02/03/2023 6:32 PM ====
good evening God, the end of day 
nears again and so I pray 
I'm grateful for the Sabbath rest 
Though I feel I gave my best 
Lord, I ask my best improve 
As through the days and weeks I move 
And teach me Lord to rest in You 
And in Your peace my lifetime through

==== scribblemyname — 02/04/2023 7:30 PM ====
months

the new month 
the rising dragon month 
the falling dragon month 
the mountain lights month

the singing glories month 
the dancing storms month 
the breath of winds month 
the woven strands month

the hungering void month 
the void satisfied month 
the burning lights month 
the unfolding blooms month

the solemn eyes month 
the eternal mists month 
the spreading heavens month 
the plummeting depths month

the world weights month 
the heavenly anchors month 
the turning wheels month 
the biting hunters month

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 7:59 AM ====
yitzonn running, as happens, naturally 
haenn by hand - actively, intentionally, by deliberate effort

moet-miets yathsaa yitzonn? is that my yellow girl happening by?

huanra snack 
huadr vigilant 
hyet bread 
duen steed, a horselike creature 
mowani ruler, king, queen 
mowani ko war queen, war king 
duenmowann kingsteed

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 8:49 AM ====
aved, aveth: marked, as in Tayas Kms aveth Curunde, where Tayas Kms are considered 1st and 2nd personal names, but band, clan, and duty-lineage are all what one is marked rather than named. Etym. derived originally from "clawed" in the sense of having been marked by claws.

For K2-Nar, we have -hen as the original ergative case ending, derived from heme, "hand." Methinks this one erodes to -en fairly quickly.

And ongit: tea.
Huasi vunnosen ongit nohenye iejes shengoshukiaa.

That is

to drink.SG PAST tea.SG.ABS 1P.ERG.PL VOL moonlight.LOC
K2-Nar

empreta: to hunt together (as a social or companionable activity) 
imea: eye 
nij: blood 
nijeres: divine power (godsblood) 
yaiye: water 
dini: (any member of any species of) small, migrating songbird 
mouwe: divine yellow 
njeho: light breeze; someone who passes through quickly or only stays for brief visits (shorter than is polite) 
nwehi: path 
nyemouwe: divine white 
payat: bread 
pwuteks: bed; bed of a body of water, seafloor 
tsabi: body 
vurte: burn wound 
busihts: fetus; pregnant 
ikiets: to stab 
njikh: tooth 
suarot: tree 
teɡh: knife 
ts'awi mountain; (poetic) dragons 
tsadi river 
shivimee: imperative, pass (inanimate object) to me, e.g. shivimee ohuali, "pass the (bread)sticks" 
shinimee: imperative, come here

==== scribblemyname — 02/06/2023 3:08 PM ====
good afternoon, O Lord of hosts 
Of my own strength I cannot boast 
If I say go, they do not go 
It is a skill only You know 
But grant me peace in all of this 
For trusting You alone is bliss 
To know that even through these tests 
You will bring me to some rest

==== scribblemyname — 02/07/2023 7:31 AM ====
I go to sail the dragon sea 
my love, my love 2x 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
my love, my love 
Don't wait for me, don't wait for me 
Because, because

sung by coastal clans at funerals

==== scribblemyname — 02/08/2023 7:53 AM ====
sasu - child, offspring 
miis - infant

kolos

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:37 AM ====
gi, oge numbers 
kanwun year 
wunn annual

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:45 AM ====
sul, osol fractional partitive 
yishor can't marry

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 7:53 AM ====
isut memory, record, log

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:43 AM ====
southern gisun, oksun

==== scribblemyname — 02/24/2023 8:14 PM ====
pmto trade goods 
kients trade instructions or information

=== March 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:46 AM ====
yaiue season

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 7:58 AM ====
prtzon marriage

==== scribblemyname — 03/02/2023 8:43 AM ====
pntzon trade

==== scribblemyname — 03/05/2023 11:48 AM ====
inut resource(s) 
inughra wealth, surplus resources 
davke foreign trader

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 5:56 AM ====
Tren walking over to Chaz's wearing swearter, bite of chill to the autumn wind, sees Chaz and complaints disappear without dripping off his tongue

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 2:53 PM ====
niewutsuve - dragon winds, that is warm winds coming off the Dragon Sea and blowing westward

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:14 PM ====
yaiye > iiye, n. water; adj. -e, -et, -es, -er. 1. wet; 2. watery, dilute liquid, e.g. watery tea; 3. young, relatively untrained or naive person

==== scribblemyname — 03/09/2023 3:22 PM ====
{travel} inlitzon, to ride 
{travel} paritzon, to be carried 
{travel} ??-tzon, to cross over

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:29 PM ====
okay, some notes go here:
Brín go in the desert between the True North and the Great City just to the west of the mountains bordering the War Clans, mostly along the lake mid-desert between those mountains and Lehwa's eastern border. Lehwa considers some of the desert their territory, but the Brín consider the desert theirs entire. The lake is fed by waters from the True North, and the original settlers mostly swept down from there, though they've always picked up some from east and south as well.

Gian becomes the Little Dragon of the Copper Court, ruling over the Great City (Elohwangian, Lo his child name, Gian his political name, Littleling his ward name, and the Little Dragon his name). His half brother Shian is a trader among the Brín. Shian's children are Antha and Haitha. Haitha expands dragon trade between the Great City, Brín, and the True North and marries a girl from the True North. Due to their actions and dragon migrations, the Garden Court is established as a port for shipping, mail, and dragon travel, as well as housing a massive enclosed plaza of carefully developed water system, garden, and animal raising to provide food to allow dragons to live there.

This precipitates the Joint Council of the Thaifka who determine whether the intent to lay stone and projected consumption can be supported by the lake. They were able to make agreements with the Great Court in the True North where She Who Awakens presides to establish the Icewater Court and send an established amount of water down the river.
Young dragons who wish to join the Brín establish the Court of the Wall, defining the border with Lehwa, and registering with all the established Thaifka and requesting elders for their court, which ends up prompting the Joint Office of Customs. Dragons also establish the Court of the Waters just south of the mountains of the north and appoint themselves responsible for measuring and protecting the waters. They consider themselves Brín and choose to register with the Thaifka, lay open plazas always "open under the sky", pass the bracelet at the arrival of visitors, sending word when it's one of their own or arranging and smoothing potential trade with someone new, adopt no local currency, and guard anything sent downriver.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:39 PM ====
Haitha's son (oldest child, 3 younger sisters) notices that Shian is unhappy and feels his world has grown smaller and that the Thaifka are acting more as a governing body than a purely presiding body, but he doesn't want to start over or settle elsewhere from his chosen community. Haitha turns to Flame Blooms in Winter, who grants him her power, which enables him to create "freedom stones" to set in the open plaza, that it be always under the open sky. No one in the plaza can be compelled.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:49 PM ====
On the topic, the Copper Court includes Flame Blooms in Winter presiding and He Around Whom the Worlds Turn ruling. Her daughter Cold Under Fire was warded by Gian after he was warded by Flame Blooms in Winter from 11 years old. Cold Under Fire warded his two children by the half-dragon daughter of one of the youngest who flew over. Gian ruled beside Void Under Sunlight but Void Under Sunlight was injured during the Black Rain (TIAT), fighting alongside the Iron Dragon, and retired (to run off and go find the dragons of the True North). So Gian talks the Iron Dragon at the Court of Iron and Blood in the Undercity to give him Moonlight Under Water to rule beside him instead. He's stuck with him right up to ruling the Overcity though, and Void Under Sunlight becomes ambassador to the Council of Nations.
Once Gian's Garden faction wins over the Songbirds and Citadel faction, Shian brings his wife and children to meet the Copper Court. Flame Blooms in Winter's daughter Flowers Under Sunlight had very eagerly showed up in Brín when she learned how to transform. She introduces the two to her three hatchlings, and Haitha ends up working with Snow Under the Sky and Light Under {Night}.

==== scribblemyname — 03/10/2023 1:57 PM ====
lauv is Brín for stone, to lay stone is to build or help build a residence one intends to live in and one must register intent to lay stone with the Thaifka, who determine if there is prior claim on the property

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 8:08 AM ====
brin terms

saihadin birdtower 
breddun horse tie 
dun steed 
duin spirit or ghost 
boshing flowering gourd, a divine fruit 
geshing peach, a divine fruit 
isha strength 
patrin maternal aunt or uncle 
patrinsa maternal cousin 
kamin, kaminsa paternal 
din bird, runner scout watchman 
burin desert

==== scribblemyname — 03/16/2023 10:00 AM ====
shinin bracelet 
shinindin bracelet bird: runner scout watchman

==== scribblemyname — 03/20/2023 9:11 PM ====
Leshet felt the shifting seasons lightly, the cooler winds and white mists of spring drifting through her, unable to chill her breath or dampen her skin. The sight of Tide and Moonlight at the stone table they'd chosen hit her harder, more familiar and less fleeting, for all spring was a mere four dragons previous, compared to the years since they'd paused their disparate circuits to cross threads again.

Moonlight stood tense and tall by the table, arms crossed, dark hair practically a cloak of its own in length. Tide at his shoulder was deceptively more relaxed, the godmark of his silver white hair barely brushing his neck.

The Dragon Hundred was as strong as the Phoenix Hundred.

Leshet's lifted her gaze to the scar on his face, an extra quirk to his wry expression. She raised her hand, but Tide halted her by the wrist. "Don't."

"Of course."

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 1:26 AM ====
washed up at Connors with a tide of fellow students from the middle school, at least an hour before high school extracurriculars would let older teens flood the place

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:32 AM ====
the sword hung above the mantel

come in, Captain

may I ask—?

the original, passed down through the generations from our ancestor, the very legend you seek. studied Joem for a long moment. There are three branches of my family and three heirs who hold rights to these artifacts.

I'm afraid I'll need to take them all.

I see.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 5:41 AM ====
Leshet reactivated with the Elite after her first husband died, like soil awakening in spring, full of the seeds of winter. She'd belonged to the First Unit when she'd gone fallow; she belonged to it when she returned.

"I've redistributed the Undying," Yonyunn told her. She'd put the Curunde trio in the Nine Hundred Sixty-Third Unit.

Leshet understood. Hiding that some did not die of natural causes was a reasonable enough decision.

"I'm First," Leshet said. "I chose duty once."

Yonyunn hesitated, no doubt remembering the conversation that led to Leshet's assigned marriage. She relented.

Leshet remained.

==== scribblemyname — 03/21/2023 6:00 AM ====
tell me, sat beside him, did you know that first time?

no. if I'd known you were related to saiyar, I would never have touched you.

ah. so yonyunn told you

if she hadn't, I never would have agreed

==== scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM ====
he had no one to complain to that wouldn't rat him out immediately. communication sacred mission, feature not a bug, put his fond amusement into the ecosystem so they could sense it 
where's Beram, split by temperament, are you afraid? are you? story, gives him a touchstone

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 9:00 AM ====
susun / susunaghs - "hours", that is a tenth of a watch or 1/40th of a day, also susun osol nakhaurre

==== scribblemyname — 03/28/2023 11:49 AM ====
nakhnu guardian, from nakhanau 
nakhaurre watch, a period of 1/4 day 
nakhaurresh - sea watch 
nakhauryon - sun watch 
nakhaurchot - night watch 
need to figure out grey here

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:17 AM ====
haimourre hand-units, 1/4 susun or 1/40th of a nakhaurre 
vaghar claws, 1/10 haimourre or 1/40th of a susun

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:28 AM ====
baagyon solar time 
baagutsar "regular" civil time 
udus regular, normal, ordinary

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 11:42 AM ====
baaghar "other" civil time 
ishegi, isheginu protectee 
ishesul partner, ally, or member of one's workforce or personal networks

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 1:17 PM ====
great city:

nutsáb - I 
utsáb - you 
hatsáb - he, she, they 
batsáb - it

==== scribblemyname — 03/29/2023 8:06 PM ====
I was like a system dialog box. I only had one button: Okay.

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 7:10 AM ====
great city ˈʃu.ʃn shúshin

==== scribblemyname — 03/30/2023 8:01 AM ====
chuuchun ki.ta.ma shi-ja-kor.i

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 6:00 AM ====
She received the summons when she woke towards the end of the sea watch. Their unit leader gave her a physical tab silently. Leshet read off the odd script, half statements she was obliged to know the rest of to interpret correctly. When the Knowing could interpret any fully communicated thought to any recipient, passing military communications became an exercise in communicating such that only the right recipient would understand.

First. First place. {time}

Srshe looked at her. Orders.

A mtg. With the First.

Adan?

Yes.

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 7:30 AM ====
they weren't the first anymore, they were first and 963rd and the husband of the war queen, and yet, they were the first members of the first unit from the time it had been established, and that was never going to go away
Leshet smiles once in the whole book. How do you choose to demonstrate catharsis?

==== scribblemyname — 03/31/2023 8:54 AM ====
brin

unshókhe a new genre of nontraditional song and dance sprung up among the youth of the lower city's plaza

ishing(al) child(ren)

=== April 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 04/02/2023 9:11 AM ====
possible kofnea

mounu ichiche 
mounu ishishe 
ani yitzonn itsivayo

==== scribblemyname — 04/03/2023 7:45 AM ====
chirnea member of one's anchiri, a friend who knowingly helps to anonymize you 
anchiru, -ut, -unn, -u anonymizing, of or related to anchiru

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 9:52 AM ====
Sontu Aghmtanti, born in Taegung as Paschtha Ishiem just south of the mountains of the border with the Danni, family grows and trades food and spices that need wetlands or boxes, incl. tsuntsi. Has 2 younger siblings. Marries Minunn 
ichin - verbal gesture of respect toward older male 
achi - verbal gesture of respect toward older female

==== scribblemyname — 04/04/2023 11:21 AM ====
Yunn had fling with Gin of first kolos, was chirnea to Moet, I am good chirnea. Yes, you are. Praise me more.

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 8:35 AM ====
duzho geef

not in front of children

explanation demanded from children

why would you want to curse anyone?

izhit

apologizes

these are ishiem words - duuso vs. duusho > duuzho 
ichin > izhit (feminized insult)

Minunn livid until he promises to make the effort around her and the children 
yoich - verbal gesture demanding respect, yoichi in Ishiem

maybe all my glory is my claws in place 
maybe all my glory is a pretty face 
maybe all my glory is a voice arrayed 
but it's mine, but it's mine 
and I'm never going to change

you laid these bones 
you made them strong 
you laid these bones 
but they're mine, but they're mine 
and that's never going to change

yoich

You cannot take your grown children by the hand.

...

I am not your heir. I will not return to Taegung, not for my wedding, not as your heir. That place is for Anyiet.

Sontu!

Yoichi. 
Yesh Runn stormy sea, Gin's brother

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 9:10 AM ====
pers. I 
nokh / noikh / ukh 
nokhs / noekhs / uikh

class III 
hinokhs / ukhs 
I appear to be developing something of a tree of linguistic change in this language family, oops, and just trying to sort out how one thing leads to another all at the same time. 
So possessive suffixes in Kofnea-Adan (as I'm calling it now):

m. ukh, f. uikh, n. ukh, o. urëkh (2nd p): your

Where ë is now how I'm indicating the schwa, which is phonemic in Kofnea at least.

vs. in Kofnea-Kolos (modern), where -miets used to indicate the immediacy of a kinship relationship is starting to see use as an inalienable possessive, aka, my love, my husband, my {name}, mine, while still only usable with immediate relatives. This also combines with regular possession when used as a possessive pronoun rather than adjective:

m. miatsukh, f. miatsuikh, n. miatsukh, o. miatsurëkh (2nd p): yours 
No! Sorry for being unclear! So it'd be like Shion-miets is how a character calls her husband, My wolf, as an endearment. Literally, it's wolf-immediate relation marker. Miatsukh would be a way of saying "yours" meaning "your immediately related {person in this context}."

==== scribblemyname — 04/05/2023 3:15 PM ====
like the river blue mist, gonna burn itself away 
young love, young love 
gonna disappear one day

like the passing days 
got to live them while we can 
young love, young love 
we learn with our own hands

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 7:47 AM ====
jishim ishiam verbal gesture of surrender or resignation, esp. to something deemed the natural order of things

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 8:07 AM ====
jikhoue - accompanied by chin jut on kho, irritated pain

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 1:31 PM ====
Sontu: na ushunn (I'm hungry) 
ushun - n. hunger

==== scribblemyname — 04/06/2023 2:15 PM ====
geyef / ge'ef 
zhoyon / zho'on

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:12 PM ====
nehin fling 
wa nehin a fling 
nehin (h)ani a person one has a fling with

==== scribblemyname — 04/07/2023 7:50 PM ====
hasath premarital romantic partner

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 7:49 AM ====
shuka yone - sunlight 
goes by yunn - morning 
sachin respect to male peer with higher standing 
sachi respect to female peer with higher standing

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 2:55 PM ====
yatech heart as emotional center (miets), one's emotional energies, the most intense of one's emotional attachments (nokh / noikh) 
hoagh heart organ 
jita / shita alive 
hoagh jita / shita heartbeat, pulse 
achid the ceremony of marriage where the couple imbue each other with the power of their own contracts, usually performed during a wedding but can be considered a wedding act which merely needs verification afterward

==== scribblemyname — 04/08/2023 5:29 PM ====
pirtot keep far, to distance oneself 
pirtha keep close, to stay near to

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 1:44 AM ====
don't want to be awake 
don't know how to sleep 
not tonight 
all the fight 
in me turned inward

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:00 AM ====
yague romantic committed love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 6:22 AM ====
yague romantic committed love 
ungtha nearby, phys. or ment. 
mho voice

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 7:57 AM ====
adj. names shung + pakhe

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:12 AM ====
pirsatha husband 
pirsathi wife 
yaguegi object of one's love

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 8:56 AM ====
poghro aumyo pasta w/a traditional soupy sauce 
baahas tiger

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 9:12 AM ====
pretar achid tie, contract(s), those one has a future with, e.g. family, close friends, spouse, etc., fate

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 3:04 PM ====
sadi river 
satsa stream

==== scribblemyname — 04/10/2023 4:19 PM ====
economic, cultural, political, technology, religion, geography

==== scribblemyname — 04/11/2023 11:59 AM ====
nukhshi play, dialect variants nughshi, nuushi, nukchi

okhshi work

suim shiuntsi a style of presentation, incl. dress, scents, makeup, jewelry, and colors considered appropriate for casual or formal social occasions. It's marked by what are considered green scents, soft clothing lines and cuts which do not expose clan marks, understated jewelry and hairstyle, and natural makeup if any.

pns nagm a style of personal presentation considered appropriate for casual wear or work around the home but not in public. It's marked by functional clothing which may be worn or damaged from previous work done in it, e.g. paint spattered jeans, and a lack of makeup or jewelry.

okhsh danmi a style of personal presentation seen as permissive working uniform, which allows some stylistic or personal choice variations from a set uniform. It is one of few presentation styles viewed as almost always appropriate, excepting the rare occasions when strict uniform is required. Danmi in practice varies by uniform and profession. Professions with no set uniform cannot utilize danmi.

pns - comfortableness

pns idrntso - comfortable loose or long fitting presentation suitable for everyday wear

pns udus - everyday nonwork personal presentation style

okhsh udus - everyday work presentation, no uniform,

pns yenes - presentation with softcloth and cuts that reveal clan marks

ildns - friendship of companionship, generally viewed as continuing by choice and preference

ildnsn(a)(i) - friend of companionship

minunn - having a soft, gentle quality, esp. of voice, demeanor, or appearance

shung - 1. flowing, as of water, 2. giving and generous of one's time and effort on behalf of others

suim ghra - formal social dress and presentation with floral scents, decorative hairstyles, etc.

yapft - friend who is acting as chaperone during courtship

yivsl - a flower brought with them from Kareios having a pleasing scent

suim pns - light clothing with patterns and floral colors, floral or fruit scents

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:31 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents.

absolutive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -hn.

1st - na, ni, no, uren 
2nd - ou, ouet, uus, urou 
3rd - a(ni), ha(ni), wa(ni), ba(ni)

possessive personal pronouns: 
For ergative, add -n.

1st - nokh, noikh, nokhs, norekh 
2nd - ukh, uikh, ukhs, urekh 
3rd - a(ni)kh, ha(ni)kh, wa(ni)kh, ba(ni)kh

Ishiam adds two sets, ba- for speaking to or of someone with indeterminate or unknown difference in age, generation, or standing and sa- for speaking to or of someone of lower age, generation, or standing. Yeah, rather honorific like I'm noticing.

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 6:59 AM ====
ymke - comfort food 
iyudu - n. 1. scent, 2. perfume 
hiyaube, -et, -o (-es), -r - adj. painful 
hiyaubo - n. pain 
sennar - n. earrings 
yagueourre - n. courtship period before marriage 
huesourre - n. menstrual period 
duushung - v. to let one's thoughts or feelings slip such that the Knowing translates to them to others, generally this is looked down on or considered embarrassing for anyone over a certain age 
uchietson - n. being respectful 
uchietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. respectful 
uchietsetre, -ret, -los, -re - adj. disrespectful, rude 
oueho - fun 
yagueit - ptcp. adj. 1. engaged, 2. committed romantically 
yaguekue, -et, -es, -er - adj. suitable for marriage in standing, compatibility, etc. 
prtsonkue - adj. 1. marriagable, that is legally eligible for marriage, 2. eligible for marriage by having no egregious disqualifying personal traits 
eseche - n. a formal social event incl. a meal, usually dinner 
sokhoto - n. a social meal engaged in to discuss potential business arrangements 
gev - neut. n. zero 
eas - n. spirit, referring to the life and consciousness of a person or god 
ishrtse - studious

daashi - personal presentation style sometimes considered synonymous with suim pns, but which varies in...

==== scribblemyname — 04/12/2023 11:05 AM ====
ksh'danmi daashi is what Saiyunn wears 
ksh'danmi yenes is what Tayas wears

==== scribblemyname — 04/13/2023 8:26 PM ====
sontu and minunn's first child is aiyungi jitai, "yatech"

==== scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM ====
kofnea-utsa 
kofnea-ishiama 
kofnea-tsuala 
kofnea-tsuala paschtha 
kofnea-tsuala tsuvea (kofnea-curun) 
kofnea-tsuala lakha 
kofnea-yeshietsa 
kofnea-daana 
tsabua - ud. soul, spiritual "body", tl. highest self, cl. etiquette, best behavior 
tsabung - n. the land within war clans territory, usu. indicative of that of a clans group but sometimes indicative of parts or all 
yeshietsa, -tsi, -ts, -tsr - coastal 
prtseche - n. wedding meal, wedding celebration

==== scribblemyname — 04/15/2023 3:37 PM ====
aemiets, taemiets - significant other

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 5:58 AM ====
sant - the dry ingredients of a dish, when initially prepped separately 
hastha, -i - male or female premarital romantic partner, see hasath

==== scribblemyname — 04/17/2023 6:53 AM ====
It wasn't that Sata didn't see him coming. Sata's temper wasn't one which cooled easily, and even when it did, it generally hardened into unwavering resolve. His temper kept him flinging spear and fire, spear and ice, even when Jioror the Lahan, Chief of Information entered the training room and stopped to stare.

Sata was glowing. He was still condensed power, rippling waves of heat and shatters of ice rolling off him. He turned, pulling his spears upright in his hands, and looked down toward the Lahan.

His face was full of surprise, something familiar and cold clenched in his right glove.

Sata's temper fled him, and he considered just who had wielded that last. He diffused his power, reabsorbed his spears, let the glow fade from behind his eyes, as he leaned forward.

"Sata?" The Lahan sounded uncertain. "Shouldn't you be in bed?"

He wasn't addressing the obvious. Sata wasn't human.

But Sata did, an edge of humor on his tongue. He didn't bother to pretend youthfulness. "When he wakes, he'll want to hunt." Sata was decidedly out of practice. "My almost child." He waved toward the spear.

Jioror stiffened.

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 7:28 AM ====
uzh - ishiam. work 
uzhanme - ishiam. ksh'danmi 
uzhun - worker 
uzhungam - troublemaker, a very rambunctious child or person under one's care or responsibility, nuisance

vs.

okhshne - worker 
okhshngam - employer

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 1:33 PM ====
shcha verbal gesture meaning here or for you

nea, kofnea recognized person (adult, registered age of forfeiture) 
hinea, hsnea unrecognized person (young adult, unregistered age of forfeiture) 
msnea child young enough to not keep anchiri yet 
bsnea nonclans person

ouekhe - verbal gesture of directed displeasure, equivalent to shaking a fist or finger at someone

uusoue - to admire with awe, as a role model or beautiful wife 
ososou - to admire with fondness, as a cute child or pet

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 8:56 PM ====
I write a note to self 
my heart up on a shelf 
oh, I could take it down 
would it make me someone else

do you see the broken glass 
image between the cracks 
my mirror to hide behind 
where even I can't find

there's silence blooming where I used to tread 
quiet rooming with loudness in my head 
a diet of hope and pain on which I've fed 
feels like centuries lying in this bed

it's hard sometimes to make the words come out 
harder still to stop the broken spout 
swallow down the person I can't be 
hating, dreading that I think they're me 
letting go so hard so I can breathe

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:04 PM ====
I didn't mean to write that 
but when did I ever mean 
any sort of thing 
I wear another hat 
do you know this brand new version 
smile at the subversion 
before we start reversion 
another tit for tat 
words on my tongue 
when the night is young 
ignore, ignore the heedless stream 
the fanciful dream 
I never meant to write that 
to break the ice, the glass 
to teach another class 
on why to leave me be 
forget, just please forget me 
I loathe to feel your eyes 
and yet I need 
I cannot bear the pain 
and yet I bleed 
kiss me 
is this a metaphor 
I dream of lost things 
lost and faded wings 
I used to soar 
and even more 
laughter like sunshine 
bubbled in my chest 
before I learned the world's not kind 
and no one will help 
my world drifts in and out 
of yours, the loneliness 
finds me on edge 
intersections like promises 
never empty yet unfulfilled 
I feel unskilled 
my hands unable to grasp 
quicksilver fish, like dreams 
your life now gone 
from the lines and threads we wove 
a treasure trove 
of memories and sobs 
I leave the chest closed

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:13 PM ====
how long have I held you heavy in unspoken places? 
I brace myself for another wave 
this is not bravery, braving the locks 
realizing I locked away my grief 
like a bird in a cage, 
always singing and endlessly bringing 
an undertone of my drifting self 
an ocean without an anchor, my harbor lost 
horizon beckons unreachable 
for I have a tempest to bring 
my thoughts and my dreams 
remind me that you believed 
the gift I received 
from you I cannot toss aside 
so I go with the tide 
been waiting to heal 
for a long, long time 
there is no great reveal 
just an endless climb

==== scribblemyname — 04/18/2023 9:51 PM ====
good evening, God, you know my heart 
you've plumbed the depths of every part 
you've shown a light inside my dark 
I pray tonight an end then start 
anew; the morning light will come 
your mercies greater than the sum 
of all my weakness, failings, loss 
you are stronger than my cross 
which you allowed my heart to bear 
gently saying don't be scared 
for not by will must I stand strong 
but by you, keep holding on

==== scribblemyname — 04/19/2023 4:54 AM ====
auto bio graph 
do you even understand 
what is hidden in these lines 
yes, I know it every time

expiate, got to expiate 
a history or two 
I appreciate 
I am at the gate 
and now I'm going through 
aya, aya, aya...

educate, got to educate 
this heart and soul of mine 
I appreciate 
cannot leave to fate 
I got to underline 
aya, aya, aya... 
this is no way to live 
but I promise to forgive 
if you'll let it all go

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 7:43 AM ====
don't want to drift out on the water 
don't want to burn up in the fire 
don't want to sink under the heaven 
don't want to lose my way again

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 9:41 AM ====
I'd been living for a hundred years 
underneath a mountain of fears 
crying out: every time You hear 
You forgave me and You saved me and You held me dear

I don't why 
I don't get by 
I need You right 
now and forever 
You're my only light

==== scribblemyname — 04/21/2023 10:17 AM ====
shi no okhsm 
??

oznocha, uznocha - ishiam. move away

==== scribblemyname — 04/22/2023 5:15 PM ====
duushon - idea 
yadahim - music 
amhobaamgi yadahim - musician

tiger rhyme is a double rhyme 
singing is mouth music, look up old word for mouth

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:27 AM ====
ozhaizhenna kus(h)aiyenn 
budtho 
dikangu

==== scribblemyname — 04/24/2023 7:48 AM ====
sitouangm - cook 
sitouangamo - grower 
sitou - food 
sitoue, -et, -es, -er - culinary, dietary, relating to food 
sitouatson - argriculture 
sitouetre - non-nutritive, inedible

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 6:23 AM ====
teas - to run after, to pursue 
tasatson - western. pursuit, haste; eastern. tiasatson 
tasatse - western. hasty, risky, not well thought through; eastern. tiasatse - ambitious 
duuse - preoccupied, overwhelmed by thoughts or memories 
duushe - ishiam. thoughtful, with forethought 
duuzhedre - ishiam. poorly thought through, reckless 
duushert - ishiam. well-considered, properly prepared, ready 
sahum - sleep 
sahumtha - sleepy 
sahumkue - comfortable or restful, such that one can take down one's guard or reserve 
sahumotson - insomnia 
sahumotse - wakeful, unable to sleep 
sahumthtre - awake, active (as of a device or object), still having enough power or connection to a power source for the current plan or activity 
sosouege - a cute person or thing 
uusege - an admirable person or thing 
uusouekue - admirable, awe-inspiring 
uusouert - admired, looked up to, dialect: uusoerit 
paam - to touch intimately, to have sex 
meetha - to touch physically

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 8:10 AM ====
ichagefrt - ishiam. exhausted, drained of energy after great exertion or extended wakefulness 
shukn - paved or designated street, usually in a city and permitting foot traffic 
inliung - street designated for vehicular traffic. ishiam. any street (originating dialect of the term) 
khothe - adj. evening 
khotha - n. evening. ishiam. chotha 
osaghrae - up, greater 
osaute - up, higher 
os - to move. ishiam. oz, uz

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:08 AM ====
pretangamo - contract maker, that is lawyer. Notes: These are never private, but represent band or clan interests and serve members of the same. Payment for some functions, e.g. marriage contracts, is provided by the band or clan (with gifts from those served frequently offered if services go over the expected costs). Others must be paid for directly by those served. 
ududu - filler word meaning the person is thinking 
duu - to think, to reminisce

==== scribblemyname — 04/26/2023 10:58 AM ====
oue - interrogative. what 
unnse - skin

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 9:31 AM ====
yaptha - bruise 
ipekho - adj. kind, helpful out of compassion or warm feeling 
ipekh - n. 1. warmth (temperature), 2. having a sincerely kind, generous personality

==== scribblemyname — 04/27/2023 2:02 PM ====
uzoso - ishiam. wait 
ososo - paschtha. thinking 
yasncher - hello, goodbye, from "(your) soul be blessed" 
pnnsncher - get well, feel better

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 7:01 AM ====
common colors

bemrun, bemwun - n. grey 
bemruune, bemuune - adj. grey 
bemtsad - n. blue 
bemtsade - adj. blue 
bmsnesh - n. orange, ishiam. bnznesh 
bmsnesha - adj. orange

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 8:58 AM ====
bmrit, bmrt - having the color or appearance of 
oso oso - to work

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 9:21 AM ====
senmiunung - garden 
unung - property, land one resides on 
yeyung - wetland 
tsadung - alluvial floodplain 
bemsmi - n. green 
bemsme - adj. green 
ezar(i)t - ishiam. enlivened, refreshed, restored to full health 
esrt, esrit - ptcp. born 
sitouung - farmland 
sitouunung - fruit and vegetable garden 
unungkue - arable 
unungkuetre - not arable 
ununktre - dependent, having no property or significant personal possessions and resources, often referring to the unrecognized who live in clan dormitories until they acquire resources of their own separate from that of their parents

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 10:55 AM ====
aii - interrogative. where 
nn - n. stuff

nn - teasing, you see?

==== scribblemyname — 04/28/2023 11:32 AM ====
update isha- words to ikha-

=== May 2023 ===

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 5:32 AM ====
ishyamnea, uts. 
ishiamga, -i, -es, -er, ish. n. 
kofiaga, -i, -es, -er - ish. n. 
kofiage, -et, -es, -er - ish. adj.

ehom - rhyme 
baase, -et, -u, -r - 2nd, tiger 
baasa, -si, -s, -ar - other, unknown 
aiyunga, -ai, -as, -ar - n. 
aiyunge, -et, -es, -er - adj.

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 8:01 AM ====
hwun ishiam soeg kanoichr 
hwun sitouangm soeg mhoa

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 10:29 AM ====
sasu buru - small child

do you want help?

nngev - no

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:24 PM ====
kudup - big, physically large, very loud

==== scribblemyname — 05/03/2023 1:54 PM ====
Going through old words turned up that I have recoined more than planned and accidentally redid an etymology, though I like the new one better and am now retconning the two to work together. But WHY do I have two old words for ear in there and I'm not even going there on some of the terms that overlap with really different phonemes. Do I kill the old word for bread? Or just figure out some real-world etymological path of how we've changed how/what we call bread / loaf / pastry / other baked goods such that I can make it make sense. We don't know yet.

Especially since today was supposed to be let's work on sentence grammar!

old words ->

bitse head 
daghos to give 
huasi to drink 
ies to push (adan) 
'iko to pour 
oesen shoulder 
qimtra' - well provided for, no immediate needs 
ijion - to kitchen 
suarot tree 
nijikh tooth 
tegh knife 
ikiets to stab 
busihts pregnant, fetus 
payat bread 
pwuteks bed 
imea eye 
nij blood 
nijeres divine power 
kib, voas ear 
tivuip' health 
maietta night 
mietsche' arm -> mee miets (beside) -> iets beside 
mitna, mitsmit friend 
mitscheum - skills, tools one is skilled with 
taghe stone 
yeun thought 
bayin sister 
dzakhi brother 
tsakho darkness -> cho(t) night

.
ela person who is alive

==== scribblemyname — 05/04/2023 7:00 AM ====
buusiets - expectancy, waiting period, expectant mother, expected child. curun: vhuusiets 
pait - meal, loaf, a ration meant to constitute a meal 
mitsm - person, usu. a friend, chosen to collect a newlywed the next morning and prepare them for the sendoff 
buusietse, -et, -es, -er - adj. open, pending, released before recognition of the creator and left anonymous

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 1:18 PM ====
paidalourre osaghrae wages are up 
paitourre provisions for one 
paidalourre provisions, wages, salary

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 7:18 PM ====
bemali - dyes, paints, colors

==== scribblemyname — 05/06/2023 10:10 PM ====
baamba - n. contact card, a version which is able to serve as an identification card, esp. for unrecognized who are living independently 
gin (ish.), gen (daan.), amikhki - n. room of a house or building

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 6:48 AM ====
baamtsnea - garment maker, stylist 
baamtse - adj. presenting oneself as, currently expressing (a thought, feeling, idea, etc.) 
baamtson - n. the action of presenting oneself as, expression, as of creative expression or expressing oneself or communicating an idea, feeling, thought, etc. 
baamtsrt, baamtsarit - adj. taken in by deception or manipulation, well-dressed 
baamstarikue - adj. gullible; easily dressed up, looks good in anything; glib, good at putting on any appearance or giving off any presentation, i.e. socially adaptable; good at lying 
baamtsgi - attire, incl. jewelry, clothes, makeup, perfumes or personal care items chosen for lingering scent or immediate effect on appearance

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 8:56 AM ====
soengam - clothing maker 
benmgam - maker of colors, whether dyes, inks, paints, etc.

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 11:07 AM ====
michm - n. 1. tool, 2. device, e.g. a communication or computer device, 3. a friend voluntarily designated as legally having familial rights and responsibilities, due to the closeness of the relationship. Which legal matters can be delegated to them varies from but overlaps with those of birth, marriage, duty, or adopted family

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 12:51 PM ====
vudeksnea - bedmate, sibling close enough in age to have shared the parents' sideroom for some time as a small child, friend close enough in age to not be any wiser or more mature for the difference 
vsne, bsne - foreign 
hsne - young, unfettered, carefree, without duty, foreign

==== scribblemyname — 05/08/2023 1:28 PM ====
yadahimoge - adj. musical, e.g. yadohimoge michm, "musical instrument"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 3:02 AM ====
mitnea - n. friend (of choice) 
mitna - n. friendship (of choice) 
mishe (uts.), miche (ish.) - n. 1. arm, 2. will, 3. one's strength and resources, e.g. a mishe oge Vannu-wani osol a mishe oge Paschtha-wani "the arm of the Vannu is with the arm of the Paschtha", ish. a miche oksun Vannu-wani osun a miche oksun Paschtha-wani 4. one's skillset, e.g. he should strengthen his arm means he should improve his skills

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 5:24 AM ====
prtso - to marry, to form a contract with

prtsorit, prtsort - adj. married (incl. widows and widowers, unless otherwise specified) 
prtsortre - adj. unmarried, without contracts; without confirmed contracts, very young and naive; eschewing responsibility (viewed negatively)

amikhngamo - (uts) n. builder, construction worker

gengamo - (ish., daan.) n. builder, construction worker, specifically a worker who will add or remove rooms in existing buildings or do repairs, repairman. gengamo buru. handyman

isunkuetre - inappropriate for polite company, crude, unspeakable, unrecordable, originating from a category of activities the Knowing will not make a record or file of, e.g. sex, relieving oneself, etc.

yadahimkue - adj. playable on a musical instrument

yadahimkuetre - adj. unplayable on a musical instrument

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 12:36 PM ====
ginsituunnge - ish. of or related to the kitchen, e.g. michm ginsituunnges "cooking utensils," lit. "kitchen tools"

ginsituung - ish. working kitchen where one cooks

sitouangmaa - kitchen, that is "where the cook is"

==== scribblemyname — 05/09/2023 10:05 PM ====
sitouangntson - n. the activity of cooking or preparing food 
sitouangntse - adj. of or related to cooking and food prep

==== scribblemyname — 05/10/2023 5:42 AM ====
saghia prtsonge, saghia prtsonea - marriage brother, that is brother in law

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 7:57 AM ====
wachung - political power or influence 
wachungachu - the right to be heard by one's governing leadership 
naachu - to speak or complain to authority, usu. through formal channels; to whine or complain 
gachuku - to exercise one's political rights or powers; to act confidently or authoritatively

==== scribblemyname — 05/16/2023 12:20 PM ====
apapai - to snack 
eshishi - to share 
kesourraba, -i, -e, -r - individually, or, oneby one 
vasourre - couple, pair 
vasourraba, -i, -e, -r - in pairs, two by two, or (between pairs) 
nn - taken together, and

nnsol (uts.), nnsn (ish.) - some part of 
nnsabi - something 
nnoue - somebody 
gevn - nobody 
gefsabi - nothing, syn. nngev 
gefsol (uts.), gefsn (ish.) - no part of

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 6:03 PM ====
to people like the people do

inonoue - ish. v. to crowd together, to be sociable. van. v. to be civilized, to be a respectable member of society

==== scribblemyname — 05/17/2023 7:30 PM ====
kientsar - media content, literature, and art, etc.

kientsar sul yadahim - music, as refers to tradable, copyable content but not performance

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 6:54 AM ====
-chm - postpositional clitic, by (the use of), by (as in grasping by a particular part of)

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 7:02 AM ====
unless prev. diff.

yitatse - naturally fast 
yitatsekue - deliberately fast, abnormally fast 
yitatsekuetre - slow, esp. unusually 
yitatseku - to run quickly

yitso, yitatso - to happen, to be natural or authentic 
eyitat - to try, to put forth a little effort

sule, sune - partial, incomplete

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 8:38 AM ====
dahimokhnea, dahimzhgu - music worker

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 11:21 AM ====
uburubu - to put or pack away, to hide oneself, to pack or compress a measured ingredient in cooking

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 2:49 PM ====
burun, burol - little one, small young person or creature 
metmo - to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
mchmali - personal communication device(s); one's "address" with the Knowing 
dahimadi - n. very short song, whether sung or instrumental

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:16 PM ====
yupta - n. plan, intent 
bache - to dance 
bachebache - to dance in place; to wait noisily or impatiently

==== scribblemyname — 05/18/2023 5:27 PM ====
mimikhli - dorms

fek, fekh, feagh - clan

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:05 AM ====
abamabam - to encounter someone, to talk or visit quite briefly with someone

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:14 AM ====
sahumwa shcha - sleep well

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:31 AM ====
wa, wai, wae, waar - adj. good, as of superior quality 
wacha, -i, -e, -r - adj. good, as of superior social standing, achievement, or merit 
waghra, -ri, -re, -r - adj. famous, prominent, popular, with strong support from important people, influential

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:38 AM ====
abaamkhrachiaro - to put best foot forward in one's presentation of oneself, whether appearance or efforts; to be successful; to succeed generally or in a particular effort 
abamabamchourre - to put in a little talk (to influential people) or to show a little effort towards one's own success

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 8:58 AM ====
haenn abamabamchouurevi ouhn 
yitzonn abaamkhrachiarovi nahn

baam buruburuhn 
ukh aghrachiaroni haenn

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 9:29 AM ====
ongit shungamn, gitshungamn - teapot

==== scribblemyname — 05/20/2023 12:45 PM ====
u(p)taenn, u(p)tsonn future tense

unk(h)aenn, unkhitsonn - here and now

th'haenn, thaietsonn - around now, soonish, just now, in the very immediate past or future

ot'haenn, otyitsonn - far past

==== scribblemyname — 05/22/2023 7:23 AM ====
vastson - dating, that is spending time with one's significant other in structured social events for the purpose of strengthening or continuing the relationship

==== scribblemyname — 05/23/2023 1:40 PM ====
aiyung – phoenix 
baahas - tiger 
seonh – guardwolf 
yefasejek - spearfish 
rumhiruune - greydeer 
egumruhitzon – huntingbird 
yefayon - sunfish 
baahasiryo - snowtiger 
rumhyitann – quickdeer (Paschtha / Vannu); rumhidaghe - rockdeer (Alhaies of Vannu / Hilakhot) 
tsuve – dragon

==== scribblemyname — 05/24/2023 10:34 AM ====
avosovos - to chat a little, to listen for a little while

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 5:03 PM ====
anouankhe (uts.), anaianche (ish.)

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:24 PM ====
buchura, buchuri, buchure, buchur - adj. 
bucherit, buchert - ptcp.

==== scribblemyname — 05/25/2023 6:37 PM ====
butu - why, from purpose or reason????

==== scribblemyname — 05/26/2023 9:09 PM ====
(ou) yaguonichayitsonn nihn - I love you romantically, female to male
scribblemyname
pinned
a message
to this channel. See all
pinned messages
. — 05/26/2023 9:10 PM

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 8:38 PM ====
ishitaku, ijitaku - to survive, e.g. ishitaku-uptaenn uren "I will survive" 
ishitakun, ijitakun - survivor 
ishitakul, jitakunr - leftovers (of a meal), remaining things 
shungam - pourer, e.g faucets, pitchers, etc.

daous - to give. Note: syn. eshishi is used to offer or to hand or give directly to someone in the momeng. daous is used for more formal or abstract forms of giving, or to refer to gifts during a celebration, etc.

ayud -

==== scribblemyname — 05/27/2023 9:04 PM ====
Usually entering the atmosphere was the worst of it. Not this time. Instead of the ride smoothing out, sudden turbulence forcibly caught their little ship and propelled them northwest and down at a frightening rate.

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 10:15 AM ====
wangam - ascension trial 
yonngam - interior lighting (system) 
shukingam - lamp, light fixture

==== scribblemyname — 05/29/2023 2:31 PM ====
aiyungayo - to ascend (to a sworn duty) after a trial, to rise in standing or ability after facing difficulties, to persevere

==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 12:25 PM ====
wawachu - glitter, jewelry 
==== scribblemyname — 6/2/23, 8:02 PM ====
ushushu gush (Jitai) 
uzhuzhovigozhaenn (Sontu) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:25 AM ====
okhshi - n. ? or 
okhsh / uzh - n. to work 
okhsh /uzh -a, -i, -e, -r - adj. work-related, for work 
as of one's duty or job they are formally responsible to 
==== scribblemyname — 6/3/23, 7:04 PM ====
gandun-mto - v. 
yegosh - v. to stop (Adan) 
pvta - n. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 2:02 PM ====
health 
job 
pregame writing 
==== scribblemyname — 6/4/23, 5:28 PM ====
there are mountains to climb 
and there are valleys below 
there are years we have passed through 
eternity still to go 
we built forever 
hour by hour 
moment by moment 
we join our hearts 
who saw this ending 
within our power 
just looking at us 
back at the start 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 7:50 AM ====
kueku - to attempt, to try 
kueguku - to challenge 
==== scribblemyname — 6/9/23, 8:12 AM ====
khuegura - to overcome, to put overwhelming effort into, to work excessively hard 
==== scribblemyname — 6/13/23, 2:07 AM ====
abozhobozho (ish.) - from baahashiau, verbed dim. "other people" 
to greet / meet new people; 2. to date in the sense of meeting people socially to figure out whether one wants a relationship with them, whether for friendship or romance 
==== scribblemyname — 6/14/23, 2:32 PM ====
ya'agot / yauagot 
jenjen gou (ish.) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:13 PM ====
hase - other (people), not belonging 
hasge, hsge - foreign 
hasgeve - nativized 
iiyeshungtson - waterfall 
==== scribblemyname — 6/17/23, 6:31 PM ====
yadi 
shigud 
shikhud 
kishugh 
anuegu 
ozketou yenemeitson (ish) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 7:24 AM ====
nn bozhvichaitson ouhn - eat, accept what you've been served (ish) 
nn boshvichaitson ouhn (uts) 
vs. eat 
n'bozhvyetson ouhn 
n'boshvyietson ouhn 
==== scribblemyname — 6/18/23, 8:29 AM ====
na ududunyetson 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 6:32 AM ====
wa nn bozhv'chaitson ouhn 
banun boshvechaitson ouhn 
demonstratives n. 
anun, asun / asol 
hanun, hasun / hasol 
wanun, wasun / wasol 
banun, vasun / basol 
dem. adj. 
asu 
hasu 
wasu 
vasu / basu 
older demonstratives still exist 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 7:13 AM ====
The b here is v in some dialects. Parenthetical ni is omitted for inanimate referents. 
dative personal pronouns: 
1st - nashr, nishr, noshr, urenshr 
2nd - oushr, ouetshr, uushr, uroushr 
3rd - a(ni)shr, ha(ni)shr, wa(ni)shr, ba(ni)shr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/21/23, 10:08 PM ====
pagm - n. game 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 5:22 AM ====
pns, uts. 
pms, curun 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 8:08 AM ====
shungtse - ptcp. falling, as of water in a waterfall, rain, etc. 
v. shungtso 
==== scribblemyname — 6/22/23, 10:54 AM ====
yivsle, -et, -es, -er - ivory white 
iryu - pure white 
sennar daashier - hoop earrings 
sennar wawachur - earrings of a lustrous metal, e.g. gold, silver, etc. 
sennhm - ring worn on the finger 
semb'tse - circlet, tiara 
sennmiech - armband, bracelet 
==== scribblemyname — 6/23/23, 12:57 PM ====
bauhashiar - n. crowd 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:08 PM ====
genitive II 
oslna, -ni, -no, osoluren 
osolou, -ouet, -uus, -urou 
osola, oslha, osolua, oslba / oslva 
obun - to read? (to eat (info)) 
shuetson - n. 
shuetso - v. to pass by or alongside without interacting, to live alongside or among without relationship 
==== scribblemyname — 6/24/23, 9:40 PM ====
mouth-give 
==== scribblemyname — 6/25/23, 8:03 AM ====
bush bush bushni - help yourself, eat eat eat 
boshvihennrt - eat what's given (vs. served) 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 6:00 AM ====
so 
3rd person "pronouns" are absolutive particles 
1st and 2nd do not use particles. Ergative nouns take ergative particles in some dialects and no particles, just case, in others. I think. 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 7:18 AM ====
metmo – v. to love familially, e.g. metmonicha nihn yitzonn / haenn, "I love you" 
UPDATE 
metmonichahaenn nihn / metmonicha nihn haanchm 
metmonichatson nihn / metmonicha nihn yitsonchm 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:01 PM ====
okay, rather than yitsonn-chm 
looking for "as" not "by" 
separately shimeetse - would be "passing self by", so essentially "happening to be" 
==== scribblemyname — 6/28/23, 3:25 PM ====
meetse tsadi yitsonn - same as the running river 
meit sadyitsonn / yitsonn-meit 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 6:51 AM ====
agn - flower 
agnn - floral 
==== scribblemyname — 6/29/23, 9:30 PM ====
shivimee ha ohuali nishr 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 11:18 AM ====
soro - unit of measurement 
sourritar - measurement(s), as in these are her measurements in clothes 
sorotso - to measure, to divide into portions 
==== scribblemyname — 6/30/23, 4:16 PM ====
Curun uses syllabic m where Paschtha utsa uses syllabic n and uses vh in avhua for mother 
Ishiam uses v instead of b, b instead of p, j or zh instead of sh, z instead of s in some cases, u instead of o sometimes in word initial positions and -ge preferable to -nea 
Paschtha utsa attempts to pronounce j of Ishiam as ch, and -unqa became -anka (then paused) 
tsuala (Kinaang-Adan) uses q and k, and -anka became -aang 
tsuala (Ginieng-Kolos) lost q, word initial k lenited to g, and -aang became -ieng 

=== July 2023 ===

=== August 2023 ===

=== September 2023 ===

=== October 2023 ===

=== November 2023 ===

=== December 2023 ===

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:18:17Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 6:29 AM */

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:17:30Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 04/14/2023 8:57 AM */

Tracker: Discord 2023

2025-07-07T19:13:10Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 03/22/2023 1:30 PM */

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:07:25Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe! 

We're not on duty yet, come back to bed 

pulls her back, flustered

==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me. 

I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched. 

Oh. 

They talk on other topic - peopleness? 

leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still. 

Sata keeps talking a moment. 

strangled sound, blushes 

You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up. 

Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I— 

delighted, Sata drops back down 

Your hair is soft 

I'm pretty sure all hair is soft 

Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit

==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public. 
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree. 
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say. 
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed. 
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.

==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families

==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:07:12Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe! 

We're not on duty yet, come back to bed 

pulls her back, flustered

==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me. 

I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched. 

Oh. 

They talk on other topic - peopleness? 

leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still. 

Sata keeps talking a moment. 

strangled sound, blushes 

You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up. 

Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I— 

delighted, Sata drops back down 

Your hair is soft 

I'm pretty sure all hair is soft 

Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit

==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public. 
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree. 
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say. 
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed. 
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.

==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:06:46Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe! 

We're not on duty yet, come back to bed 

pulls her back, flustered

==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me. 

I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched. 

Oh. 

They talk on other topic - peopleness? 

leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still. 

Sata keeps talking a moment. 

strangled sound, blushes 

You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up. 

Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I— 

delighted, Sata drops back down 

Your hair is soft 

I'm pretty sure all hair is soft 

Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit

==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public.
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree.
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say.
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed.
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:06:13Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe! 

We're not on duty yet, come back to bed 

pulls her back, flustered

==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me. 
I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched. 
Oh. 
They talk on other topic - peopleness? 
leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still. 
Sata keeps talking a moment. 
strangled sound, blushes 
You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up. 
Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I— 
delighted, Sata drops back down 
Your hair is soft 
I'm pretty sure all hair is soft 
Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit

==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public.
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree.
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say.
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed.
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:05:51Z

Lianamir: /* scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe! 

We're not on duty yet, come back to bed 

pulls her back, flustered

==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me.
I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched.
Oh.
They talk on other topic - peopleness?
leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still.
Sata keeps talking a moment.
strangled sound, blushes
You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up.
Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I—
delighted, Sata drops back down
Your hair is soft
I'm pretty sure all hair is soft
Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit
==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public.
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree.
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say.
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed.
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T19:02:15Z

Lianamir: /* October 2022 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM ====
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you. 
Benny: I take that as a compliment. 
Clara nods solemnly in the background.
==== scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM ====
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== August 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 8/28/22, 12:41 PM ====
kainan book 
kainank/g middle participle 
kainank gerund
==== scribblemyname — 8/29/22, 12:28 AM ====
kisatsebo - winters 
parutsebi - summers 
garazevo - rainy periods 
lumedze(bo) - moon
=== September 2022 ===
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 8:53 AM ====
duakippa, future day 
bekippa, past day
==== scribblemyname — 9/6/22, 9:41 AM ====
huedakippa, long late day 
huebakippa, long early day
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:01 PM ====
hyisaan (mahi) and kizu (dzol) , emperor's sword's lovers premarriage
==== scribblemyname — 9/14/22, 10:58 PM ====
nkos. she thought he probably Knew she meant Mountain, though it wasn't the right word in either of their dialects. Quiet, his kisses sweet against her neck. He treated her like a teacup lover. She never reminded him she was absolutely utterly unbreakable. She liked to feel precious fragile cared for
==== scribblemyname — 9/15/22, 4:55 AM ====
Srshe!
We're not on duty yet, come back to bed
pulls her back, flustered
==== scribblemyname — 9/16/22, 4:58 AM ====
You say you love me, but you seem... always careful not to touch me.
I'm not a creep. I'll touch you when you express interest in being touched.
Oh.
They talk on other topic - peopleness?
leans back and settles his head on Beram's thigh. B's eyes go wide, his fingers just slightly twitch, and the rest of him is very, very still.
Sata keeps talking a moment.
strangled sound, blushes
You have to remember: we're people. Then, That doesn't seem like interest. Scrunches his back to get up.
Beram's hand flies to the tips of Sata's hair. No, I—
delighted, Sata drops back down
Your hair is soft
I'm pretty sure all hair is soft
Didn't stop Beram from burying his hands in it like he'd been harboring an interest for much longer than he'd admit
==== scribblemyname — 9/21/22, 1:59 PM ====
update last chapter to incl. descr. of banquet hall
==== scribblemyname — 9/22/22, 10:10 PM ====
yenar, yeeko, yeshur, etc. dummy head
==== scribblemyname — 9/23/22, 7:21 PM ====
nitzir aihlona - record of lineage
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 9:33 PM ====
Khaneios Khligana Vekhgrot "Vekh" or "Khlive(kh)"
==== scribblemyname — 9/24/22, 10:50 PM ====
reha sky 
agho isu
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 7:52 AM ====
Prompt notification of lineage is 2 years, barring demonstrable exigency. Without family or lineage means not in a family register and not in a record of lineage. The latter is tied to inalienable familial rights which cannot be denied even if a person is denied registry.
Hligana is a nothing name. Family records are locked records, ministerial rather than unlocked or public.
Only lineage families who intend to support Selected Applicants have a process for selecting them. Anyone can apply to the branches of any of the roots of society. Meishte is considered the tree.
IDs are issued by the Ministry of families and for a small fee, anyone can make inquiry for a cert of verification that someone is who they say.
Promises to the Crown may be offered by any individual or family, which if approved, may receive stipend, permissions, or other form of approval to proceed.
Families who establish a register but provide no benefits to its members may be charged with fraud.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:07 AM ====
Heads of families may appoint designees for any of their functions, including participation in the familial legislative body. Time off for the annual session is however guaranteed.
==== scribblemyname — 9/25/22, 8:49 PM ====
kigo crown 
canopy is crown of branches and crown of leaves, families
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:12 AM ====
subordinate noun version of -ut does not trigger agreement nor accept adj. modifiers
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:23 AM ====
jheghem hungry 
bikha fat 
bokhi skinny 
damut wounded, phys. injured, traumatized 
esavi affectionate troublemaker, prankster, or teaser
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 10:31 AM ====
esavut someone who's been had, victim of lighthearted banter, teasing, or mischief 
bikhus aggrieved
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 11:55 AM ====
veha father 
vaho mother
==== scribblemyname — 9/26/22, 3:58 PM ====
ughum bear
==== scribblemyname — 9/27/22, 1:32 PM ====
kibut, kibutut one without lineage or family, subordinate form 
spreading of branches, gathering of leaves, holding of roots

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T18:46:06Z

Lianamir: /* 4/24/22 = */

Tracker: Discord 2022

2025-07-07T18:44:15Z

Lianamir: /* October 2022 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== April 2022 ===

=== 4/24/22 ====

scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:02 PM
Tren: I have met many small children. They are not like you.

Benny: I take that as a compliment.

Clara nods solemnly in the background.
scribblemyname — 4/24/22, 8:18 PM
Sata: We don't choose our children. We accept them.

=== October 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:09 AM ====
1. describe war palace architecture, decor, populace, furnishings 
2. incl. her clothes and marks

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 8:36 AM ====
Leshet I will serve when your descendants are dust

==== scribblemyname — 10/01/2022 12:54 PM ====
laihilar marketplace 
security of service

==== scribblemyname — 10/03/2022 11:54 AM ====
busutag - "(I'm an) apologetic (person)" 
esavig - gremlin, predicate/accusative? case

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 5:46 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it—was interrupted by a sudden shrieking void-creature crashing into the earth just outside the ring of tents.

EDITS BELOW

Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans—a series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it. Border guard duty remained vigilant, despite the relatively peaceful relations the War Clans now managed with their neighbors.

Each unit consisted of three squads of four people and a unit leader. Leshet had been with the First since her recognition on graduating school. Faces came and went but the quiet act of standing watch together remained the same:

Their encampment was small and barely visible, even if one knew what to look for. Tents huddled against the rocky backdrop, a shimmer of their surroundings on the tent surface, a technology she'd appreciated when it was introduced.

Those not on watch engaged themselves quietly in rest or sustenance on heating implements in their tents, but no fires to reveal their presence.

Since Mari had ascended as War Queen over the Danni last year, tensions along the southern border had eased, but long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

First squad. Leshet had been in several over the generations. She was in front now though, settled in her assigned perch in a nook of the rock where she could see over the northward plain. Vetta was up a tree, white hair the only standout feature rendering him noticeable.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:34 AM ====
It wasn't age. He had a small child at home and grew older at the normal rate. Leshet assumed it was a contract mark. His immediate partner Anae was below him, facing the other direction, her red hair even more telling. But she'd hidden well in the shadows of the branches around them.

War had been with the War Clans for generations. The old dragons had held these mountains against the muderous Lost Clans while nurturing a generation strong enough to put them down. After the betrayal of the Danni, the War Clans guarded this border against the Danni's old War King and his Elements, a fighting unit as dangerous as the Elite.

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 6:46 AM ====
maybe start from relieving the second? 
dragons, people with transformative powers

phoenix, dubbed unkillable (not actually true, just difficult to kill)

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 8:38 AM ====
niqorod the national metaphor 
nimeishte the tree of the nation 
nisigo the nation's shield, the khaneios family 
meishtegana meishte the country 
kigut royalty, member of royal family 
kigana the crown family 
nikigo one of the houses of government, presided over by the sitting crown

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:34 AM ====
we are but lights in the dusk

lights. no. her soul recoiled from sudden, terrifying realization as she was in the most terrible moment possible rendered powerless

==== scribblemyname — 10/04/2022 9:41 AM ====
Early evening in the mountainous southern border of the War Clans. A vague purple-bluish light had settled over the series of sparsely wooded escarpments where the First Unit of the Elite had camped out to guard it.

Leshet remembered when the mountains sloped upward naturally, thick with piney trees. Now, she imagined she could smell the ancient lightning that had scored it and glassified so much of what once was sand. The scorch marks had faded over time, under sediment, but the forestation had yet to recover from that long ago battlefield. Leshet had been with the First Unit since her Recognition on graduating school.

She watched as a flare of heat and light found a member of the second squad, up the towering height of a scoutworthy tree. The phoenix flame turned person and Anae settled in behind the departing warrior to stand watch.

Higher still on the same tree, Leshet's squad leader Vetta clambered into position with a view of all the northward plain. His white hair wasn't due to age. Considering his grandfather, she assumed it signaled one of his inherited contracts with the gods.

Leshet was a white tiger mist, and she preferred to go on watch by overlapping her body with the previous watcher, healing any injuries they'd happened to acquire. Seheri mouthed a string surprised curses but moved silently out of the cleft of rock she'd occupied, leaving Leshet sitting in her place atop a thin bed of opportunistic lichen. The bulky shadow of Ikhankos, the last member of the first squad within the unit, joined Leshet, equally silently.

The southern mountains of the War Clans was their most important border, and even making peace with the Danni hadn't relieved the perpetual sense of tension among those who guarded it. Long habits of active skirmishing meant the Elite treated this post as ever ready to explode into violence.

==== scribblemyname — 10/05/2022 8:59 AM ====
tries solo first, can't use reflect for this

touched her in passing, calculating something other than do unto others what would otherwise happen to you

come by tonight

do you want to or not?

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:38 PM ====
Love and trust have to be earned. In Dutch we have a saying 'vertrouwen komt te voet en gaat te paard' which translate to trust comes on foot and goes on a horse. It means trust is hard to build but easy to lose.

==== scribblemyname — 10/23/2022 4:50 PM ====
What are you doing?

I burned a pot

So you're burying it? thoroughly amused

Well... I wasn't sure how to clean it

=== November 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 11/13/2022 3:28 PM ====
what's a proper watch party without a proper crumpet?

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 7:23 PM ====
ke 
vas 
givord 
irum 
mrt 
nekke

numbers 1-6 k2-nar

==== scribblemyname — 11/28/2022 9:19 PM ====
Small Tales: remembered things

=== December 2022 ===

==== scribblemyname — 12/02/2022 12:24 PM ====
andntaa

==== scribblemyname — 12/03/2022 8:51 PM ====
setup, buildup, payoff 
flashbacks needed: 
only time before that Leshet cried 
Tayas receives proposal 
Saiyar's death

==== scribblemyname — 12/11/2022 6:23 PM ====
I exist, it's good

==== scribblemyname — 12/14/2022 8:41 PM ====
yonyunn morning day, dawning day, morning time, bright season, dawning season/era 
yun n. div. morning 
yunn adj. div. of morning, at morning

==== scribblemyname — 12/15/2022 8:26 AM ====
you don't have to pay me 
if you ever change your mind, come by anytime 
you have hours 
Red can let you in

...

chaining me to the restaurant now 
that's right. I keep getting a feeling from that kid that just won't go away 
farmer's market, no parental agreement, record it

==== scribblemyname — 12/20/2022 4:53 PM ====
it's bones on bones 
translator: it's an old city that has been built over the top of several times

==== scribblemyname — 12/22/2022 11:36 AM ====
sometimes you reach a point 
where you feel so hollow 
where the quiet whispers in 
what if tomorrow 
is just like what it was 
that yesterday 
you shrug your shoulders, smile 
that's why we pray

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 8:59 AM ====
in the thick of troubles, it may not be obvious how all the pieces of God's plan fit together, but if you finish the story, you'll be glad to have trusted Him all along

==== scribblemyname — 12/28/2022 6:59 PM ====
85.05

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 3:07 PM ====
1200's Turkish Ebru marbling, colored oil dropped and brushed on water, intricated organic patterns, feathering, twirls, fantastical swirling repeating patterns on paper, matte finish, decorative, beautiful, stunning --tile --ar 3:2 --style 800 --chaos 75 --seed 80 --upbeta --test --creative - Upscaled (Beta) by @unknown-user (fast)

==== scribblemyname — 12/29/2022 8:39 PM ====
a cluster of grasslands nestled bowls between the bold lines of mountain ranges

==== scribblemyname — 12/31/2022 7:46 AM ====
tencentarc/gfpgan – Replicate 
displate inprnt 
replicate.com

Tracker: Discord 2021

2025-07-07T18:40:26Z

Lianamir:

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

=== July 2021 ===

==== 7/20/21 ====

I'm worried if I'm a cold fish or an ice princess. Don't worry. You're not a fish princess.

Tracker: Discord 2021

2025-07-07T18:31:42Z

Lianamir: Created page with "Category:Writing TrackerCategory:FictionCategory:Language"

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Fiction]][[Category:Language]]

Main Page

2025-07-07T18:31:21Z

Lianamir: /* Notebook */

== Canon ==

# [[:Category:Dragon Clans|Dragon Clans]]
## [[Dragon Clans Stories]]
# [[:Category:Kingdoms and Thorn|Kingdoms and Thorn]]
## [[Kingdoms and Thorn Stories]]
## [[Team Operatives]]
# [[:Category:Lie to Me|Lie to Me]]
# [[The Powers]]
# [[:Category:Radiant Lands|Radiant Lands]]
# [[:Category:Riftspace|Riftspace]]
## [[Riftspace Stories]]
# [[:Category:Simplicity|Simplicity]]
# [[:Category:Splintered|Splintered]]
# [[:Category:Vardin|Vardin]]
# [[:Category:Other Canon|Other Fiction]]
# [[:Category:Poetry|Poetry]]

== Languages ==

# [[Akachenti]]
# [[Anhouegessi|Dragons Language]]
# [[Eileci (Language)]]
# [[Kofnes (Language)]]
# [[Tatan]]
# [[Vardin (Language)]]
# [[Vas'hehr]]
# [[Riftspace Languages]]

== Challenges ==

# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2017]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2018]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2019]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2020]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Scenes]]
# [[Challenge: Lexember]]
# [[Challenge: Origfic Bingo]]
# [[Challenge: Weekly Focus 2018]]

== Notebook ==

# [[Tracker: Discord 2021]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2022]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2023]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2020]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2021]]
# [[Tracker: Notebook 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2025]]

=== Categorized ===

# [[Scene Discussion: Lineage]]
# [[Scene Discussion: Simplicity]]

=== Brainstorming ===

# [[Claude: Lineage]]
# [[Claude: Simplicity]]
# [[Claude: Strong Woman]]

== Inventory ==

# [[Written Order]]
# [[Exchanges]]

== Other Projects ==

# [[Game (draft)]]
# [[Writing Plans 2019]]

Tracker: Notebook 2021

2025-07-07T18:30:23Z

Lianamir: Created page with "Category:Writing TrackerCategory:PoetryCategory:Fiction"

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

Main Page

2025-07-07T18:29:24Z

Lianamir: /* Notebook */

== Canon ==

# [[:Category:Dragon Clans|Dragon Clans]]
## [[Dragon Clans Stories]]
# [[:Category:Kingdoms and Thorn|Kingdoms and Thorn]]
## [[Kingdoms and Thorn Stories]]
## [[Team Operatives]]
# [[:Category:Lie to Me|Lie to Me]]
# [[The Powers]]
# [[:Category:Radiant Lands|Radiant Lands]]
# [[:Category:Riftspace|Riftspace]]
## [[Riftspace Stories]]
# [[:Category:Simplicity|Simplicity]]
# [[:Category:Splintered|Splintered]]
# [[:Category:Vardin|Vardin]]
# [[:Category:Other Canon|Other Fiction]]
# [[:Category:Poetry|Poetry]]

== Languages ==

# [[Akachenti]]
# [[Anhouegessi|Dragons Language]]
# [[Eileci (Language)]]
# [[Kofnes (Language)]]
# [[Tatan]]
# [[Vardin (Language)]]
# [[Vas'hehr]]
# [[Riftspace Languages]]

== Challenges ==

# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2017]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2018]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2019]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2020]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Scenes]]
# [[Challenge: Lexember]]
# [[Challenge: Origfic Bingo]]
# [[Challenge: Weekly Focus 2018]]

== Notebook ==

# [[Tracker: Discord 2022]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2023]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2020]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2021]]
# [[Tracker: Notebook 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2025]]

=== Categorized ===

# [[Scene Discussion: Lineage]]
# [[Scene Discussion: Simplicity]]

=== Brainstorming ===

# [[Claude: Lineage]]
# [[Claude: Simplicity]]
# [[Claude: Strong Woman]]

== Inventory ==

# [[Written Order]]
# [[Exchanges]]

== Other Projects ==

# [[Game (draft)]]
# [[Writing Plans 2019]]

Tracker: Notebook 2020

2025-06-01T22:46:54Z

Lianamir: /* 4/10/2020 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== April 2020 ==

=== 4/10/2020 ===

==== #1 ====

by our fruits 
known by our love

if we don't love, then it is known that 
we are not the children of God

=== 4/11/2020 ===

==== #1 ====

Your glory find 
in summer leaves 
in blooming rose 
in gentle breeze 
in golden reds 
when those leaves fall 
a flaming carpet 
for us all 
in frosted white 
treasures of snow 
in thickest ice 
and water below 
in brand new spring 
the songbirds' call 
for You, O Lord, 
have made them all

=== 4/12/2020 ===

==== #1 ====

hope can be brutal 
a light in your heart 
when nothing before you 
gives answer but dark 
and you must keep going 
forever it seems 
chasing the glow 
of hope and its dreams

but hope is required 
like breath and like light 
the feeling that carries 
a soul through the night 
one hour we emerge 
and find a new day 
'cause hope has become 
a promise and stays

=== 4/13/20 ===

==== #1 Prayers # ====

Good morning, God 
I pray to You 
Please hold my hand 
And help me through 
Keep my mind-heart 
Close to You 
In all I think 
Feel, say, and do

==== #2 ====

a little bird told me, this was good morning 
woke me from my dreams, seemed without warning 
I feel a firm breeze, just shy of a storming 
reach out fingers for comfort: my God, He will hold me

==== #3 ====

For F and Y

there are bruises on my heart 
in the shape of your fingers 
memories pound me often 
the love we had lingers 
no matter how hard the battle 
I'll keep reaching to you 
never give up my knocking 
until it gets through

==== Focus on the Sufficiency of Christ ====

Say I'm an epic failure. so what? Not only does God continue to want me, to love me, to be unwilling that any should perish, including me, but He has already promised it's okay if I am weak.

"And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." — 2 Corinthians 12:9 NKJV

"But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;" — 1 Corinthians 1:27 NKJV

His plan for me is not somehow less perfect because I'm not a superhero. And so I trust that, though it seems I continue to fail, if I commit my way to Him, He will bring glory—even from this. Even from me.

"Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass." — Psalm 37:5 NKJV

==== #4 ====

For F + Y

written on my bones a promise 
I will not forget just how to miss us 
now will my breath come without you in it 
memory of love yet unforgotten

=== 4/14/20 ===

==== #1 ====

glorious is the day 
that You have made 
and mighty are Your works 
foundations laid 
unshakeable, unshaken 
I in awe 
bow before Your throne 
adore Your all

==== #2 haiku for winter ====

winter comes on cold 
pattering feet—patterned snow 
drifts in down below

==== #3 Prayers # ====

another morning, brand new day 
help me, Lord, to ceaseless pray 
casting all my cares on You 
and love like Christ in all I do

==== #4 ====

A/N: I'm starting to feel more human, I think, after days of reduced exertion. Not quite where I was, but better, and that matters.

I thank You, Lord, for what I need 
and didn't even realize 
for every failure when I'm weak 
and strength that You provided 
Christ, my mercy, and my love 
thank You, Lord, my God above 
for meeting all my unknown needs 
and most of all, for loving me

==== Riftspace Snippet #1 ====

Jagged Edge wasn't an edge in normal space. But there was debris. Great clouds of it spinning near the great wrecks of spaceships that thought it meant there was no edge at all.

Ekos didn't focus on that, just slid past as he turned, falling under the swell without thought, a knife through butter.

Flay. That's what they called his natural motion.

=== 4/15/20 ===

==== #1 ====

what is the answer to questions 
that burn in my heart like a flame? 
I go seeking out answers and find 
all of these mysteries by name 
for surely You've not left us helpless 
and want us to understand truth 
so now I return to the diggings 
studies I've loved from my youth

==== #2 ====

answers come to those 
who ask the questions—who work 
experiment, search

==== #3 ====

call me something pretty 
help my heart believe 
that I could have some value 
a gift I must receive

call me something lovely 
and I will reach, achieve 
if God's grace and mercy 
can do this thing in me

Tracker: Notebook 2020

2025-06-01T22:46:12Z

Lianamir: /* Focus on the Sufficiency of Christ */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== April 2020 ==

=== 4/10/2020 ===

by our fruits 
known by our love

if we don't love, then it is known that 
we are not the children of God

=== 4/11/2020 ===

==== #1 ====

Your glory find 
in summer leaves 
in blooming rose 
in gentle breeze 
in golden reds 
when those leaves fall 
a flaming carpet 
for us all 
in frosted white 
treasures of snow 
in thickest ice 
and water below 
in brand new spring 
the songbirds' call 
for You, O Lord, 
have made them all

=== 4/12/2020 ===

==== #1 ====

hope can be brutal 
a light in your heart 
when nothing before you 
gives answer but dark 
and you must keep going 
forever it seems 
chasing the glow 
of hope and its dreams

but hope is required 
like breath and like light 
the feeling that carries 
a soul through the night 
one hour we emerge 
and find a new day 
'cause hope has become 
a promise and stays

=== 4/13/20 ===

==== #1 Prayers # ====

Good morning, God 
I pray to You 
Please hold my hand 
And help me through 
Keep my mind-heart 
Close to You 
In all I think 
Feel, say, and do

==== #2 ====

a little bird told me, this was good morning 
woke me from my dreams, seemed without warning 
I feel a firm breeze, just shy of a storming 
reach out fingers for comfort: my God, He will hold me

==== #3 ====

For F and Y

there are bruises on my heart 
in the shape of your fingers 
memories pound me often 
the love we had lingers 
no matter how hard the battle 
I'll keep reaching to you 
never give up my knocking 
until it gets through

==== Focus on the Sufficiency of Christ ====

Say I'm an epic failure. so what? Not only does God continue to want me, to love me, to be unwilling that any should perish, including me, but He has already promised it's okay if I am weak.

"And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." — 2 Corinthians 12:9 NKJV

"But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;" — 1 Corinthians 1:27 NKJV

His plan for me is not somehow less perfect because I'm not a superhero. And so I trust that, though it seems I continue to fail, if I commit my way to Him, He will bring glory—even from this. Even from me.

"Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass." — Psalm 37:5 NKJV

==== #4 ====

For F + Y

written on my bones a promise 
I will not forget just how to miss us 
now will my breath come without you in it 
memory of love yet unforgotten

=== 4/14/20 ===

==== #1 ====

glorious is the day 
that You have made 
and mighty are Your works 
foundations laid 
unshakeable, unshaken 
I in awe 
bow before Your throne 
adore Your all

==== #2 haiku for winter ====

winter comes on cold 
pattering feet—patterned snow 
drifts in down below

==== #3 Prayers # ====

another morning, brand new day 
help me, Lord, to ceaseless pray 
casting all my cares on You 
and love like Christ in all I do

==== #4 ====

A/N: I'm starting to feel more human, I think, after days of reduced exertion. Not quite where I was, but better, and that matters.

I thank You, Lord, for what I need 
and didn't even realize 
for every failure when I'm weak 
and strength that You provided 
Christ, my mercy, and my love 
thank You, Lord, my God above 
for meeting all my unknown needs 
and most of all, for loving me

==== Riftspace Snippet #1 ====

Jagged Edge wasn't an edge in normal space. But there was debris. Great clouds of it spinning near the great wrecks of spaceships that thought it meant there was no edge at all.

Ekos didn't focus on that, just slid past as he turned, falling under the swell without thought, a knife through butter.

Flay. That's what they called his natural motion.

=== 4/15/20 ===

==== #1 ====

what is the answer to questions 
that burn in my heart like a flame? 
I go seeking out answers and find 
all of these mysteries by name 
for surely You've not left us helpless 
and want us to understand truth 
so now I return to the diggings 
studies I've loved from my youth

==== #2 ====

answers come to those 
who ask the questions—who work 
experiment, search

==== #3 ====

call me something pretty 
help my heart believe 
that I could have some value 
a gift I must receive

call me something lovely 
and I will reach, achieve 
if God's grace and mercy 
can do this thing in me

Tracker: Notebook 2020

2025-06-01T22:34:34Z

Lianamir: /* April 2020 */

Tracker: Notebook 2020

2025-06-01T22:25:42Z

Lianamir: Created page with "Category:Writing TrackerCategory:PoetryCategory:Fiction == April 2020 == === 4/10/2020 === by our fruits known by our love if we don't love, then it is kno..."

Main Page

2025-06-01T22:21:24Z

Lianamir: /* Notebook */

== Canon ==

# [[:Category:Dragon Clans|Dragon Clans]]
## [[Dragon Clans Stories]]
# [[:Category:Kingdoms and Thorn|Kingdoms and Thorn]]
## [[Kingdoms and Thorn Stories]]
## [[Team Operatives]]
# [[:Category:Lie to Me|Lie to Me]]
# [[The Powers]]
# [[:Category:Radiant Lands|Radiant Lands]]
# [[:Category:Riftspace|Riftspace]]
## [[Riftspace Stories]]
# [[:Category:Simplicity|Simplicity]]
# [[:Category:Splintered|Splintered]]
# [[:Category:Vardin|Vardin]]
# [[:Category:Other Canon|Other Fiction]]
# [[:Category:Poetry|Poetry]]

== Languages ==

# [[Akachenti]]
# [[Anhouegessi|Dragons Language]]
# [[Eileci (Language)]]
# [[Kofnes (Language)]]
# [[Tatan]]
# [[Vardin (Language)]]
# [[Vas'hehr]]
# [[Riftspace Languages]]

== Challenges ==

# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2017]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2018]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2019]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Poetry 2020]]
# [[Challenge: Daily Scenes]]
# [[Challenge: Lexember]]
# [[Challenge: Origfic Bingo]]
# [[Challenge: Weekly Focus 2018]]

== Notebook ==

# [[Tracker: Discord 2022]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2023]]
# [[Tracker: Discord 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2020]]
# [[Tracker: Notebook 2024]]
# [[Tracker:_Notebook_2025]]

=== Categorized ===

# [[Scene Discussion: Lineage]]
# [[Scene Discussion: Simplicity]]

=== Brainstorming ===

# [[Claude: Lineage]]
# [[Claude: Simplicity]]
# [[Claude: Strong Woman]]

== Inventory ==

# [[Written Order]]
# [[Exchanges]]

== Other Projects ==

# [[Game (draft)]]
# [[Writing Plans 2019]]

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-21T22:41:49Z

Lianamir: /* a */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

<hr>

"Dad."

Ahima found his father in the living room, speculatively eyeing up a bowl of cut glass.

<hr>

...

<hr>

"Did you ever want to become anything other than a guardian?"

Irya's mother set the ladle down in the pot and turned her full attention on Ahima.

He stood very still and straight though the weight of that attention made him want to pull away.

She reached out and tucked her hand behind his head and bent to his height. "I wanted to protect my family," she said. "I never thought once about whether I wanted to be the guardian."

Ahima blinked at her for a long moment, not fully comprehending such a statement.

But Irya's mother patted him on the head gently and told him to clean his hands for supper, so he let her words wash over him and dipped his head obediently, turning to action rather than thought. It was only later in the night that he took them down off the shelf of his mind again and considered.

Irya's breath was slow and even beside him. His friend had curled up on his side and gone straight to sleep while Ahima pretended sleepiness. Irya's house was a good place to think things over, so far ashore from the Dragon Sea where Ahima's family lived. High up in the mountains and the river gurgling away too distant to even hear from Irya's house, Ahima could pretend he was free of the water he swam in, the current of his mother's expectations.

And perhaps that was the taste of what Irya's mother meant. She had lived in her own sea, dived below the waves, and to be the guardian was her tool and not her duty.

<hr>

The day was very quiet, tall evergreen trees swaying in the soft rush of wind the only real sound. Ahima had thought he'd be able to hear the distant gurgle of the river, but it was quiet.

His left hand rested over the contract mark on his right arm. It wasn't the only one, but it was the most visible and accessible. He held it and really thought in the direction of whatever high one was on the other end.

"Can you help?" he asked.

=== 2/18/25 ===

==== Story 2 ====

Light shines in the most unexpected of places. Sometimes Song things it'd be nice to know that someone actually cared about her and her brother, but she doesn't focus on that most days. It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth focusing on, nice to haves and wishful dreams airier than summer clouds above them.

Her brother has a sullen face and he sometimes looks at her like he's brooding over some idea that's also not worth focusing on. She taps her shoulder against his to make him stop.

They reach a likely corner where she sets down her mother's violin, the only thing of value they really had, opens the case in front of her, and starts to play. Her brother sits just far enough away to not detract from the pitiful sight Song makes while still giving off a vaguely protective vibe.

Song does not play the violin well. It's pity that drives a handful of people over the next few hours to drop just enough dollars in the violin case that they'll buy a meal for the day to split. It's not enjoyment. No one would look at Song as she is now and enjoy it.

==== Grow What You Have ====

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey." – Matthew 25:14-15 NKJV

If I want him to live until I come, what is that to you? Follow me.

=== 2/24/25 ===

==== Note to Self: What is That to You? ====

I am reminded often lately of the line in Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis where Aslan tells various characters: "That is someone else's story. I am telling you your story."

And in that, I see the echoes of the Gospel of John, towards the final words of the book, where Jesus tells Peter, "If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me."

It is easy to look at the spirituality of others, those you have loved and admired and looked up to over the years, and think to yourself, but I am the least, how could I be the one that God has chosen? It can be easy to think to yourself that you do not have the talents or the promises or the strengths that others have.

But again, the Parable of the Talents, where some are given five, some two, some one. Was the one who was given two talents unable to find the approval of his Lord? No, his master did not look upon the one who had ten talents to return to him and compare him who had only four. He told them both, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

Sometimes, you see those who are so much younger than you and yet who have done so much more than you. You see those who seem to have greater skills and capabilities, who have accomplished more though they started later, who are able to work harder. And yet, what is that to you? Follow Him.

Again, the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard. Those who idled until late, even the eleventh hour, who worked only one hour, they received the same wages as those who worked from the early morning.

There are days you feel you are worthless, you have accomplished nothing for all you were given talents, and perhaps you are not even remaining in God's plan. But God's will for you is not dependent on the strength of others, or whether you are as righteous, as early, as strong, or even as productive as they are. His will for you is that you take what you have been given, no matter how meagre or abundant, and follow Him. His favor is found by simply choosing to come and serve as best you may.

== March 2025 ==

=== 3/31/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Hello, Yinna." Ahima tucked his folded hands beneath his chin and aimed the faintest of smiles into the device screen. Irya wasn't in the room, so he had free room to flop out on the bed and call whoever he wanted.

Yinna turned his nose up suspiciously and eyed the entire screen with obvious scrutiny. "Just you?" he sounded surprised. "I thought you'd drag Irya along."

Ahima tapped a finger on the spread, considering those words with interest. "Usually Irya's the one dragging me along."

"Ah." Instant understanding lit in Yinna's eyes. He leaned back, apparently at his desk, the top edges of a book in frame.

"Studying?" Ahima asked.

Yinna nodded easily. "We all get homework."

Whatever candidate pool he was automatically in from birth, Ahima surmised. It tended to be a thing with the eastern clans; they didn't give their children time to decide whether they wanted to be in it.

== April 2025 ==

=== 4/15/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Are there really twelve heavens?" Ahima asked, dropping onto the bed beside Irya.

Layers upon layers. He didn't really have to choose between them, did he?

Irya eyed Ahima's exposed shoulder. yees clothing had really been designed for recognized adults who had sworn marks to show off, not children without them.

"I've never counted," Irya answered, sounding distracted. He gestured at the shirt. "You'll get cold."

Ginieng's summers were pleasant, but this high up in the mountains, it was cold.

Ahima hmmed thoughtfully, watching the dance of threads radiating from his friend–one thick and golden as any of the ones leading to the members of Irya's born siblings–then finally answered, "I won't."

=== 4/16/25 ===

==== Cry Aloud! (poem) ====

Cry out in the midst of a barren wasteland! 
Cry out for its King to return! 
Cry out that the Sun of righteousness rise 
And let not the latter rains spurn!

Cry out for the talents unburied, unwasted! 
Cry out for the Spirit to

=== 4/21/25 ===

==== High ====

"Ah, little mist. What dark did you wander out of?"

He smiled so that his teeth just showed.

<hr>

"What are the high ones?" he'd asked once, simply, faint curiosity underpinning it but barely edging the tide of true feeling. "Gods?"

"I've heard men call us that." A diffident shrug from one who glowed with a blue light, though he'd carved himself in the shape of a man. "What is a god to you?"

Tayas' hands stilled from their ceaseless, restless typing. The electric impulse of his mind and essence continued zinging through the networks of his intelligence. "One who has great power, who answers what is asked of them."

The fierce blue wind, the high one of Tayas' wife, shrugged again. "Yes."

"One who made the heavens."

Such a smile, the edge of white bone teeth and glitter of eye. "No."

Tayas' fingers started back up, comfortable when the gleam of reality shone through.

"Child, we are the heavens."

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-21T22:41:24Z

Lianamir: /* 4/16/25 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

<hr>

"Dad."

Ahima found his father in the living room, speculatively eyeing up a bowl of cut glass.

<hr>

...

<hr>

"Did you ever want to become anything other than a guardian?"

Irya's mother set the ladle down in the pot and turned her full attention on Ahima.

He stood very still and straight though the weight of that attention made him want to pull away.

She reached out and tucked her hand behind his head and bent to his height. "I wanted to protect my family," she said. "I never thought once about whether I wanted to be the guardian."

Ahima blinked at her for a long moment, not fully comprehending such a statement.

But Irya's mother patted him on the head gently and told him to clean his hands for supper, so he let her words wash over him and dipped his head obediently, turning to action rather than thought. It was only later in the night that he took them down off the shelf of his mind again and considered.

Irya's breath was slow and even beside him. His friend had curled up on his side and gone straight to sleep while Ahima pretended sleepiness. Irya's house was a good place to think things over, so far ashore from the Dragon Sea where Ahima's family lived. High up in the mountains and the river gurgling away too distant to even hear from Irya's house, Ahima could pretend he was free of the water he swam in, the current of his mother's expectations.

And perhaps that was the taste of what Irya's mother meant. She had lived in her own sea, dived below the waves, and to be the guardian was her tool and not her duty.

<hr>

The day was very quiet, tall evergreen trees swaying in the soft rush of wind the only real sound. Ahima had thought he'd be able to hear the distant gurgle of the river, but it was quiet.

His left hand rested over the contract mark on his right arm. It wasn't the only one, but it was the most visible and accessible. He held it and really thought in the direction of whatever high one was on the other end.

"Can you help?" he asked.

=== 2/18/25 ===

==== Story 2 ====

Light shines in the most unexpected of places. Sometimes Song things it'd be nice to know that someone actually cared about her and her brother, but she doesn't focus on that most days. It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth focusing on, nice to haves and wishful dreams airier than summer clouds above them.

Her brother has a sullen face and he sometimes looks at her like he's brooding over some idea that's also not worth focusing on. She taps her shoulder against his to make him stop.

They reach a likely corner where she sets down her mother's violin, the only thing of value they really had, opens the case in front of her, and starts to play. Her brother sits just far enough away to not detract from the pitiful sight Song makes while still giving off a vaguely protective vibe.

Song does not play the violin well. It's pity that drives a handful of people over the next few hours to drop just enough dollars in the violin case that they'll buy a meal for the day to split. It's not enjoyment. No one would look at Song as she is now and enjoy it.

==== Grow What You Have ====

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey." – Matthew 25:14-15 NKJV

If I want him to live until I come, what is that to you? Follow me.

=== 2/24/25 ===

==== Note to Self: What is That to You? ====

I am reminded often lately of the line in Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis where Aslan tells various characters: "That is someone else's story. I am telling you your story."

And in that, I see the echoes of the Gospel of John, towards the final words of the book, where Jesus tells Peter, "If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me."

It is easy to look at the spirituality of others, those you have loved and admired and looked up to over the years, and think to yourself, but I am the least, how could I be the one that God has chosen? It can be easy to think to yourself that you do not have the talents or the promises or the strengths that others have.

But again, the Parable of the Talents, where some are given five, some two, some one. Was the one who was given two talents unable to find the approval of his Lord? No, his master did not look upon the one who had ten talents to return to him and compare him who had only four. He told them both, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

Sometimes, you see those who are so much younger than you and yet who have done so much more than you. You see those who seem to have greater skills and capabilities, who have accomplished more though they started later, who are able to work harder. And yet, what is that to you? Follow Him.

Again, the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard. Those who idled until late, even the eleventh hour, who worked only one hour, they received the same wages as those who worked from the early morning.

There are days you feel you are worthless, you have accomplished nothing for all you were given talents, and perhaps you are not even remaining in God's plan. But God's will for you is not dependent on the strength of others, or whether you are as righteous, as early, as strong, or even as productive as they are. His will for you is that you take what you have been given, no matter how meagre or abundant, and follow Him. His favor is found by simply choosing to come and serve as best you may.

== March 2025 ==

=== 3/31/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Hello, Yinna." Ahima tucked his folded hands beneath his chin and aimed the faintest of smiles into the device screen. Irya wasn't in the room, so he had free room to flop out on the bed and call whoever he wanted.

Yinna turned his nose up suspiciously and eyed the entire screen with obvious scrutiny. "Just you?" he sounded surprised. "I thought you'd drag Irya along."

Ahima tapped a finger on the spread, considering those words with interest. "Usually Irya's the one dragging me along."

"Ah." Instant understanding lit in Yinna's eyes. He leaned back, apparently at his desk, the top edges of a book in frame.

"Studying?" Ahima asked.

Yinna nodded easily. "We all get homework."

Whatever candidate pool he was automatically in from birth, Ahima surmised. It tended to be a thing with the eastern clans; they didn't give their children time to decide whether they wanted to be in it.

== April 2025 ==

=== 4/15/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Are there really twelve heavens?" Ahima asked, dropping onto the bed beside Irya.

Layers upon layers. He didn't really have to choose between them, did he?

Irya eyed Ahima's exposed shoulder. yees clothing had really been designed for recognized adults who had sworn marks to show off, not children without them.

"I've never counted," Irya answered, sounding distracted. He gestured at the shirt. "You'll get cold."

Ginieng's summers were pleasant, but this high up in the mountains, it was cold.

Ahima hmmed thoughtfully, watching the dance of threads radiating from his friend–one thick and golden as any of the ones leading to the members of Irya's born siblings–then finally answered, "I won't."

=== 4/16/25 ===

==== Cry Aloud! (poem) ====

Cry out in the midst of a barren wasteland! 
Cry out for its King to return! 
Cry out that the Sun of righteousness rise 
And let not the latter rains spurn!

Cry out for the talents unburied, unwasted! 
Cry out for the Spirit to

=== 4/21/25 ===

==== a ====

"Ah, little mist. What dark did you wander out of?"

He smiled so that his teeth just showed.

<hr>

"What are the high ones?" he'd asked once, simply, faint curiosity underpinning it but barely edging the tide of true feeling. "Gods?"

"I've heard men call us that." A diffident shrug from one who glowed with a blue light, though he'd carved himself in the shape of a man.
"What is a god to you?"

Tayas' hands stilled from their ceaseless, restless typing. The electric impulse of his mind and essence continued zinging through the networks of his intelligence. "One who has great power, who answers what is asked of them."

The fierce blue wind, the high one of Tayas' wife, shrugged again. "Yes."

"One who made the heavens."

Such a smile, the edge of white bone teeth and glitter of eye. "No."

Tayas' fingers started back up, comfortable when the gleam of reality shone through.

"Child, we are the heavens."

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-16T16:39:58Z

Lianamir: /* == */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-16T14:57:48Z

Lianamir: /* April 2025 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

<hr>

"Dad."

Ahima found his father in the living room, speculatively eyeing up a bowl of cut glass.

<hr>

...

<hr>

"Did you ever want to become anything other than a guardian?"

Irya's mother set the ladle down in the pot and turned her full attention on Ahima.

He stood very still and straight though the weight of that attention made him want to pull away.

She reached out and tucked her hand behind his head and bent to his height. "I wanted to protect my family," she said. "I never thought once about whether I wanted to be the guardian."

Ahima blinked at her for a long moment, not fully comprehending such a statement.

But Irya's mother patted him on the head gently and told him to clean his hands for supper, so he let her words wash over him and dipped his head obediently, turning to action rather than thought. It was only later in the night that he took them down off the shelf of his mind again and considered.

Irya's breath was slow and even beside him. His friend had curled up on his side and gone straight to sleep while Ahima pretended sleepiness. Irya's house was a good place to think things over, so far ashore from the Dragon Sea where Ahima's family lived. High up in the mountains and the river gurgling away too distant to even hear from Irya's house, Ahima could pretend he was free of the water he swam in, the current of his mother's expectations.

And perhaps that was the taste of what Irya's mother meant. She had lived in her own sea, dived below the waves, and to be the guardian was her tool and not her duty.

<hr>

The day was very quiet, tall evergreen trees swaying in the soft rush of wind the only real sound. Ahima had thought he'd be able to hear the distant gurgle of the river, but it was quiet.

His left hand rested over the contract mark on his right arm. It wasn't the only one, but it was the most visible and accessible. He held it and really thought in the direction of whatever high one was on the other end.

"Can you help?" he asked.

=== 2/18/25 ===

==== Story 2 ====

Light shines in the most unexpected of places. Sometimes Song things it'd be nice to know that someone actually cared about her and her brother, but she doesn't focus on that most days. It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth focusing on, nice to haves and wishful dreams airier than summer clouds above them.

Her brother has a sullen face and he sometimes looks at her like he's brooding over some idea that's also not worth focusing on. She taps her shoulder against his to make him stop.

They reach a likely corner where she sets down her mother's violin, the only thing of value they really had, opens the case in front of her, and starts to play. Her brother sits just far enough away to not detract from the pitiful sight Song makes while still giving off a vaguely protective vibe.

Song does not play the violin well. It's pity that drives a handful of people over the next few hours to drop just enough dollars in the violin case that they'll buy a meal for the day to split. It's not enjoyment. No one would look at Song as she is now and enjoy it.

==== Grow What You Have ====

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey." – Matthew 25:14-15 NKJV

If I want him to live until I come, what is that to you? Follow me.

=== 2/24/25 ===

==== Note to Self: What is That to You? ====

I am reminded often lately of the line in Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis where Aslan tells various characters: "That is someone else's story. I am telling you your story."

And in that, I see the echoes of the Gospel of John, towards the final words of the book, where Jesus tells Peter, "If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me."

It is easy to look at the spirituality of others, those you have loved and admired and looked up to over the years, and think to yourself, but I am the least, how could I be the one that God has chosen? It can be easy to think to yourself that you do not have the talents or the promises or the strengths that others have.

But again, the Parable of the Talents, where some are given five, some two, some one. Was the one who was given two talents unable to find the approval of his Lord? No, his master did not look upon the one who had ten talents to return to him and compare him who had only four. He told them both, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

Sometimes, you see those who are so much younger than you and yet who have done so much more than you. You see those who seem to have greater skills and capabilities, who have accomplished more though they started later, who are able to work harder. And yet, what is that to you? Follow Him.

Again, the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard. Those who idled until late, even the eleventh hour, who worked only one hour, they received the same wages as those who worked from the early morning.

There are days you feel you are worthless, you have accomplished nothing for all you were given talents, and perhaps you are not even remaining in God's plan. But God's will for you is not dependent on the strength of others, or whether you are as righteous, as early, as strong, or even as productive as they are. His will for you is that you take what you have been given, no matter how meagre or abundant, and follow Him. His favor is found by simply choosing to come and serve as best you may.

== March 2025 ==

=== 3/31/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Hello, Yinna." Ahima tucked his folded hands beneath his chin and aimed the faintest of smiles into the device screen. Irya wasn't in the room, so he had free room to flop out on the bed and call whoever he wanted.

Yinna turned his nose up suspiciously and eyed the entire screen with obvious scrutiny. "Just you?" he sounded surprised. "I thought you'd drag Irya along."

Ahima tapped a finger on the spread, considering those words with interest. "Usually Irya's the one dragging me along."

"Ah." Instant understanding lit in Yinna's eyes. He leaned back, apparently at his desk, the top edges of a book in frame.

"Studying?" Ahima asked.

Yinna nodded easily. "We all get homework."

Whatever candidate pool he was automatically in from birth, Ahima surmised. It tended to be a thing with the eastern clans; they didn't give their children time to decide whether they wanted to be in it.

== April 2025 ==

=== 4/15/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Are there really twelve heavens?" Ahima asked, dropping onto the bed beside Irya.

Layers upon layers. He didn't really have to choose between them, did he?

Irya eyed Ahima's exposed shoulder. yees clothing had really been designed for recognized adults who had sworn marks to show off, not children without them.

"I've never counted," Irya answered, sounding distracted. He gestured at the shirt. "You'll get cold."

Ginieng's summers were pleasant, but this high up in the mountains, it was cold.

Ahima hmmed thoughtfully, watching the dance of threads radiating from his friend–one thick and golden as any of the ones leading to the members of Irya's born siblings–then finally answered, "I won't."

=== 4/16/25 ===

====

Cry out in the midst of a barren wasteland! 
Cry out for its King to return! 
Cry out that the Sun of righteousness rise 
And let not the latter rains spurn!

Cry out

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-15T11:58:03Z

Lianamir: /* Some Kind of Heaven */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-04-15T11:57:05Z

Lianamir: /* March 2025 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

<hr>

"Dad."

Ahima found his father in the living room, speculatively eyeing up a bowl of cut glass.

<hr>

...

<hr>

"Did you ever want to become anything other than a guardian?"

Irya's mother set the ladle down in the pot and turned her full attention on Ahima.

He stood very still and straight though the weight of that attention made him want to pull away.

She reached out and tucked her hand behind his head and bent to his height. "I wanted to protect my family," she said. "I never thought once about whether I wanted to be the guardian."

Ahima blinked at her for a long moment, not fully comprehending such a statement.

But Irya's mother patted him on the head gently and told him to clean his hands for supper, so he let her words wash over him and dipped his head obediently, turning to action rather than thought. It was only later in the night that he took them down off the shelf of his mind again and considered.

Irya's breath was slow and even beside him. His friend had curled up on his side and gone straight to sleep while Ahima pretended sleepiness. Irya's house was a good place to think things over, so far ashore from the Dragon Sea where Ahima's family lived. High up in the mountains and the river gurgling away too distant to even hear from Irya's house, Ahima could pretend he was free of the water he swam in, the current of his mother's expectations.

And perhaps that was the taste of what Irya's mother meant. She had lived in her own sea, dived below the waves, and to be the guardian was her tool and not her duty.

<hr>

The day was very quiet, tall evergreen trees swaying in the soft rush of wind the only real sound. Ahima had thought he'd be able to hear the distant gurgle of the river, but it was quiet.

His left hand rested over the contract mark on his right arm. It wasn't the only one, but it was the most visible and accessible. He held it and really thought in the direction of whatever high one was on the other end.

"Can you help?" he asked.

=== 2/18/25 ===

==== Story 2 ====

Light shines in the most unexpected of places. Sometimes Song things it'd be nice to know that someone actually cared about her and her brother, but she doesn't focus on that most days. It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth focusing on, nice to haves and wishful dreams airier than summer clouds above them.

Her brother has a sullen face and he sometimes looks at her like he's brooding over some idea that's also not worth focusing on. She taps her shoulder against his to make him stop.

They reach a likely corner where she sets down her mother's violin, the only thing of value they really had, opens the case in front of her, and starts to play. Her brother sits just far enough away to not detract from the pitiful sight Song makes while still giving off a vaguely protective vibe.

Song does not play the violin well. It's pity that drives a handful of people over the next few hours to drop just enough dollars in the violin case that they'll buy a meal for the day to split. It's not enjoyment. No one would look at Song as she is now and enjoy it.

==== Grow What You Have ====

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey." – Matthew 25:14-15 NKJV

If I want him to live until I come, what is that to you? Follow me.

=== 2/24/25 ===

==== Note to Self: What is That to You? ====

I am reminded often lately of the line in Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis where Aslan tells various characters: "That is someone else's story. I am telling you your story."

And in that, I see the echoes of the Gospel of John, towards the final words of the book, where Jesus tells Peter, "If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me."

It is easy to look at the spirituality of others, those you have loved and admired and looked up to over the years, and think to yourself, but I am the least, how could I be the one that God has chosen? It can be easy to think to yourself that you do not have the talents or the promises or the strengths that others have.

But again, the Parable of the Talents, where some are given five, some two, some one. Was the one who was given two talents unable to find the approval of his Lord? No, his master did not look upon the one who had ten talents to return to him and compare him who had only four. He told them both, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

Sometimes, you see those who are so much younger than you and yet who have done so much more than you. You see those who seem to have greater skills and capabilities, who have accomplished more though they started later, who are able to work harder. And yet, what is that to you? Follow Him.

Again, the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard. Those who idled until late, even the eleventh hour, who worked only one hour, they received the same wages as those who worked from the early morning.

There are days you feel you are worthless, you have accomplished nothing for all you were given talents, and perhaps you are not even remaining in God's plan. But God's will for you is not dependent on the strength of others, or whether you are as righteous, as early, as strong, or even as productive as they are. His will for you is that you take what you have been given, no matter how meagre or abundant, and follow Him. His favor is found by simply choosing to come and serve as best you may.

== March 2025 ==

=== 3/31/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Hello, Yinna." Ahima tucked his folded hands beneath his chin and aimed the faintest of smiles into the device screen. Irya wasn't in the room, so he had free room to flop out on the bed and call whoever he wanted.

Yinna turned his nose up suspiciously and eyed the entire screen with obvious scrutiny. "Just you?" he sounded surprised. "I thought you'd drag Irya along."

Ahima tapped a finger on the spread, considering those words with interest. "Usually Irya's the one dragging me along."

"Ah." Instant understanding lit in Yinna's eyes. He leaned back, apparently at his desk, the top edges of a book in frame.

"Stuying?" Ahima asked.

Yinna nodded easily. "We all get homework."

Whatever candidate pool he was automatically in from birth, Ahima surmised. It tended to be a thing with the eastern clans; they didn't give their children time to decide whether they wanted to be in it.

== April 2025 ==

=== 4/15/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Are there really twelve heavens?" Ahima asked, dropping onto the bed beside Irya.

Layers upon layers. He didn't really have to choose between them, did he?

Irya eyed Ahima's exposed shoulder. yees clothing had really been designed for recognized adults who had sworn marks to show off, not children without them.

"I've never counted," Irya answered, sounding distracted. He gestured at the shirt. "You'll get cold."

Ginieng's summers were pleasant, but this high up in the mountains, it was cold.

Ahima hmmed thoughtfully, watching the dance of threads radiating from his friend–one thick and golden as any of the ones leading to the members of Irya's born siblings–then finally answered, "I won't."

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-03-31T19:58:59Z

Lianamir:

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

<hr>

"Dad."

Ahima found his father in the living room, speculatively eyeing up a bowl of cut glass.

<hr>

...

<hr>

"Did you ever want to become anything other than a guardian?"

Irya's mother set the ladle down in the pot and turned her full attention on Ahima.

He stood very still and straight though the weight of that attention made him want to pull away.

She reached out and tucked her hand behind his head and bent to his height. "I wanted to protect my family," she said. "I never thought once about whether I wanted to be the guardian."

Ahima blinked at her for a long moment, not fully comprehending such a statement.

But Irya's mother patted him on the head gently and told him to clean his hands for supper, so he let her words wash over him and dipped his head obediently, turning to action rather than thought. It was only later in the night that he took them down off the shelf of his mind again and considered.

Irya's breath was slow and even beside him. His friend had curled up on his side and gone straight to sleep while Ahima pretended sleepiness. Irya's house was a good place to think things over, so far ashore from the Dragon Sea where Ahima's family lived. High up in the mountains and the river gurgling away too distant to even hear from Irya's house, Ahima could pretend he was free of the water he swam in, the current of his mother's expectations.

And perhaps that was the taste of what Irya's mother meant. She had lived in her own sea, dived below the waves, and to be the guardian was her tool and not her duty.

<hr>

The day was very quiet, tall evergreen trees swaying in the soft rush of wind the only real sound. Ahima had thought he'd be able to hear the distant gurgle of the river, but it was quiet.

His left hand rested over the contract mark on his right arm. It wasn't the only one, but it was the most visible and accessible. He held it and really thought in the direction of whatever high one was on the other end.

"Can you help?" he asked.

=== 2/18/25 ===

==== Story 2 ====

Light shines in the most unexpected of places. Sometimes Song things it'd be nice to know that someone actually cared about her and her brother, but she doesn't focus on that most days. It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth focusing on, nice to haves and wishful dreams airier than summer clouds above them.

Her brother has a sullen face and he sometimes looks at her like he's brooding over some idea that's also not worth focusing on. She taps her shoulder against his to make him stop.

They reach a likely corner where she sets down her mother's violin, the only thing of value they really had, opens the case in front of her, and starts to play. Her brother sits just far enough away to not detract from the pitiful sight Song makes while still giving off a vaguely protective vibe.

Song does not play the violin well. It's pity that drives a handful of people over the next few hours to drop just enough dollars in the violin case that they'll buy a meal for the day to split. It's not enjoyment. No one would look at Song as she is now and enjoy it.

==== Grow What You Have ====

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey." – Matthew 25:14-15 NKJV

If I want him to live until I come, what is that to you? Follow me.

=== 2/24/25 ===

==== Note to Self: What is That to You? ====

I am reminded often lately of the line in Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis where Aslan tells various characters: "That is someone else's story. I am telling you your story."

And in that, I see the echoes of the Gospel of John, towards the final words of the book, where Jesus tells Peter, "If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me."

It is easy to look at the spirituality of others, those you have loved and admired and looked up to over the years, and think to yourself, but I am the least, how could I be the one that God has chosen? It can be easy to think to yourself that you do not have the talents or the promises or the strengths that others have.

But again, the Parable of the Talents, where some are given five, some two, some one. Was the one who was given two talents unable to find the approval of his Lord? No, his master did not look upon the one who had ten talents to return to him and compare him who had only four. He told them both, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

Sometimes, you see those who are so much younger than you and yet who have done so much more than you. You see those who seem to have greater skills and capabilities, who have accomplished more though they started later, who are able to work harder. And yet, what is that to you? Follow Him.

Again, the Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard. Those who idled until late, even the eleventh hour, who worked only one hour, they received the same wages as those who worked from the early morning.

There are days you feel you are worthless, you have accomplished nothing for all you were given talents, and perhaps you are not even remaining in God's plan. But God's will for you is not dependent on the strength of others, or whether you are as righteous, as early, as strong, or even as productive as they are. His will for you is that you take what you have been given, no matter how meagre or abundant, and follow Him. His favor is found by simply choosing to come and serve as best you may.

== March 2025 ==

=== 3/31/25 ===

==== Some Kind of Heaven ====

"Hello, Yinna." Ahima tucked his folded hands beneath his chin and aimed the faintest of smiles into the device screen. Irya wasn't in the room, so he had free room to flop out on the bed and call whoever he wanted.

Yinna turned his nose up suspiciously and eyed the entire screen with obvious scrutiny. "Just you?" he sounded surprised. "I thought you'd drag Irya along."

Ahima tapped a finger on the spread, considering those words with interest. "Usually Irya's the one dragging me along."

"Ah." Instant understanding lit in Yinna's eyes. He leaned back, apparently at his desk, the top edges of a book in frame.

"Stuying?" Ahima asked.

Yinna nodded easily. "We all get homework."

Whatever candidate pool he was automatically in from birth, Ahima surmised. It tended to be a thing with the eastern clans; they didn't give their children time to decide whether they wanted to be in it.

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-03-02T22:26:06Z

Lianamir: /* Some Kind of Heaven */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-28T18:46:28Z

Lianamir: /* Some Kind of Heaven */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-24T19:32:22Z

Lianamir: /* ? */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-24T19:21:14Z

Lianamir: /* 2/18/25 */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-19T00:34:06Z

Lianamir: /* 2/18/25 */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-19T00:20:22Z

Lianamir: /* 2/16/25 */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-18T16:43:41Z

Lianamir: /* Some Kind of Heaven */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-16T23:27:32Z

Lianamir: /* 2/16/25 */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-16T22:44:32Z

Lianamir: /* Ahima */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-16T22:44:17Z

Lianamir: /* Ahima */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

==== Ahima ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni remembered the first time he'd met Irya several clans gatherings ago in the midautumn before he turned ten. At the time, he'd been both amused and befuddled at Irya's propensity to run around, chatter in his friendly way at kids until they'd become his friends before they really knew how it happened, and despite all his being underfoot in such a crowd, never quite getting hurt.

Of course, that particular faculty of his suddenly made sense.

Ahima vaguely recalled having seen it before once, Irya's arm waving right through a supposedly solid object while he stretched dangerously far overhead for a book on one of his built-in shelves.

"Convenient," Ahima said dryly.

Irya glanced down with a curious expression but kept waving his arm through the bottom of the shelf until he caught on the book he wanted and pulled it through the shelf too.

"Can you make anything like that, so it goes through things?"

"Kind of." Irya tossed the book down on the bed and flopped backward against the pillow. "It's not really making it go through things exactly."

Ahima studied Irya for a long minute, trying to imagine where Irya's contract marks were hidden. He'd never noticed them, though Ahima was fairly certain Irya knew where Ahima's were. "So what is it then?"

Irya frowned. His fingers fiddled with the book a moment, then he sighed, sat up, and draped himself over Ahima's back.

Even though they'd only known each other four years, Ahima knew that Irya actually wasn't much of a cuddler, so he presumed that this wasn't something Irya liked to talk about–or would want him sharing with anyone else.

"It's like your name," Irya said after a moment. "This is the near heaven, but everyone knows there are others."

And wasn't that a startling thought. "You can make things pass through other heavens?"

"Instead of this one. Or this one too, but"–Irya blew out a sigh–"they have to pass through some kind of heaven."

Ahima chewed on that for a long moment. He wasn't sure exactly what about it bothered Irya. "Your head is heavy," he finally said.

"Sorry," Irya answered. And didn't move. At all.

Ahima sighed. "My parents want me to be the next bridge builder of our band."

Ahima was thirteen years old. By all rights, he was far too young to even be thinking about a lifelong sworn duty or whether he was at all well suited for it. But there had never been any question his parents were thinking about it from almost the moment Ahima was born.

Irya hmmmed thoughtfully. "You'd be good at it."

"I wouldn't," Ahima replied promptly.

"Of course, you would." Irya shifted around to go from lying on Ahima's back to basically hugging him. "You're everybody's favorite friend."

Ahima stayed silent.

Irya was the friend maker of their group. Irya had fished Ahima out of the crowded Doschtongar encampments and played with him one year, then introduced him to two more friends the next gathering from completely different clan land allotments, then two more the next. The size of their friend group seemed to grow faster than Ahima really knew how to deal with, but he mostly got by sticking close to Irya and Uchulr and only saying something when he knew how it would go over. Ahima wasn't the favorite, nor the anchor of the wheel, nor the bridge maker, and he never had been.

But trying to change Irya's mind had always been pointless.

"You're my brother, right?" Ahima asked lightly, invoking a promise from several summers back. "You'd say that even if I was just your favorite."

Irya sat up and grabbed Ahima in a playful strangehold. "You are my favorite. You'll just have to deal with it."

Ahima laughed and laughed. There wasn't really escaping someone who could control which heaven your bodies were in, but Ahima didn't particularly want to escape, for all he tried.

<hr>

Ahima's parents liked Irya and liked that he was forcibly broadening Ahima's friends group beyond what Ahima was willing to do himself. Ahima always felt like he could breathe a little easier when he came out for the summer, slept in Irya's bed, and ran around Irya's mountains where kids were allowed to be kids without being forced to be anything else just yet. So he'd never let on how much he left the friend making and keeping to Irya and just let the tide of other kids ebb and flow around him, as if he was just dangling feet in the ocean instead of swimming.

Ahima stared at the ceiling that night a long time after Irya had fallen asleep and burrowed into Ahima's side as if he were a pillow. Ahima almost wished their other gathering friends were here, so he could figure out if Irya was actually right, but he also shrank from the idea. It was easier not to test the theory.

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-16T22:32:16Z

Lianamir: /* 2/16/25 */

Tracker: Notebook 2025

2025-02-16T22:20:41Z

Lianamir: Created page with "Category:Writing TrackerCategory:PoetryCategory:Fiction == February 2025 == === 2/16/25 ==="

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== February 2025 ==

=== 2/16/25 ===

Tracker: Notebook 2024

2024-09-01T22:19:21Z

Lianamir: /* 9/1/24 */

Tracker: Notebook 2024

2024-09-01T22:17:33Z

Lianamir: /* */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== Poetry, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== find your wings (poem) ====

One of those things: 
look around 
maybe breathe

Don't forget to find your wings: 
spread them hard 
fly, believe

==== Talent (poem) ====

The things that work 
Can often be so easily forgot 
The things that work 
So easily are things that can't be taught 
Talents granted 
From the King 
By heaven, they were bought 
Then graciously
Were given to me
Without my having sought

==== Road (poem) ====

Been a while 
I know 
Been a terrible road 
The things that you don't know 
Before you're called to go

==== hard (poem) ====

Is it that hard 
to speak in a rhythm 
in a rhyme 
with a boom 
with a bang

Is it that hard 
to feel in a prism 
with a sigh 
with a laugh 
with a pang

Is it that hard 
to fall in a chasm 
in the air 
do not care 
'til I'm there

Is it that hard 
to turn like a schism 
hand on stone 
from the bone 
don't let go

==== planting (poem) ====

wisdom is the color of my heart 
as I want it to be 
so I'll plant my sight on wisdom 
until I am a tree

==== The Presence (poem) ====

Joy is in the presence of the Lord 
Where is it I'm living, by that word? 
Where am I, adrift on endless clouds 
When this painful living gets too loud? 
Ah, find me, Spirit! Find me, Prince of Peace 
Make this inner chaos finally cease 
I praise You: may I enter at the gates 
And finally find the joy in Your embrace?

==== Eye Be Single (poem) ====

Find a song in my heart 
And a light on my steps 
My eyes towards the heavens 
To see what is next

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Brightness Arrayed (poem) ====

Ah, another grand day! 
My eyes see the light, I pray 
That my heart is also swayed 
By the brightness now arrayed 
Before my waking face 
When I look toward Your grace

==== me (poem) ====

awkward, sometimes 
it would be nice to be 
another person 
yet still me

==== may happiness (poem) ====

may happiness precede and follow you 
and always walk with you 
may the rains shower on you 
and bring new life to you 
may the sun shine brightly 
and the moon glow nightly 
lighting your way 
for you I will pray

=== 5/30/24 ===

==== abloom (poem) ====

happiness 
I close my eyes 
brace my soul 
I feel the light 
I open hands 
my heart abloom 
cleanse my spirit 
and make room

==== ever calling (poem) ====

sometimes we forget the important things 
perhaps drift from our roots or lose our wings 
and yet a Voice e'er calling before us sings 
look to me! it cries, from darkness brings

== Poetry, June 2024 ==

=== 6/9/24 ===

==== before my eyes (poem) ====

endless ages pass 
the flicker of eternal streams 
that which waking lies 
before my eyes and in dreams 
all the visions cast 
upon my canvas mind 
held until they last 
shining in my sight

==== Your Path (poem) ====

God of my fathers, my mothers, my friends 
Who held me and kept me, beginning to end 
Be with me now as I go 'round this bend 
Your path before me, I trust You will mend

== Poetry, July 2024 ==

=== 7/18/24 ===

==== Where Sunlight (poem) ====

Good morning where the sunlight grows 
From solemn dark to bright shining day 
And over the hours, my awareness flows 
Of glorious Love: I start to pray 
To Him who made my every step 
And all this earthly loveliness!

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Wouldn't It Be (poem) ====

Wouldn't it be nice? 
Don't want to think twice 
Want to be all right 
Can we turn on the light?

== Prose, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== Focus on God Who Bears our Burdens ====

From the Old Testament to the New, God promises to bear our burdens, if we will just come to Him.

"Blessed be the Lord God, who daily bears our burdens, God who is our salvation." – Psalm 68:19 NJV (verify)

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." – Matthew 11:28 NKJV

"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." – I Peter 5:6-7 NKJV

Every day, when the sorrows of this world press down upon me, when I'm missing the loved ones I have lost, when my failures and mistakes weigh on me, I have such a tendency to berate myself or struggle under the weary heaviness of it all, forgetting that these are burdens! All I need do is come to Him. I can cast away my burdens and give them into His hands, and He will care for me and give me rest.

It is so often my heart that is my greatest burden, every time my humanity or this world in all its imperfections seems to much to bear. But God promises His strength in our weakness and His peace in our hearts.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." – Philippians 4:2 NKJV

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Notes on Worldbuilding: World-Growing ====

Worldbuilding appears to be much like conlanging. Before one goes making up a wild new detail, perhaps one ought to revisit the material already present and "grow" a new detail. In the case of developing modern banking, for example, one should look at the original methods of long-distance trade and commerce one has already developed and determine how this people would solve that problem, rather than turning solely to how Earth peoples have.

== Prose, June 2024 ==

=== 6/2/24 ===

They crossed Wa Shioke on the Lihuela-tsau Road, then turned seaward at the Iiyetretha Passage. Irya was a little surprised that they chose to walk the entire way, a twelve-day journey on foot, but said nothing about it, taking his turns to gather wood for evening fires and putting on food at the regular encampments. Truthfully, he hadn't taken this way before, and he wondered a little at taking it now.

Leshet lived up to her name, quiet and explaining little. Her husband Kosye told barracks stories, interesting tidbits of deployments aimed at enlivening dinner rather than revealing information. Irya too told stories and picked out images from the stars and didn't talk about the coastline ahead, altogether too verdant for winter.

Leshet caught him looking at it once. "When he does act," she said quietly, "he never does it by halves."

Irya considered that point for a long moment. "He who holds power over life and death?"

"Yes."

It was enough to realize that Leshet had encountered the high one before the events of the black rain. He considered asking her about it, but let the moment linger perhaps too long. She was nodding a goodnight and ducking into her tent.

They reached the Alhaies plain on the thirteenth day toward the end of the sun watch of the morning, approaching noon. The grassy fields were distinct from the farmland beyond them, a soil more crumbly and dry and less suited to growing crops. Instead, comfortably-sized homes were scattered across the plain, each perhaps twenty claws or so apart, and a winding dirt road darted and wove between them.

Leshet's was somewhere toward the middle of the plain. They passed under a copse of evergreen trees, their needles still hugging shivers of frost, though the dragon's breath winds had melted the rest off the ground. A garden sat in the front of the house, seeming properly winterized. He wondered if she paid a helper to maintain it when she was deployed. They passed between the northern and southern sections of the garden up the little cobbled walk to her front door, and she let them in to a surprisingly and pleasantly warm front entry.

"Shoes off," Kosye commented as he put his own boots against the wall.

Leshet glanced around and murmured, "It's good to be home."

== Prose, July 2024 ==

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Can You Bridge the Sea? ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni had been coming to every annual clans gathering since before he could remember. After all, his parents weren't the kind of people to turn down an opportunity to meet new people, form new social connections, nor when he was still a small child, from suggesting he do the same.

"Put down the book, dear child," his mother tucked her fingers into Ahima's hair and kissed the top of his head. "Go find someone to play with."

He was still small and young, but his mother's touch wasn't such a casual thing, for all he could sense the affection in it. He knew she was looping some thread of sensation she could detect and he could not that would alert her should he be in any kind of trouble at all.

There was no point in arguing. He set the book aside and wrapped it safely under his blanket, then went out into the encampment of his mother's clan, Doscht.

It was a sea of people, full of currents and tides that left him feeling dizzy as he turned this way and that, seeking some quiet eddy to settle in. There were none readily at hand. Certainly, there were groups of children playing in the open spaces where fires and tables were located between tents and pavilions, but they seemed no less hectic. He wondered which of the trees in sight might be safe to climb.

That was when a little boy appeared directly in front of him, dirty-faced and grinning and shorter than Ahima was, dark eyes seeming bright with friendliness. "Want to play?"

Ahima went still, his heartbeat thudding a little too intensely in his chest.

The little boy tapped his chest. "I'm Irya."

"Oh." Ahima forced his body to relax. "Ahima. What do you want to play?"

The grin came back and Irya pointed a good ways away from the crowd. "There's a good spot up there on the bridge."

The bridge had traffic, but it wasn't crowded the way the encampment was. Barely had he thought it, then Irya took him by the hand and Ahima found himself tugged insistently in that direction. It was an odd feeling, not as unpleasant as when his father held his shoulder and told him to say hello to his uncles and aunts and cousins, nor was it quite as inconsiderate of his own desires as his mother's admonitions to play, to talk to his classmates, and to participate in the neighborhood performance events.

Irya took him to the top of the bridge down the pedestrian walkway, a broad strip of paved stone with a tall fence between it and the vehicular lanes and a strip of grass, shrubs, and the occasional tree between it and the railing that looked down over the Stone's Heart River.

"I fished up here once with my dad," Irya told him, promptly climbing a tree, but keeping his knees below the railing, giving it a good side-eye for a moment.

Ahima chuckled to himself, certain Irya's mother had made the rule. "Do you have a pole?"

"Nope." Irya picked a fistful of late nuts off the tree, then shimmied back down, and looked pointedly at Ahima's hands. "Next time," Irya said.

Ahima held up his hands. Irya counted out half the nuts.

They didn't do anything rambunctious that boys their age were expected to. They sat down at the foot of the tree, pounded open nuts with a rock, much to Irya's dismay whenever Ahima actually smashed one to dust, then tossed rocks in the river and took turns climbing up other trees and shooting shells at each other.

A bright horn sounded over the splashing river below as the light began to turn a dusky blue. Irya grimaced. "We should head back."

Ahima nodded but stayed up in the branches a moment longer, straining to see the small boat come into view from which the horn was sounding. "It sounds like my grandfather bellowing in the evening."

Irya giggled. "Don't worry. I won't tell him."

Ahima would have been lost getting back, but Irya grabbed his hand once they were both on the ground and dove through the crowds wending their way back to campsites, ducking and dragging Ahima with him below the arms of adults, and squeezing between people that probably really hadn't left enough room. It was fun, in a way. Like Ahima and Irya were in their own world. Then Irya deposited him right where he'd found him and waved cheerily before he darted away into the stream of people, like a bright little sunfish in the water.

"Who was that?" Ahima's mother asked before he'd even ducked under the tent flap.

"A friend," Ahima answered without thinking, before he suddenly thought better of it.

But his father patted his head and his mother smiled, and he packed away the unpleasant feeling it gave him before they sat down to eat.

<hr>

Irya found him the next morning. Ahima certainly wouldn't have been able to return the favor.

But he couldn't help but laugh. "Are you ever clean?" Ahima asked.

Irya scoffed. "I'm playing. What's the point of coming to gathering early if you don't look around a bit?"

It was true that the swearing ceremonies weren't until tomorrow, but Ahima hadn't ever thought about it. What was there to look at? He glanced around at the rousing families, so many of them with tasks and errands and plans, like a rising tide of the sea. Ahima didn't hate the sea, but he didn't understand it. It overwhelmed him.

"I suppose so," he said.

Irya cocked his head, looking puzzled, but sat down and helped himself to a bite of fruit off Ahima's plate.

"Rude," Ahima commented without heat.

"I fed you first." Irya grinned and handed Ahima a roll, still warm and soft.

"Ah, so is this your friend?" Ahima's mother's voice had always been lovely, soft and warm and friendly. Ahima stiffened at the sound of it.

Irya waved, cheery tilt to his mouth. "I'm Tsadirya-kolos," he announced and dipped his head respectfully.

"It's very nice to meet you," she replied, still warmly. "Are you neighbors with us?" A slight gesture toward the campsites nearby.

He shook his head. "I'm from Ginieng. May I please have some of that?" he asked, giving an appraising look at the non-empty fruit platter they were serving breakfast from.

"Of course." Ahima's mother smiled, but he knew she was a little startled by Irya's statement. Taannongar wasn't exactly adjacent to Doscht's clan land allotment. "Your parents let you wander a great deal, do they?"

Irya swallowed down far too big a bite to clear his mouth to answer. "Yes, ma'am. May I please take Ahima to go play?"

Ahima was surprised at how sparse the answer was, but true to form, she gave her permission, and Irya dragged Ahima off, this time past the bounds of their encampment area and into a small park where Ahima knew they'd broadcast the ceremonies tomorrow but didn't allow camping. It was relatively quiet today, the roaring sea of humanity across a rather broad thoroughfare.

Ahima wasn't entirely certain why Irya had brought him, but he appreciated the quiet as they played tag and chase and how far can you throw it without anybody else bothering them. Visitors would wander through but in small quantities and easily avoidable. Irya finagled a band name out of Ahima, "So I can send you a letter?" "A public letter?" Ahima asked, horrified, and gave him his exact address. "Those are more expensive," Irya complained but Ahima just dug around in his pockets for extra solgu to give him. His mother always made sure he had at least some money on him.

Irya laughed and waved him off. "No, I can't take your money. But you better write back. Especially if I'm paying for private."

"Sure," Ahima promised without knowing why entirely. Irya was fun, but they hardly knew each other. "Why did you come over to Doschtongar?" he asked after a long moment.

Irya blinked, screwing up his mouth thoughtfully, then, "I'd like to see the territories someday. All of them. I figure until I can, I want to meet people from them."

It wasn't what Ahima had expected, he realized suddenly. He'd had some sort of expectation. He sat down next to Irya. "They're all people, just like each other." He'd seen a lot of the territories so far.

But Irya shrugged. "But all people are different."

And Ahima really wasn't sure what to make of that.

<hr>

He found his book safely under the blanket and read until his father snuffed out the light on them. It was a story about a little boy who always seemed to know just what to say, just what to do–with the grumpy turtle who could help him cross the stream, and the conniving fox who could guide him through the dark forest, and the powerful tiger who could lead him home over the mountain. And in the end, he went home.

"I'm glad you found a friend," his mother said before Ahima fell asleep.

<hr>

Ahima was ten the first time his parents were going to visit one of his friends. He tucked himself against the window of the rotorcraft and looked out at the green and golden fields below, the patches of dark where water flowed. He liked the roar of the blades drowning out their conversation. He liked the feeling of all that expanse to get lost in, where nothing else seemed to matter until it was time to set down on the earth again.

Irya's family lived far up the mountains in Ginieng. Ahima had looked it up when he'd gotten home in the great big encyclopedia his parents kept on the lower bookshelves, and traced fingers over the map. He'd been surprised they had their own platforms, but they could fly right there without having to stop in the northern valley and drive up.

Irya's father met them to walk them back to the house. He was tall and imposing, with not even the hint of a smile about his soldier-like demeanor, not at all what Ahima would've expected Irya's dad to be like, but he bowed politely and clearly gave his greetings before following close between his parents to do the same for Irya's mother. She had more expression to her face, laughter and frown lines both, but she smiled for them and hoped their trip had been pleasant and invited them into the calendar room for tea.

Irya popped up as if by magic behind his father. "Can I take Ahima now?"

His father picked him up by his waist and swung him over one shoulder. "Excuse our uncivilized offspring."

"Not at all." But Ahima's mother was clearly taken aback by the rough handling.

"Sorry, sorry," Irya said, voice muffled by his father's shirt.

He got set down and turned around, then bowed low to Ahima's parents. "Apologies. Greetings and I hope you had safe travels. May I please take Ahima now?"

Ahima's father laughed outright. "Yes, of course. Ah..." to Irya's parents: "I see you have a handful."

Ahima didn't mind being whisked away to Irya's small bedroom off the family room. It was crammed full of odds and ends on built-in shelves, and most of the room had been paneled in a medium-dark wood, with some decorative tapestries hanging in a few corners next to taped up posters. Irya flopped back on his bed and sighed, then popped up on one arm. "My parents think you're really polite."

Ahima raised his eyebrows. He was really polite, having been trained that way for as long as he could remember. "I brought you something." He held out the can his uncle had helped him with.

Irya held it up to eye it speculatively. "Noodle soup?"

"It's a Doscht dish." Slightly modified.

Irya worked over the lid for a moment, then tried a sip, nearly spitting it right back out. "Carbonated?!" He gave can and Ahima a double take, then laughed. "Why? Just why?"

Ahima leaned back against Irya's wall. "My uncle gave me some. It's not that bad."

"Does your uncle like you?" Irya asked mystified, then tried another sip before setting the can aside. "You are dangerous."

Ahima smiled back at him.

<hr>

Ahima stayed in Irya's room. Irya's sister was much quieter than Irya, curled up in a corner with a book herself most of the time, but after introducing them the first day, Irya didn't really give him an opportunity to go ask what she was reading. They spent most of the days outside, climbing trees, and playing by the river, and teaching Ahima to river fish, which was sufficiently different than sea-fishing to be interesting. Irya talked his dad into teaching Ahima how to whittle then whiled away several afternoons carving up likely looking wood branches and sticks.

Sometimes at night, when Irya had tumbled off into dreams beside him, Ahima would slip out of bed to go listen quietly to their parents' conversations. It wasn't entirely surprising Ahima's mother had approved of their friendship so easily; not only had Ahima been much slower to make friends than they wished, but Irya's parents were depressingly important in their band. His mother was head of the Giyande Guard. Ahima's mother would never turn down a valuable social connection like that.

"He's such a good and pleasant child. I hope he'll swear after me."

"Children never quite turn out the way we expect," Irya's mother replied. "I thought for sure my oldest son would take after me, but it's my second daughter who did. Ahima is a sweet kid though."

"So Irya won't be swearing after you?" Ahima's father asked.

"It doesn't seem likely," Irya's father answered. "He has... other talents."

Ahima got up then and went back to bed, tossing an arm over Irya's waist and burying his face in his back. Irya's breathing didn't change, and Ahima didn't think he even realized how nice his parents were, even when they weren't polite.

<hr>

Ahima had known for as long as he could remember the kinds of hopes his parents cherished for him. Stop reading, Ahima. Go make friends. Say hello to your aunts and uncles and cousins. If you must read, read this book of etiquette. You'll find it useful where we're going. Try to make some friends.

His mother was the bridge-maker of their band, and Ahima was her only son.

He was whittling away at a piece of wood, turning it into a frowning face with little wrinkles at the corners of its eyes, when his own eyes fell to the mark on his right arm that marked the potential contract with one of his mother's high ones. He had several marks, everyone did, but he was fairly certain this one was the one that let her talk effortlessly with anyone, say the right thing, do the right thing, make everyone happy. Inherited contracts had to be confirmed, everyone knew that, and everyone knew that contracts were usually confirmed when someone was in great danger.

Ahima didn't really think it through; he wasn't sure he'd been thinking at all. He'd been whittling, then he put the knife to his mark, as if he could cut it right off his arm, and he wanted it gone–or he wanted it real and active, and he didn't really know what he wanted; he only knew it hurt, terribly, and he dropped the knife and caught great gasping breaths against the bleeding pain, and suddenly, the entire forest changed.

The air went thick and heavy, a pressure too great to stand up under and Ahima felt the low growl of a creature too enormous and powerful to be an ordinary creature, threaded through with biting pinprick of a sharp blade cutting through him, and a heavy white mist wreathing the ground.

Irya was there, suddenly, yelling at him, wrapping his arms around him, and shoving his body right through him, so Ahima's arm was entirely overlapped by Irya's torso. It should have felt strange but Ahima just felt immobile and numb, the faintest flutter, then Irya pulled back and Ahima's arm was no longer afire with pain. He was covered in blood but the skin, and the mark on it, were both completely restored.

He stared at it for the longest time, even as the intense pressure of the high ones' presence faded and Irya's yelling began to penetrate his brain again. Ahima looked up at Irya. "Why did you do that?"

Irya shut up so abruptly, it might have made Ahima laugh under any other circumstance. Irya blinked furiously, as if in disbelieving confusion. "Why?"

There was a long moment when they both stared at each other, shocked into silence, then Irya shook himself forcefully, grabbed Ahima's shoulder, and propelled him back in the direction of the house. "We're going inside, and you're drinking tea."

Ahima let himself be yanked along, let himself be bundled into blanket and comfy chair and tea. Irya clearly needed to do something with him, so Ahima let him do it with a sense of wonder he didn't bother to self-assess. Someone's high ones had come. They just hadn't been Ahima's.

<hr>

A woodcarving accident. Ahima was banned from doing any more whittling unsupervised, and he didn't question it, didn't explain, didn't correct. He still didn't really know what in the world he'd been thinking when he'd done it, and he didn't want his parents to realize that it hadn't been an accident at all.

Irya fussed over him, tucking him in at night, and then letting Ahima lean his head on his shoulder as they went to sleep. Irya didn't ask any more questions, though Ahima was sure he had them. He didn't ask Irya why he refrained either.

So many things said, unsaid. Perhaps it was easier for everyone to just let it go.

<hr>

"How many siblings do you actually have?"

Irya was busy cooking Ginieng-style noodle soup in a pot. "There's five of us. My eldest sister and brother are married, and second sister's training in the guard."

"That sounds nice." Ahima wondered what it would be like to have siblings, to never have to be the one that took after a parent. He glanced over at the fireplace where Irya's sister Uniemi was close to finishing another book.

"Hand me that stuff." Irya waved commandingly.

Ahima handed over the carbonated water and watched Irya dump it in the pot.

"Don't worry," Irya said, grinning broadly. "I'll be your brother."

They watched the soup bubble a bit. Brother. Ahima felt that word sink inside him and bubble a bit before he could relax into the idea of it.

"You're going to be in so much trouble," Ahima told him.

Irya giggled and poured the soup into bowls.

==== The Last Boy ====

Ten-year-old Cody had headphones on. There was nothing playing, not that his father noticed. He listened to his parents discuss quietly in the kitchen getting him out of the way for their vacation, then their business. Wouldn’t a proper boarding school be good? No bother at Christmas.

He listened to the background music of their indifference, hunched shoulders on the couch, undone homework in his lap, and pretended he didn’t know they didn’t love him.

<hr>

Cody came out of the taxi looking worse for wear, scruffy black hair hanging in the way of wary eyes, backpack worn like armor, and an apathetic flat frown in place when he stood before the cottage his parents had just sent him to stay in.

He was a second cousin, nothing special and never particularly loved. Except… that wasn’t entirely true. His papa had loved him once, before he became “Father,” retreating ever more distant and cold into his work.

“You must be Cody. Come on in.”

He took in Cassie’s warm, bright smile as she stood on the front porch to welcome him, but he didn’t believe it.

Cassie was fifteen years old when Cody came to live with them. Cody was ten. He was the last boy, all the rest having come or even left before his arrival. When she went in to tell Mama Ruth that he had safely arrived and was settling into his room, she was not wearing a smile.

“Do all of our family members marry deadbeats?” she asked, sneering bitterness on her tongue. It came out with more heat and venom than she usually allowed herself to express.

Mama Ruth shut up dinner in the oven again, turned off the heat, and came to wrap Cassie in one of those enveloping hugs that made her feel like it shut out all the world. She held on, trying not to cry.

Mama Ruth patted her on the back. “It’s going to be okay. He’s here now, and we’re going to be here for him.”

“Yeah.” Cassie nodded as she pulled away.

It sounded so easy. She knew already from long experience with all the rest of their strays, it really wasn’t easy at all.

Skip slid in socked feet across the wooden entryway with a whoop and shoved a camera in the vague direction of the stairwell. Before it even got into position, a hand shoved it down rather forcefully. Skip blinked in surprise.

Cody scowled at him. “Don’t,” he said, narrowed eyes, cutting tone.

Skip cocked his head at him, read him for the briefest of glances with a serious expression, then smiled so brightly it could make one wonder if the moment had happened. He spread his arms wide. “Welcome!”

Cody didn’t say so, but he didn’t like it.

<hr>

Light cut through the morning. Cassie had been waiting for that. She threw open her cousin’s door and got back a baleful glare under his crazy bedhead.

She grinned cheerfully. Up, up, up!

<hr>

“Cody’s not feeling well.”

“I’m fine.” Cody scowled from where he was curled up on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, and watching a movie he couldn’t quite seem to focus on.

Song glanced over, eyebrows up in surprise. She gave Mama Ruth a tiny flash of a smile then came over to the couch and sat down next to Cody.

He stiffened in surprise of his own.

Arm around his shoulders, leaned on her while they watched the movie

<hr>

food
playing (violin)
brought him tea
dragged CJ in to clear room

Cody: Thanks
CJ: So you’re the new stray
Song: closes door on him
CJ: See where I rank
Song smiles, amused

<hr>

In trouble for fighting because insulting Song

<hr>

Song brought him back from school

Mama Ruth can’t do those things

Of course

Song: You can’t do those things.

Why?

I love you because God taught me how.

Reads Bible when she’s gone

<hr>

The folder was labeled simply:

Violin.

He took Song’s music, put it in the queue, sat on the couch, and hit play.

=== 7/21/24 ===

==== 3 Times It Was Way Too Quiet and 1 Time It Was Way Too Loud ====

"It's too quiet." Noah sat up in the bed and looked around at the still, dark bedroom, listening for any sounds of tiny feet beyond the door.

His wife Grace groaned and buried her face in the pillow. "It's 5 a.m. It's supposed to be quiet."

"I don't trust it."

Grace squinted up at him a moment. "Well, it's your turn." Then she rolled over and went back to sleep.

Noah sighed and got himself up to go check the kids' bedrooms. Empty rumpled covers. His instincts hadn't been wrong, but he still wasn't sure which way they'd gone. He headed for the living room where it looked like three little someones had set up a bookshelf—did they even have spare bookshelves?— on a stack of books as a makeshift seesaw. He barely had time to note the three cherubic faces of his kids and open his mouth to ask what they were up to before the shelf sawed and his face met a yowling, claws-out cat.

The collective gasp of the children did not make him feel any better.

It took a few minutes to order them to stay put, calm the cat, and wipe off the bloody scratches in the kitchen sink, before coming back around to stare meaningfully down at them. "Do you want to explain yourselves?"

"Uh..."

Luke, the six-year-old eldest, his sister Emmie, the four-year-old, and open-mouthed Matthew, their two-year-old brother, clearly did not want to explain themselves.

The cat had meanwhile thoroughly attached itself to Noah’s shoulders and hissed at them.

"Well, we heard cats always land on their feet," Luke began.

Noah’s eyebrows shot up. "So you decided to test the theory?"

Matthew nodded, Emmie tucked her head behind Luke, and Luke grimaced, clearly knowing that was the wrong answer.

“And if I dropped you from five feet in the air and you landed on your feet, wouldn’t it still hurt?”

“Uh…” Very thoughtful little furrowed brows followed.

“The Bible tells us that godly people take care of their animals.” Noah pulled the cat gently down into his arms. She continued to eye the kids balefully. “You need to be considerate of living beings,” Noah emphasized.

Luke frowned. “Even spiders?”

Noah was no fan of spiders. He conceded, “Living beings bigger than bugs.”

Emmie looked dubious, but Luke nodded readily at this much happier state of affairs. He was even less a fan of spiders than his dad.

Noah supervised their cleaning up and laid down some new rules as regards getting permission before running experiments.

<hr>

"Can we get a refund?" he asked, much later, much exhausted.

"No! I love my babies!" Grace eyed him dubiously.

"I love our babies too,” he protested. “But…”

“You wouldn't trade them for anything,” she reminded him.

He sighed. “No, I wouldn't, but you didn't eat a cat's claws for breakfast."

Grace did an admirable job of trying not to laugh. “Well, still no.”

<hr>

A few days later, Grace checked that the kids were all safely occupied with their books and blocks before whisking off the next batch of clean laundry from laundry room to bedroom. She could hear the lull of their conversation and it was only a moment.

Then it got quiet. Too quiet.

Grace groaned and hurried back to where she’d left them not two minutes prior. One and all had relocated from their corner of the living room.

She looked in the kitchen. They were not in the kitchen. She looked down the hallway, and they were not in the hallway. She poked her head back in the laundry room and immediately declared, “Luke! Emmie!”

She bent down and pulled Matthew back out of the dryer and realized abruptly he was soaking wet.

“Children. What did you do?”

“Uh…” Luke always seemed to know when the true answer was not going to fly as the right answer.

Emmie cheerfully announced, “Matthew got wet, so we were going to dry him.”

Grace kept a very straight face, cuddled her youngest child protectively, then carefully explained to them that it was not safe to “dry” a child the way one would laundry. “Next time, just come get me.”

“Yes, Mommy,” Emmie answered promptly.

Luke poked his head in the dryer. “It always looks so fun though.”

“No,” Grace said firmly. “You will never run yourself or any other living creature through the washer or dryer.”

Luke sighed. “Yes, Mom.”

<hr>

“Where do children come up with these ideas?” she asked Noah much later, much exhausted. She’d had to extend the proscription to all household appliances after they’d tried to vacuum up some dirt off of Emmie’s shirt with rather undesirable results.

Noah did a much less admirable job of not laughing. “I think they get it from you. I’m sure I never did that growing up.”

She threw a pillow at his head. “Don’t make me call your mother and ask her.”

He conceded the battle promptly, holding up his hands for peace. “I’m sure you were the soul of discretion as a child. Clearly, they’re innovators.”

<hr>

The next night, it was not too quiet. It was not quiet at all. A great series of thumps and bangs brought both parents out of their bed to the living room where the cherub-faced little innovators had managed to bring down the entire bookcase full of books and were industriously building a fort.

Grace looked at Noah. “Your turn.” She headed back for bed.

Noah braced himself and sat down next to the kids, who all paused and looked at him with curious expressions. Except Matthew. He was chewing on a book cover.

Noah rescued the book and put Matthew in his lap.

“You know,” he started, “your mom’s carrying your little sister, and she’s really tired and needs her sleep.”

“Were we too loud?” Emmie asked.

“Yes. It’s late at night. You’re supposed to be in bed, *asleep*, not bringing down the house, so your mom and I will worry, and then have to clean it up in the morning.”

Luke fidgeted uncomfortably. Emmie’s face fell. “I’m sorry, Daddy.” Luke nodded along with that.

“It’s okay. Let’s get the three of you to bed.” He decided to worry later about how much of that went into Matthew’s head and focused on tucking the three back in under their covers, ordering them gently to *stay there* until morning.

Mercifully and perhaps providentially, they did.

<hr>

But when morning did come, he sat up in bed and said, “It’s too quiet.”

It was Grace’s “turn”, but he didn’t wake her up. He got out of bed and went to check on the kids—who were once again, not in their beds.

He checked in the bathroom. No kids. Down the hallway. No kids. In the kitchen. No kids and no stepladder. The living room.

Three cute little kids sneaking around the living room quietly, exaggeratedly hushing each other at intervals, as they put all the books back on the shelves. Matthew sat next to a stack and handed one over as the older kids grabbed them one at a time, climbed up the stepladder, set the book in place, then came down for another.

Noah watched for a moment, then went back in the kitchen and made a tray of milk and cookies. When the kids noticed him coming in with it, their eyes lit up and they quickly abandoned their work for a cookie break. Matthew climbed up into his lap.

“Thanks, Daddy!”

He wiped the crumbs off Emmie’s face and rubbed Luke’s head. “You know I wouldn’t trade you kids for anything.”

=== 7/29/24 ===

==== Where Memory Walks ====

Memory walks beside her, though she doesn't court it. Leshet wakes to the electric tang familiar to her as breathing.

Tayas, she greets through her device.

She feels then his sleepy, just awakened attention. Leshet. A pause, then the sharp prickling of his interest. Has something happened? He's intelligence now. He no longer turns to electricity on the battlefield.

It is memory beside her, not her friend.

No, she sends back. Just good morning.

He's always been sharp, even before he became intelligence. She knows he does not believe her.

But he answers anyway, Well, good morning to you, too.

<hr>

A light rain sprang up as they began to break camp; white mists curled off the ground. Leshet paused to stare up at the cloudy skies.

It tasted wrong. Nitrates that weren't Tayas, rain that wasn't Mokhein.

Vetta came to stand beside her. He said nothing to break the moment, just waited with her. He'd always been a good kid. Mokheyenn's descendent. He'd always been more like his grandfather than his grandmother, a storm without her thunder.

Leshet looked at him then, the white hair he'd inherited from both sides, the frost on his breath from Mokhein. "Curun," she called him by his band name.

But he wasn't here as her squad leader. "Sometimes I think about her too."

He'd always been a good kid. Leshet patted his shoulder and went to help break camp.

<hr>

Leshet had been elite since before Ameri raised this stretch of mountains. She helped to lay this path they're patrolling through them, on their way to the next watchpoint. She'd been bred for it, raised to it, married in it. She sometimes wondered if she knew how to be anything else.

A walk through the rain and mists of another white spring. Her unit stayed watchful and alert, eyes open for enemies that would likely not appear.

There were still enemies sometimes on the northern border circuit, raiders from beyond Northland and the Hilakhot clans, but in the mountains of the southern border, there was only tension, not real skirmishes or war. There was enough space in the familiar winds for memory to settle into the spaces where her former companions and their former war used to fit. The air seemed to vibrate with the singing tension of Saiyar's power. Tayas, the storm. Mokhein, the rain. Saiyar, the rumbling in the earth and a symphony of winds. There were others, flickering like shadows through her heart.

She looked ahead to those who stood beside her now, bumped her shoulder lightly against her husband's arm. He didn't make a big thing out of it. He just lightly bumped her back.

<hr>

They made camp at another waypoint, set a fire, divided their watches. Leshet and her husband, Vetta and his combat partner Anae went up first, finding the usual spots to face outward, guardians against whatever enemies might choose to come.

Are you tired?

Usually Tayas didn't call her at random moments, let alone opening with random questions. Especially, when he should know she was standing watch.

Did you need something? She managed not to infuse the send with too much amusement.

He likely heard it anyway, the analyst in him difficult to evade. I promise, it's relevant.

It gave her pause. What trouble was Tayas going to drop on her now?

But did it truly matter? She looked out from their mountains toward the distant plains, and she answered, No.

=== 9/1/24 ===

==== Find Me in the Snow ====

Under every story lies the sea.

<hr>

Uniemi's brother Irya always ran around like a wild child, in her eyes. Grinning so brightly his eyes disappeared into half-moon shapes, he threw himself into every unnecessary task he ever set for himself.

She'd seen him scramble up the huge trunks of ancient trees to fetch down his mother's favorite flowers, nearly giving their mother conniptions, though it wasn't their mother's face that gave it away, but rather the pained lining to her grateful smiles and the later rules on what constituted safe climbing. She'd seen him skip across the river, raging with fresh snowmelt, from boulder to boulder before their father found out and banned river-crossing until it went back down in summer. She'd seen Irya run around every gathering, crossing miles in a day, weary and dirty but triumphant with another new friend from some distant clan before their father hosed him off in cold water before bed.

In short, Uniemi had figured out a long time ago that her little brother was the least likely of all five children of the family to ever reach adulthood.

<hr>

Their parents' voices were very quiet as they shooed the children into their sister's house and over to the fireplace, but Uniemi and Irya were never particularly likely to sit out of hearing range when bad things seemed afoot. It was unusual enough to trek over to their sister's house in the middle of the night, let alone when snow had begun to fall on the mountain. Traveling could become treacherous rather quickly.

Irya snuck over to the bedroom and put his ear to the door. Uniemi honestly didn't wait very far behind him.

"She got so sick so fast," their older sister Yuni said, a faint thread of fear underlying her voice. "We're out of snowflowers and haven't found any yet this year."

Uniemi and Irya exchanged glances. The winter fever had always been treated with snowflower tea. If you caught it quickly enough, it wasn't fatal, but that window was terribly short.

"We can try to take her to the hospital," their father said.

"It's not safe to travel," their mother answered shortly.

The distance between the two houses was relatively short, a trek across the town of Ginieng. The hospital was a whole town over, dangerous in a snowstorm.

The two children went back over to the fire before their parents could come out and find them eavesdropping.

Uniemi shivered, the book she'd brought with her no longer comforting. Their niece was just a few months old. Taking her out in this weather would be as risky as trying to ride out the fever.

Irya grimaced. "I found snowflowers the other day."

Uniemi lifted her head, alarmed. "Where?" Snowflowers grew up tall trees he had no business climbing under their mother's new rules.

"I didn't climb up and grab them," Irya told her. "I just saw them."

"Oh. You have to tell father then. He can go look for them."

<hr>

Irya was too young to be dragged into this, his father's face said when he told him. Too young to brave the growing blizzard outside. He frowned at the window. "Dress warm," he said.

Irya put on all the layers his mother fished out of the closet for him. His marriage brother's coat was bigger than Irya's but "better awkward than frozen," his mother said.

His father took him by the hand, big glove swallowing Irya's smaller one, and startling him. His father hadn't held his hand since he was only four gatherings old, half the age he was now.

"Don't let go," his father told him.

He nodded. "Yes, father."

The wind nearly blew him over when they first walked out the door. He clung to his father's hand as they began the slow, difficult trek into the woods, Irya trying his hardest to serve as a faithful guide.

He couldn't see, he could barely feel his fingers. Being named for the snow certainly seemed to give him no advantage in it. But he thought of his sister and her tiny child, gripped his father's hand, and kept pushing onward.

His father pulled him to one side to avoid a rock he couldn't see, carefully kept him close, and Irya was glad he wasn't out here alone. He'd never felt his mountain so cold and alien and unfriendly to him before this night. But that feeling also seemed to make it harder to remember the way. He had to pause frequently and try to figure out the way he went. He'd mutter into his device his father had put in his ear a year ago and his father would answer back, but they couldn't hear each other's voices over the gale, only through the device, and the effect was equally disorienting.

Slowly, they reached the deeper woods, trees taller, branches thick with drifts of snow upon them. Irya got buried under one sliding off and his father had to drag him sputtering out from under it.

They walked more carefully, even boots providing only so much grip where ice had slicked on rocky surfaces and Irya felt tendrils of fear at not knowing how close the river was.

His teeth were starting to chatter. He held onto his father's hand like a lifeline, tried to crane his head to see, but all he could see was darkness and swirls of white in the freezing winds. "I don't know," he said suddenly into his device. "I don't know where we are."

His father picked him up suddenly, holding him close for a long moment. Irya felt like a tiny lost child and it was embarrassing, but he pressed his cold face against his father's warm neck and held on for as long as the moment lasted.

"Talk to me," his father said.

He meant more than that, Irya was sure, so Irya told him again about where he'd gone when he'd found the flowers, about how they'd been up in the nook of two great branches hanging over the river, so he hadn't climbed up to fetch them down. It was against the rules.

The whisper of a grimace through the device, a sensation that was always odd when it wasn't words, but right now, it was comforting to know his father was listening.

He set Irya down and carefully pointed him a little further to the leftward path. "Let's keep going."

<hr>

Uniemi tried not to fret. She read her book to drown out the world while her mother and Yuni carefully didn't talk about the baby fussing, just talked about Yuni's husband's deployment and when he'd be back, about their plans for the spring, about anything except father and Irya out in the snow.

The world was still inside Uniemi's heart. She couldn't drown it out.

<hr>

Irya looking back could never figure out how he got separated from his father. One moment, he had his hand tightly engulfed in his father's. The next, he'd stumbled and come loose. He scrambled right back up but couldn't find his father, couldn't hear him over the yelling winter winds, couldn't see him in the dark. He called over his device and heard, "Where are you?" but even answering, couldn't find him.

For too many frozen moments, he stood still so his father could find him. "I'm here, I'm here." But then he looked up at the great tree trunk beside him and went quiet. He recognized its shape, the twist of the great branch stretching out toward the river, the even larger one stretched out beside it.

He got up. He reached for the branch. "I found it."

"Irya, I'm coming."

And he should have waited perhaps to climb the branches, but the flowers were right there, and he climbed up before he could think to not, gingerly inched his way along their length, and felt for the lowest part of the stems. Snowflowers only bloomed in winter. They were the strangest of flowers, but their cold, lovely blues and whites would also heal.

He gathered them up, then shimmied carefully down the tree, dizzy with grateful relief, right before he slammed into something sharp and hard and painful and fell.

<hr>

Irya lay on the cold, snow-packed ground, shadows of dark trees overhead, breathing the knife-sharp cold of the air, pinpricks of snow hitting his face before they went numb. Night on the mountain, a blizzard swirling over his eyes, what should have been a roaring pain in his middle where he'd rammed himself sticky and bloody into a tree branch he couldn't see just moments ago.

Time slowed down, the treasure clutched in his fist somehow meaning both more and less than it once had, right when he'd chosen to go out into the storm. He needed the snowflowers for his tiny niece. He didn't know how he could possibly get up and trek back to his sister's house to give them to her.

His heart felt unbearably loud in his body. Each breath was a struggle. He closed his eyes, trying to find more strength somewhere in his body, and that's when he noticed the thread.

You're hurt, something like a voice echoed through him, more sensation than word, greater than the wind and fiercer, a low humming growl burning in his bones.

He opened his eyes then, but he didn't see anything different from the swirls of white and shadows above.

Do you want our power? another voice-like sensation drifted through him, expanded like mists, cool through his limbs.

He's so young to ask that, a third spoke, softer and more delicate than either of the other two, barely a distant chiming note. But I cannot heal him without it.

Sorrow in the low humming growl of who he suddenly realized was the tiger, that great hunter patron of his people. You can never turn aside.

Irya clutched at that voice, his empty hand reaching out as if he could catch her by the paw. "Please," he said, breaking the word into more syllables than it needed, trying to get it out over the pain and the panting breaths he could manage. Please. My sister's little girl. Please.

Is that what you want? asked the gentle chime, its bright note swelling and swelling, brighter, higher. You must always honor the faithful, that note sang.

You must make right whatever you can make right, added the overwhelming expansive mist.

You must never turn aside, growled the tiger.

Irya stared up through the impossible numb weightlessness of the too cold night. He couldn't speak it, only think it, so he thought it with all the strength he had left. Yes.

The wind grew quiet. The snow became calm upon the drifts, no longer swirling over his head. The pain in his body faded, and the numbness went sharp and stinging.

You may call us, if you ever need us, the expanse within him said.

Another ringing chime. But I don't think you often will.

The feeling of them receded, a heavy weight lifted. Irya forced himself to stand. He clutched the snowflowers to his chest and looked for some sign of which direction to go.

<hr>

His father found him first. An arm grabbed him up before he knew what hit him and he gasped, but then the piney scent of his father's great coat hit him, and Irya grabbed hold. "I got the snowflowers," he told his father.

His father didn't answer, just tightened his grip and trekked back through the tall drifts of crystalline white. His mouth was tight, almost a frown.

Irya didn't press. His father had heard him. He put his head on his father's shoulder and fell asleep.

<hr>

Uniemi stared as their father carried Irya into the house and gently peeled a wilted bunch of flowers out of Irya's hand and passed it to their mother.

Their mother's face was very grim, but she took them and went to the kitchen. The clang of the teapot soon followed.

Their father set Irya down by the fire and carefully undid the torn and bloody coat while Uniemi gripped her book tight enough to hurt. "Is he–"

"Alive," their father said, curt. He rubbed one hand over Irya's unbroken skin beneath the equally bloody hole in his shirt. "A blanket."

Uniemi fetched a blanket and covered Irya with it.

In the background, a baby wailed, then calmed, and perhaps she should just be grateful that everyone was alive.

Morning brought more questions and finally some answers. Irya popped up like an unlikely snowflower himself, eating his breakfast with his usual irrepressible cheer, feet knocking against the table leg, and Uniemi had never resented having to worry about him so hard as she did in that moment.

"What were you thinking?" she demanded.

"Something I'd also like to know," their mother said quiet but stern.

Yuni said nothing but rocked her happy, sleeping baby as if the terrifying illness of last night was just a dream.

Irya glanced over at Yuni and then back to his porridge, suddenly quiet himself. He shrugged. "I asked the tiger for help."

Silence covered the table a moment. "I see," their father said at last. "That explains a few things."

A few. Not the choice in the first place, though Uniemi could understand it. But why a child felt a need to be the hero when two perfectly good parents were on hand was beyond her.

She muttered viciously into her porridge, "It didn't have to be you."

Irya just looked at her a moment, then stuffed another spoonful in his mouth. The odd-patterned tap of his kicking resumed.

Easy for him to be happy. Easy for him to go risking his life for somethings and nothings and Uniemi got herself up and washed her bowl and walked outside onto the snowy front porch step, almost surprised her parents didn't stop her. But they understood both their children and always had. They understood the need to sacrifice and protect, and Uniemi surprised herself by beginning to cry.

I want to protect, she said, hand sliding down her own stomach to lie over the mark that rested there. I want to be able to find him if he ever does something stupid again, she added. I want to be able to stop someone from dying.

A soft wind, a faint ringing sound, a low roar as of a sea.

She listened inside herself for the terms, the strictures of what would be her life forevermore. Yes, she answered, hearing them, then gave her name. I will be faithful.

Tracker: Notebook 2024

2024-09-01T22:16:53Z

Lianamir: /* 9/1/24 */

[[Category:Writing Tracker]][[Category:Poetry]][[Category:Fiction]]

== Poetry, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== find your wings (poem) ====

One of those things: 
look around 
maybe breathe

Don't forget to find your wings: 
spread them hard 
fly, believe

==== Talent (poem) ====

The things that work 
Can often be so easily forgot 
The things that work 
So easily are things that can't be taught 
Talents granted 
From the King 
By heaven, they were bought 
Then graciously
Were given to me
Without my having sought

==== Road (poem) ====

Been a while 
I know 
Been a terrible road 
The things that you don't know 
Before you're called to go

==== hard (poem) ====

Is it that hard 
to speak in a rhythm 
in a rhyme 
with a boom 
with a bang

Is it that hard 
to feel in a prism 
with a sigh 
with a laugh 
with a pang

Is it that hard 
to fall in a chasm 
in the air 
do not care 
'til I'm there

Is it that hard 
to turn like a schism 
hand on stone 
from the bone 
don't let go

==== planting (poem) ====

wisdom is the color of my heart 
as I want it to be 
so I'll plant my sight on wisdom 
until I am a tree

==== The Presence (poem) ====

Joy is in the presence of the Lord 
Where is it I'm living, by that word? 
Where am I, adrift on endless clouds 
When this painful living gets too loud? 
Ah, find me, Spirit! Find me, Prince of Peace 
Make this inner chaos finally cease 
I praise You: may I enter at the gates 
And finally find the joy in Your embrace?

==== Eye Be Single (poem) ====

Find a song in my heart 
And a light on my steps 
My eyes towards the heavens 
To see what is next

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Brightness Arrayed (poem) ====

Ah, another grand day! 
My eyes see the light, I pray 
That my heart is also swayed 
By the brightness now arrayed 
Before my waking face 
When I look toward Your grace

==== me (poem) ====

awkward, sometimes 
it would be nice to be 
another person 
yet still me

==== may happiness (poem) ====

may happiness precede and follow you 
and always walk with you 
may the rains shower on you 
and bring new life to you 
may the sun shine brightly 
and the moon glow nightly 
lighting your way 
for you I will pray

=== 5/30/24 ===

==== abloom (poem) ====

happiness 
I close my eyes 
brace my soul 
I feel the light 
I open hands 
my heart abloom 
cleanse my spirit 
and make room

==== ever calling (poem) ====

sometimes we forget the important things 
perhaps drift from our roots or lose our wings 
and yet a Voice e'er calling before us sings 
look to me! it cries, from darkness brings

== Poetry, June 2024 ==

=== 6/9/24 ===

==== before my eyes (poem) ====

endless ages pass 
the flicker of eternal streams 
that which waking lies 
before my eyes and in dreams 
all the visions cast 
upon my canvas mind 
held until they last 
shining in my sight

==== Your Path (poem) ====

God of my fathers, my mothers, my friends 
Who held me and kept me, beginning to end 
Be with me now as I go 'round this bend 
Your path before me, I trust You will mend

== Poetry, July 2024 ==

=== 7/18/24 ===

==== Where Sunlight (poem) ====

Good morning where the sunlight grows 
From solemn dark to bright shining day 
And over the hours, my awareness flows 
Of glorious Love: I start to pray 
To Him who made my every step 
And all this earthly loveliness!

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Wouldn't It Be (poem) ====

Wouldn't it be nice? 
Don't want to think twice 
Want to be all right 
Can we turn on the light?

== Prose, May 2024 ==

=== 5/9/24 ===

==== Focus on God Who Bears our Burdens ====

From the Old Testament to the New, God promises to bear our burdens, if we will just come to Him.

"Blessed be the Lord God, who daily bears our burdens, God who is our salvation." – Psalm 68:19 NJV (verify)

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." – Matthew 11:28 NKJV

"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." – I Peter 5:6-7 NKJV

Every day, when the sorrows of this world press down upon me, when I'm missing the loved ones I have lost, when my failures and mistakes weigh on me, I have such a tendency to berate myself or struggle under the weary heaviness of it all, forgetting that these are burdens! All I need do is come to Him. I can cast away my burdens and give them into His hands, and He will care for me and give me rest.

It is so often my heart that is my greatest burden, every time my humanity or this world in all its imperfections seems to much to bear. But God promises His strength in our weakness and His peace in our hearts.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." – Philippians 4:2 NKJV

=== 5/13/24 ===

==== Notes on Worldbuilding: World-Growing ====

Worldbuilding appears to be much like conlanging. Before one goes making up a wild new detail, perhaps one ought to revisit the material already present and "grow" a new detail. In the case of developing modern banking, for example, one should look at the original methods of long-distance trade and commerce one has already developed and determine how this people would solve that problem, rather than turning solely to how Earth peoples have.

== Prose, June 2024 ==

=== 6/2/24 ===

They crossed Wa Shioke on the Lihuela-tsau Road, then turned seaward at the Iiyetretha Passage. Irya was a little surprised that they chose to walk the entire way, a twelve-day journey on foot, but said nothing about it, taking his turns to gather wood for evening fires and putting on food at the regular encampments. Truthfully, he hadn't taken this way before, and he wondered a little at taking it now.

Leshet lived up to her name, quiet and explaining little. Her husband Kosye told barracks stories, interesting tidbits of deployments aimed at enlivening dinner rather than revealing information. Irya too told stories and picked out images from the stars and didn't talk about the coastline ahead, altogether too verdant for winter.

Leshet caught him looking at it once. "When he does act," she said quietly, "he never does it by halves."

Irya considered that point for a long moment. "He who holds power over life and death?"

"Yes."

It was enough to realize that Leshet had encountered the high one before the events of the black rain. He considered asking her about it, but let the moment linger perhaps too long. She was nodding a goodnight and ducking into her tent.

They reached the Alhaies plain on the thirteenth day toward the end of the sun watch of the morning, approaching noon. The grassy fields were distinct from the farmland beyond them, a soil more crumbly and dry and less suited to growing crops. Instead, comfortably-sized homes were scattered across the plain, each perhaps twenty claws or so apart, and a winding dirt road darted and wove between them.

Leshet's was somewhere toward the middle of the plain. They passed under a copse of evergreen trees, their needles still hugging shivers of frost, though the dragon's breath winds had melted the rest off the ground. A garden sat in the front of the house, seeming properly winterized. He wondered if she paid a helper to maintain it when she was deployed. They passed between the northern and southern sections of the garden up the little cobbled walk to her front door, and she let them in to a surprisingly and pleasantly warm front entry.

"Shoes off," Kosye commented as he put his own boots against the wall.

Leshet glanced around and murmured, "It's good to be home."

== Prose, July 2024 ==

=== 7/19/24 ===

==== Can You Bridge the Sea? ====

Kharshtha Ahima-kiyoni had been coming to every annual clans gathering since before he could remember. After all, his parents weren't the kind of people to turn down an opportunity to meet new people, form new social connections, nor when he was still a small child, from suggesting he do the same.

"Put down the book, dear child," his mother tucked her fingers into Ahima's hair and kissed the top of his head. "Go find someone to play with."

He was still small and young, but his mother's touch wasn't such a casual thing, for all he could sense the affection in it. He knew she was looping some thread of sensation she could detect and he could not that would alert her should he be in any kind of trouble at all.

There was no point in arguing. He set the book aside and wrapped it safely under his blanket, then went out into the encampment of his mother's clan, Doscht.

It was a sea of people, full of currents and tides that left him feeling dizzy as he turned this way and that, seeking some quiet eddy to settle in. There were none readily at hand. Certainly, there were groups of children playing in the open spaces where fires and tables were located between tents and pavilions, but they seemed no less hectic. He wondered which of the trees in sight might be safe to climb.

That was when a little boy appeared directly in front of him, dirty-faced and grinning and shorter than Ahima was, dark eyes seeming bright with friendliness. "Want to play?"

Ahima went still, his heartbeat thudding a little too intensely in his chest.

The little boy tapped his chest. "I'm Irya."

"Oh." Ahima forced his body to relax. "Ahima. What do you want to play?"

The grin came back and Irya pointed a good ways away from the crowd. "There's a good spot up there on the bridge."

The bridge had traffic, but it wasn't crowded the way the encampment was. Barely had he thought it, then Irya took him by the hand and Ahima found himself tugged insistently in that direction. It was an odd feeling, not as unpleasant as when his father held his shoulder and told him to say hello to his uncles and aunts and cousins, nor was it quite as inconsiderate of his own desires as his mother's admonitions to play, to talk to his classmates, and to participate in the neighborhood performance events.

Irya took him to the top of the bridge down the pedestrian walkway, a broad strip of paved stone with a tall fence between it and the vehicular lanes and a strip of grass, shrubs, and the occasional tree between it and the railing that looked down over the Stone's Heart River.

"I fished up here once with my dad," Irya told him, promptly climbing a tree, but keeping his knees below the railing, giving it a good side-eye for a moment.

Ahima chuckled to himself, certain Irya's mother had made the rule. "Do you have a pole?"

"Nope." Irya picked a fistful of late nuts off the tree, then shimmied back down, and looked pointedly at Ahima's hands. "Next time," Irya said.

Ahima held up his hands. Irya counted out half the nuts.

They didn't do anything rambunctious that boys their age were expected to. They sat down at the foot of the tree, pounded open nuts with a rock, much to Irya's dismay whenever Ahima actually smashed one to dust, then tossed rocks in the river and took turns climbing up other trees and shooting shells at each other.

A bright horn sounded over the splashing river below as the light began to turn a dusky blue. Irya grimaced. "We should head back."

Ahima nodded but stayed up in the branches a moment longer, straining to see the small boat come into view from which the horn was sounding. "It sounds like my grandfather bellowing in the evening."

Irya giggled. "Don't worry. I won't tell him."

Ahima would have been lost getting back, but Irya grabbed his hand once they were both on the ground and dove through the crowds wending their way back to campsites, ducking and dragging Ahima with him below the arms of adults, and squeezing between people that probably really hadn't left enough room. It was fun, in a way. Like Ahima and Irya were in their own world. Then Irya deposited him right where he'd found him and waved cheerily before he darted away into the stream of people, like a bright little sunfish in the water.

"Who was that?" Ahima's mother asked before he'd even ducked under the tent flap.

"A friend," Ahima answered without thinking, before he suddenly thought better of it.

But his father patted his head and his mother smiled, and he packed away the unpleasant feeling it gave him before they sat down to eat.

<hr>

Irya found him the next morning. Ahima certainly wouldn't have been able to return the favor.

But he couldn't help but laugh. "Are you ever clean?" Ahima asked.

Irya scoffed. "I'm playing. What's the point of coming to gathering early if you don't look around a bit?"

It was true that the swearing ceremonies weren't until tomorrow, but Ahima hadn't ever thought about it. What was there to look at? He glanced around at the rousing families, so many of them with tasks and errands and plans, like a rising tide of the sea. Ahima didn't hate the sea, but he didn't understand it. It overwhelmed him.

"I suppose so," he said.

Irya cocked his head, looking puzzled, but sat down and helped himself to a bite of fruit off Ahima's plate.

"Rude," Ahima commented without heat.

"I fed you first." Irya grinned and handed Ahima a roll, still warm and soft.

"Ah, so is this your friend?" Ahima's mother's voice had always been lovely, soft and warm and friendly. Ahima stiffened at the sound of it.

Irya waved, cheery tilt to his mouth. "I'm Tsadirya-kolos," he announced and dipped his head respectfully.

"It's very nice to meet you," she replied, still warmly. "Are you neighbors with us?" A slight gesture toward the campsites nearby.

He shook his head. "I'm from Ginieng. May I please have some of that?" he asked, giving an appraising look at the non-empty fruit platter they were serving breakfast from.

"Of course." Ahima's mother smiled, but he knew she was a little startled by Irya's statement. Taannongar wasn't exactly adjacent to Doscht's clan land allotment. "Your parents let you wander a great deal, do they?"

Irya swallowed down far too big a bite to clear his mouth to answer. "Yes, ma'am. May I please take Ahima to go play?"

Ahima was surprised at how sparse the answer was, but true to form, she gave her permission, and Irya dragged Ahima off, this time past the bounds of their encampment area and into a small park where Ahima knew they'd broadcast the ceremonies tomorrow but didn't allow camping. It was relatively quiet today, the roaring sea of humanity across a rather broad thoroughfare.

Ahima wasn't entirely certain why Irya had brought him, but he appreciated the quiet as they played tag and chase and how far can you throw it without anybody else bothering them. Visitors would wander through but in small quantities and easily avoidable. Irya finagled a band name out of Ahima, "So I can send you a letter?" "A public letter?" Ahima asked, horrified, and gave him his exact address. "Those are more expensive," Irya complained but Ahima just dug around in his pockets for extra solgu to give him. His mother always made sure he had at least some money on him.

Irya laughed and waved him off. "No, I can't take your money. But you better write back. Especially if I'm paying for private."

"Sure," Ahima promised without knowing why entirely. Irya was fun, but they hardly knew each other. "Why did you come over to Doschtongar?" he asked after a long moment.

Irya blinked, screwing up his mouth thoughtfully, then, "I'd like to see the territories someday. All of them. I figure until I can, I want to meet people from them."

It wasn't what Ahima had expected, he realized suddenly. He'd had some sort of expectation. He sat down next to Irya. "They're all people, just like each other." He'd seen a lot of the territories so far.

But Irya shrugged. "But all people are different."

And Ahima really wasn't sure what to make of that.

<hr>

He found his book safely under the blanket and read until his father snuffed out the light on them. It was a story about a little boy who always seemed to know just what to say, just what to do–with the grumpy turtle who could help him cross the stream, and the conniving fox who could guide him through the dark forest, and the powerful tiger who could lead him home over the mountain. And in the end, he went home.

"I'm glad you found a friend," his mother said before Ahima fell asleep.

<hr>

Ahima was ten the first time his parents were going to visit one of his friends. He tucked himself against the window of the rotorcraft and looked out at the green and golden fields below, the patches of dark where water flowed. He liked the roar of the blades drowning out their conversation. He liked the feeling of all that expanse to get lost in, where nothing else seemed to matter until it was time to set down on the earth again.

Irya's family lived far up the mountains in Ginieng. Ahima had looked it up when he'd gotten home in the great big encyclopedia his parents kept on the lower bookshelves, and traced fingers over the map. He'd been surprised they had their own platforms, but they could fly right there without having to stop in the northern valley and drive up.

Irya's father met them to walk them back to the house. He was tall and imposing, with not even the hint of a smile about his soldier-like demeanor, not at all what Ahima would've expected Irya's dad to be like, but he bowed politely and clearly gave his greetings before following close between his parents to do the same for Irya's mother. She had more expression to her face, laughter and frown lines both, but she smiled for them and hoped their trip had been pleasant and invited them into the calendar room for tea.

Irya popped up as if by magic behind his father. "Can I take Ahima now?"

His father picked him up by his waist and swung him over one shoulder. "Excuse our uncivilized offspring."

"Not at all." But Ahima's mother was clearly taken aback by the rough handling.

"Sorry, sorry," Irya said, voice muffled by his father's shirt.

He got set down and turned around, then bowed low to Ahima's parents. "Apologies. Greetings and I hope you had safe travels. May I please take Ahima now?"

Ahima's father laughed outright. "Yes, of course. Ah..." to Irya's parents: "I see you have a handful."

Ahima didn't mind being whisked away to Irya's small bedroom off the family room. It was crammed full of odds and ends on built-in shelves, and most of the room had been paneled in a medium-dark wood, with some decorative tapestries hanging in a few corners next to taped up posters. Irya flopped back on his bed and sighed, then popped up on one arm. "My parents think you're really polite."

Ahima raised his eyebrows. He was really polite, having been trained that way for as long as he could remember. "I brought you something." He held out the can his uncle had helped him with.

Irya held it up to eye it speculatively. "Noodle soup?"

"It's a Doscht dish." Slightly modified.

Irya worked over the lid for a moment, then tried a sip, nearly spitting it right back out. "Carbonated?!" He gave can and Ahima a double take, then laughed. "Why? Just why?"

Ahima leaned back against Irya's wall. "My uncle gave me some. It's not that bad."

"Does your uncle like you?" Irya asked mystified, then tried another sip before setting the can aside. "You are dangerous."

Ahima smiled back at him.

<hr>

Ahima stayed in Irya's room. Irya's sister was much quieter than Irya, curled up in a corner with a book herself most of the time, but after introducing them the first day, Irya didn't really give him an opportunity to go ask what she was reading. They spent most of the days outside, climbing trees, and playing by the river, and teaching Ahima to river fish, which was sufficiently different than sea-fishing to be interesting. Irya talked his dad into teaching Ahima how to whittle then whiled away several afternoons carving up likely looking wood branches and sticks.

Sometimes at night, when Irya had tumbled off into dreams beside him, Ahima would slip out of bed to go listen quietly to their parents' conversations. It wasn't entirely surprising Ahima's mother had approved of their friendship so easily; not only had Ahima been much slower to make friends than they wished, but Irya's parents were depressingly important in their band. His mother was head of the Giyande Guard. Ahima's mother would never turn down a valuable social connection like that.

"He's such a good and pleasant child. I hope he'll swear after me."

"Children never quite turn out the way we expect," Irya's mother replied. "I thought for sure my oldest son would take after me, but it's my second daughter who did. Ahima is a sweet kid though."

"So Irya won't be swearing after you?" Ahima's father asked.

"It doesn't seem likely," Irya's father answered. "He has... other talents."

Ahima got up then and went back to bed, tossing an arm over Irya's waist and burying his face in his back. Irya's breathing didn't change, and Ahima didn't think he even realized how nice his parents were, even when they weren't polite.

<hr>

Ahima had known for as long as he could remember the kinds of hopes his parents cherished for him. Stop reading, Ahima. Go make friends. Say hello to your aunts and uncles and cousins. If you must read, read this book of etiquette. You'll find it useful where we're going. Try to make some friends.

His mother was the bridge-maker of their band, and Ahima was her only son.

He was whittling away at a piece of wood, turning it into a frowning face with little wrinkles at the corners of its eyes, when his own eyes fell to the mark on his right arm that marked the potential contract with one of his mother's high ones. He had several marks, everyone did, but he was fairly certain this one was the one that let her talk effortlessly with anyone, say the right thing, do the right thing, make everyone happy. Inherited contracts had to be confirmed, everyone knew that, and everyone knew that contracts were usually confirmed when someone was in great danger.

Ahima didn't really think it through; he wasn't sure he'd been thinking at all. He'd been whittling, then he put the knife to his mark, as if he could cut it right off his arm, and he wanted it gone–or he wanted it real and active, and he didn't really know what he wanted; he only knew it hurt, terribly, and he dropped the knife and caught great gasping breaths against the bleeding pain, and suddenly, the entire forest changed.

The air went thick and heavy, a pressure too great to stand up under and Ahima felt the low growl of a creature too enormous and powerful to be an ordinary creature, threaded through with biting pinprick of a sharp blade cutting through him, and a heavy white mist wreathing the ground.

Irya was there, suddenly, yelling at him, wrapping his arms around him, and shoving his body right through him, so Ahima's arm was entirely overlapped by Irya's torso. It should have felt strange but Ahima just felt immobile and numb, the faintest flutter, then Irya pulled back and Ahima's arm was no longer afire with pain. He was covered in blood but the skin, and the mark on it, were both completely restored.

He stared at it for the longest time, even as the intense pressure of the high ones' presence faded and Irya's yelling began to penetrate his brain again. Ahima looked up at Irya. "Why did you do that?"

Irya shut up so abruptly, it might have made Ahima laugh under any other circumstance. Irya blinked furiously, as if in disbelieving confusion. "Why?"

There was a long moment when they both stared at each other, shocked into silence, then Irya shook himself forcefully, grabbed Ahima's shoulder, and propelled him back in the direction of the house. "We're going inside, and you're drinking tea."

Ahima let himself be yanked along, let himself be bundled into blanket and comfy chair and tea. Irya clearly needed to do something with him, so Ahima let him do it with a sense of wonder he didn't bother to self-assess. Someone's high ones had come. They just hadn't been Ahima's.

<hr>

A woodcarving accident. Ahima was banned from doing any more whittling unsupervised, and he didn't question it, didn't explain, didn't correct. He still didn't really know what in the world he'd been thinking when he'd done it, and he didn't want his parents to realize that it hadn't been an accident at all.

Irya fussed over him, tucking him in at night, and then letting Ahima lean his head on his shoulder as they went to sleep. Irya didn't ask any more questions, though Ahima was sure he had them. He didn't ask Irya why he refrained either.

So many things said, unsaid. Perhaps it was easier for everyone to just let it go.

<hr>

"How many siblings do you actually have?"

Irya was busy cooking Ginieng-style noodle soup in a pot. "There's five of us. My eldest sister and brother are married, and second sister's training in the guard."

"That sounds nice." Ahima wondered what it would be like to have siblings, to never have to be the one that took after a parent. He glanced over at the fireplace where Irya's sister Uniemi was close to finishing another book.

"Hand me that stuff." Irya waved commandingly.

Ahima handed over the carbonated water and watched Irya dump it in the pot.

"Don't worry," Irya said, grinning broadly. "I'll be your brother."

They watched the soup bubble a bit. Brother. Ahima felt that word sink inside him and bubble a bit before he could relax into the idea of it.

"You're going to be in so much trouble," Ahima told him.

Irya giggled and poured the soup into bowls.

==== The Last Boy ====

Ten-year-old Cody had headphones on. There was nothing playing, not that his father noticed. He listened to his parents discuss quietly in the kitchen getting him out of the way for their vacation, then their business. Wouldn’t a proper boarding school be good? No bother at Christmas.

He listened to the background music of their indifference, hunched shoulders on the couch, undone homework in his lap, and pretended he didn’t know they didn’t love him.

<hr>

Cody came out of the taxi looking worse for wear, scruffy black hair hanging in the way of wary eyes, backpack worn like armor, and an apathetic flat frown in place when he stood before the cottage his parents had just sent him to stay in.

He was a second cousin, nothing special and never particularly loved. Except… that wasn’t entirely true. His papa had loved him once, before he became “Father,” retreating ever more distant and cold into his work.

“You must be Cody. Come on in.”

He took in Cassie’s warm, bright smile as she stood on the front porch to welcome him, but he didn’t believe it.

Cassie was fifteen years old when Cody came to live with them. Cody was ten. He was the last boy, all the rest having come or even left before his arrival. When she went in to tell Mama Ruth that he had safely arrived and was settling into his room, she was not wearing a smile.

“Do all of our family members marry deadbeats?” she asked, sneering bitterness on her tongue. It came out with more heat and venom than she usually allowed herself to express.

Mama Ruth shut up dinner in the oven again, turned off the heat, and came to wrap Cassie in one of those enveloping hugs that made her feel like it shut out all the world. She held on, trying not to cry.

Mama Ruth patted her on the back. “It’s going to be okay. He’s here now, and we’re going to be here for him.”

“Yeah.” Cassie nodded as she pulled away.

It sounded so easy. She knew already from long experience with all the rest of their strays, it really wasn’t easy at all.

Skip slid in socked feet across the wooden entryway with a whoop and shoved a camera in the vague direction of the stairwell. Before it even got into position, a hand shoved it down rather forcefully. Skip blinked in surprise.

Cody scowled at him. “Don’t,” he said, narrowed eyes, cutting tone.

Skip cocked his head at him, read him for the briefest of glances with a serious expression, then smiled so brightly it could make one wonder if the moment had happened. He spread his arms wide. “Welcome!”

Cody didn’t say so, but he didn’t like it.

<hr>

Light cut through the morning. Cassie had been waiting for that. She threw open her cousin’s door and got back a baleful glare under his crazy bedhead.

She grinned cheerfully. Up, up, up!

<hr>

“Cody’s not feeling well.”

“I’m fine.” Cody scowled from where he was curled up on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, and watching a movie he couldn’t quite seem to focus on.

Song glanced over, eyebrows up in surprise. She gave Mama Ruth a tiny flash of a smile then came over to the couch and sat down next to Cody.

He stiffened in surprise of his own.

Arm around his shoulders, leaned on her while they watched the movie

<hr>

food
playing (violin)
brought him tea
dragged CJ in to clear room

Cody: Thanks
CJ: So you’re the new stray
Song: closes door on him
CJ: See where I rank
Song smiles, amused

<hr>

In trouble for fighting because insulting Song

<hr>

Song brought him back from school

Mama Ruth can’t do those things

Of course

Song: You can’t do those things.

Why?

I love you because God taught me how.

Reads Bible when she’s gone

<hr>

The folder was labeled simply:

Violin.

He took Song’s music, put it in the queue, sat on the couch, and hit play.

=== 7/21/24 ===

==== 3 Times It Was Way Too Quiet and 1 Time It Was Way Too Loud ====

"It's too quiet." Noah sat up in the bed and looked around at the still, dark bedroom, listening for any sounds of tiny feet beyond the door.

His wife Grace groaned and buried her face in the pillow. "It's 5 a.m. It's supposed to be quiet."

"I don't trust it."

Grace squinted up at him a moment. "Well, it's your turn." Then she rolled over and went back to sleep.

Noah sighed and got himself up to go check the kids' bedrooms. Empty rumpled covers. His instincts hadn't been wrong, but he still wasn't sure which way they'd gone. He headed for the living room where it looked like three little someones had set up a bookshelf—did they even have spare bookshelves?— on a stack of books as a makeshift seesaw. He barely had time to note the three cherubic faces of his kids and open his mouth to ask what they were up to before the shelf sawed and his face met a yowling, claws-out cat.

The collective gasp of the children did not make him feel any better.

It took a few minutes to order them to stay put, calm the cat, and wipe off the bloody scratches in the kitchen sink, before coming back around to stare meaningfully down at them. "Do you want to explain yourselves?"

"Uh..."

Luke, the six-year-old eldest, his sister Emmie, the four-year-old, and open-mouthed Matthew, their two-year-old brother, clearly did not want to explain themselves.

The cat had meanwhile thoroughly attached itself to Noah’s shoulders and hissed at them.

"Well, we heard cats always land on their feet," Luke began.

Noah’s eyebrows shot up. "So you decided to test the theory?"

Matthew nodded, Emmie tucked her head behind Luke, and Luke grimaced, clearly knowing that was the wrong answer.

“And if I dropped you from five feet in the air and you landed on your feet, wouldn’t it still hurt?”

“Uh…” Very thoughtful little furrowed brows followed.

“The Bible tells us that godly people take care of their animals.” Noah pulled the cat gently down into his arms. She continued to eye the kids balefully. “You need to be considerate of living beings,” Noah emphasized.

Luke frowned. “Even spiders?”

Noah was no fan of spiders. He conceded, “Living beings bigger than bugs.”

Emmie looked dubious, but Luke nodded readily at this much happier state of affairs. He was even less a fan of spiders than his dad.

Noah supervised their cleaning up and laid down some new rules as regards getting permission before running experiments.

<hr>

"Can we get a refund?" he asked, much later, much exhausted.

"No! I love my babies!" Grace eyed him dubiously.

"I love our babies too,” he protested. “But…”

“You wouldn't trade them for anything,” she reminded him.

He sighed. “No, I wouldn't, but you didn't eat a cat's claws for breakfast."

Grace did an admirable job of trying not to laugh. “Well, still no.”

<hr>

A few days later, Grace checked that the kids were all safely occupied with their books and blocks before whisking off the next batch of clean laundry from laundry room to bedroom. She could hear the lull of their conversation and it was only a moment.

Then it got quiet. Too quiet.

Grace groaned and hurried back to where she’d left them not two minutes prior. One and all had relocated from their corner of the living room.

She looked in the kitchen. They were not in the kitchen. She looked down the hallway, and they were not in the hallway. She poked her head back in the laundry room and immediately declared, “Luke! Emmie!”

She bent down and pulled Matthew back out of the dryer and realized abruptly he was soaking wet.

“Children. What did you do?”

“Uh…” Luke always seemed to know when the true answer was not going to fly as the right answer.

Emmie cheerfully announced, “Matthew got wet, so we were going to dry him.”

Grace kept a very straight face, cuddled her youngest child protectively, then carefully explained to them that it was not safe to “dry” a child the way one would laundry. “Next time, just come get me.”

“Yes, Mommy,” Emmie answered promptly.

Luke poked his head in the dryer. “It always looks so fun though.”

“No,” Grace said firmly. “You will never run yourself or any other living creature through the washer or dryer.”

Luke sighed. “Yes, Mom.”

<hr>

“Where do children come up with these ideas?” she asked Noah much later, much exhausted. She’d had to extend the proscription to all household appliances after they’d tried to vacuum up some dirt off of Emmie’s shirt with rather undesirable results.

Noah did a much less admirable job of not laughing. “I think they get it from you. I’m sure I never did that growing up.”

She threw a pillow at his head. “Don’t make me call your mother and ask her.”

He conceded the battle promptly, holding up his hands for peace. “I’m sure you were the soul of discretion as a child. Clearly, they’re innovators.”

<hr>

The next night, it was not too quiet. It was not quiet at all. A great series of thumps and bangs brought both parents out of their bed to the living room where the cherub-faced little innovators had managed to bring down the entire bookcase full of books and were industriously building a fort.

Grace looked at Noah. “Your turn.” She headed back for bed.

Noah braced himself and sat down next to the kids, who all paused and looked at him with curious expressions. Except Matthew. He was chewing on a book cover.

Noah rescued the book and put Matthew in his lap.

“You know,” he started, “your mom’s carrying your little sister, and she’s really tired and needs her sleep.”

“Were we too loud?” Emmie asked.

“Yes. It’s late at night. You’re supposed to be in bed, *asleep*, not bringing down the house, so your mom and I will worry, and then have to clean it up in the morning.”

Luke fidgeted uncomfortably. Emmie’s face fell. “I’m sorry, Daddy.” Luke nodded along with that.

“It’s okay. Let’s get the three of you to bed.” He decided to worry later about how much of that went into Matthew’s head and focused on tucking the three back in under their covers, ordering them gently to *stay there* until morning.

Mercifully and perhaps providentially, they did.

<hr>

But when morning did come, he sat up in bed and said, “It’s too quiet.”

It was Grace’s “turn”, but he didn’t wake her up. He got out of bed and went to check on the kids—who were once again, not in their beds.

He checked in the bathroom. No kids. Down the hallway. No kids. In the kitchen. No kids and no stepladder. The living room.

Three cute little kids sneaking around the living room quietly, exaggeratedly hushing each other at intervals, as they put all the books back on the shelves. Matthew sat next to a stack and handed one over as the older kids grabbed them one at a time, climbed up the stepladder, set the book in place, then came down for another.

Noah watched for a moment, then went back in the kitchen and made a tray of milk and cookies. When the kids noticed him coming in with it, their eyes lit up and they quickly abandoned their work for a cookie break. Matthew climbed up into his lap.

“Thanks, Daddy!”

He wiped the crumbs off Emmie’s face and rubbed Luke’s head. “You know I wouldn’t trade you kids for anything.”

=== 7/29/24 ===

==== Where Memory Walks ====

Memory walks beside her, though she doesn't court it. Leshet wakes to the electric tang familiar to her as breathing.

Tayas, she greets through her device.

She feels then his sleepy, just awakened attention. Leshet. A pause, then the sharp prickling of his interest. Has something happened? He's intelligence now. He no longer turns to electricity on the battlefield.

It is memory beside her, not her friend.

No, she sends back. Just good morning.

He's always been sharp, even before he became intelligence. She knows he does not believe her.

But he answers anyway, Well, good morning to you, too.

<hr>

A light rain sprang up as they began to break camp; white mists curled off the ground. Leshet paused to stare up at the cloudy skies.

It tasted wrong. Nitrates that weren't Tayas, rain that wasn't Mokhein.

Vetta came to stand beside her. He said nothing to break the moment, just waited with her. He'd always been a good kid. Mokheyenn's descendent. He'd always been more like his grandfather than his grandmother, a storm without her thunder.

Leshet looked at him then, the white hair he'd inherited from both sides, the frost on his breath from Mokhein. "Curun," she called him by his band name.

But he wasn't here as her squad leader. "Sometimes I think about her too."

He'd always been a good kid. Leshet patted his shoulder and went to help break camp.

<hr>

Leshet had been elite since before Ameri raised this stretch of mountains. She helped to lay this path they're patrolling through them, on their way to the next watchpoint. She'd been bred for it, raised to it, married in it. She sometimes wondered if she knew how to be anything else.

A walk through the rain and mists of another white spring. Her unit stayed watchful and alert, eyes open for enemies that would likely not appear.

There were still enemies sometimes on the northern border circuit, raiders from beyond Northland and the Hilakhot clans, but in the mountains of the southern border, there was only tension, not real skirmishes or war. There was enough space in the familiar winds for memory to settle into the spaces where her former companions and their former war used to fit. The air seemed to vibrate with the singing tension of Saiyar's power. Tayas, the storm. Mokhein, the rain. Saiyar, the rumbling in the earth and a symphony of winds. There were others, flickering like shadows through her heart.

She looked ahead to those who stood beside her now, bumped her shoulder lightly against her husband's arm. He didn't make a big thing out of it. He just lightly bumped her back.

<hr>

They made camp at another waypoint, set a fire, divided their watches. Leshet and her husband, Vetta and his combat partner Anae went up first, finding the usual spots to face outward, guardians against whatever enemies might choose to come.

Are you tired?

Usually Tayas didn't call her at random moments, let alone opening with random questions. Especially, when he should know she was standing watch.

Did you need something? She managed not to infuse the send with too much amusement.

He likely heard it anyway, the analyst in him difficult to evade. I promise, it's relevant.

It gave her pause. What trouble was Tayas going to drop on her now?

But did it truly matter? She looked out from their mountains toward the distant plains, and she answered, No.

=== 9/1/24 ===

==== ====

Under every story lies the sea.

<hr>

Uniemi's brother Irya always ran around like a wild child, in her eyes. Grinning so brightly his eyes disappeared into half-moon shapes, he threw himself into every unnecessary task he ever set for himself.

She'd seen him scramble up the huge trunks of ancient trees to fetch down his mother's favorite flowers, nearly giving their mother conniptions, though it wasn't their mother's face that gave it away, but rather the pained lining to her grateful smiles and the later rules on what constituted safe climbing. She'd seen him skip across the river, raging with fresh snowmelt, from boulder to boulder before their father found out and banned river-crossing until it went back down in summer. She'd seen Irya run around every gathering, crossing miles in a day, weary and dirty but triumphant with another new friend from some distant clan before their father hosed him off in cold water before bed.

In short, Uniemi had figured out a long time ago that her little brother was the least likely of all five children of the family to ever reach adulthood.

<hr>

Their parents' voices were very quiet as they shooed the children into their sister's house and over to the fireplace, but Uniemi and Irya were never particularly likely to sit out of hearing range when bad things seemed afoot. It was unusual enough to trek over to their sister's house in the middle of the night, let alone when snow had begun to fall on the mountain. Traveling could become treacherous rather quickly.

Irya snuck over to the bedroom and put his ear to the door. Uniemi honestly didn't wait very far behind him.

"She got so sick so fast," their older sister Yuni said, a faint thread of fear underlying her voice. "We're out of snowflowers and haven't found any yet this year."

Uniemi and Irya exchanged glances. The winter fever had always been treated with snowflower tea. If you caught it quickly enough, it wasn't fatal, but that window was terribly short.

"We can try to take her to the hospital," their father said.

"It's not safe to travel," their mother answered shortly.

The distance between the two houses was relatively short, a trek across the town of Ginieng. The hospital was a whole town over, dangerous in a snowstorm.

The two children went back over to the fire before their parents could come out and find them eavesdropping.

Uniemi shivered, the book she'd brought with her no longer comforting. Their niece was just a few months old. Taking her out in this weather would be as risky as trying to ride out the fever.

Irya grimaced. "I found snowflowers the other day."

Uniemi lifted her head, alarmed. "Where?" Snowflowers grew up tall trees he had no business climbing under their mother's new rules.

"I didn't climb up and grab them," Irya told her. "I just saw them."

"Oh. You have to tell father then. He can go look for them."

<hr>

Irya was too young to be dragged into this, his father's face said when he told him. Too young to brave the growing blizzard outside. He frowned at the window. "Dress warm," he said.

Irya put on all the layers his mother fished out of the closet for him. His marriage brother's coat was bigger than Irya's but "better awkward than frozen," his mother said.

His father took him by the hand, big glove swallowing Irya's smaller one, and startling him. His father hadn't held his hand since he was only four gatherings old, half the age he was now.

"Don't let go," his father told him.

He nodded. "Yes, father."

The wind nearly blew him over when they first walked out the door. He clung to his father's hand as they began the slow, difficult trek into the woods, Irya trying his hardest to serve as a faithful guide.

He couldn't see, he could barely feel his fingers. Being named for the snow certainly seemed to give him no advantage in it. But he thought of his sister and her tiny child, gripped his father's hand, and kept pushing onward.

His father pulled him to one side to avoid a rock he couldn't see, carefully kept him close, and Irya was glad he wasn't out here alone. He'd never felt his mountain so cold and alien and unfriendly to him before this night. But that feeling also seemed to make it harder to remember the way. He had to pause frequently and try to figure out the way he went. He'd mutter into his device his father had put in his ear a year ago and his father would answer back, but they couldn't hear each other's voices over the gale, only through the device, and the effect was equally disorienting.

Slowly, they reached the deeper woods, trees taller, branches thick with drifts of snow upon them. Irya got buried under one sliding off and his father had to drag him sputtering out from under it.

They walked more carefully, even boots providing only so much grip where ice had slicked on rocky surfaces and Irya felt tendrils of fear at not knowing how close the river was.

His teeth were starting to chatter. He held onto his father's hand like a lifeline, tried to crane his head to see, but all he could see was darkness and swirls of white in the freezing winds. "I don't know," he said suddenly into his device. "I don't know where we are."

His father picked him up suddenly, holding him close for a long moment. Irya felt like a tiny lost child and it was embarrassing, but he pressed his cold face against his father's warm neck and held on for as long as the moment lasted.

"Talk to me," his father said.

He meant more than that, Irya was sure, so Irya told him again about where he'd gone when he'd found the flowers, about how they'd been up in the nook of two great branches hanging over the river, so he hadn't climbed up to fetch them down. It was against the rules.

The whisper of a grimace through the device, a sensation that was always odd when it wasn't words, but right now, it was comforting to know his father was listening.

He set Irya down and carefully pointed him a little further to the leftward path. "Let's keep going."

<hr>

Uniemi tried not to fret. She read her book to drown out the world while her mother and Yuni carefully didn't talk about the baby fussing, just talked about Yuni's husband's deployment and when he'd be back, about their plans for the spring, about anything except father and Irya out in the snow.

The world was still inside Uniemi's heart. She couldn't drown it out.

<hr>

Irya looking back could never figure out how he got separated from his father. One moment, he had his hand tightly engulfed in his father's. The next, he'd stumbled and come loose. He scrambled right back up but couldn't find his father, couldn't hear him over the yelling winter winds, couldn't see him in the dark. He called over his device and heard, "Where are you?" but even answering, couldn't find him.

For too many frozen moments, he stood still so his father could find him. "I'm here, I'm here." But then he looked up at the great tree trunk beside him and went quiet. He recognized its shape, the twist of the great branch stretching out toward the river, the even larger one stretched out beside it.

He got up. He reached for the branch. "I found it."

"Irya, I'm coming."

And he should have waited perhaps to climb the branches, but the flowers were right there, and he climbed up before he could think to not, gingerly inched his way along their length, and felt for the lowest part of the stems. Snowflowers only bloomed in winter. They were the strangest of flowers, but their cold, lovely blues and whites would also heal.

He gathered them up, then shimmied carefully down the tree, dizzy with grateful relief, right before he slammed into something sharp and hard and painful and fell.

<hr>

Irya lay on the cold, snow-packed ground, shadows of dark trees overhead, breathing the knife-sharp cold of the air, pinpricks of snow hitting his face before they went numb. Night on the mountain, a blizzard swirling over his eyes, what should have been a roaring pain in his middle where he'd rammed himself sticky and bloody into a tree branch he couldn't see just moments ago.

Time slowed down, the treasure clutched in his fist somehow meaning both more and less than it once had, right when he'd chosen to go out into the storm. He needed the snowflowers for his tiny niece. He didn't know how he could possibly get up and trek back to his sister's house to give them to her.

His heart felt unbearably loud in his body. Each breath was a struggle. He closed his eyes, trying to find more strength somewhere in his body, and that's when he noticed the thread.

You're hurt, something like a voice echoed through him, more sensation than word, greater than the wind and fiercer, a low humming growl burning in his bones.

He opened his eyes then, but he didn't see anything different from the swirls of white and shadows above.

Do you want our power? another voice-like sensation drifted through him, expanded like mists, cool through his limbs.

He's so young to ask that, a third spoke, softer and more delicate than either of the other two, barely a distant chiming note. But I cannot heal him without it.

Sorrow in the low humming growl of who he suddenly realized was the tiger, that great hunter patron of his people. You can never turn aside.

Irya clutched at that voice, his empty hand reaching out as if he could catch her by the paw. "Please," he said, breaking the word into more syllables than it needed, trying to get it out over the pain and the panting breaths he could manage. Please. My sister's little girl. Please.

Is that what you want? asked the gentle chime, its bright note swelling and swelling, brighter, higher. You must always honor the faithful, that note sang.

You must make right whatever you can make right, added the overwhelming expansive mist.

You must never turn aside, growled the tiger.

Irya stared up through the impossible numb weightlessness of the too cold night. He couldn't speak it, only think it, so he thought it with all the strength he had left. Yes.

The wind grew quiet. The snow became calm upon the drifts, no longer swirling over his head. The pain in his body faded, and the numbness went sharp and stinging.

You may call us, if you ever need us, the expanse within him said.

Another ringing chime. But I don't think you often will.

The feeling of them receded, a heavy weight lifted. Irya forced himself to stand. He clutched the snowflowers to his chest and looked for some sign of which direction to go.

<hr>

His father found him first. An arm grabbed him up before he knew what hit him and he gasped, but then the piney scent of his father's great coat hit him, and Irya grabbed hold. "I got the snowflowers," he told his father.

His father didn't answer, just tightened his grip and trekked back through the tall drifts of crystalline white. His mouth was tight, almost a frown.

Irya didn't press. His father had heard him. He put his head on his father's shoulder and fell asleep.

<hr>

Uniemi stared as their father carried Irya into the house and gently peeled a wilted bunch of flowers out of Irya's hand and passed it to their mother.

Their mother's face was very grim, but she took them and went to the kitchen. The clang of the teapot soon followed.

Their father set Irya down by the fire and carefully undid the torn and bloody coat while Uniemi gripped her book tight enough to hurt. "Is he–"

"Alive," their father said, curt. He rubbed one hand over Irya's unbroken skin beneath the equally bloody hole in his shirt. "A blanket."

Uniemi fetched a blanket and covered Irya with it.

In the background, a baby wailed, then calmed, and perhaps she should just be grateful that everyone was alive.

Morning brought more questions and finally some answers. Irya popped up like an unlikely snowflower himself, eating his breakfast with his usual irrepressible cheer, feet knocking against the table leg, and Uniemi had never resented having to worry about him so hard as she did in that moment.

"What were you thinking?" she demanded.

"Something I'd also like to know," their mother said quiet but stern.

Yuni said nothing but rocked her happy, sleeping baby as if the terrifying illness of last night was just a dream.

Irya glanced over at Yuni and then back to his porridge, suddenly quiet himself. He shrugged. "I asked the tiger for help."

Silence covered the table a moment. "I see," their father said at last. "That explains a few things."

A few. Not the choice in the first place, though Uniemi could understand it. But why a child felt a need to be the hero when two perfectly good parents were on hand was beyond her.

She muttered viciously into her porridge, "It didn't have to be you."

Irya just looked at her a moment, then stuffed another spoonful in his mouth. The odd-patterned tap of his kicking resumed.

Easy for him to be happy. Easy for him to go risking his life for somethings and nothings and Uniemi got herself up and washed her bowl and walked outside onto the snowy front porch step, almost surprised her parents didn't stop her. But they understood both their children and always had. They understood the need to sacrifice and protect, and Uniemi surprised herself by beginning to cry.

I want to protect, she said, hand sliding down her own stomach to lie over the mark that rested there. I want to be able to find him if he ever does something stupid again, she added. I want to be able to stop someone from dying.

A soft wind, a faint ringing sound, a low roar as of a sea.

She listened inside herself for the terms, the strictures of what would be her life forevermore. Yes, she answered, hearing them, then gave her name. I will be faithful.